Is it a concern? Even Cai Yuan himself couldn't say clearly.

Perhaps, it's just a habit.

"My younger brother has been born with a congenital disease, and it will be a long process to cure it. Every month, we have to take him to the hospital for a follow-up. A lot of money was spent, but my brother's illness never improved. ”

"My family was not wealthy, and in order to treat my younger brother, we were frugal and living more and more poorly. ”

"Even doctors say that such a disease is a bottomless pit. It is likely that in the end, the money is smashed in, but people can't keep it. ”

"At first, the relatives would symbolically lend us a little money, but the emergency did not help the poor, looking at the situation of my brother, these relatives sighed and shook their heads, and then became estranged from us day by day. ”

"Later, even my parents made a painful decision...... Abandon treatment. Let my brother live like this, how long can he live. ”

"My brother is a very well-behaved child. Since childhood, he has not enjoyed the childhood of a normal person. He always has a strong smell of medicine on his body, he can't cultivate, he can't play amusement projects, and he can't even eat even slightly irritating food......

"But when he was lying on the hospital bed, with tubes all over his body, he always didn't cry or make a fuss, just watched us quietly. I was so sad that I promised him that we would cure him no matter what. It's really embarrassing to say, when I couldn't hold back my tears, it was my brother who comforted me by the side. ”

"My younger brother is really sensible, even when his parents decided to give up, he still didn't say a word. Perhaps even he himself feels that he is a burden to us. To be able to relieve this burden for his parents, he ...... It's fun, isn't it? ”

"When I brought him home from the hospital that day, I didn't dare to look him in the eye. I promised him...... I promised him that I would stick with him!"

"I wanted to drop out of school and go to work, but my parents wouldn't agree. The reason they give is also very realistic, 'With your little ability, how much money can you make when you go out?'"

"Yes, if my brother really ...... If it can't be cured, this family will only be supported by me in the future. Of course, they want me to concentrate on my studies now and find a better job in the future. But...... Brother, he can't wait that long!"

"So...... I came out so early just to earn some money for my brother's treatment. I also know that this road should not be taken, it is not easy to walk, it is just crawling up with other people's blood, but who can leave my brother a way?"

"When I went home with the money, my parents asked me for a long time about the source of the money. But in the end, they finally agreed and continued to treat their brother. ”

"Because it was delayed for too long, as soon as I returned to the hospital, my brother faced a major operation. With the money I had at the time, I still couldn't give my brother the most expensive medicine...... However, the operation could not be delayed any longer, so we could only agree to come down first, and then ask the doctor to make every effort to treat it. ”

"My brother's surgery didn't go too well. Maybe in the end, we didn't pay enough. During that time, I was worried about it every day, wondering how I could get more money. ”

"Brother An noticed that I was wrong recently, so he asked me what was going on, and after listening to me talk about the difficulties, he threw a wad of money in front of me without saying a word. ”

"Although he didn't say anything warm, he didn't offer to go and see my brother...... But he said that if he didn't have enough money in the future, he would tell him again, and he would stay out until my brother got better!"

"From that day on, I thanked him, and I swore that I would repay him! ”

"Even if Brother An's starting point is only to buy my loyalty with money, at least he really helped me! Before that, I also asked my 'friends' for help, but as soon as they heard that it was borrowing money, they were busy trying to draw a line with me. ”

So Brother An is right, sometimes the relationship maintained through interests is purer than the nominal friendship. But who can say that a relationship formed by interests must not have sincerity?"

Yes, no matter what his purpose is...... Maybe he just saw the pain of a child abandoned by society from his younger brother, or in his opinion, his younger brother is no different from the stray cats and dogs he picked up and raised, or maybe he is really just trying to win people's hearts, but he still does things that even friends can't do. Is his original purpose that important?

As for caring -

Maybe it's because Brother An is too powerful.

It's hard to feel like a person like that, and he needs to be cared for.

So he got used to it, used to following behind him.

He is like a beacon to himself.

Perhaps for Su Shi'an, he never thought that himself, who was born with sin and was spurned by the whole world, could one day become an idol that others looked up to.

"If you care, be honest with him. Jian Zhiheng smiled and patted him on the shoulder in a friendly manner.

This thoughtful mood should be passed on to the other party in time. ”

……

After disposing of those enemy generals, Jian Zhiheng was still standing in place, as if he was thinking about something. His comrades-in-arms asked him why he hadn't gone to support Guan Lin, and Jian Zhiheng just smiled lightly and shook his head.

He really hopes that Guan Lin can be independent, he has become his crutch over the years, but he has deprived him of the ability to walk independently, which Su Shi'an said, and Jian Zhiheng himself is also aware of it. He wanted to correct this, but he couldn't do it.

Can a man who is accustomed to using crutches really continue to walk if he suddenly loses support?

Until Cai Yuan's words today, Jian Zhiheng had an unexpected gain.

Perhaps, this is an opportunity to make a break with his years of nightmares in this war without the participation of "crutches".

If it's a lime...... He's going to win!

……

On the battlefield in the distance.

Although the virtual soldiers commanded by Guan Lin, although they are all painted on their bodies, they are still in a stable battle formation, and the swords, guns and shields in their hands mean that they still have the strength to fight again.

At this time, Guan Lin, holding the gun with one hand, was panting heavily. This battle has obviously exhausted his strength. But his eyes were still clear, and the blood soaked his vision, but not his pupils. He was still the gentle young man, but he had been sharpened by the battle and had a bit of heroism.

