Jolene hadn't come to eat for two days because she was busy with work, so she went downstairs in a loose home suit to look for milk, because she had been resting lately, so the milk drank very quickly, and she opened the refrigerator to remember that she had already drunk the last box at noon.

Lulu came out of the room, saw her in front of the refrigerator, knew that she must be looking for milk, and said, "I was going to buy it in the afternoon, but I forgot, you can watch TV for a while, I'll buy it now." ”

As she spoke, she found the clothes for the door, and closed the refrigerator door, "Forget it, let's go tomorrow, it's so dark outside, I'll just drink water." ”

As she spoke, Lulu had quickly changed her clothes and walked to the door to put on her shoes, "But I want to eat, I was going to go out to buy it, it's very close, you watch TV first, I'll be back soon." ”

She put on her shoes and went out, thought about it, walked to the living room and sat on the sofa to turn on the TV, and changed the channel with the remote control, usually she rarely watched TV programs, most of them were Lulu and Aunt Fang.

Xu Yan appeared on the TV screen, and it was his talk show: "Xiaoyuan just said that his parents are teachers, so his name is Yuan, the gardener's garden, so did his parents watch those news? What is their attitude?"

She put down the remote control, she has always liked Xu Yan, and this talk show that he produced and hosted by himself is also one of the few programs she often watches, but because of her work, she mostly watches it on the Internet.

The picture turned to Zou Yuan, "They don't actually understand the things in this circle, and when they first saw those negative news, they were very angry, they were angry with me, they thought it was true, and then they called me and asked me why and how." I remember one time it was very serious, no matter how I explained it, they didn't believe me, and finally hung up my phone, and I felt really uncomfortable at that time, obviously the victim was me, but the people closest to me refused to believe me, which made me more unacceptable than those slanders. That incident made me very angry, plus they refused to believe me, and they were sad, and then they fabricated some photos and other things, I was really mad at that time, I had never been so angry, I really had how many circles my brain had turned, and I had thought of countless ways to fight back and so on, and I was about to lose my mind. ”

"Understand that everyone has their own bottom line, maybe it doesn't matter what you did before, you can still endure it, but once you reach that critical point and cross that bottom line, people will explode instantly, and many unimaginable things may happen. Some people will never encounter such a thing that touches their bottom line in their lives, but in this circle, flashiness and impetuousness coexist, and the more attention and aura everyone gives you, the greater the possibility of harm. And then, how did Mom and Dad's attitude change?"

"It was really painful during that time, I felt that I was very wronged, and my parents' incomprehension may have hit me harder than that. Later, they gradually realized that these news were not necessarily really an opportunity, which is quite nonsensical. For a while, I didn't know what was going on, but there were a lot of reports on me, I went shopping with my parents on vacation, and the next day the newspaper came out, and the photo of me and my father, the title said that I was being raised with a sugar daddy and something, and I can't remember the specifics, in fact, my mother should be nearby, but I didn't take a picture. I didn't see the newspaper at the time, it was my dad who saw it, and he didn't lose his temper or speak, so he threw it in the trash. ”

"Understood. ”

"Yes, I later learned that they rarely read my news and never asked me anything except for work-related stories. ”

In fact, many times how much you say to explain a thing is not as convincing as a thing, especially a very upright person like Zou Dad and Zou Mom, they will believe what they see more than what others say. ”

"So I'm especially grateful to the reporter who posted the news. ”

Xu Yan and Zou Yuan in the picture both smiled.

"Actually, I'm still very grateful to someone, a person who wasn't even friends before, it was her words that made me think a lot, figure out a lot, and then slowly saw a lot of things, and I was relieved, which made me more calm, and I could focus on the improvement of my works and acting skills instead of those things that came out of nothing, which was a big change for me, and I am very grateful to her. ”

Looking at Zou Yuan on the screen, he smiled like a flower, the people in this circle, which one is not full of bitter stories, which one has no unspeakable pain, but stands in the spotlight, and with this light, you must choose to be brave.

