Hu Yijing once asked Zhang Ruiran: "When did you ...... Like me?"

At that time, Zhang Ruiran was not only cheap, but also very good at playing hooligans, he almost immediately pretended to be very innocent and looked at Hu Yijing, and said, "Where did I go to you?"

Hu Yijing was so angry that his face turned red and white, gritted his teeth and turned his face away, so angry that he didn't even want to look at him.

He quickly replied: "Maybe it was the first time I saw you!

Hu Yijing dodged his face, and his pale face slightly floated with a suspicious red cloud: "The ghost believes you!"

There really is no such thing as love at first sight.

The first time Zhang Ruiran saw Hu Yijing was in class, and at that time he didn't even know her name, but he knew that she was the most beautiful girl in the class, and there was no more impression in the class.

In the first two weeks of school, he occasionally heard people discuss what class flowers are flowers, and he had the idea of going to see how beautiful and fragrant the girl named Hu Yijing was.

Later, by chance, he heard people shouting "Yijing, Hu Yijing!" in the cafeteria, he was shocked, looked up from afar, and saw the girl who responded with a warm voice "Hey", he said leisurely in his heart: "It turned out to be her!"

But that doesn't stop there.

Hu Yijing is indeed beautiful, with a melon seed face and willow eyebrows, she looks quite like Hong Kong actress Zhu Yin, and even her figure is the same petite and well-proportioned.

But what Zhang Ruiran likes is the kind of girl who lives both flamboyant and wanton, as long as her appearance is about the same, and the most important thing is that her personality must be chic and flying enough.

Just like his previous girlfriends, they are all together if they are together, and if they are not together, they are separated, if they say they love, they will divide them, they can afford to put them down, and they are neat!

Of course, there are times when I look away, just like the one I talked about after going to college, at first I thought she was a very reasonable girl, but after talking for a week, she began to try to restrain him, Zhang Ruiran couldn't bear it and decisively broke up.

The girl cried, made trouble, and tried her best to save him, and in the end, probably seeing that he was like iron, she asked him to meet him for the last time in the small playground behind the gymnasium at night, and said that after this side, she would never pester him again.

For this promise, Zhang Ruiran still went in the end. How did I know that the girl still had the last chance of redeeming him, and as soon as they met, she put a shining knife on her neck, saying that if he wanted to break up, she would die in front of him immediately.

Zhang Ruiran felt bored, and turned around to leave, but the girl chased after her with a knife, and she didn't know how to do it in the confusion, so the knife was inserted into Zhang Ruiran's stomach.

The girl who was looking for death and life was stunned all of a sudden, and threw down Zhang Ruiran, who asked her to call 120, turned around and ran away.

Zhang Ruiran collapsed on the playground, looking at the crescent moon in the sky, the pain was so painful that he didn't even have the strength to call for help, he thought that he would eventually die of excessive blood loss, but at the moment when he was about to close his eyes, he heard a voice that seemed to be heavenly: "Classmate...... Are you alright?"

When he was sent to the hospital, the doctor said that he had lost too much blood, and if it was a little later, he might die.

Zhang Ruiran was lying on the hospital bed, thinking that everyone else was a hero to save the beauty, and he became a beauty to save the hero, and he was really a little excited to think about it.

At that time, Zhang Ruiran actually didn't like Hu Yijing, so he felt that this classmate was really beautiful and kind-hearted, and she was simply a good girl who was consistent on the outside.

After the injury was healed, Zhang Ruiran went to Hu Yijing and asked her what she needed in return.

Hu Yijing was frightened by his tone that seemed to seek revenge, and he couldn't speak for a long time.

Zhang Ruiran suddenly had a naughty thought, and said jokingly: "Then I will hide from each other, right?"

As a result, in exchange for Hu Yijing's two white eyes, plus the sentence "sick".

Later, he became a friend who was not far away, occasionally met on the road to say hello, and occasionally discussed issues between classes, and then later, knowing that she was in love, and happened to meet her and her boyfriend hand in hand on campus, he only realized a trace of melancholy.

Hu Yijing's relationship has been about the second semester of her sophomore year, and she came to Zhang Ruiran for help and helped her play a story of "empathy and love".

Zhang Ruiran subconsciously asked her, "Why?"

Hu Yijing, who is usually gentle and soft and glutinous, looked at him with a rare expression: "Don't ask so much, you just say that you can help me?"

Probably seeing that he was hesitant, Hu Yijing immediately said: "I am your life-saving benefactor!"

So, when she refused his help countless times later, he always used this sentence to gag her: "You are my savior, how can I not save you when I die?"

Every time Hu Yijing was choked by him, he was speechless.

But even so, he didn't get her back in the end.

Zhang Ruiran still remembers the last days, when Hu Yijing was already very weak, and the whole person was as thin as a bamboo pole, lying quietly on the hospital bed.

She still said that name occasionally, even though at the time, she was already his nominal girlfriend.

