I bit my lip and remained silent.

Lu Xi paused, and asked me with a straight face: "You have been married for so long, Adong is not bad to you, right?"

She didn't wait for me to answer, and then said to herself: "I suggest you, just take what you see and hear at night to heart, don't think about it, life is still the same, I heard Ah Dong say that you are preparing to take the self-examination, isn't it very good, nothing is better than living a good life, what do you say?"

She was silent for a while, and when she saw that I didn't respond, she stood up impatiently, and didn't bother to look at me again: "Okay, that's all I have to say, think about it yourself, Adong's clothes are almost finished, he is going on a business trip for a while, you can think about it carefully during this time, call me again when you figure it out, or you can call Adong directly!"

That night, Lu Xi walked calmly with a big suitcase.

I was devastated by the unbearable truth that followed, and sat in the living room all night, constantly thinking about Lu Xi's words, and I thought that she really had a point.

I married Lu Xudong, originally just to want a home, as for this person in my family, why do I care if he loves Zhang San or Li Si.

In this world, isn't the most unreliable thing in the world just love?

I got up in a daze, took a shower, changed my clothes, cleaned up and made a few big smiles in the mirror before leaving for work.

Lu Xudong was not there, no one saw me off, I hesitated in the elevator for a while, and finally decided to take the bus.

The sun is still shining, and the buses are still crowded, but fortunately it is not yet the rush hour, and the road is not too congested. After getting out of the car, I went to the small shop next to me to buy breakfast, drank warm soy milk, and finally felt that my heart had been blocked all night, and I had a little warmth.

The work is still as tedious and heavy as ever, and when the end of the month comes, many suppliers have come to collect the payment, and the boss is yelling to speed up the collection of payment, which makes me head two big.

Look, the world won't be gentle on me because of the unbearable truth I learned last night, Lu Xi is right, what is better than living a good life.

I have a lot of thoughts about breaking the jar, what does Lu Xudong like, he gives me marriage and takes care of me everywhere, what else do I care?

Too much greed will only make one's life more unhappy.

Before getting off work, I called Ye Shengyin, and I didn't go out on a bicycle in the morning, just to find someone to drink with me in the evening. As a result, no one answered after two calls in a row.

After work, I waited until all the people in the office were gone, and then I slowly packed up my things and turned off my computer.

When I was clocking in, I met Xiao Zhang, who was in charge of purchasing, and he greeted me with a little surprise: "Why is it so late today?

After marrying Lu Xudong, I basically got off work on time every day.

I was astringent, but I still smiled politely at him: "Well, he's on a business trip!"

"Your husband is very good to you, right?" He looked like a gossip parent, and went downstairs with me, and he didn't forget to continue chattering: "I see that he comes to pick you up almost every day, but it's much better than that Xiaolian before!"

My face changed, Xiao Zhang knew that he had said the wrong thing, and scratched his hair embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to!"

"It's fine. I smiled as calmly as I could, but I was soon on the first floor, and the bus stop I was going to was different from the direction he was going, so I didn't have to force a smile anymore.

I really can't get a divorce, and Lian Jincheng's love made me break my bones, and the ending was full of excitement, and everyone in the company knows it, if I divorce again, I'm afraid I won't have the face to continue to stay in the company!

When I was about to get to the bus stop, a car came to a slow stop next to me.

I looked at the somewhat familiar Mazda, stopped, and frowned slightly.

As soon as the car window fell, Lian Jincheng's face with a smile and concern was revealed.

He looked at me with a sincere face, and his voice was a little cautious: "Go home, I'll send you!"

I really didn't want to deal with him, so I turned around and walked away. He caught up with him reluctantly, looking particularly hurt: "Cersei, don't be like this, I mean well." ”

I glanced at him coldly, then at the bus stop not far away, gritted my teeth, and simply decided to take a taxi.

It's time to get off work, the car is not easy to play, and even Jincheng has been parked next to me, I regret that my intestines are blue, and I will ride out if I know it.

I waited on the side of the road for a while, and finally walked on in frustration. Lian Jincheng still followed me not far away, and after walking for a while, I finally couldn't bear to be bothered and ran over to ask him what he wanted to do.

He was stunned, and then opened the car door and stood in front of me with an innocent face and replied: "I really have no malice, I just want to help you!"

"Help me?" I sneered, and the grievances I had endured for a long time came to my heart, "Do you think I look like I need your help, Lian Jincheng? What qualifications do you have and what position do you have to help me? Or do you think that doing something is enough to make up for the damage you have caused me?"

