She was already resting, and the time didn't need to be negotiated at all, and what Jolene said before was just an excuse. The relevant matters of the drama are almost ready, and soon the rehearsal of the actors will begin, and the venue will be arranged in a rehearsal hall on the outskirts of T City.

When she went to rehearsal on her first day, many actors had already gone, and she was dressed in a black and white casual suit, with her long hair tied into a ponytail at the back of her head.

Cheng Shuo and the other actors sat on the ground listening to the director's speech, turned his face and saw her, the black and white eyes and clean face were the same as the first time, time seemed to have never passed, but when his eyes swept over him, the indifferent and alienated strange appearance woke him up fiercely, how could it not have changed? Everything has changed.

The director asked these actors, who had at least heard each other's names even if they had never met, to introduce themselves one by one, and then chatted casually.

She can play the role of Ji Yun has made Ah Jing very happy, and the director has no objection after learning the news, even if she is more inclined to play another role, she has a good reputation in the industry, and she can be regarded as an actor that many directors want to work with.

After a preliminary understanding, he looked at the two partners, Cheng Shuo and Wei Zhuanxin, one gentle and the other quiet, these two actors with such a big contrast with the character's personality, it is indeed a challenge to play the poor Nanfang and the pungent Ji Yun.

After careful observation, the director was less worried about Yan Zhuanxin, she was not from a professional class, she had never played a similar role before, and her own personality was too different from the role, she was very aura, and with careful training over time, she would definitely be able to play the role of Ji Yun well. On the contrary, Cheng Shuo, who was born as a singer, has starred in film and television dramas before, and everything he has talked about can be absorbed quickly, but there is always a trace of restraint when it comes to real rehearsals, and what makes the director even more strange is that his restraint seems to vary from person to person.

It's the height of summer, everyone is dressed more casually during rehearsals, Cheng Shuo is as handsome and neat as ever, but his dressing style is obviously not the way of a fashion idol, more like his student days in his memory. This kind of Cheng Shuo gave her the illusion that she had returned to the rehearsal hall of the school, where he was just to help her rehearse the play. However, she did not dare to indulge her gaze to look at him, she was afraid that her eyes would accidentally reveal her inner thoughts.

In the middle of summer, she sat there with cold hands and feet, and even her heart was pounding because of his proximity, but fortunately, years of acting experience had taught her to disguise herself, as long as she didn't look at him, she could barely make herself look calm.

She stared at the script with her eyes, and couldn't help but say in her heart: You want to come here on impulse, and now you face it every day, and you can't bear this excitement and suffering!

After knowing him, falling in love with him, and leaving him, she always involuntarily pushed herself into an adventurous situation where she couldn't advance or retreat. Love can not only change a person, it can make people crazy.

Because of Cheng Shuo's existence, what she needs to think about most every day is not to figure out the role, let alone memorize lines, but to make herself normal, calm and even indifferent in front of him.

At the beginning, the director asked all the actors to do all kinds of strange things on stage, but most of them are not drama actors in this drama, there are always such and such problems, and the director has found a way to help everyone get into the role, and the effect is not bad. In this way, it also attracted the attention and mind of the people.

Ah Jing often visits the class in her spare time, chats with the actors about the characters, and most chats with Ji Yun, sometimes she chats with Ji Yun, sometimes she chats casually, Ah Jing seems to be a taciturn person, in fact, she still loves to talk and laugh with familiar people, her thinking is unrestrained, and she often gets inspiration from details that others can't notice, and she admires her very much, and sometimes the director joins in such a chat.

Ji Yun is a willful and somewhat pungent character, which is different from Meng Xin in "A New Beginning", Meng Xin's meanness is her protective layer, but Ji Yun is naturally an unforgiving character. She is too gentle, and the director requires her to blend in with Ji Yun's characters as long as she steps into the rehearsal hall, and to remember her personality all the time, which also gives her a shell to protect her true face, so that she can pretend to be Ji Yun for good reason.

Such Ji Yun, such a sluan Xin, made Cheng Shuo a little afraid to approach, he didn't know, it was the past few years that had turned his sluan into such a appearance, or was it just Ji Yun's poisonous tongue.

Every day he wanted to talk to her, but every day he told himself that tomorrow was running away.

The days of rehearsals are very simple, go every morning and go back in the evening, after all, they are all young people, and they quickly become familiar with them, and it is a closed rehearsal, everyone eats a boxed lunch together every day, and they will chat during the break.