On the other side, Su Shi'an's body was stained with blood, the fluctuations in spiritual power were inaudible, and the life bar had almost dropped to the lowest point.

"Huh...... Hehe...... I really didn't expect that a waste like you could drive me to ...... This situation ......"

After saying a few words, Su Shi'an staggered and fell back again, his clothes exploded, and the blood light rose to the sky again.

"That's because you never trust anyone," Guan Lime said lightly. "You only believe in yourself. ”

If it weren't for his arrogance, he would have brought virtual soldiers with him in this battle with himself.

Then, if the two sides are at least equal in numbers, he will not be encircled when he launches a virtual battle formation, and finally be outnumbered and lose so miserably.

Maybe he just wanted to humiliate himself, he wanted everyone to see that he could single-handedly beat himself out of the trial space like a reservoir dog. But in the end, he was the only one who was really humiliated.

"You don't need friends, you don't need anyone to help you, you feel like you're enough to support your life. You are stingy with giving to others, so when you are isolated, you can only bear the consequences of betrayal and separation. ”

"Because, after all, you are only one person, and you can't live as a thousand troops. ”

In the face of others, Guan Lin has always had low self-esteem. He always felt guilty about himself, and he was not qualified to play with those young and sunny good boys. He did not dare to express his opinion, let alone make a choice, he lived humbly in front of everyone as a redeemer.

Only when facing him...... You don't need to have low self-esteem, you don't need it at all. Because he is a sinner in front of himself, and he is a more pathetic person than himself.

Su Shi'an stared at Guan Lin, who seemed to have been reborn in front of him, his brows furrowed deeply, and he sneered twice: "The so-called friend...... It's just an exchange of value...... You give something to someone else, and someone else takes something from you......"

"The girl you fell in love with, she approached you because you were a hot person, and she needed a sense of accomplishment from someone who rejected people and only fell under her skirt...... Then she got her goal, so she'll kick you out of the way like a bunch of unsightly garbage......"

"Those journalists, they approach you because they can dig enough news value from you, and this value can be converted into actual wealth......

Until this time, he still didn't seem to give up and continued to stimulate Guan Linden.

"And that Jian Zhiheng...... Do you really think that he is wholeheartedly good for you? Oh, don't be stupid, how can there be a person in this world who does not ask for anything in return, but only takes pleasure in giving? When everyone abandons you, he saves you only because he wants to use you and show others how much he is a virgin!"

Slowing down the speed of his speech, Su Shi'an said in a low voice, as if he wanted to inject these words into Guan Lin's heart like a poisonous curse.

"Boy, when he was a child, he would have fantasies about saving the world, so he saw you so embarrassed, weak, helpless, and could satisfy all his fantasies...... He helps you, not for you, but for the fulfillment of his own good virtues......"

"Now that his purpose has been accomplished, when will he abandon you, you say?"

After making a "abandon" action slowly, Su Shi'an raised his head slightly, let the strong wind stimulate the wound pain, and muttered to himself as if pouring:

"As for me, it is because I was earlier than all of you that I saw through the true colors of these so-called 'friends'...... So I don't need friends, and I refuse to use each other with anyone, in the name of friendship...... If I really want to use it, I will use money, I will use force, they are much purer than friendship. ”

Guan Lin looked at him from afar, and the hatred in his eyes that had burned like fire had slowly dissipated at some point. His current appearance seems to be just examining his other soul, an arrogant and arrogant other self who takes revenge on the world. And, he's having a conversation with him across time and space.

Indeed, I do not deny that there are indeed many flaws in this world, friendship is mixed with interests, love is separated by doors, materialism is rampant, and giving sincerity has become a luxury. ”

Even he himself has encountered a lot of such things.

When she was in college, a beautiful woman might befriend an ugly and chubby girl, and that was to use her to set off her beauty.

In society, there are often reports of wealthy businessmen donating to poor children, but they only want to gain fame and fortune, and rarely have good intentions out of their hearts.

In the end, even though everyone saw this, they still acquiesced in the behavior.

When kindness has been squandered, all that remains is a complete chain of interests.

"I've also been used and betrayed, and I've had times when I'm so miserable and desperate that I can barely hold on......" Liu Mo's face flashed in front of his eyes as he said this.

"I used to feel that I was the unluckiest person in the world, and I used to lose faith in the whole society like you......"

"But I'm going to tell you, Ah Heng is definitely not what you say. He is the only person who makes me willing to subvert the whole world to correct his reflection, so that I can subvert my perception and believe again without reservation. ”

"When I was most lonely and helpless, it was he who stretched out his hand to me and pulled me out of the quagmire step by step. He didn't try anything for me, he just wanted me to be happy again. I feel that he is my sunshine and my savior. ”

"But in front of him, I have always had low self-esteem. He is so dazzling, and he deserves all the good in the world. As for me, I am sinful and unfortunate, and I am careful to deal with him, and I regard him as my king, my only salvation. I was also afraid, afraid that I would lose him, and I was even more afraid that I would bring my own misfortune upon him. ”

These words, even to Jian Zhiheng, Guan Lien has never said them.

Even when he talked about it, he would only try his best to comfort himself. But his comfort could not cure the deep-rooted pain.

So, he chose to disguise himself, pretending that he seemed to have stepped out of the shadows. But in fact, the deepest inferiority complex has always been entrenched in his heart.

"Until I met you, Su Shian, I felt that you were more unfortunate than I was. ”

"It's not because you've had misfortunes, it's because you've always locked yourself up in the misfortunes of the past and don't want to come out. ”

(End of chapter)