In order to persuade his family to help save her, he told his aunt who loved him the most, saying that Hu Yijing was the girl who saved his life, and that she was already his girlfriend.

It was also after his aunt agreed to help her pay for the operation, he confessed to her for the first time before she entered the operating room, and then looked at her shocked eyebrows, and said seriously for the first time: "You must come out of the operating room alive, and then refuse me after you come out, otherwise you will promise to be my girlfriend!"

Hu Yijing really lived up to his expectations and got off the operating table smoothly, and rejected him without expectations.

But it doesn't matter, all Zhang Ruiran thought about at that time was as long as she was alive!

But God would not even grant this wish.

Although the operation was successful, the doctor said that the cancer cells on Hu Yijing's body had spread, and he was afraid that he would not last long.

After hearing the news, Hu Yijing's mother, the ordinary rural woman who pulled her eldest daughter alone, fainted suddenly.

That night, Zhang Ruiran sat outside Hu Yijing's hospital room and sat quietly until dawn.

The next day, he began a journey of countless confessions and countless rejections.

Hu Yijing didn't know how to learn the news of the spread of her cancer cells, she grabbed Zhang Ruiran's hand and asked him if she would die, and then finally cried in his long silence: "Why? What did I do wrong? Why punish me like this?"

"I'm afraid, Ruiran, I'm so scared......" She grabbed Zhang Ruiran's hand tightly, and her thin palm-sized face was full of tears: "I don't want to die at all, I still have a lot of things to do, I haven't been a bride yet, and I haven't experienced the hard work and willingness of being a mother...... I haven't even told him yet, I'm not sorry for him......"

Zhang Ruiran always remembered that after his parents' car accident, his dying mother also grabbed his hand so hard, she was speechless at that time, but her eyes were full of reluctance and nostalgia when she looked at him.

This world is so exciting, everyone still has so many things that they can't do yet, and so many people who can't let go, who wants to die early?

It was also after such a collapse and crying that Hu Yijing finally agreed to Zhang Ruiran's confession, and the two even made an appointment that when she could be discharged from the hospital, they would go to register their marriage.

Zhang Ruiran always remembered very clearly that when he said that he was going to give her a beautiful wedding, Hu Yijing's eyes were full of longing and yearning.

But she didn't want to be his bride after all, right?

In the past two years, Zhang Ruiran tried his best and found countless expert doctors, but in the end, he could only watch Hu Yijing's life slowly drain away little by little.

When she was dying, she obviously didn't have the strength to open her eyes, but she still stubbornly read the name, Xudong, two words gently, but it shook people's internal organs and hurt.

Zhang Ruiran finally went to find Lu Xudong, although Hu Yijing once said so resolutely: "No, I don't want him to know! His future life is so long, I don't want to be his indelible regret, even if he hates me, at least hate and hate, and when he meets someone who can join hands with him until he grows old, he will forget me." ”

But in countless days of being tortured by illness, she often curled up on the hospital bed, muttering the word "Xudong" over and over again, and she even looked at Zhang Ruiran with tears in her eyes, crying and saying: "Actually, I really want to see him again, I really want him to hug me......"

But Zhang Ruiran never expected that the mild-eyed man would say in such a cold and sarcastic tone: "Is it? She is dying of illness? She broke up with me because she knew she had cancer? Are you sure it's not because of retribution?"

Zhang Ruiran finally couldn't help but punch him hard, Lu Xudong was caught off guard and punched him unexpectedly, and soon fought back.

In the end, the two of them fought heartily, and when the outcome was undecided, they were caught by the director of the teaching office who was passing by. When the director learned that both of them were graduating seniors, he was angry, and it was not enough to take people to the office and criticize them severely, but also named them on the radio to criticize them.

Rao is like this, Zhang Ruiran also failed to bring Lu Xudong to Hu Yijing. Even when he hurried to the hospital, Hu Yijing had already closed his eyes forever one step ahead of him.

He didn't even have time to see her for the last time.

Maybe it was because she knew that he went to fight with Lu Xudong, so she was angry. Zhang Ruiran thought like this, and finally lost the idea of going to Lu Xudong to trouble again.

After Hu Yijing passed away, Zhang Ruiran became more and more angry, and the speed of changing girlfriends was even more frequent than changing clothes - after graduation, he was even more careless, and even because of the aura of the Zhang family on his body, countless women rushed to hope to enter his eyes.

My aunt hated him and scolded him countless times, and he was always humbly taught, and then went his own way.

Until he heard Lu Xudong's name again in the bar.

That day, he was supposed to go to the scene where he was celebrating his new girlfriend, the little girl who sang in the bar, like Hu Yijing, came from a single-parent family, and more importantly, her facial features were also similar to the Hong Kong actress - Zhu Yin.

But it didn't take long for him to notice a gaze staring at his back without shying away, and he thought it was another woman who wanted to climb up to him, and walked over with the intention of teasing her, only to find that it was just a drunkard.

