I sighed faintly, tugging at the corners of my mouth to swallow the bitterness in my heart. [∞ eight [∞ eight∞ read [∞ book,.".o@

If I didn't value money, I wouldn't have stubbornly returned his bank card before, and the gap between our family backgrounds was so big, I have actually been very angry about my own high climb towards him.

Lu Xudong's hand quickly covered it, "I know you must be thinking about it again, Cersei, I don't want you to go back, it's because your sad appearance today makes me feel too distressed, I don't want you to be hurt, even if they are your closest relatives, but they just hurt you!"

He paused, looked at my face seriously, and then continued: "Besides, what your brother means, I also hope that you will go back as little as possible in the future, he said that your sister-in-law's temper is best known to him, she is easy to be soft-hearted with you, and she is afraid that your mother does not want to see her son and daughter-in-law have conflicts, so she dares to make inches again and again, your brother doesn't want you to be wronged again, and he doesn't want your mother to endure it all the time...... Do you understand?"

I looked at his hopeful eyes and nodded vigorously. I'm afraid my brother wants to take this opportunity to completely let my sister-in-law die and use me as a cash cow. But I understand it, the sadness that I seem to have been abandoned by my mother's family, the feeling that I have no backing behind me, is really an indescribable melancholy!

Even if it may not be a good thing to rely on, in my more than 20 years of cognition, it has always been my home!

Lu Xudong didn't know these thousands of turns in my heart, but he breathed a sigh of relief, and apologized to me again with a solemn face: "I'm sorry, last time...... Last time...... I ......"

He grinded for a long time, but he didn't say anything about "last time".

Seeing that my third bowl of porridge has bottomed out, his "last time" is still stumbling and spitting out.

I put down the spoon and looked at him a little puzzled, his expression was slightly twisted, and he met my inquiring gaze, and simply changed his words to: "Forget it, it's all over anyway!"

Then he was speechless, packed up the dishes and chopsticks, got up and went to the kitchen.

I stared at his back speechlessly for two minutes, and then got up and chased after him, "Why are you like this? They all say that husbands and wives should be honest with each other, and I have no reservations about you, how can you turn my appetite back?"

Lu Xudong's two big hands skillfully washed in the sink, which was overflowing with bubbles, and he looked very attentive and didn't hear my words at all.

I couldn't help but lean in again, and glared at him with displeasure, "Talking to you!"

As a result, he handed over a bowl with a faint expression, and not only ignored my words, but instructed me to work, "Wipe it dry." ”

"......" I took it, sullenly picked up the clean rag next to me and wiped it, and then put it back in the sink.

All that was left of the kitchen was the sound of water.

When Lu Xudong washed the last pot, he turned off the faucet, and then naturally took the rag I was still holding in my hand and wiped the pot himself.

I stood by and looked at him for a while, and saw that he really didn't plan to say "last time" clearly, biting his lip, and for a while he was a little embarrassed, and turned around and walked out of the kitchen a little lonely.

I know that I am always thinking nonsense, I have low self-esteem, I am suspicious, I have no sense of security at all. So even though Lu Xudong has been so good to me, I still feel uncomfortable because of such a small detail.

I've told him everything, what does he need to talk about like this, and refuse to explain?

As soon as I walked to the restaurant, Lu Xudong caught up and hugged me from behind, and a little helpless voice fell on my ear with his warm snort: "Angry?"

"No!" I bit my lower lip and stared at his arm around my stomach, muttering for a moment before saying, "I just don't like you like this, you don't have anything to say to me!"

It seems that since Mu Jie's incident, Lu Xudong has always wanted to say nothing to me in many things.

I actually miss the one at the beginning, and I will simply take me neatly to find Mu Jie's quick knife to cut through the mess Lu Xudong, I don't like the feeling of speculation in my heart at all, this is like I am not blind, but I am forced to walk in the dark, full of anxiety.

"Nervous......" Lu Xudong tightened the hand around my waist, still wanting to speak.

His slow, long breathing was in my ears, bringing a slight itch, and I unconsciously raised my eyes to see the wedding photos on the living room wall.

The surroundings fell into a strange silence, and after a long time, Lu Xudong slightly opened his lips and held my earlobe.

His sudden intimacy shook me, and I subconsciously wanted to turn my head to avoid it, but he took advantage of the situation to put his chin on my shoulder, and broke the silence with great grief: "I'm afraid that if I say it, you will be angry with me......"