The next day, when Jolene came over for dinner, she said that the previous endorsement should be filmed for the new season of advertising, and in the past two days, she nodded and everyone talked about other things.

This endorsement has been endorsing for two years in a row, and the cooperation has been very pleasant, Jolene didn't go, so Lulu and a few other staff members followed her. It didn't take much time from getting the shooting plan to the end.

It was already evening when I returned to T City, and the driver sent her to the accommodation, and Lulu put down her backpack while taking off her shoes and said, "You're tired, you drink some water first, take a shower and go to bed early." ”

She was a little tired, poured two glasses of water from her cup, handed her a glass, and asked her, "Didn't Sister Qiao say that she wanted to come over?" Did you tell her when we would come back?"

Lulu took the water and poured it down before saying, "I told her in the car just now, I should be there soon, she is near here." ”

As soon as he finished speaking, there was a knock at the door, and it was none other than Jolene who entered.

Lulu put the cup on the table next to her, and as she went upstairs, she said, "I'll go put the water out." ”

Sitting on the sofa without changing her clothes, Jolene walked over, "Tired, right?" I quickly said that you should rest early, tomorrow the fans will hold a birthday party for you, the time is set for three o'clock in the afternoon, you prepare in advance, and I will pick you up when the time comes." ”

She picked up her phone and glanced at the calendar on the desktop, tomorrow is her birthday, this annual day she doesn't want to face, she put down her phone and didn't speak.

How could Jolene not know that she didn't want to go.

When I first met her, it was the first time to catch up with her birthday, she was filming on the set, and she prepared a cake and gifts to celebrate her birthday, but in exchange for an indifferent sentence "I'm not a birthday".

In the next two years, as her popularity grew, fans began to prepare to celebrate her birthday every year as soon as this month came, but so what, she was always lukewarm, and even the fans made a special trip to celebrate her birthday, but she was still persuaded by herself, and she saw the enthusiasm of the fans before attending.

How could Qiao Lin, who was smart in ice and snow, not see the sorrow that came out of her eyes.

Jolene didn't understand why a blessed and favored girl had such an incomprehensible indifference and sorrow, until she discovered the secret behind it, and then she was only distressed.

Qiao Lin couldn't bear to force Zhuan to do things she didn't like, but first, tomorrow's birthday party was very important, and secondly, she was really distressed and wanted to make her happier, so she lowered her voice and said: "Zhuan, many things will change, and it is too hard to live in the memories of the past, let go of yourself to make it better." ”

There was the sound of Lulu's footsteps coming downstairs on the stairs, Jolene glanced at Zhuan Xin, who lowered her eyes and was silent, turned her head and raised her voice and said, "Lulu, take a rest at home tomorrow morning, I'll pick you up at noon, let Zhuan sleep a little longer, I'll go back first, call me if something happens." She turned her face again, reached out and patted her knee, and said softly, "Rest early." ”

Lulu closed her eyes and nodded in response, Lulu walked over and said with a smile: "Don't worry, Sister Qiao, I will take good care of Zhuan, and you should go back to rest early." ”

Sending Jolene away, Lulu locked the door and took off her coat before sitting down next to Jolene, her eyes closed and still not moving, Lulu was hesitating whether to speak, but heard her whisper, "I really want to forget." ”

Lulu was stunned for a moment, and before she could react, she had already opened her eyes and straightened up, reaching out and taking off her coat, "I'll go take a bath, you go to sleep first." ”

In the upstairs bathroom, she was half-lying in the bathtub, closing her eyes, and the past scene emerged.

I don't remember when I started to understand that people are going to celebrate their birthdays, but I just know that one day every year, my mother will make a bowl of noodles for myself and watch myself finish eating, when my father is not at home, my mother just looks at herself and doesn't speak, except for the subtle sound of chopsticks and bowls touching in the house, it is quiet as if no one exists.

There weren't a few days like this, and she never ate the noodles that once a year again. It wasn't until she was eleven years old that she went to attend her classmate's birthday party, she was first shocked by the original birthday scene, and then there was a steady stream of envy, especially when she saw her classmate making a wish on the birthday cake like a little princess, and the parents behind her stood there doting and looked at their baby daughter, and that picture became a picture in her dream for a long time. After a long time, a proud girl in the class was showing off her precious birthday present from abroad, and her condescending eyes pierced her little heart.