Sometimes the director will name the actors who play the couple to communicate more privately, and Cheng Shuo and Yan Zhuan Xin are naturally called together. When Yan Zhuan Xin was alone together, Yan Zhuan Xin always had no appetite, Cheng Shuo secretly looked at her with his spare eyes, and the boxed lunch in his hand didn't know the taste, and finally he mustered up the courage and called her name, not Ji Yun. This long-lost 'Zhuanxin' made Yan Zhuanxin stop her chopsticks, she didn't look up, and she didn't respond, for a long time, he whispered, "I'm sorry." ”

This sorry voice that had been late for many years made Yan Zhuanxin's nose slightly sour, and what she wanted to hear was never these three words. After being silent for a long time, Cheng Shuo said again, "I'm sorry." ”

Yan Zhuanxin calmed down, put down the lunch box and chopsticks, and finally raised his head to look at Cheng Shuo, "I'm sorry for what?"

yes, sorry what? sorry he left her? sorry because he hurt her? sorry for all the hurtful things he used to say?

Seeing that he didn't speak, Yan Zhuan Xin asked, "Cheng Shuo, do you regret it?" After a pause, she said again, "Have you ever regretted it?"

After being silent for a long time, Cheng Shuo finally spoke, he looked at her black and white eyes, "It's all over, it's too late." ”

Yan Zhuan Xin was slightly stunned, and then showed a wry smile, she closed her eyes, it turned out that she was desperate, and in his eyes it was a past that was not worth mentioning.

She wanted to say something and stopped, but finally she didn't say anything, and got up to leave.

Before finishing work, the director often asked everyone to sit around the stage, each talking about their understanding of the role, and when it was her turn, she put away Ji Yun's pungency on weekdays, and paused for a few seconds before saying: "I envy Ji Yun a little, she is willful, vain, and vexatious, she never cherishes the unconditional tolerance and love that the south has for her, she is never satisfied, and she is always complaining, but even so, the south finally chose to stay by her side, even if it is for responsibility." They quarrel, even fight, but at least, they can still be together, at least they can see each other every day, and they will give each other and themselves a chance. But some love, even seeing each other is a luxury. ”

When she said this, her face was calm, and she couldn't see any inner waves, maybe it was just an understanding of the role in other people's ears, but in Cheng Shuo's heart, it had a different taste.

We have crossed thousands of mountains and rivers to finally have such a chance to meet and get along, but after all those things, how dare I reach out to grab you again? If my existence is destined to only bring you harm, then I would rather only look at you from behind you like this, and I will only be able to get close to you after I have enough strength to protect you.

Regardless of whether you are the same as Ji Yun in reality, you are no longer the lonely and ignorant of the world that belonged to me alone, so it's okay, at least even if you don't have me by your side, you have protection. Let them all pass, the hurt and painful memories that I brought you because of me, I hope you forget them, maybe it's too late for you to say anything.

After that day, Yan Zhuanxin rehearsed on time every day, matched words, ran in, and got along well with everyone, when he practiced with Cheng Shuo, he never said a word except for his lines, and he would not be alone with him, and he would not even look at him except when acting.

Nanfang and Ji Yun had a kiss scene, the lights on the stage came down, it was all dark, and the two were still. Every time the rehearsal is here, the two people are very close, but when she takes the seat, she closes her eyes, he holds his breath, and as soon as the director shouts to stop, she immediately walks away.

Towards the end of the rehearsal, she sat on the stage with a pen writing something on the script, a strand of long hair slid down her shoulders, her skin was so white that it almost blended in with the white T-shirt on her body, and her black hair hanging down her collarbone was particularly noticeable.

He looked at her motionlessly, his eyes and heart had never left her from the moment she stepped into the rehearsal hall on the first day, but so what? he was not in a position to go near her now.

Maybe it's the four years of training, her acting skills are really good, he just thought she was a natural performer, she sat in front of the harp as if she was a goddess in Greek mythology, and no picture could compare with it. He didn't know how she got into show business as an actress, it is undeniable that she does have talent in this area, in fact, he should have known it a long time ago.

Cheng Shuo remembers the first and only time she asked herself for help was at the school's arts festival, when the counselor asked her to represent the department in a drama performance. She has a lot more acting experience than her classmates at the same level, but after all, it is her own major, and she is nervous and worried because she doesn't know anything about acting, so she called him to ask about acting. How did she know that although Cheng Shuo had already acted in idol dramas at that time, he didn't understand real acting skills at all.