I couldn't help but roll my eyes, wrenched away from him, and ran into the room with a puff of smoke.

Lu Xudong quickly caught up, before I closed the door and reached out to grab the door frame, the two of them were so strong across the door panel, he was afraid of pushing me down too hard, and I was afraid that he would really clamp his hand too hard, and after a stalemate for a while, I felt that this was too naïve, so I could only let go in discouragement and watch him push the door in.

Lu Xudong had a flattering smile on his face, and I turned around and ran to the bay window with some hypocrisy, and pulled the curtain casually to isolate myself in the small space on that side.

He soon followed, and the curtain moved slightly, but it was not opened.

I looked at the curtain gloomily for a while, imagining his expression on the other side of the curtain, but after trying to think about it for a while, it seemed that my head was empty, and there was nothing. I suddenly hesitated a little, since he didn't want to say it, he couldn't say it, why should I be so angry, would I be too hypocritical like this?

I am full of contradictions, and at this moment I deeply understand the cautious eyes and entanglements that fall into love.

"Cusser......" Lu Xudong called me through the curtain, he took a deep breath, and his tone was very helpless: "You should know that I talked about a girlfriend before, and she was ...... She was ...... because of the money."

He paused and didn't continue.

I know what he was trying to say was that she abandoned him for money. I think, or because of his machismo, he still can't accept the fact that he was ruthlessly abandoned by his girlfriend just because of 50,000 yuan, and it's understandable that he can't talk about it.

So I smiled silently, and then said "oh" quite calmly.

I knew in my heart that mentioning my ex-girlfriend was just an introduction, and I even vaguely guessed what Lu Xudong was unspeakable.

But before I could stop it, Lu Xudong had already confessed his words happily: "To be honest, when I married you, I always thought that you married me because of money, I was always very conflicted at that time, sometimes I felt very guilty about you, and sometimes I felt that you were just for money anyway, 200,000 yuan, buy a marriage in name only, in fact, you don't lose ......"

He took another deep breath and continued, "But it's strange...... You never asked me for money, and you never asked me to buy you any gifts...... I thought later, maybe it's just your family who is greedy, maybe you might want more...... That's why, when I realized that I might be a little tempted by you, I wanted to push you away......"

I see!

I tugged at the corners of my mouth a little bitterly, slowly bent my knees, clasped my hands on my legs, and looked out the window a little blankly. △△，

"But I can't control myself, I can't help but be attracted to you, I'm angry when I see you too close to other men, I'm angry when I see you don't have the heart to believe in others, I want to open up to you, and I'm afraid that you're really just for money, or, will you be easily bought by money!"

Lu Xudong's voice still ringed intermittently in his ears: "I kissed you that day, and I regretted it after kissing, I felt like a fish on your hook, I was disgusted with myself at that time, so I pushed you away and ran away...... Later, Po Jun persuaded me, saying that I should not cling to the shadows of the past, and try to free myself...... Cersei, that day, the day you gave yourself to me, after I woke up, I really wanted to try to be with you......"

I remembered the disgusted look in his eyes after he kissed me that day, and I thought he was misogynistic, but now the truth is finally revealed...... There was a throbbing in a corner of my heart, and I couldn't say what it felt.

A piece of sincerity, being regarded as having ulterior motives, although he understands that he was only bitten by a snake once and was afraid of straw ropes for ten years, but as a woman, he still feels weird in the end. That's the wound left by another woman, should I feel sorry?

I hesitated to interrupt Lu Xudong's words.

But he only paused, and then continued: "When I gave you the bank card, I even thought that even if you were really for the money, I would admit it, or I could use the money to keep you with me, anyway, I am no longer the poor boy who could only be slaughtered by my father in the past...... But...... That day, I didn't receive the withdrawal information from the bank all day, and I was very glad, thinking that you might have persuaded your mother and your sister-in-law, but I never thought that you would be with Zhang Ruiran...... My mind was messed up, and I wondered if you wanted to give up on me because of my sexuality and knew I didn't have a good relationship with my dad...... So as soon as my brain heats up, I ......."

No wonder he started to be wrong that day after getting in the car, I thought he ate Zhang Ruiran's vinegar, and I was quite sad that he casually speculated that I was riding a donkey to find a horse because of jealousy, now I think about it, in fact, he was quite uncomfortable at the time, right?