She was born in the same year as Ran Ning, but her birthday was two months earlier than her, and the few times she ate birthday cakes, they were all at Ran's house.

In fact, for a long time, in her concept, the most important thing to celebrate a birthday is not the birthday cake, but the bowl of noodles.

In the hospital that year, she was reluctant to even break open her eyes when she was only sustained by nutrient solution, and a small bowl in the thermos bucket brought by Ran Rong was thin noodles, and even the soup was clear and bright. The angelic Ran Rong whispered with a warm smile: "I asked the doctor, he said that you haven't eaten for a long time and your stomach is empty, so you can only drink a little soup, if you don't feel uncomfortable, you can eat a little noodles, Ning Ning ran a lot of stores to find such a fine and easy to digest noodles, and told my mother to watch the fire slowly cook out, is it okay to taste it?"

Because she hadn't eaten for too long, her mouth was bitter, and she even forgot the taste of her tongue, she opened her mouth, and Ran Rong gently blew a spoonful of clear soup and fed it to her mouth, and the soup slid into her mouth and then to her stomach, warm.

Ran Rong looked at her and asked softly, "Are you uncomfortable?"

She quickly shook her head, but there seemed to be something in her throat that was sour, and she couldn't speak, so she opened her mouth, and Ran Rong saw this, carefully picked a few noodles and put them in the spoon, and fed them to her mouth. She chewed a little hard, and suddenly a tear fell, her mouth full of bitterness, and her heart full of bitterness, all mixed with those few noodles and swallowed into her stomach.

She bowed and sprinkled a handful of water on her face, it was almost midsummer, and she suddenly felt a little cold. The happiness she had after the age of seventeen and the face that originally belonged to her alone have now become memories that she does not want to think about and dare not think about. She shrunk her body into the water, but unfortunately no matter how warm the water was, it couldn't warm her already cold heart.

When she came out of the bathroom, the clock showed twelve o'clock, and the day of the year she was most afraid of except for the Spring Festival had arrived.

When she got up in the morning, she went downstairs very late, took the milk handed by Aunt Fang and was stunned for a long time, Lulu suddenly jumped out from behind her, "Happy birthday!

She was taken aback by Lulu and said "Thank you." ”

Lulu didn't notice her strange appearance, and took a beautiful box from behind her and handed it to her, "I've been preparing it for a long time, open it and take a look!"

She smiled and took it, and in the box was a handmade photo album, and when she turned the first page, it was a long handwritten passage by Lulu. Lulu stretched out her hand and flipped over, "Look at this for yourself, people will be embarrassed." ”

The photos on each page of the album are carefully selected by Lulu, and the story behind the photos is handwritten next to it, recording the time they have spent together.

She closed the album and hugged Lulu, "Thank you, Lulu, thank you." ”

She didn't know what else to say but 'thank you'.

Aunt Fang took the cake that had just been taken out of the oven, "Come and try Aunt Fang's newly learned cake, which is filled with the ingredients that Shui Shui likes, and see how it goes." ”

At the dinner table, Aunt Fang guarded Zhuan Xin and Lulu, as if she was watching her two children, Lulu salivating over the cake was very cute, and Zhu Zhuan Xin also made herself smile as much as possible.

When Jolene came to pick them up, she put the gift she had given her in the living room and asked her to come back and look at it. She really wants to make herself happy, no matter how many people in this world leave her, at least Jolene and Lulu really want to make herself happy, she knows all the things they do for her, but people's hearts are sometimes very willful, and they hurt too deeply, so they don't want to trust others anymore. Over the years, what she has experienced most most is that only by not reporting hope can she not be disappointed, so for many things, she would rather not think about it and choose to forget it, rather than be stung again.

Because it was a public birthday party, she made a look and took a deep breath with a decent smile before appearing in front of everyone.

