"Can't get a divorce! Absolutely can't get a divorce!" my mother's tone was very categorical, "You wait, I'll call Xudong, I'll ask him, he obviously said that he would take good care of you, could this be just a misunderstanding!"

"Mom......" I called out to her weakly, my mom had already hung up the phone quickly, and I called her back to indicate that she was on the phone.

She really called Lu Xudong! Will he admit it?

My head was a mess, and there was a slight awe-inspiring awe.

A few minutes later, my mother called me back again, and as soon as she changed her panic before hanging up the phone, she opened her mouth to reproach: "What kind of temper are you making? Even Xu Dong is gay/sexual/love can make up nonsense, is Xiaolian contacting you again?"

I was a little confused by her sudden change of attitude, and called out to her in confusion: "Mom?"

"You still know that I'm your mother!" My mother was a little angry, "You are really stiff now, more and more undisciplined, you think about divorce when you quarrel, and you learn to make up nonsense to bluff me, if I didn't call Xudong, I was really bluffed by you, tell me about you, where did Xudong treat you badly? Are you confused by ghosts?"

No matter how dull I was, I knew that Lu Xudong must have lied to my mother, and a sense of powerlessness hit me in my heart, and I angrily rejected: "Why do you only believe what he says? Mom, I am your biological daughter!"

But my mother didn't listen to me at all, she counted me down in a hard voice, and only sighed at the end: "You, live a good life, don't think about it all day, and hurry up to find a job when your feet are healed, I see that your temper is idle at home!"

Until she hung up the phone, I still couldn't believe it, it turned out that my crying was not enough for Lu Xudong's words.

I really don't understand, since Lu Xudong can tear his face with me, why should he make up lies to coax my mother?

The little hope I had left was extinguished, and I sat on the ground with my back against the bed with my phone in my head, suddenly wishing I could disappear from the world.

The phone rang again, and I answered it after a while, and Lu Xudong called, and the split was an angry shout: "You dare to sue your mother!"

I looked up at the ceiling and reminded him with some amusement, "I'm just telling the truth!" Even if I want to sue, I will sue him at his house, right?

There was a stirring in his head, and the words had already rushed out of his mouth without thinking: "Seriously, I really want to try the taste of suing your parents, Lu Xudong, your father hates me so much, if I go to him for help, I'm afraid that I don't have to make up a dime, and I can get a smooth divorce, right?"

Lu Xudong didn't care at all, "You just try, without my consent, can the old man help you!"

I hesitated for a moment, and the hope that had risen seemed to be flying away.

Lu Xudong reminded me with mockery and disdain, "Don't forget, we have received a marriage certificate! No matter how capable the old man is, can he force me to sign a divorce?"

Knowing that what he said made sense, but I didn't want to admit it, I pulled my lips at myself and said hopelessly, "Maybe he's willing to lend me money?"

Even if Lu Xudong was not in front of me, I could feel his anger on the phone.

He gritted his teeth and asked me, "Why do you think the old man will give you money?

"Your father doesn't want me as a daughter-in-law. I was calm compared to his anger, "Since you can give so much money to my mother, it can be seen that you think I am worth so much money, besides, your father cares about you, you should be much more valuable than me!"

I don't know why I said such a thing, I obviously didn't mean to mock him, but I just couldn't help it, I couldn't help but want him to taste the taste of being judged by money.

Originally, it was just hopeless angry words, but when I said this, I suddenly felt that my eyes lit up, maybe, I can really try it?

Lu Xudong's father didn't want to see me, I was a little sad about it in the past, and I tried to win his approval one day, but I didn't expect that now, he has become my last hope to escape from this marriage.

I smiled self-deprecatingly again, although I am not ashamed of this thought, but I am getting more and more impatient, people have been driven to the end of the road, why should I care about any dignity and face, compared to being tied to such a marriage relationship, I am willing to gamble!

"Really?" Lu Xudong's tone was as cold as ice, "After taking my money, then go and take my father's money to talk to me about divorce?"

He easily wiped out my hope, and I closed my eyes weakly, like a fish out of water, "What do you want?"

The words were thrown out, and tears slid down.

Lu Xudong's voice fluctuated without emotion: "I said that if you want to get a divorce, wait for another three years at most, or you can not divorce ......"

He sneered before continuing, "I really think you're fit to be my wife, once upon a time, and now!"

Hehe, I was blinded by lard, so when he said that I was suitable, my heart was as sweet as honey, and only now do I know that suitability is also a kind of irony!

