I limped and walked very fast, until I completely disappeared from her sight, and then I suddenly looked up, roared to the sky, and began to cry....

My cries were drowned out in the pouring rain, as if the whole world was crying for me, and at that moment, I felt like the most unfortunate person in the world!!

Dragging my embarrassed body, I stepped into a bar that was extremely strange to me, flashing lights, surging music, dancing crowds, crazy restlessness, I was drowning in the crowd, drinking alone, glass after glass, I heard that alcohol can anesthetize the nerves and make people in pain happy, but why do I feel dizzy and want to vomit after drinking so much, and the troubles in my heart have not been eliminated at all!

The people on the dance floor are dancing more and more, so many beautiful women like snakes and demons are writhing around a proud boy, dancing wildly, looking at others, and then looking at themselves, as if they are not from this world, why can others live so confidently, and I want to live so aggrieved? The road ahead is so long, how should I go? Do I want to live so sloppily for the rest of my life?

No, I can't give up on myself, no matter how rough the road in the future is, I must do my best to live a good life, if I want to change this painful fate, there is only one choice, that is, go to university.

In the past, because I had no money, no strength and no courage, I lost the opportunity to go to college, but now I have 10,000 yuan on my shoulder, and I think that as long as there is a glimmer of hope, I will fight for this only chance to change my fate. Thinking of this, I picked up the wine glass in my hand and drank it down.

The next day, I cut my hair, bought a pair of cheap clothes, made myself look a little more like a person, and went straight to school.

With the admission letter in hand, I ran around the school, begging people everywhere, grinding and grinding, and in the end, the school agreed to accept me, a belated little cripple.

After the formalities were completed, I immediately went to the assigned dormitory, which was a four-person dormitory, and when I arrived, the other three were there, one was playing a game, and I didn't understand, but I heard him shouting there to hurry up and come to Area A to get off the bag or something. I was also watching a movie on the computer, and the woman in the picture was undressed, which made my face red before I had never seen the world. Compared to these two dicks, the other one is much taller, and he is dressed very fashionably, at this moment, he is yelling at his mobile phone, saying that he doesn't want to live in this hellish place, and he wants to apply to the school to rent a house outside.

These three people, in different forms, have one fucking thing in common, that is, they treat me as a transparent person. I didn't even have to introduce myself to them, I just went to my bed and cleaned up.

When I really got into it, I realized that college life was not as good as I imagined, the people here were not as simple as my country classmates, people had a pair of snobbish eyes on their faces, they were very popular, they were very popular, and they were crippled like me, and it was harder to make friends than to climb to the sky, and people always ate and went to class in groups, only me, always alone.

In the eyes of others, maybe I am the air, or perhaps, I am an eyesore, the environment makes me feel like I have autism, my sensitive heart can feel that many people reject me, in order not to hinder the eyes of others, I always hide in the most corner, whether it is in class or eating. Even when I walk, I choose a secluded road.

Although I don't feel any warmth, I myself will not give up on myself, I have no home, no relatives and friends, everything can only rely on myself, I have to work ten million times harder than others to survive in this indifferent world. I listened carefully to every class, went to the library to read a lot of books, and went to work part-time when I had free time, fighting for next year's tuition and making a living.

It's been a long time since I've been lonely and working hard, and I've slowly adapted to it, but there is a feeling that I can't get rid of, that is, I'm afraid of meeting Xiaoyue.

10,000 yuan, let me and her completely draw a line, I originally planned to stay away from her world and she will never meet any more possibilities, but, even if I am entangled, and then want to stay away from her, I can't give up my chance to go to college because of this, now, I only hope that the huge campus, me and her can become two parallel lines, don't meet by chance. However, God will not easily get your wish, and it seems inevitable that we will meet again.

One evening after the National Day, I was walking alone on the quiet path with my head down as usual, suddenly, a touch of fragrance entered my nose, I couldn't help but raise my head slightly, a beautiful shadow immediately came into my eyes, she, wearing a set of white casual clothes, with headphones on her ears, looks so youthful and fashionable, and she walked together, or the little black girl in the restaurant last time, the two of them stood together, it was still such a sharp contrast, but at this moment, this beauty and ugliness invariably widened their eyes, revealing a look of surprise。

We were like this, the six eyes looked at each other for a long time, and Xiao Yue, who looked surprised, slowly took off her headphones while staring at me, and stopped talking.

