No way of life is inherently sinful.

But any kind of long-term monolithic life is a crime against oneself.

Knowing that there is a right to multiple choices but not asserting it is even more wrong.

——Da Bing "Amitabha Buddha Momodha"

The three-month summer vacation was simply bad news for Xu Shaohua himself. This kind of bad news is a kind of loneliness and loneliness that no one cares about, and it is an unimaginable fatigue after failure and downfall. Everything was pressed on the graduation certificate that could not be obtained, and the contrast between the big red stamp on everyone's face and the light red on their graduation certificate was the best explanation, elusive and unpredictable.

Fortunately, Xu Shaohua's parents didn't say much, but those sighs were more heart-wrenching than criticism and education for Xu Shaohua. Beautiful Dreams and Scrapwood Rise are both plots in novels and TV series. All the truths and opportunities are written by successful people, and Xu Shaohua has no right to experience these things.

He got a job handing out flyers near the university, handing out flyers for six hours a day for sixty dollars. For Xu Shaohua, these sixty yuan is tantamount to sending charcoal in the snow. Fortunately, Xu Shaohua has been engaged in various stall vendors since he was a child, and he is very adaptable, and he quickly accepted this hard-won benefit.

When he asked his parents for money again, he had no face. As for the direction of his efforts, it is just to exchange his graduation certificate for a graduation certificate, so as to save his last bit of dignity.

Most of the people who went to college during the summer vacation have gone home, and except for the students of the same grade who have been admitted to graduate school and some seniors who are in graduate school, it is rare to see acquaintances. For Xu Shaohua, this is the greatest consolation in loneliness. It is worth mentioning that the department is also very sympathetic to Xu Shaohua's tragic experience, and specially allowed him to live in the dormitory, help the dormitory manager inspect various facilities in the dormitory, take care of the dormitory, and also give him a hardship fee of 500 yuan every month.

Xu Shaohua's personality is very optimistic, and his optimistic personality makes him play with the children of supermarkets, shops, and canteens near the school every day after work. Xu Shaohua is very generous, and uses his daily salary to buy some candy and yogurt for these children on summer vacation. The children will always happily surround him after seeing his figure, shouting "Brother Shaohua and Brother Shaohua" non-stop.

Xu Shaohua, who became the king of children, finally did not collapse in his heart, but it was not until one time, when he was playing hide and seek with a child named "Huzi", Huzi's mother appeared, she quickly stepped forward and slapped Huzi in the face, and then began to scold: "You bear child, do you want to be angry with the old lady? Look at what time it is now, you skinless and faceless child, you are mixed with people all day long." Have you completed all your homework? Have you completed all the tasks assigned by the teacher? If you don't work hard, you will grow up like him, and you won't even be able to finish your homework, and you'll be wandering around the school all day long. ”

Xu Shaohua recognized at a glance that this was the aunt cleaning in their college. It's just that the aunt's fingers are pointed straight at him, making him want to go forward and reason well, but it is difficult to speak.

Xu Shaohua silently turned around and left, the eyes of the tiger mother were like knives carved in his heart, he Xu Shaohua is also a person with skin and face, so being counted by an adult, what is the difference between the taste in his heart and others giving alms to beggars.

Huzi was grinning and crying, and was dragged away by his mother, and at the same time, Xu Shaohua's last bit of dignity was pulled away.

In the evening, Xu Shaohua climbed the school's bell tower, and he sat on the top floor of the bell tower, with a large area of cement under his feet. Xu Shaohua was thinking, maybe as soon as he died like this, the whole person might be liberated and no longer bothered by these worldly things. Because he really doesn't know what else a failed person like him can do.

His favorite Yang Tianxin deleted himself completely, forgot everything about it, and never appeared in his sight again. In the eyes of his parents, he is now a rebel. really let him choose to be a soldier, he is afraid of hardship, let him be like the boss Zhao Bo, go to the end of the world, he is timid. He doesn't have a prominent family background like the fourth Su Chenyang, he doesn't have Zhao Bo's courage, and he doesn't have the perseverance of the second Su Tao, what else can he leave him except frustration.

Xu Shaohua thought about sending another text message to Yang Tianxin at the last moment, although she had already blocked her mobile phone number, but since she was leaving, she still had to say what she had to say, otherwise he would not be able to leave.

Xu Shaohua flipped through his mobile phone, "Ding Ding!" The official account in WeChat was updated. This official account used to be Xu Shaohua's favorite public account, which has a lot of particularly interesting jokes, humorous and funny, but the theme of today's official account is a little unpredictable: You are not the stupidest!

Xu Shaohua clicked on this public account news, and the content in it was about Zeng Guofan, a famous minister of the late Qing Dynasty! Who Zeng Guofan was, Xu Shaohua didn't know, but he patiently continued to read it. The story is very short, and it tells the story of Zeng Guofan, a famous minister in the late Qing Dynasty, who was very late when he was a child, and was very stupid when he was a child. It takes someone else an hour to memorize three or four ancient texts, but it takes him three or four hours to barely remember one of them.

Once, a thief sneaked into their house to steal something, just as Zeng Guofan came home from school. The thief hid on the beam of the house in a hurry and waited for Zeng Guofan to leave, but he never thought that Zeng Guofan took out the ancient text arranged by the teacher from his schoolbag and began to recite it. The thief waited from noon to afternoon, and he did not see Zeng Guofan being able to recite this ancient text fluently. The thief was so anxious that he jumped down from the beam and said to Zeng Guofan: "Why are you so stupid, you are just a piece of waste! After speaking, he fluently recited the ancient text that Zeng Guofan had just recited, and then swaggered out of Zeng Guofan's house.

But this incident did not discourage Zeng Guofan, he later studied harder, and finally grew into a famous minister of the late Qing Dynasty, the official to the governor of Liangjiang, the governor of Zhili, the scholar of Wuyingdian University, and the first class of Yiyong Marquis.

Xu Shaohua couldn't help laughing out loud after reading this official account, he felt that this old man named Zeng Guofan was really funny, it was simply stupid and unreasonable. But at that moment, he suddenly realized that he had not yet reached the point of being hopeless, so he jumped from the bell tower in such an unknown way, and there was one less failed Xu Shaohua in the world, and no one cared. But in the future, there is a lack of a successful Xu Shaohua, who is loved and admired by people everywhere.

For Xu Shaohua, where should he start? Xu Shaohua stood in front of the mirror and carefully looked at himself in the mirror from beginning to end, he has grown from 60 kilograms when he first entered the school to a thin man with a beer belly of nearly 75 kilograms now. The beard is all over the face, the hair is greasy and shiny, the eye sockets of the whole person are sunken, and the whole person looks like a mentally exhausted zombie, the walking dead.

The more Xu Shaohua observed himself, the more he found that he had no confidence, from a sunny and handsome squinting young man to a greasy and sloppy uncle with a big belly, Xu Shaohua only took a year. All the changes are a bit hasty for him now, because there are so many things he needs to change, and he doesn't know where to start.

After hesitating, Xu Shaohua borrowed all the textbooks and notes that hung up the classes, put them in front of his desk, took the initiative to apply for a nearby driving school, and quit his job as a flyer, explained his original intention to his parents in detail, got financial support, and lived a quiet life of asceticism.

No one knows how long this effort will last......