"Cersei, I really don't mean anything else!" he stood there dressed in a disfigured voice, and I was a little at a loss for my words: "I know I'm sorry for you, and I also know that no matter what I do, I can't make up for you, I just can't see you bad, I hope you're well!"

Lian Jincheng looked serious, I really wanted to give him two big mouths, how could he be embarrassed to say such a thing! If it weren't for him, how could I have found someone to marry me in such a hurry! If it weren't for him, how could I marry Lu Xudong and fall in love with him!

I glared at him with grief and indignation, and the tears that I had endured for a long time finally burst out of my eyes: "Who do you think you are? The words are high-sounding, since you can't see me well, how could you coax me to get engaged to someone else at the same time? Lian Jincheng, I ask you, stay away from me, I don't want to be pointed at the bridge of my nose and scolded me for being a shameless junior!"

......He called out to me helplessly, stretched out his hand to me, but finally took it back, he lowered his head, and his tone was full of apologies: "You know, that wasn't my intention, I never thought things would come to this point, I've been working hard to get ......"

I wiped my face and quickly interrupted him, "I don't know, and I don't want to know anymore." Lian Jincheng, we have broken up, you have your fiancée, I am also married, we have nothing to do with each other now, I ask you, don't bother me again!"

"But you look like you're having a bad time......," he said, frowning, looking worried about me.

I was so angry with him that I wanted to laugh, he used to be like this when we were together, every time he made me unhappy, he pretended to be pitiful, pretended to be melancholy, and did everything he could, and I still felt very useful at that time.

Now that I think about it, it's really "" in his eyes, even if he is indecisive, I think he is just too solemn and needs to be considered again and again.

I closed my eyes, took another deep breath, and said to him as calmly as possible: "Lian Jincheng, I don't want to repeat the fact that we have broken up with you anymore, and it has nothing to do with your half a dime whether I am doing well now, okay?!"

After speaking, I turned around and left, but before I raised my foot, my arm tightened.

Lian Jincheng actually stretched out his hand to hold me, and eagerly explained: "Cersei, listen to me, I don't mean to disturb you, I just don't want to see you like this, can you give me a chance to help you......?"

I couldn't take it anymore and raised my hand and slapped him.

Lian Jincheng was stunned, covering his face and looking at me in disbelief.

I was stunned for a moment, but then I quickly reacted and quickly turned around and ran for a short while.

Just when an empty car was coming, I hurriedly waved to stop it, and when I got into the car, I couldn't help but glance out the window, and even Jincheng was still stunned, looking very unacceptable to reality.

I smiled wryly, looked back into the car, gave the driver an address randomly, and then leaned back on my seat in a daze.

Even Jin Cheng probably didn't expect me to slap him, and I didn't think I would have such courage. I've been in a relationship with him for four years, and we've had all kinds of big and small quarrels during this time, and I haven't even been so hysterical as I am today when we broke up.

I have lived a forbearant and restrained life since I was a child, for fear that my words and deeds would be hated by others, and I dealt with everyone carefully, even Ye Shengyin sometimes couldn't help but complain about me, why do you have to let yourself work so quietly.

At that time, I still pursed my lips and smiled at her, and whispered, "I'm afraid that everyone will ignore me." ”

She doesn't understand, I have deep fear and anxiety in the deepest part of my heart, I am afraid that the people around me will stay away from me and isolate me, I don't know how to bend to flatter, I don't know how to speculate on people's hearts, I will only forbear the simplest.

But what happened in the past two days was far beyond the limit of what I could bear, I was so tired, I couldn't let myself pretend to be indifferent anymore, I couldn't continue to knock out my teeth as always, and swallow it in my stomach with blood.

But habitually, I felt guilty for beating Lian Jincheng again.

The car pulled over, and the driver turned to me and said, "It's here." ”

I turned my head to look out the window in a trance, vaguely familiar, and the driver was already impatiently urging: "Hurry up, the road here is narrow, it's not good to stop for too long!"

As if to confirm his words, a car behind him hurriedly honked its horn.

I paid the money and got off the bus, and then I knew that the address I reported was a famous night market snack street in H City. Roadside stalls are abundant here, which are cheap and delicious.

Before getting married, Ye Shengyin and I would come at least twice a month, basically to celebrate the salary, occasionally I quarreled with Lian Jincheng, or Ye Shengyin was in a bad mood, we would also come, eat some barbecue and drink some beer, and the bad mood would be temporarily put behind.