The pain in my body made it very difficult for me to walk every step, and the burden in my heart made me feel like a chain weighing a thousand pounds under my feet, so heavy.

From childhood to adulthood, I have been criticized and unfairly treated and even humiliated and tortured a lot, but I have endured them all one by one, and I am still strong to live to this day, but the psychological gap between these ups and downs has really given people too heavy a psychological blow, and every time I think I can hold my head high, but the result of each fall is completely opposite and bleak.

I thought that forbearance, escape, and even retreat would be exchanged for peace of life and peace of mind, but now I understand that people who are good are bullied, and people who are weak will be shamed, and your incompetence will eventually make you live in the dark and even not see the light in your life.

So, do I want to change myself completely? Do I want to become retributive, I want to become backbone and courageous?

However, what should I do to change myself? Is it just a change of personality, is it useful? This time I thought that I had changed a little bit, I had changed from the cowardly compromise in the past, to the courage to resist and dare to do my best to entangle with the other party today, and even when I was humiliated and beaten, I did not beg for mercy, but in the end, I was looked down upon, and the little cousin who pinned her hopes on was finally wronged and left with the person she hated the most.

I'm timid, I'm weak, I'm incompetent, in the final analysis, it's because my strength is too thin, I have no family, no backer, no friends, and I don't have any skills, I can't be a bird, I can only live a peaceful life as a turtle with a shrunken head, although so, I can't be a man, I can't be a hero, but at least, I can avoid disputes and live a stable life as a normal person.

Since I don't have the ability to fight with the little white face, I don't have to humiliate myself, he has a background, power, and his own personal strength, I want to blow him up, then I still have to wait until I have a little capital, now I can't fight him, but I can afford to hide.

I don't know how long I walked, I finally dragged my wrecked body home, returned to my small room, changed my clothes, I began to pack my things, ready to leave, and my little cousin became like this, I am not suitable to be her tutor anymore, there is no point in staying here, only by leaving, can I escape the shame that accompanied me, in order to really start again.

Speaking of which, although my little cousin was beaten and humiliated three times because of her things, I don't blame her, after all, it is also her personality problem, in some aspects she is indeed very brainless, but in some aspects she is very good, she is willing to open up, has a positive attitude, does not give up halfway, and is strong and cheerful, these days with her, I have got some infections and some changes, my personality has become less introverted, people have become less pessimistic, and even occasionally have some courage to become a man, these are all growth for me。

I'm really leaving, I'm still reluctant, reluctant to Sister Yu, reluctant little cousin, they are all good people, but they are also people who have little to do with me, I can't always rely on them, I still have to live on my own after all, I have to find it alone, that belongs to my piece of sky, people will always become more mature in stumbling, I believe that one day, I will grow into a real man.

After packing up, I didn't say hello to the nanny at home, and left quietly.

It's just that as soon as I walked to the main road, I was blocked by a figure, and what caught my eyes was the indifferent face of my little cousin, and at this time, she looked at me without pity and guilt, only this indifference with a little reproach.

She glanced at the bag in my hand and then asked me very politely, "Where are you going?"

I was a little dumbfounded, and I was stunned for a long time before I said, "Get out of here, I don't want to stay here anymore!"

When my little cousin heard this, she couldn't help but sneer, and she raised her voice slightly and asked me, "Hmph, are you running away?"

I lowered my head and said a little unsurely: "I don't want to get into trouble anymore, I want to go and live a new life." ”

The anger in the little cousin's nose snorted directly, and she yelled at the hatred of iron and steel: "Ge Tian, I was going to come back and apologize to you, but seeing you like this, I don't even have the heart to apologize, I think you deserve it, you just owe it, I used to think you were cowardly, I just thought you were cowardly, and now I think you are not even a man at all, not even a woman, when you encounter something, I want to escape, tell you the truth, just like you, you will be bullied wherever you go." Do you want to go somewhere where you don't have trouble? Then you have only two choices, heaven or hell! ”

After saying that, my little cousin passed me directly past me and went home.

I instantly froze in place, and suddenly realized that my little cousin's words really pierced my backbone, every sentence was like a needle, I originally wanted to go to another place to start again, to be a real man, but real men, don't you have to face the bleak life? Escape, is it useful?

For the first time, I was far away from my hometown, but I was lonely. The second time, I escaped my college and was in a car accident. The third time, I escaped from the hospital, only to shiver in the cold wind on the road. When I met Xiaoyue for the first time at the train station before, I chose to escape, and then I was bullied by Luan Yu, I still chose to escape, and then I was snubbed by Sister Yu, I still chose to escape, and today, I was humiliated by Xiaobai's face three times, and I finally chose to escape. Is this really what a man should do?

Lessons have taught me again and again that what my little cousin said is right, escaping will never solve the problem, this trouble is far away, and the next trouble will come again, as long as I am still this kind of person, I will be bullied wherever I go, unless I can lose consciousness when I die, how can people have no trouble and no troubles.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but look back at my little cousin, her distant back became more and more blurred, but I could still clearly feel that she was completely disappointed in me.

I wanted to rush over and explain to her immediately, but I still hesitated, I needed to think again, think about it carefully, so I picked up my bag and walked directly to the street, as I walked, I thought about the road I had walked, about these people and these things I had met, about my attitude and actions in the face of everything, and thought a lot.

