It's been half a year, and I've finally walked out of that forbidden land.

Because of my own experience, and the state of mind that I have reached, so. In the face of such a tragic scene in front of me, on the surface, I can show indifference.

But, after all, I am a mortal. Even if the martial arts are strong, it has not yet transcended the shackles of mortals, seeing that the strength of the man in purple has become stronger, even the degree of his enchantment is more profound, and how many people he has brought, the side of the martial arts family. So many people died, even my mother. I was seriously injured, and deep down, how could I be at peace.

New hatred and old hatred, in my heart. Hatred is everywhere, killing intent, and I can't help but run around in my body.

And, at the moment when I released my momentum and was about to fight the peak battle with the man in purple, my thoughts, as if uncontrollable, were pulled back to half a year ago.

At that time, I followed the Veil Girl into the land of mountains and rivers, and entered the scope of this martial arts family.

A family of martial arts, living in seclusion, but with its own scale, its mystery and enormity, really shocked me. In particular, there are many masters here, and their tenacious and strong momentum has affected me who feels desperate and decadent, and I feel that I can find opportunities to become stronger here, and my life path may not really reach the point of despair.

Under the guidance of the Veil Girl, I finally met my mysterious mother, who was an elegant and indifferent middle-aged beauty, deep in the Jedi, and her state of mind seemed to be much lighter.

After all, it was the first time we met, and in such a depressing situation, even my biological mother, I couldn't help but be a little stiff. However, perhaps the most fundamental blood connection between me and her, it didn't take long for the atmosphere between me and my mother to dissolve.

I talked to her a lot, and finally understood her struggle, and she couldn't help herself when she left me and my father. Everything is because of the family rules of the martial arts family, so that she can't follow the direction of her heart, because people from the martial arts family are not allowed to have affairs with outsiders, not to mention, my mother is the beloved daughter of the head of this martial arts family.

In desperation, my mother chose to compromise, and it was because of my mother's compromise that I was able to keep my father and me safe, so that the martial arts family would no longer hold my father responsible, but since then, my mother's life has been shackled, she must not leave the martial arts family for half a step, she can no longer do what she wants, she can only completely cut off contact with my father, and can only be imprisoned here.

However, my mother is the most reluctant to be my son, she really can't bear to leave me as a baby, but she is so helpless, she can't give me maternal love, she can only secretly leave her family's treasure, my grandfather gave her Tianshan Snow Lotus, secretly left it to me, she put her love for me, all in her heart, so many years, she has always remembered me, perhaps, this is the wordless and helpless maternal love.

Because of this, I can't hate my mother for leaving me, on the contrary, my heart is still full of warmth and a touch of sympathy for my mother when I met her for the first time.

Mother's helplessness is too deep, but her love is unquestionable, whether it is for me or for my father, she is deeply loved.

My mother also told me a lot about my father, she told me the love story between them, the helpless and sad love story, the father's character, and the good of many fathers.

I know that my father is also a tragic figure forced by reality, he can't disobey the sky, he can only watch his woman leave her, and he can only endure the pain of sending his beloved son to the mountain village just to ensure his son's safety.

But in the end, no one knows what happened to my father, my mother doesn't know what happened to my father, and she doesn't know why the man in purple suddenly replaced my father and became the head of the Lin family.

And I told my mother everything that happened to me without reservation.

My mother was deeply distressed, guilty, and helpless about what I had endured, for the past was gone, and she could not change anything, and now that I am here, she will do everything in her power to keep me here.

Indeed, there is an incomparable man in purple outside, who has no place for me, and as soon as I go out, it must be a dead word. At least, here, I can be safe, and I can have the opportunity to become stronger, and I will be disgraced in the future!

However, the reality is always so cruel, and my hope soon turned into disappointment, because the people of the martial arts family did not tolerate me at all. Even though my mother has a very high status in this martial arts family, what others give me is still cold.

