Chapter 513: Cultivating to Truth 143
What happens if your mental power is wasted?
What happens if you don't achieve your goals?
What happens if the success you have longed for fails?
This fear has a common pattern, that is, "I have put so much effort into this, how can I do this" and so on.
It's as if you give everything you have for something, you have to get something in return. If you don't get anything in return, you will feel like the sky is falling apart.
That's why, just imagination, can bring so much fear.
Death, on the other hand, is a kind of relief. Not when oneself is actually dead, but while living, death is a predetermined relief.
No one can escape death, even if the Empire is working on brain-swapping technology, so what?
Immortality does not mean eternal life. It's just that you won't die of old age normally, in the face of disasters, in the face of killers, in the face of war, you will also die.
No matter how advanced technology is, even if everyone has a backup, there will still be accidents.
Ha!
It is this pattern of "I give so much, so I have to do it" that makes it difficult for me to bear any reality that is contrary to my wishes.
When the blow does occur, I will be sad and painful, but then I will regain my confidence and continue or change directions.
However, it still has not escaped this "give, so must" fear pattern.
This is a trade-off of interests, in the current environment, you give so much or even abandon everything, just for a certain goal. And at this moment, a certain goal has not been achieved, but I have lost so much, so I will be uncomfortable and painful.
But who knows what the future holds?
Wrong!
It's hopeful, and it's just a fantasy. The subtext is that what is bad in the present does not mean what is bad in the future. But I can't confirm this at all.
What if you were in fear of defeat until you died?
It's entirely possible.
"Let go of all hope, just like death. ”
The teacher's words suddenly jumped into his mind, and Yuan Changwen was a little stunned.
If your spiritual power is abolished, it means that the days when you have always regarded yourself as a spiritual master will come to an end. And the boundaries of self-identification, those self-definitions constitute themselves.
When the "learned" psychic power is depleted, it will quickly look for other alternatives, and it boils down to self-defining that it needs to survive, that it must define something.
Death, on the other hand, is to tell oneself that you cannot have anything, and in the end you cannot define anything.
"I am a master of spiritual power", and after being abolished, I immediately grasp others, "I am a person with certain qualities", "I am a person who survives on other things", and so on.
This is a pattern, a source of fear, and a pattern that has existed for more than two hundred years.
Not only define themselves, but also firmly grasp those definitions. In fact, these "grasps" are attachments.
"I am a left-handed person who drinks soup", this is a self-definition, but I don't have a firm grasp of it, and it doesn't seem to matter if you drink soup with your right hand, or even if you don't drink soup.
Because no matter what, there is a self-defined existence. But if you don't grasp it, then there will be no attachment, and there will be no fear.
Some self-definition is important, some are not. Of course, you won't grasp the unimportant self, and for the important self-definition, do you dare to let go?
Yuan Changwen let out a long breath and thought about this question carefully. Letting go, in a way, is doing nothing.
So, who is going to dictate which self-definitions are important and which are not?
This must be your own decision, because all self-definition is in your mind, and you must only have the final say. Even if he is threatened, even if the whole society advocates it, he is still the one who decides in the end.
For example, someone threatened me with a gun, betraying the empire or life. It seems that he has no choice, but in fact, he values the definition of life as important, so he will compromise and betray the empire.
You can choose to end your life, right?
But why do you value some self-definition and others not?
Who is making decisions for themselves, and which self-definitions are important?
Parents, school, society, and I believe in them, so I follow them to make the same decision.
For example, there is a consensus that life is very important, and it is important to ensure one's own survival.
But at some point, the empire will emphasize that honor is more important than life, and emphasize sacrifice rather than betraying the empire. What is this?
"Lighter than a feather, or heavier than Mount Tai. ”
How ridiculous is this sentence, why haven't you seen it before?
The people of the empire fell into the hands of the enemy, and they would rather die than give in. For the Empire, of course, this is more important than Mount Tai. But what about the enemy? This kind of death will not do any good.
If in the end it is the enemy who wins and the empire loses, then who will judge "lighter than a feather or heavier than Tarzan"?
Assuming that we only want to have a clear conscience, then who put the self-definition of "imperial honor above life" into their minds?
It is impossible for oneself to form such a self-definition spontaneously, and even if it is possible, there is no reason to hold on to this self-definition and not let go.
Therefore, the answer is still parents, schools, and society.
Yuan Changwen closed his eyes, thinking about what self-definition he was wrong about.
Wrong!
It doesn't matter what is right or wrong, and which self-definitions are right and which are wrong are simply pointless.
Who will judge right and wrong? Who is qualified to judge?
What if I'm here? I'll judge for myself what's important and what's not. Is it okay for me to identify what self-definitions I want to grasp?
Yuan Changwen nodded slightly, it seemed feasible. I no longer confirm through outside authorities, everything is up to me, and I think what's important is what's important.
But on what basis do I judge?
If there is no comparison from the outside world, how can I determine whether this is important or that is important?
Also, why can't you just let go and decide that every self-definition doesn't matter?
No matter which self-definition you grasp, it is a source of fear. Because this self-definition will happen when it conflicts with reality, and that is when fear comes.
If you don't grasp any self-definition, then you won't be attacked by fear.
The paradox is that "not grasping any self-definition" is itself a self-definition, and what I am grasping is "not grasping any self-definition".
Death!
Yuan Changwen suddenly thought of the word death, and he would definitely not grasp anything at that time, and he would not be able to grasp it.
Is that what death means when it comes to being the best companion?
Self-imposed boundaries that bind themselves firmly to the assault of fear. It has nothing to do with the reality that happens, it comes from the self-definition in the mind.
So, this is the next step in your own practice?
Yuan Changwen was a little unsure, if the reality really conflicted with his goals, then he would definitely still be very uncomfortable. The only thing that has gotten better is that when I imagine this happening, I am no longer afraid.