She rarely took the initiative to call him, at first she may be reserved, and later she was more afraid of affecting his work or causing unnecessary trouble, so Cheng Shuo was very happy when she received the call.

He heard her uneasiness on the phone, and after hanging up the phone, he made a special trip to consult the acting teacher hired by the company, and went to the school to rehearse with her, just to help her.

Life at that time was so simple, so simple that he thought he could do anything for her, so simple that he thought he would be by her side for the rest of his life.

The drama finally began to be performed, T City is the city they all chose, and in this scene, Nanfang and Ji Yun are the actors of their group.

At the end of the rehearsal, she walked a little slowly, and in her spare eye she saw a young man coming to Cheng Shuo, and her footsteps stopped in an inconspicuous corner. Since these days, she can look at him openly through Ji Yun's eyes, she hides in Ji Yun's body and is willful and even unreasonable with him, the south in front of Ji Yun is poor and humorous, the south is not like him anywhere, only that kind of spoiling, like him.

But she knew that it was all fake, she willfully took over the drama, and carefully used Ji Yun to cover up her temptation, but the result was still the same, no matter how familiar the person in front of her was, he was not the same as before, the biggest difference between them, he would not take the initiative to come to her, every time the rehearsal ended, they went their separate ways like strangers. Every time, she slowed down her pace, slower and slower, and in the end she could only stubbornly tilt her head and leave, she was afraid that if she lowered her head, she would shed tears.

You used to know everything, even if I didn't say anything, I didn't do anything, you can still guess my thoughts, I didn't have sex before, I believe everything you say, and I feel good about what you do. But now, why don't you understand anything, or do you no longer want to spend time and time guessing, because you don't want to understand? It's really not in love, so no matter what happens to me, you won't look back, just like you chose to leave me in the first place.

As the night darkens, this city is the city where they met and fell in love until they finally separated, carrying almost all of their memories. The theater where the performances took place was very close to the school, and they had come to see the performances here.

Before the performance, Yan Zhuanxin sat alone in the corner of the theater, looking at this familiar place, and the emotions that had been suppressed for a period of time finally did not need to be disguised in the dark. She looked at the stage that began to set one after another, "I remember everything here, it seems that it was yesterday, you were still sitting next to me watching the people on the stage play joys and sorrows, at that time, did we ever think that one day, we would also stand on this stage with such an identity to act out other people's stories but consume our own feelings?"

I still remember that in order to represent the department to participate in the school's drama performance, she and Ding Yang, a junior from the composition department, went from embarrassment to depression, and then all kinds of unhappiness, she was never so hit. At that time, Cheng Shuo, who was wearing a hat and mask, sat in the corner of the rehearsal hall and watched them rehearse, and told her the problems that needed to be corrected in time through her mobile phone, and waited until her own problems to be finished and then told her alone.

The first time they watched a drama performance, it was in this theater, in order to relieve her tension and to observe, Cheng Shuo quietly bought a ticket and brought her here after her rehearsal. is also such a midsummer, because he is afraid of being recognized, he still wears a mask and a hat, holds her hand tightly to find a seat, and does not take off the mask until the light goes dark before the performance. At that time, they watched the joys and sorrows on the stage, and never thought that one day, they would stand on the same stage and act out other people's stories.

On the day of the school drama festival performance, at the end of the performance, she stood on the edge of the stage, looked into the distance and said the lines in her mouth, tears fell involuntarily, and her voice was a little choked, which moved the people in the audience.

On stage, she didn't know that Cheng Shuo secretly came to the school to watch her perform, the previous nervousness and concentration during the performance, until the end, in the crowded performance hall, she actually saw the low-key figure with a hat and mask at the back of the crowd at a glance, and it was extremely certain that it was him.

In the end, she and Ding Yang, the layman combination, won the second place in the whole school after the students of the Department of Drama, Film and Television. She was presented with an acting teacher from the school's film and television department, and she still remembers him saying: "You should really come to our film and television performance department." ”

No one expected that she would actually embark on this path.

Yan Lianxin, who was now sitting alone in the theater, clenched his left hand hard, reminding himself in faint pain what all this was for.

She got up and planned to go back to prepare for the evening performance, and when she looked back, those beautiful and happy pasts were now slashing her heart like a blunt knife, and the wounds that had been scabbed were torn apart again.