Even, there are people who humiliate me in front of me, scolding me for being a waste, saying that I am not worthy of staying in this martial arts family, and even worse, scolding me behind my back, saying that I am a wild species, and I can't get along outside, so I came here to make a living.

Faced with such a situation, I was very saddened, and my rising hope heart became desperate again, as if a basin of cold water had been poured on it.

However, on the surface, I still pretend to be strong, because I don't want to disappoint two people, one is the veiled girl who saved me from fire and water several times in my dangerous situation, and even was hit hard by the man in purple because of me. The other person is my mother.

I was insulted by such cold treatment, and they were all very sad and extremely anxious. They are already like this, and if I show any negative emotions, I am afraid that they will be even more sad. In that case, I would look down on myself and tell them, "It's okay, even if I only have the slightest chance, I'll try to stay here." ”

I will never forget those days, during the day I encountered cold eyes, at night, I was alone, I couldn't sleep, in the dark cabin, I felt an unprecedented grievance, and a helplessness, lying on the couch, I was like a wounded old dog, licking the wounds in my heart.

Although others are right, I did flee here, but, how to say, I am also my mother's own son, she has such a high position in this martial arts family, is it really so difficult for me to stay here? Or is it that from the moment I appeared in front of everyone, they subconsciously regarded me as a disaster, unwilling to approach me, and deliberately embarrassed me?

I have hatred in my heart, but I don't hate these people from martial arts families, I hate the injustice of heaven, I, Lin Feng, although I am not a hero, but I am upright and do not do things that hurt heaven and reason, but why, God treats me like this, let me experience the most miserable pain in the world again and again, and let me enter despair again and again!

However, I know that people die like lights going out, if I die, then everything is gone, and my grievances, pains, and unwillingness will disappear...

Life is the most precious, I should cherish it, I have warned myself countless times: Lin Feng, you have survived so many dangers, your life is picked up from under the blade of death, there are too many people, you have paid too much, yourself, what qualifications do you have not to cherish?

In this way, I lived a few days in a difficult and tenacious martial arts family. A few days later, my mother came to me and said, "Feng'er, what happened to you now, my mother is also very helpless, today, I will take you to meet an important person, if he agrees to let you stay here, then it is useless even if everyone in the family opposes it, but if he doesn't let you stay here..."

Speaking of which, my mother didn't continue, but in my heart, I already knew what she was thinking behind her, if even this important person didn't want me to stay here, then I, Lin Feng, was really big, but there was no place for me.

I followed my mother to an important hill in the martial arts family, which was the hill where the head of the martial arts family was located, and my mother took me to meet the old master here!

Since it is my grandfather, how to say it, he is also related to me, but what surprised and disappointed me even more was that my grandfather, the old head of the martial arts family, actually rejected me.

He said to my mother: "I am a martial arts family, passed down from generation to generation, and avoid the world, and Lin Feng, although he is my own grandson, but his identity is not accepted and recognized by me, strictly speaking, he is not a member of my martial arts family, but a person of the world with a deep grudge and hatred, you send him away quickly, don't interfere with the purity here." ”

At that time, my foreign minister was in retreat, and he refused me without even coming out to see me.

At this moment, my heart is really dead, even if I want to stay here, even if my mother wants me to stay here, it is impossible. No one can shake the majesty of the head of the martial arts family, even if my mother is his biological daughter, there is no way.

That night, I secretly cried, not because of the unknown danger I was about to face, not because I was ostracized by the martial arts family, but because it was meaningless for me to live like this, and it became a real livelihood.

Living like this, I can't see the slightest hope, and even my heart has become gray.

The next day, it was supposed to be the time when my mother and the veil girl sent me away from the martial arts family.

However, my mother did not send me out directly, but asked me very solemnly: "Feng'er, are you afraid of death?"

No one is afraid of death, I am indeed afraid of death, but what I am more afraid of is that there is no point in living. From my mother's question, I seemed to sense a different underlying meaning, so I shook my head fiercely and said categorically: "I'm not afraid of death!"