I knew what she wanted to ask, so I took out my student ID card and stretched it out to her, pursed my lips and said, "I'm going to school here too!"

Xiao Yue stared at my student ID, and was even more surprised, and couldn't help but say, "What a coincidence!"

I nodded slightly and said softly, "Well, then I'll go first." With that, I left without looking back.

After walking for a while, I heard the curious voice of the little black girl: "Yueyue, didn't he sacrifice his life to save your cripple last time?"

Xiao Hei doesn't know, but I know that Xiao Yue is speechless to me, no matter what kind of person I am in her heart, at least, Xiao Yue has felt my indifference and deliberate avoidance, and her smart choice has nothing to do with me from now on.

After that, when we see each other again, we are already strangers, just like we never met, I don't even have to say hello, this should be the result I want, but why did it really become like this, I was so heartbroken, so empty.

Looking back, I was really cheap, blindly avoiding and pretending, what she wanted to say to me, but I ignored it, or I just used damn lies to deal with it, at that time I just wanted to have nothing to do with her, I just wanted to quickly escape from her sight, and now the two really have nothing to do with each other, but I am more uncomfortable than at that time.

I can't figure out why I'm so cheap, is it because I'm angry with her, or I'm afraid she's going to get me in trouble, or do I want to forget about her completely?

After thinking about it all night, I suddenly became enlightened, and finally understood that the reason why I didn't dare to face her again, I was not happy that she gave me money, and I always said things against my heart were all because of my mother's two words: inferiority.

There is only a thin line between inferiority complex and self-esteem, the inferiority complex is too strong, just because the self-esteem is too strong, I want to keep my damn self-esteem in front of Xiaoyue, just because, since I first saw her, her status as a goddess in my heart has not changed, I just, I just don't want to be looked down upon by the goddess.

After knowing this fact, I will always run to the playground intentionally or unintentionally, hide in a no-man's corner, and want to take a sneak look at Xiaoyue, but I have no intention of planting willows and willows, and I have the intention to plant flowers but do not send them, once some things are deliberate, it is difficult to achieve, when I want to see her, I can't always see it, perhaps, some things are lost and can never be recovered, including fate.

Until the end of October, my life was still lonely and busy, I didn't see Xiaoyue again, and nothing special happened.

That day, I was coming out of the library, walking alone on a path, far away, I saw a group of people around, and when I got closer, I found that a similar scene was repeated, and Xiaoyue was entangled, and the entangled group of people was coincidentally a group of bastards led by long bangs, they actually found the school, my heart pounded, and I subconsciously hid behind a tree.

I faintly heard the bastard ask Xiaoyue to lose money, talking about the last time they were injured, and said that their eldest brother almost lost his life, and counted all my accounts to Xiaoyue, obviously they came prepared, I don't know if I was born with luck or mildew, every time the scene of the dog's blood needs a hero to save the beauty can always be caught up by me, but, after eating two lessons, I have also tasted serious consequences, I really don't dare to be reckless anymore.

I can't afford that kind of price anymore, it's not easy for me to study in this university, I can't ruin my future anymore, I don't want my other leg to be crippled by them, after a few entanglements, I still choose to hide behind a tree and watch quietly.

I thought, no matter how lawless that bastard is, he doesn't dare to mess around at school, after taking this reassuring pill, I am even more determined not to be strong, but, this determination was shaken again when I saw Xiao Yue's helpless and pitiful eyes, to be honest, I really have no immunity to Xiao Yue, even if I am rational and calm, once I touch Xiao Yue's eyes, I am easily in a trance.

Her beauty is too attractive to me, her expression is too seductive to me, my heart keeps swaying, and, just when I hesitated, Xiao Yue, who was confronting the bastard, suddenly glanced at me hiding behind the tree, and at this moment when the four eyes met, I couldn't hold it back, even if I was cowardly and thick-skinned, I couldn't hide it, so I slowly moved my foot away and was about to walk towards them.

However, before my bear began to draw his sword to help, the real hero appeared at a critical moment!