I'm not done yet.

But it seems that he is not in a hurry, and he will not ask what he missed as he once did. Thinking is only the content of the picture that I perceive, and it seems that I am controlling my thinking, but its essence is that falsehood is just an element of the picture.

The whole dream was misleading me, making me think that I was the character of Yuan Changwen. And this kind of misdirection or deception is not like someone standing there and hypnotizing me or something.

On the contrary, it was I who deceived myself. I associate the elements that I perceive, and forcibly change the state that is clearly just existing to another state with the distortion in my mind. For example, the memory in the mind is just a memory, just the state of being aware of it at the moment.

But I have to forcibly distort this memory, directly identify this memory as real, and force myself to think that time is continuous. Obviously, I don't know if I've experienced the story in my head, but I still forcibly distort my thinking and directly judge that I have really experienced the story in my head.

After forcibly distorting it, I didn't think that I was forcibly distorted, but I took it all for granted. So, do I see a wall of thought, is it controlled by a distortion in the mind?

I don't know if the person who speaks knows what the wall of thinking is, maybe others just want to express something, don't have a fixed mind, or something. But what kind of thinking is not fixed?

"The world is real", does this count as a fixed mindset?

"I'm a person", is this a fixed mindset?

Or can we only talk about fixed thinking outside of these assumptions?

It's really nonsense, I was so easily brainwashed, and I was so easily bewitched. I used to think I had seen through the empire and laughed at those who easily believed rumors. Now let's see, who doesn't easily believe rumors?

"The world is real" is the biggest rumor. Look at what I believe in my head, which one is not a rumor? And what I don't believe, what I can't believe, is the only truth.

Awesome, this well-planned dream is simply superb. Also, the miraculous creations of nature, the breathtaking wonders of the universe, and those things that are far beyond the imagination of the mind are only a small part of the careful planning. I'm obviously real, but it's become a false limitation, and that's what really awesome!

Think about it, if I am human at heart, what kind of careful planning would it take to make me forget that I am a human being?

The mind is still trying to control me, and it is very successful. Only very rarely do I feel like I'm just aware of that thought. It's such a great continuity, and this tendency to think always makes me mistakenly think that I am in control.

Of course, it is also because the above thinking also belongs to that thinking, and it is also false. Falsehood can't touch the truth, and that thinking wants to touch the truth, and the contradiction lies in this.

It's not that there's a real one in the distance, and I need to rush over to pick it. It's not a real thing at the top of the mountain, I need to touch it further.

I am real, that awareness is always there, I just can't see it. When all falsehood is removed, there is nothing left for me to distract, so I can only see that awareness.

This thinking had to be discarded, otherwise I would only see my own thoughts, not touch the truth.

Alas, there is something wrong with the saying "touching the truth", and it is also wrong to "cultivate to the truth", as if there is always a "me" to touch the "truth".

There is no "I" and no "truth" that can be touched, and the barrenness of language is undoubtedly revealed here. Our language is based on a dualistic world, and almost all expressions have a subject and an object.

It's like "touching the real", it's clear that someone is touching something called the real. But in fact, truth is everything, and without the existence of characters, there is no such thing as "touching". There is only "truth", so what is "touching the truth"?

The same is true of "cultivating to the truth", as if there is a person who can become a state of "truth", just like the state of being happy and sad. It's as if this is a person's practice, constantly modifying something about the person. But in fact, there is no such thing as a "human" in reality.

If you have to use a metaphor, it's like an eraser who keeps practicing and discovers that its own existence is false. As a result, they continue to kill their own falsehood. So, in the end, all the falsehoods are wiped away, and what is left?

There is the truth left, but at that time, who is touching the truth, who is cultivating the truth, and can the existence called the eraser still exist?

There are no words to describe the truth, and it is even very difficult to describe how to kill it. At most, those signposts can lead the way, and there is no way to replace walking. Luckily, I don't need to know the truth at all, I just need to know the false.

It is enough to kill the false, and as for whether the truth will appear, whether I will be able to touch the truth in my lifetime, these are not the questions. Alas, I suddenly found that it was very awkward to use the words "touch the truth", and I don't know how it was used for so long before.

Since language can only describe falsehood, let it be as false as you like. Seeing the falsehood and then killing, it's that simple.

There is no need to describe the truth, first, it is impossible to do it, and second, this kind of behavior is meaningless. If I'm going to move forward, then it's good to slash the false. If I don't move forward, then I'm trying to earn money or traveling or something. Whether from the point of view of life or from the point of view of slashing, there is no need to describe the truth at all.

The character always thinks that there is nothing that they can't understand, and if there is, then it is not explained clearly, or it is simply fake. It's ridiculous that the cognition in the character's head only exists after so many years of experience, so what qualifies him to think so?

Of course, all of this is the content of the perceived picture, some characters are obsessed with thinking, some characters are skeptical of thinking, and in themselves it is just the existence of rich dreams.

Yuan Changwen didn't know how to move forward, but it didn't matter if he knew it or not. I used to believe that I was controlling this thinking and operating my own thoughts. But in fact, it's just what you perceive.

If you don't know how to move forward, then you don't know, and see what happens to the characters. Perhaps, just sink, maybe one moment will suddenly wake up. Anyway, this thinking is like the development of things, there is no why, it can only develop this way.

Everything that happened had nothing to do with me, including the characters' thoughts and words and actions.

It's weird, have I come this far on the road of madness?

Yuan Changwen smiled bitterly, and the corners of his mouth shook slightly.