The better the memory, the more painful the reality.

A few hours later, when the last scene was staged, Ji Yun stood on the high platform and shouted out the promise that Nanfang had promised her, the audience was silent, time stopped, and the prelude to the song sung by Cheng Shuo for the love of Nanfang and Ji Yun sounded, he turned around slowly, and the whole theater seemed to be the only two of them on the whole stage, and the whole theater only heard Ji Yun choked up and repeated the promise again, with the sound of the piano in the background.

Cheng Shuo restrained the torment in his heart, and just slowly walked towards Yan Zhuan Xin step by step, seeing her already tearful cheeks more and more clearly, her heart hurt fiercely, and she couldn't help but reddened her eyes: Zhuan, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, but how can I still be qualified to stand by your side.

Nanfang on the stage hugged Ji Yun tightly, as if she was going to rub her into her body, Yan Zhuan Xin felt as if her ribs were about to break, how much she longed to have this hug to regain finally returned to her side in this way, but at this moment she is Ji Yun, he is Nanfang, Cheng Shuo, you can't bear it, am I?

The audience applauded thunderously, and in the amplified music, she suddenly came back to her senses, Cheng Shuo, your acting skills have improved so much, I was almost confused, thinking that you still love me, but I don't want to embarrass myself anymore, this time, I want to go first.

She pushed him away, wiped the remaining tears from her face, first bowed deeply to the audience, then hugged the flowers and all the actors on stage, smiled, and then turned away.

The story is over, the audience has left the theater one after another, the lights on the stage are dimmed, and the audience is standing in front of the large poster in a daze.

I used to think that one day I would turn around and leave, but I really had this day, but I was even more sad, all the way to today, I want to forget why I came here in the first place, I want to forget the darkest days of my life, I want to forget the tribulations that overwhelmed me several times and the despair of losing everything, if I can, I really want to forget everything at the beginning!

But I can't forget it.

You're right, it's all gone, whether it's a good memory or a dark past, it's all gone, you've turned the page, only I'm still stupidly stuck in place and won't look back. It's too late, it's too late for anything between us.

"Sluggish. A voice behind her interrupted her.

She retracted her gaze and turned around, hesitating for a moment, "Yueyue?"

Yue Yue smiled and nodded, "Do you have time?"

The two walked side by side, "Actually, I wanted to see you for a long time, but something happened so I went home." ”

Yueyue looked at her worried expression and explained with a smile: "I'm pregnant, and I just checked out, so I just came back, but fortunately I caught up with your performance." ”

Hearing this, he was slightly stunned, and then smiled, "Congratulations." ”

"Thanks, I can't think of going around, it's still like this. She glanced at Cheng Shuo and continued: "At the beginning, I was worried that Cheng Shuo had been postponing the wedding, and I didn't resign to get married until he went abroad, and there has been no news of him for the past two years, but I didn't expect to just meet, and he brought me blessings again, maybe everything is fate!"

Hearing her mention Cheng Shuo, he didn't speak, there was a Yue Yue beside him who had seen him and knew their story, Cheng Shuo was the only connection point between them.

"Actually, you are really alike, no matter how you disguise it, you are actually too simple, and you won't easily believe people, but if you believe it, it's a lifetime, so the pain is also very serious. Some things hurt if you don't say them, but when you can say them, you don't have a chance, and sometimes what you see with your eyes is not the truth of the matter. ”

"The truth, is there an absolute truth in this world? If so, why don't you say it when you have the opportunity, or don't you want to say it at all? ”

As the saying goes, the authorities are obsessed with bystanders, but as the saying goes, watching chess is not a true gentleman, and some things need to be solved by themselves after all.

Yueyue thought so, turned her face sideways to look at her and said something else: "Zhuan, Grandpa Cheng passed away, a month before he went abroad. ”

She couldn't believe it, she still clearly remembered that in the small town during the Spring Festival, her grandparents were envious of each other, and the two old men liked her beyond words.

Grandpa Cheng's laughter was especially in her ears, and she even remembered that he said that he wanted to listen to his grandson's concert, but he had been dead for so long......

Yueyue looked at her surprised and sad face, and knew that she didn't need to say anything more. obviously loves so deeply, but God wants to make a joke to make them make a few more turns. She always believes that the word destined, what belongs to you, will eventually return to you, rather than letting others do more, it is better to wait for them to return to each other, that difficulty will make them cherish each other more.