Where is that awareness, or where does "I exist" exist?

Not in this world, because whatever this world is, it is only a picture element that "that awareness" perceives.

Yuan Changwen felt a little bitter, the only truth that could be determined was that he couldn't grasp it no matter what. I'm just a visual element of awareness, so where do I go to catch that awareness?

What you see is something you can't be sure of.

If you can be sure that there is an infinite being, or that there is a "everything" being, then these pictorial elements become false, unreal, and merely perceptual artifacts. In other words, the essence of tables and chairs is not tables and chairs.

It can be claimed, then, that the table and chair are false beings, because their essence is only that awareness.

But how can we judge that the infinite must exist, and why should we think that those limitations need to be carried by the infinite?

Yuan Changwen was very confused, he couldn't move forward at all, "The one that is limited by the package is infinite", but he couldn't say anything in such a simple sentence. Although black and white are limitations, it does not mean that there needs to be an infinite to carry them.

If there is no infinity, then what is the whole thing that is made up of all kinds of limitations?

Is there such a thing as a whole system?

Yuan Changwen felt that he was thinking in the wrong direction, how could the truth be so complicated? Should it be so simple that it is outrageous, or is it a certain point that he did not think of that that caused the complexity?

The world is full of things that can't be determined to be true, and the truth that can be determined is not in this world at all. Even, the so-called god realm and fairy realm are useless, they are just another picture element of "I exist".

What kind of reality is it that "I exist" but cannot touch "I exist"? The content of any picture element is undeniably true. And why should I take these things as real?

Yuan Changwen was very uncomfortable, like a depressed gloom, and the whole person didn't know what to do. Perhaps, I don't know, but I have been brainwashed for a long time to think that I can know. Can the existence of time be determined?

But I'm so stupidly sure that this is ignorance, and what is the difference between this and believing in the legend of the Flood Wilderness? It's all wishful thinking, it's all groundless affirmation. Why should I assume that these are true, and why do I do any bullshit research and discussion on top of these assumptions?

The previous ease, the previous no problem, the previous faint satisfaction, now completely become imagination. I couldn't believe that my previous self would think that I was done.

So how is the so-called infinity, the so-called "everything", affirmed?

Yuan Changwen regretted it, he started all this by himself, and began to look for what bullshit was true. Now it's okay, I can't go back to the past, the self who believes in the reality of the world. Whatever the perception is, it is just a prejudice.

How else do you want to teach your disciples? Is this the reason why the teacher rarely speaks? The key is that this thinking also belongs to an uncertain position, and the same is true of Yuan Changwen's role. What are you doing, ruining all meaning?

Honest to cruelty, really cruel. People who have not come to this position will not understand what it means to be honest to cruel. Think about my previous self, how simple it was, I could believe in so many things that I couldn't believe at all. And then, like everyone else, there is a goal that you can strive for.

But now, how exactly is that infinity affirmed?

The question swirled around my mind like a magic spell. I can watch movies and play games, but in the cracks, there is always a time when I am not busy, and then the problem will be smashed at me, like someone waiting with a hammer and starting to hit it as soon as he is free.

The point is, why should I shift my attention? Why should I think that I used to be a good person? That ignorance, that kind of acting according to the twist in my head, why should I go back to the way I was?

However, I can't bear it a little, why hasn't death come yet?

Why do you want to carry it? Why do you want to carry it because you are not real in the first place? Firmly grasp these uncertain truths and use your emotions to treat them as true, this is the point of contradiction, and it is also the key point of your own killing.

Everyone seemed to be happy, as if the problem was not a problem at all, or that everyone felt that they didn't need to think about this mentally retarded problem. It's a pity that the phrase "everyone is like this" has no influence on me, and it is my business.

Now, at this moment, I'm so caught by this question, and I'm in such a low state. And the so-called philosophy of life, or simple scientific truths, that can be believed, has become uncertain to me.

Is it not good to let this irresistible discomfort crush you? Is it not good to let life be ruined? Why do you have to think about what life should be? Isn't that ignorance?

Suddenly I feel so ridiculous, if black and white extend infinitely, but it can't extend to the other party's area, doesn't this situation explain that infinite existence? Isn't the whole of these limitations "everything"?

Is that so?

Yuan Changwen was not sure, so he could only cautiously test it, like a newborn milk dog.

Suppose that the infinity does not exist at all, then the limitations are real, and the infinity of the limitations does not exist?

The paradox is that I always think that even if there is an infinity, these limitations are also real, such as the planet, the human being, the flowers and trees, and so on. But if you admit that infinity, you can't admit these limitations, because infinity is everything, and there can be no such thing as "non-infinite".

What the hell is all this!

This world, including the universe, is uncertain, and that can be determined cannot be touched at all. But also, if the true that can be determined is in this world, then other estimates can also be determined.

"That awareness", "I exist", are just different descriptions of the same reality.

Yuan Changwen doesn't know what he's doing, and he doesn't know what he's supposed to do, I'm not sure, what else do I want?

In the depths of the lake, it is calm and serene, as if there has been no movement for thousands of years. The man who fell into the depths of the lake, on the surface, did not move, and perfectly integrated with the lake. But deep down, even the entire universe is exploding and burning.

Die.