For such a grand birthday party, in addition to the gifts carefully prepared by the fans, even Xinyuan also prepared enough surprises to make people enviable, and the corners of his mouth kept rising, with an impeccable smile, as if he was very happy. It's just that Jolene can see the sadness in her eyes that has never faded, and she knows that her water is unhappy.

Every girl will want such a grand birthday celebration, as the only protagonist to receive all the blessings, on this day, all wishes can be fulfilled.

Jolene looked at the crowd, and she really wanted to ask: "What is your wish, as long as I can do it, I will help you make it happen."

The crowd was like a delicate marionette, and she didn't need to use any brains, just stand there with a smile on her face and accept all the blessings and gifts.

It's so tiring, she just wants to run away on such a scared day, flee to a place where there is no one, do nothing, just spend the day peacefully, this real life is like a year, as long as it is past 12 o'clock in the night, she can really breathe a sigh of relief.

She took a deep breath softly, and when she looked up again, she saw Hex.

"In fact, it is really difficult to make long-term like-minded friends in the profession of an artist, and it is only a few months before filming to completely change a group of new partners and environments, and it is difficult for friends who are finally familiar with each other to get together because of their respective work. She is a person who you have to take some time to get close to her, and then after getting acquainted with her, you will definitely want to be friends with her, many times she doesn't talk much, but she can make the people around her feel at ease and grounded. It's your birthday, don't say anything else, I just hope you can get the happiness you want, we will be friends forever!"

Heye stretched out his arms to hug her, and Lulu accepted the gift and the large bouquet of roses on her behalf, he was so busy, but he made a special trip to attend her birthday party.

There is a whole wall of screens at the scene of the birthday party, and a short film of birthday celebration jointly created by Xinyuan Media and fans is the blessing given to her by her friends, there are colleagues in the company, of course, there are friends in her circle, and the finale is the collective blessing of Yuantang Media, not only Cen Yan, Zhang Liyou, Yuan Zheng are there, and even Wenxi also appeared in the picture, which made Zhuan Xin very moved.

After the birthday party, the fans were still gathered outside waiting for Zhuan Xin to leave. After changing clothes in the lounge, she came out and looked down from the second floor, where the flowers, streamers and balloons in the hall were still there, and she stopped by the railing and looked down in a daze, until Lulu came to call her.

As she went downstairs, she asked, "Are all the gifts gone?"

Lulu walked in front of her and didn't look back, "It's over, every fan has it, you can rest assured." ”

She never imagined that one day, so many people would like her and care about her, and she didn't even feel that she deserved such unconditional love and support.

Maybe it's because of the living environment since she was a child, she never knew how to take the initiative, even in that unforgettable love, she has always been passive to accept, and when she finally learned how to love him, she didn't have a chance.

For more than three years since her debut, the touching given to her by the fans often makes her ask herself, how can He De be worthy of them being so good to her, and she can't even recognize everyone between them.

Qiao Lin can see this far more clearly than her, Qiao Lin understands her, she wants to let Zhuan know that there are still many people in this world who love her very much, she wants her to know that Zhuan Xin is unique and irreplaceable, she wants to let Zhuan know that she is worthy of these beautiful things.

She also knows that sensuality is like a stream, and when she is moved by the fans, she will not be willing to leave them.

She is selfish, just because she doesn't know why she came here to hang her heart, she knows very well that she is a good actor, she should stay here and be surrounded by light, but she always has an inexplicable uneasiness, and always feels that she will leave sooner or later.

The more time she spent with her, the more distressed Jolene became, what had happened to this girl in her early twenties, and why she was so extremely insecure.

Her other selfishness is just to make Zhuan a little happier, at least let her know that she is not alone, and she, Lulu and the fans will always be by her side.

When she and Lulu finally got into the car, many fans shouted the slogan of the support club in unison behind the car, until the car turned a corner, and Jolene and the staff organized them to leave, and then returned to the venue to clean up.

In the car, Jolene was leaning back in the seat and closing her eyes to recuperate, Jolene was explaining things to Lulu on the phone, and the driver put a CD of piano music, and the voice was slow, and in a trance she seemed to go back to that year.

