21 to 29 years old is an age that is mixed with rushing for life, exhaustion, pain and happiness, depression, easy to think too much, anxiety that you can't succeed in life, and mixed up.

I hope all the post-90s generation, I hope you are all well, you will get better, hold on a little longer.

Xu Shaohua stared closely at his phone screen, where there were already seven missed calls. He clicked on WeChat again irritably, and the top of the special concern on the avatar had been replaced by a cute Pikachu, but in the chat record, Yang Tianxin only replied to a message, full of green words that Xu Shaohua typed by himself, looking pale and weak.

Xu Shaohua slammed himself on the wooden bed in the dormitory, irritably took out a box of Hongtashan from under the pillow, took out one and slowly lit it, but took a hard breath, when the blue smoke gradually rose up and turned white and dissipated, Xu Shaohua felt a little more comfortable in his heart.

His advanced mathematics, microbiology and chemical engineering principles have failed again, this is the third make-up examination organized by the school that Xu Shaohua has participated in, this is about to graduate, many students in the major have completed more than half of their papers, just waiting for graduation, only Xu Shaohua stared blankly at the three bright red numbers in the campus network transcript, at a loss.

A few days ago, the boss who often ordered him was caught by the school's security guard when he delivered the goods, and in the process of sending him to the police station, the boss also confessed Xu Shaohua very unrighteously. Xu Shaohua had no choice but to borrow money from everywhere and bring some online loans, bought four "Ninety-Five Honors" for an old director of the Academic Affairs Office who was in charge of student discipline, carried a box of Moutai, paid a fine of 5,000 yuan, and wrote a letter of guarantee and review before the matter was settled.

After the boss Zhao Bo went to find his Xiao Xi a few days ago, he didn't come back for three days, he didn't answer his phone calls or send messages, it was like someone evaporated. The second Su Tao returned to his hometown, and when he heard that the conscription was almost done, he waited for the big red flower on his chest to go to the army. When Lao Si Chenyang replied to the message in the group, he told them that in fact, he was not doing well in the family business, and the family factory, from the general manager to the squad leader, all regarded him as a stupid "second son", either crazy to slap him, or secretly fooled him, not to give him real things. Therefore, Xu Shaohua's difficulty this time is even more embarrassed to trouble Chenyang, after all, when he was a junior, he helped him once.

The most frustrating and uncomfortable thing for Xu Shaohua was that his "Tianxin baby" had recently disappeared completely. Some time ago, she went to YN with her best friend, saying that she was celebrating her birthday in Shangri-La, Xu Shaohua flipped through the circle of friends, Yang Tianxin was surrounded by handsome guys and beauties, Yang Tianxin was wearing a white minority costume and laughed happily. But no matter what, some time ago, Yang Tianxin also sent a message to Xu Shaohua from time to time, or made a non-stop call or reply to a message.

But recently, the whole person is completely missing, looking at the circle of friends, it seems that I have gone to HN again, the sea beach with coconut, Yang Tianxin in a bikini in the photo, next to him is a tall, yellow-haired and blue-eyed white foreigner, wearing colorful beach swimming trunks, bare six distinct abdominal muscles, and laughing very happily next to Yang Tianxin.

Xu Shaohua, who flipped through the photo, was angry, and shouted loudly in the dormitory, "What's so good about this TM foreign devil, Yang Tianxin, you don't have to stimulate me so much!" But on WeChat, he sent a strange message "Tianxin baby, why don't you reply to your husband's message, my husband misses you!" without any reply.

In the next three days, Xu Shaohua gritted his teeth and pinched his thighs viciously to review the three big courses that had been hung, and kept sending messages to Yang Tianxin, basically never stepped out of the door of the dormitory.

At twelve o'clock last night, Xu Shaohua finally couldn't help but send a message to Yang Tianxin, the content of the message was: Yang Tianxin, are you getting along with other men?

"Ding", Yang Tianxin actually replied to this message, "Xu Shaohua, since you don't believe me, then let's break up!"

Xu Shaohua stared at this news in a daze, before he could propose to break up, Yang Tianxin actually said it mercilessly? And it was the only message that was replied to among the many unanswered messages, just to tell him Xu Shaohua, let's break up!