The perception of powerlessness is too clear, I have too many unwillingness, but I have no way at all, even my mother refuses to help me, as if I have no choice but to compromise.

It seems that even breathing is laughing at my inadequacy!

I stopped talking, and Lu Xudong quickly closed the line.

My heart was empty, as if the whole person had lost my strength, and I was a little shaky even when I got up to go to the bathroom.

On the second day of my aunt's term, the amount was a bit much, so I changed into a sanitary napkin for night and sat on the toilet for a long time before slowly returning to the room.

The sky outside was overcast, as if I was in a dark mood at the moment, and I hugged my pillow and nestled in the bay window, and suddenly I had the illusion that I had been abandoned by the whole world.

There are a thousand things in my heart, sometimes resentful and sometimes sad, and even cowardly regret that I shouldn't have trouble with Lu Xudong, and after a while, I laugh at myself for being a big stupid turtle, and when I encounter setbacks, I just want to retract into my shell.

In fact, I fully understand that I can have the courage to be so hysterical, but it is just the light of emotional instability during the menstrual period.

But it's really sad, why is it so difficult to live cautiously for twenty years, and even the only time I want to fight for myself?

I don't have to complain about Lu Xudong's cold-bloodedness, but why can my mother help others in such a lifelong event?

When I was a child, I was often bullied by children my age, and occasionally I would fight back, but the result was usually that my parents came to my door and complained to my mother.

Whenever that time, my mother always beat me up indiscriminately, she always said that no matter whether it was right or wrong, it was wrong for me to cause trouble outside, not to mention that a slap didn't make a sound, she couldn't control other people's children, she could only take care of her own family.

As a result, I developed a character of only finding the reason in myself no matter what happened, even if my sister-in-law came in later and had a relationship with me that was not very close, I blamed it on my failure to be a qualified sister-in-law.

I also know that this is not right, and many times when my mother is very biased, I also want to ask her if I am her own child.

Just like four years ago, when I had a sudden acute gastroenteritis and groped to the hospital by myself, I called my mother helplessly, but she only said that she would take care of my sister-in-law at home, and she was not willing to spare even a few hours for me.

At that time, I hated myself for being a daughter, and I was jealous that my sister-in-law could eat my mother and my brother, although sometimes I was annoyed that my mother didn't pay attention to me, but every time I thought that she was my mother after all, and although she didn't like me, she pulled me so big, I was conflicted, and there was no way to blame her for blaming her.

I have endured and endured for so many years, but at this moment, I have completely realized what it means to be disheartened.

I cried for a while, and then I fell asleep against the window.

When I woke up again, it was completely dark, and there was a rustle outside the window, and there was the sound of rain.

I rubbed my eyes, looked at the water droplets hitting the glass window, my thoughts were a little confused, and my head was groggy, as if I was about to catch a cold.

It's terrible!

I bit my lower lip, not wanting to really make myself sick at such a time, so I struggled to get up and went to the living room to drink a large cup of hot water, I didn't bother to turn on the light, took out a bag of snacks from the drawer by the dim natural light outside, wiped it out three times and two times, and poured a large glass of warm water, feeling that I had recovered a little, and then touched back to the room.

I went to the bathroom to scrub briefly, changed an extended tampon, and before going to bed, I deliberately took out a blanket from the cabinet, wrapped myself tightly, and was ready to sleep.

I didn't even lock the door, and I couldn't care what time it was, I just knew that I had tossed myself enough at the end of the day, and I really didn't want to make myself too embarrassed, so even if the sky was about to fall, wait for me to bring my spirit back first.

This night, I slept very unsteadily, and after a while I dreamed that I had a big fight with my mother, and I asked her if I was her own child, and she told me not to recognize her again in the future......

After a while, Lu Xudong swore on the day of the wedding, he said that he would take good care of me, but in a blink of an eye, the gentle expression on his face became hideous, and he stretched out his hands and angrily pinched my neck, until I couldn't breathe, and then I woke up violently.

The room was lit up with orange light, and I subconsciously looked at the floor lamp in the corner, and thought blankly about when I turned on the light, but my head was groggy and I didn't seem to have any impression at all.

I simply stopped thinking about it, and laughed at myself thinking about what I was really afraid of, the more I didn't want to get sick, the more I really made myself sick.

The sticky discomfort on the forehead, in fact, not only the forehead, but also the whole body is sticky and greasy, probably because of the sweating wrapped in the blanket.