She was blindfolded, and those warm hands led her away for a long time before stopping, and when she opened her eyes, she was stunned by everything in front of her, and he reached out and shook it in front of her eyes, "Dumbfounded, do you like it?"

How could she not like it, that picture made her unforgettable for the rest of her life, her eighteenth birthday, under the surprise carefully created by Cheng Shuo, became the grandest birthday in her life.

He remembered all her preferences and knew that she was afraid of noise, so he only called Qu Fei to help him spend a particularly warm birthday together, and even the cake was made by himself in the cake room, of course, the most indispensable thing was the big bouquet of orange-red Alocasia flowers.

No one has ever cared so much about her, no one has ever cared so much about her subtle likes and dislikes, and no one has ever been as good to her as he has been.

She thought that God had finally favored her, so she let her meet him.

When Cheng Shuo left T City, she sent him to the airport, in the crowded waiting hall, she sat on a chair, he half-knelt on the ground and tied a red rope around her left ankle, "I know that you are not used to wearing jewelry, so I chose this red rope, and tying it to your feet will not affect your playing of the piano and it is not conspicuous." ”

She looked down and saw that the thin red rope was tied to her ankle and looked good. He reached out and rubbed her hair, "Dumb, can't you ask if there's any other point?"

She raised her head and was about to ask, when he reached out and hooked her nose, "People say that tying a red rope to a person's left ankle means that they will never abandon it for a lifetime." I'm going to keep you by your side for the rest of your life, promise me, okay? Don't go anywhere, you must not leave me. ”

At that time, she thought that staying by Cheng Shuo's side was her life.

Back at the residence, Aunt Fang was still waiting for them. As she changed her clothes and went downstairs, Lulu pushed her from behind to the dining room, where Aunt Fang carried a tray with a white soup bowl and chopsticks and spoons next to it.

Aunt Fang put the tray in front of her, "Aunt Fang doesn't know the customs of your hometown, so she cooked longevity noodles according to the customs of our side, no matter how much you eat, you must eat this longevity noodles even the soup and noodles, so that you can live a long life, be healthy and safe." ”

Lulu sat across from her, "Eat, eat, Aunt Fang has been waiting for us to come back to make this bowl of longevity noodles for you, you can't leave it!"

Looking at Aunt Fang's loving smile, she nodded vigorously, her nose was sore, she held back the tears she wanted to shed, lowered her head and began to eat noodles.

After her debut, her birthday every year is either on the set or working in the field, this is the first time she can be in T City, and after three years, she can eat this bowl of noodles on this day again.

Every year after the age of eighteen, Cheng Shuo would surprise herself differently on this day, if it wasn't for that time when he inadvertently touched her sore spot, maybe she wouldn't have completely uncovered the scar in her heart to him so quickly.

She spoke indifferently about the piercing pain in her heart, as if she was telling other people's stories, those pasts that had never been mentioned to anyone, and she told him unreservedly.

After that day, she didn't remember what she said, but she remembered that there were many stars in the sky that night, and his gentle but firm voice, "Zhuan, you will have me in the future, I will never make you sad again, I will always be with you." ”

Later, in the apartment with their countless memories, she went to him after class, pushed open the door, and the figure in the apron in the kitchen turned around, and said with a bright smile: "It'll be fine soon, wait for me a little longer!"

Although the bowl of noodles that came later didn't look good and she forgot to put salt, she still ate it cleanly. At that time, she finally believed that the person in front of her could really accompany her for a lifetime, and she finally found the person who could be inseparable from the white head, he regarded it as a treasure, she would never leave her life or death, and she thought at that time that she could live a lifetime.

Later, Cheng Shuo's cooked noodles can be sold as a signboard, and all of this is for her, for her bowl of noodles once a year.

She ate the noodles made by Aunt Fang one bite at a time, and Lulu was still telling Aunt Fang how grand and grand the birthday party just ended was. They didn't know that what she originally wanted was just a bowl of noodles, but now this grand and enviable gift can't compare to the happiness of that bowl of noodles in her heart.