Hearing this, my mother nodded, but her eyes were full of sadness and helplessness, as if she was going to watch me die.

However, she didn't say much, just started another topic and told me: "There is a forbidden place in the martial arts family, which is full of dangers, and no one dares to set foot in it. ”

Perhaps, she also knew that if I left this martial arts family and went outside, I would only encounter more tribulations, and I would only be forced by the man in purple to have nowhere to escape, and if I was sent to the forbidden land, I still had a glimmer of hope for life. No matter what, I know that my mother is doing this for my own good.

And I don't want to go outside to live a modest life, I don't want to be used by the man in purple again, and I don't want to be ostracized by the martial arts family in this place, which makes my mother embarrassed and painful. I just want to hide alone, even if it's a quiet death.

So, when I heard my mother's words, I didn't even hesitate much, and said directly to my mother: "I'm going to that forbidden place!"

Hearing this, my mother was a little stunned, but I added, "No way, this is my only way to live." ”

At this point, my mother's eyes became more and more sad, but she didn't say anything more, only told me to keep this matter secret, not to walk around, and wait for her to come back to me in the evening.

In the evening, my mother came to me with the veiled girl, and it turned out that they were going to see me off. At this moment, the veiled girl seems to know where I am going, since she saw me, her eyebrows, has been frowning, obviously want to talk to me, but she doesn't say a word, but, walking with her, I can feel the misery in her heart, and worry about me.

Under the cover of the night, my mother and the veil girl took me quietly towards the back of the martial arts family, and it didn't take long for us to reach the back mountain, but our figure did not stop, we still went forward, and walked a long way, and finally, we stopped.

I know we've arrived at our destination.

Here, my mother said to me: "Feng'er, this is your only way to live, and your only chance, this forbidden place is full of dangers, and the chance of surviving is very low, and it can even be said that it is a life of nine deaths, but, according to legend, there is a martial arts inheritance of a martial arts family, perhaps, you can find another way of your achievement, all of this depends on your own creation." ”

Having said that, but, from between my mother's eyebrows, I could see her worry and reluctance, but after all, she was a resolute woman and would not show vulnerability in front of me, so she didn't say anything about her heart.

At this moment, I realized my mother's intentions more deeply, she was really helpless, but she still gave me new hope, there is a martial arts inheritance of the martial arts family in this forbidden land, then, if I am lucky enough, perhaps, this is really not just a crisis, but a crisis. When I went in, I didn't simply hide and live alone, but with that glimmer of hope for rebirth, I lived resolutely.

Thinking of this, I immediately nodded heavily to my mother.

And, at this time, the veil girl came over and handed me a package, she has never liked to talk much, at this moment, she also said to me rarely: "Lin Feng, there is some dry food in here, you take care of yourself." ”

I didn't know how to respond, such a scene, I couldn't help but have a sense of sadness in the face of life and death, took the package from the veil girl's hand, I nodded firmly to her, and looked at my mother deeply, in order not to worry them too much, I shook my head, suddenly quickened my pace, and walked forward.

Even though I turned away and turned my back to my mother and the Veiled Girl, I could feel the burning gaze of them looking at my back at this moment.

At this moment, my heart is complicated, with helpless despair, but also with ethereal hope, but also with misery, reluctance, and deep hatred in my heart. As I walked, I suddenly felt that my legs were a little weak, facing the darkness in front of me, I could feel the extremely terrifying forbidden place from the outside, I was afraid that my steps would be even a little bit stagnant, I bit the tip of my tongue sharply, and walked forward quickly.

I didn't even dare to say hello to my mother and the Veil Girl, until my figure disappeared into the darkness, I turned my head and looked behind me, I don't know if the Veil Girl and my mother are gone now, but I can't see them anymore, and they can't see me anymore.

I felt that the corners of my eyes were a little moist, but, entering this forbidden place, I felt even more that my desire to survive, the desire to become stronger, became more and more intense, I took a deep breath, put aside the many distractions in my heart, stride, and walked towards the inner part of the forbidden land...