But she looked drunk and really looked like Hu Yijing, her whole face was red, looking at him with eyes like a lake with moonlight, he couldn't help but think of the day when Hu Yijing took him to Lu Xudong to find a "showdown" and break up, she was also drunk, her bright eyes were full of mist, pitifully pulling his sleeve, but shouting Lu Xudong's name.

Zhang Ruiran felt as if he had really heard Hu Yijing's voice, but after stabilizing his mind, he realized that the person who shouted the words "Lu Xudong" was the unknown woman sitting opposite.

I don't know which of his words provoked her, she began to cry sobbing, and began to spit bitterness at him while crying, babbling until the end, she slapped the table hard, pouted, and looked like she had a common enmity with Lu Xudong, muttered for a long time, and then said a stumbling sentence: "I'm not so easy to bully, you wait and see!"

Zhang Ruiran suddenly became interested, raised his eyebrows and asked her, "Oh, what are you going to do?"

Desser blinked at him, then frowned, as if stumped by his question.

Zhang Ruiran was kind to her: "Why don't you call and scold that bastard first?" He wouldn't admit that he suddenly felt a sense of happiness in his heart! Lu Xudong actually became a comrade, and he married a wife and went home to hide people's eyes? Why did he feel so comfortable!

Desser stared at him suspiciously, her eyes rolled a few times, as if she was thinking about the feasibility of his proposal, but she didn't know what she was thinking, and saw the screen of her mobile phone on the table light up.

Zhang Ruiran watched her dance and talk to her little sister on the phone, originally thinking that she would wait for her to finish the phone and then scare her, but she just hung up the line, squinted at the phone for a long time, and then dialed out the phone very neatly.

To be honest, when he heard Di Sese scolding Lu Xudong, Zhang Ruiran felt that he was really happy from his toes to the tips of his hair, although this woman turned over and over, it seemed that she would only scold "You turtle bastard!"

But with the blessing of Toddi, he finally saw Lu Xudong again after years - his appearance has matured a lot, and he seems to have become more calm, but under his gentle and humble appearance, there is still a cold-blooded heart.

He asked Lu Xudong: "Why did you lie to her and say that you were a homosexual?"

Lu Xu Dongjun stared at him, picked up Di Sese, who was so drunk that he didn't know what to do, and threw a sentence coldly: "What's the matter with you?"

What does it matter to me? Zhang Ruiran touched his nose and thought about this question very seriously for a while, and suddenly regretted that he didn't get Di Sese's contact information first.

As the old saying goes, there is a fate to meet thousands of miles away. Zhang Ruiran thought that he and Lu Xudong were really destined, because he met Di Seser again, in the community where his aunt lived.

He never expected such a coincidence, and then recalled Lu Xudong's cold sentence "What's the matter with you", his heart suddenly became ready to move.

Seriously, he deliberately approached Di Seser from the beginning, wanting to provoke Lu Xudong with this.

But later, Zhang Ruiran gradually began to be confused. Every time he saw Di Sese's angry appearance being pestered by him, he always unexpectedly remembered Hu Yijing, who was almost mad by his repeated confessions.

Zhang Ruiran couldn't figure out why two people who looked completely different could so easily stir up the memories he buried in the deepest part of his heart?

Is it because they love the man surnamed Xudong?

Later, Zhang Ruiran hid from the world of Di Sese, he didn't want to repeat the mistakes of the past, but he couldn't help but pay attention to her life again and again, he even went to the Haodi convenience store every day to buy a bunch of useful and useless things, so as to slowly get close to her family, and learned about her from them......

He felt that he was really stunned, knowing that it was Di Sese, not Hu Yijing, who was no longer alive, but he actually had an illusion, as if Hu Yijing was not dead, she had incarnated as Di Sese, and was staying with Lu Xudong.

As soon as Nuan Nuan was born, Zhang Ruiran recognized her as her goddaughter, and at that time he and Lu Xudong had already shook hands and made peace, and even had a kind of friendship that was quite a bit of a friendship between each other and hated each other. But when he learned that Nuan Nuan first learned to call his godfather, and then learned to call his father, he still felt inexplicably sad in his heart.

No matter what, he finally let him win Lu Xudong once.

That day, he hugged the little soft Nuan Nuan, laughing so much that his mouth almost grinned behind his ears, and even on the way home, he couldn't help humming a cheerful song.

Halfway through, he received a call from his aunt, and after finishing his business, his aunt began to urge him to find a girlfriend to marry quickly, and at the end, she also said earnestly: "If Yijing has a spirit in the sky, she must not want to see you go on like this." ”

He was silent for a long time before answering her in a low voice: "I know!"

I know she never loved me.

I know that she will want me to start a family as soon as possible, like Lu Xudong and Di Sese, and have a daughter as delicate and soft as Nuan Nuan, and the rest of my life will be quiet.

But I know that I can't be like Lu Xudong, who can wipe out love and hate in a long time, and then use all my strength to care for another period of old age.

Or is this the so-called obsession of "the more you can't get it, the more you can't let it go"?

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