After all, I still figured it out, no matter what my current ability is, no matter what my current situation is, and no matter what I will encounter in the future, at least, I should face it, I can't keep running away, let alone being bullied by a group of high school students like now, leaving with despise by my little cousin, if there is a problem, I have to face it, if there is a difficulty, I have to solve it, no way, and then find a way, in short, facing the dilemma is the first change I can make now.

Thinking of this, I immediately walked towards Sister Yu's villa with a firm pace.

Came to the door of the villa, I went directly into the yard, and then walked inside, outside the door of the living room, I vaguely heard the sound of quarrels, and when I got closer, I heard clearly, Sister Yu was scolding my little cousin, saying that she was causing trouble, and forced me away.

And the little cousin replied, saying that she didn't force me to leave, but that I had to go.

Sister Yu said again: "Xin'er, you are so ignorant, knowing that Ge Tian is a poor man and homeless, we gave him a place to stay, gave him a job, and he is doing well, why can't you change your temper a little and let him stay here with peace of mind?"

The little cousin replied a little angrily: "The poor man has something to hate, if he keeps being like that, he can't stay anywhere." ”

In order to stop them from arguing any further, I hurriedly pushed open the door, walked in, and then said weakly to them, "I'm sorry, I'm back!"

My return relieved Sister Yu, she was also very considerate and didn't ask me anything, just told me to do this tutoring job well, what is wrong with her cousin, I also try to tolerate it, don't take many things too seriously.

And the little cousin didn't show much emotional change for my return, but the relationship between us has changed subtly since then, we are not as casual as before, the same open, especially the little cousin, she no longer tells me everything, and no longer scolds me, except for the interaction when tutoring homework, other times, she and I have almost become strangers.

I'm not used to this kind of change, and I don't like such a depressing atmosphere, especially when I see a little cousin who is so brainless and domineering become as silent and aggrieved as me, I really can't stand it, so, at one point, I took the initiative to start a topic with her and asked her: "Tao Wanxin, how is your school?

When the little cousin heard this, she scolded directly in disgust: "What's the matter with you, you can live your comfortable life, don't say that I caused you trouble, and it's on me to run away casually!"

I was dumbfounded by her, this time, she was completely hopeless about me, but also, even if I knew she was in trouble at school, what could I do to help her, and I could only listen to her affairs as gossip.

It stands to reason that this kind of peaceful and stable life is what I yearn for, but I really live this kind of life, but I can't devote myself to it, the dull and depressing atmosphere makes me uncomfortable, there is no beating, scolding, no strife, it is so boring. It was only then that I realized that this kind of uneventful life was not what I really liked. Maybe there is a restless factor in my weak bones, and this restlessness was finally completely exposed after discovering the strangeness of my little cousin.

Originally, my little cousin looked very bad when she came back from class every day, and I guessed that she must have been wronged at school, and once, I even saw my little cousin come back with a scar on her neck, which made me even more sure that she was bullied at school, but she kept holding back and didn't want to talk to me.

This time, I really can't stand it anymore and can't hold it back, the man's blood has finally surged in me, and I have been passive countless times, and I TM will try to take the initiative once. So, that afternoon, my little cousin went to school, and I secretly followed her.

When I followed the school, I saw a group of high school girls wearing the same uniform as my little cousin blocking my little cousin's way, my little cousin was usually not afraid, but when I saw this group of ruffian female students, she seemed to show a little timidity, and wanted to go around them silently, but this group of people was obviously coming for the little cousin, and they gathered around and directly forced the little cousin to a secluded path.

I immediately followed quietly, hiding behind a tree and secretly observing the situation.

I saw that one of the ruffians with studs on her ears grabbed her little cousin by the collar without saying a word, and scolded angrily: "Little smash, you still dare to come to school, didn't I warn you, obediently transfer me to another school?"

The woman seemed to be taking the lead, and as soon as she spoke, the others immediately followed suit, telling the little cousin to get out of school quickly, and so on.

From their scolding, I probably understood that their conflict originated from Xiao Bai Face, because the little cousin broke up with Xiao Bai Face on the same day after agreeing to Xiao Bai Face's courtship last time, which was tantamount to directly slapping Xiao Bai Face in the face and leaving him speechless. And this group of female students is obviously a party that supports the little white face.

I also heard that this ruffian who took the lead is the godsister of Little White Face, and she is out of the way for Little White Face, so she always makes trouble with her little cousin.

It's just that the little cousin's character is never soft, the more people want her to do something, the more she doesn't do it, even in the face of these five tough women, she knows that she can't escape, but she won't choose to give in, so before the two sides can say a word, the conversation collapsed, and the group of women directly fought with the little cousin.

Girls fight, more ruthless than boys, tearing clothes and scratching hair, five yin and white bone claws do everything, obviously, even if the little cousin is tough, it can't withstand the fight of five people, and soon, she was embarrassed by the group of women, her clothes were torn, and her small bra was exposed.

Seeing this scene, my anger has already rushed upward, Nima, if the opponent is a group of strong men, I may still have a little cowardice, but now I see a group of female streamers bullying my little cousin here, I can't help it, I no longer have the so-called retreat, let alone care about the consequences, I only know that the little cousin ended up like this, and it has a lot to do with me, I want to change a little, no matter how brave I am, I am sorry for heaven and earth.

Thinking like this, I immediately took a step and rushed out, and just as the group of female hooligans were about to pick up my little cousin's bra and take pictures, my earth-shattering roar resounded through the path: "Stop, let go of my woman!"