"Go to TM..." The mobile phone was thrown out by Xu Shaohua and smashed on the ground with a crisp sound. Xu Shaohua ignored it, and began to rummage through the boxes and cabinets in the dormitory, tossing for a long time, and finally turned out a bottle of foreign wine from the boss Zhao Bo's suitcase. Xu Shaohua drank, but he didn't understand wine, he only knew that this kind of foreign wine seemed to be called "whiskey", which was a gift that Chen Yang brought to Zhao Bo last time.

Xu Shaohua shook the golden liquid in the wine bottle, and muttered in a low voice: "Can you drink this foreign wine?" and then squeezed the cork on it with all his might, and poured a big sip of "Gu Dong", and then, the spicy and pungent feeling surged into Zhao Bo's heart in an instant, ", this TM foreign wine is really unpleasant, much more difficult than liquor, what kind of stuff does this foreign devil drink day by day..."

There are four years in college, from the second semester of his freshman year to the first semester of his sophomore year, he almost regarded Yang Tianxin as an ancestor, Yang Tianxin is like a "warm baby" in Xu Shaohua's eyes, more like Xu Shaohua's "little daughter", with a sweet voice, gentle personality, serious work, lively and cheerful. Xu Shaohua worked hard to secretly do business in the school, gave fruits to Yang Tianxin's girlfriends and roommates, ran to the cafeteria like a madman after class every day, and gave Yang Tianxin's favorite food in advance, always worried that Yang Tianxin would lose confidence in him, a "poor boy". But what is everything he has done in front of Yang Tianxin...

The more Xu Shaohua thought about it, the more angry he became, and he grabbed the "whiskey" that he threw aside, poured several big mouthfuls, and fell asleep in a daze.

At noon the next day, Xu Shaohua was woken up early in the morning by the ringing of his mobile phone, he rubbed his groggy head, slowly got up from the bed, picked up the Huawei mobile phone he smashed down yesterday, and pressed the answer button.

"Hey, who. ”

"Hey, Shaohua, I'm my mother. ”

"Mom, why are you, calling, coming, what's wrong, what's wrong. ”

"This kid, how does it feel like drinking, talking in a daze. Mom told you, this morning the head of your department called me, the phone said that you are about to graduate, you still have three courses to pass the make-up exam, the director said, your graduation thesis has not been written, said that you may only get a certificate of completion, not even a graduation certificate and a degree certificate. ”

"Oh, Mom, you don't care, I can handle it myself. ”

"Why are you like this, what can you handle, what can you handle, why don't you have to study in school every day? Why do you say that your family has a college student like you, and your father and I have worked hard to support you to study, is this how you come to repay your father and your mother?"

Xu Shaohua felt a splitting headache for a moment, "Mom, don't say it." ”

The other end of the phone instantly became popular, "Xu Shaohua, how can I not talk about you, you can see for yourself what you are like now, the head of your department said that you are hanging around in school every day, doing business secretly, fooling around, and not studying hard." You said that you are about to graduate, and your classmates have graduation certificates, but you don't even have a graduation certificate, what can you do?"

"Mom, don't say it, I didn't study hard, but I was working hard in the later stage, our dormitory all graduated successfully, but I couldn't graduate successfully, do you think my heart is comfortable? I also want to get ahead, glorify my ancestors, but the premise is, Mom, I also have to live, I am also a big man with seven emotions and six desires, I also want to save face..." Xu Shaohua suddenly felt aggrieved, tears couldn't stop flowing, he had been a long, long time, and he hadn't cried.

Hearing Xu Shaohua's cry, the other end of the phone suddenly panicked, "Shaohua, baby son, don't cry, Mom also knows that it is not easy for you, Mom is just anxious, Mom is afraid that you will ruin your future if you are not angry, and in the end, you will be the same as me and your father, and become a fruit seller." Why don't I ask your dad to come up tomorrow and buy some gifts for your department head, and beg your department head to let you graduate smoothly. ”

"No, Mom, there's really no need for that, I still have a chance, as long as I have studied well recently and passed the last exam. ”

"Then Shaohua, you have to work hard, I'll ask your dad to give you more money, buy yourself some delicious food and drink, go out, don't wronged yourself!"

"Got it, Mom, I'm hanging up!" Xu Shaohua hung up the phone, tears rained down in an instant, he had not cried so happily for a long time.

At that moment, Xu Shaohua was the most lonely and helpless, all the grievances, even if they were told to others, others just listened to a joke. Without personal experience, there is no way to put yourself in the shoes of a young man how easy it is to collapse, just like Xu Shaohua at this moment, how painful it is......