"The brilliant morning glow, rising in the golden capital, solemn music, reporting the dawn of the motherland, the heart of the motherland, the symbol of unity, the pride of the people, the guarantee of victory, the people of all nationalities praise you, you are a bright star in our hearts......"

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Despite the noisy and chaotic carriages, everywhere was crowded with people. Even though the floor of the carriage was mottled and dirty, it smelled of soot. Although the horns of the carriage were repeatedly sung, except for the excerpt of "Red Lantern", which was this "Ode to the Capital", which was driven by the idea of returning home, Hong Yanwen sitting in the carriage at this time still felt happy and beautiful.

He was immersed in a good mood that was difficult to explain, his eyes were looking at the green leatherette seats, the short yellow wood tables, the huge glass windows, or the passengers standing or sitting in a crowded group, and the luggage lying on the ground with large bags and small bags, but he was thinking of something else. This has to be described in the current words, that is, what the master sees is nothing else, what the master looks at is the mood.

Eight years ago, when he left the capital for the first time, he took this train, and in the past eight years, he has taken this train every time he goes home to visit relatives.

And this time, although the essence of "taking the train" has not changed, its meaning and his mood have become worlds apart. Because if he returns to the capital this time, he doesn't have to go again. It's like an unquestionable circle, a fatalistic return to necessity.

Since he completely walked out of the house, he really knows what "parting" is and what "family affection" is. Therefore, in the past 12 days of family leave every year, the time for him to return to his hometown was always chosen for the Chinese New Year. Because only in this way can he comfort the sorrow in his own heart.

Those days at home are precious because of their brevity. He knows very well that this kind of return is facing parting in a blink of an eye, so every New Year he counts day by day, and he will be very careful to avoid words like "go" and "train station", so as not to cause sadness to his parents.

It's just that what makes him sad is that often at this time, although the faces of his family members deliberately pretend to be very calm, and even sometimes smile slightly, they can never hide the bitterness and worry inside.

No way, life has taught all his family members to act, to learn to cover up. Especially during the Chinese New Year, everyone redoubles their efforts to show satisfaction and happiness for each other, even if this happiness is fleeting.

Because of this, for eight years he didn't even dare to write much to his family. In fact, he was very homesick and couldn't wait to tell his family all the details.

But when he knew that his mother had wept all night over his hardships after he had received his letter, and that his heart was full of sorrow and longing, he could no longer write. Because the longer and more often the letter is written, the more sad it will be for the mother.

Fortunately, now this situation is finally over, and his relationship has successfully turned back to the suburbs of Beijing. In the future, he will no longer have to face the heavy feelings deliberately suppressed by his family before every parting, and he will no longer let his mother worry about him......

After Datong was less than an hour, the car stopped again, and it was a temporary parking. Along the way, there are countless such big war stations.

Hong Yanwen looked out the window, there were people everywhere on the platform, and the word "Yanggao" was faintly seen on the yellow wall at the exit. He still hasn't left the Yanbei area, and it may be certain that he is getting closer and closer to home.

Opposite him was replaced by a young couple, and when he heard the woman's Beijing accent, he originally thought that they were also educated youths from the countryside, and they wanted to talk about it. Unexpectedly, the man's mouth was in the local dialect, and the woman blushed and immediately lowered her head.

He immediately understood what was going on, and didn't dare to ask any more, but there was a burst of annoyance in his heart for no reason. Whether he hated himself for being troubled or something else, he couldn't tell.

Now such situations abound, and even if they are young, there is a girl who married a local farmer. This is all the phrase "rooted for a lifetime". But who would have thought that fate had played a big joke on their generation, and the actual situation would become like this now?

The train started again, Hong Yanwen looked at the speeding trees outside the window, couldn't help sighing, and couldn't help but recall his past eight years.

In August 1969, he was still very young, a teenager who did not know what it was like to be sorrowful, and was full of romantic fantasies about the future.

Therefore, he took the initiative to respond to the call to go to the countryside to join the queue. Not only did he take the household registration book to cancel the household registration, but also changed the revolutionary name "Hong Xiangyang". It can be said that passion is more Li Yuhe than Li Yuhe.

At that time, his heart was full of yearning to "do a big job in the vast world", and he couldn't be idle at all, and began to do good deeds as soon as he got on the train, mopping the floor over and over again, and bringing hot water to everyone over and over again.

At that moment, he did not expect, and could not have imagined, that what began was the most difficult and helpless years of his life, which lasted for eight years!

Educated youth also have grades.

As we all know, going to the XPCC requires a political examination and a physical examination, and the number of places is limited. The XPCC is in charge of eating, drinking, and wearing, paying salaries on time, and enjoying the treatment of registered workers.

And the most numerous "queue-cutting" educated youths like him have no salary, only one year's ration from the initial state ration, and after a year, like the local peasants, their source of livelihood is only to earn a share of work. Essentially, it is a de facto form of unemployment.

What's more, he was assigned to the Yanbei Mountains where rabbits don't. In that place called "Pimple Ridge", there is not only a lack of arable land, only millet and yam eggs are produced, and there is even a long-term shortage of water.

In fact, including him, at that time, there were only six educated youths, three men and three women, from five schools in the capital.

However, in order to refuse to accept them, He Sankui, the secretary of the brigade of "Pimple Ridge," went to the county's Educated Youth Resettlement Office and repeatedly told the director to forgive them, saying that "Pimple Ridge" has a famine every year, and the per capita ration is only 200 catties of shell grain, which cannot support these children in the capital at all.

From this, you can see what kind of land this is.

To be honest, when he went, he was indeed prepared to endure hardships, but he didn't expect the reality to be too bitter, and most of them were beyond his imagination.

First of all, let's live.

They were accepted by the village because they agreed to give the money allocated for the construction of the house, and the six of them were eventually placed in two dilapidated caves.

The conditions there are very poor, there are no beds and no tables, even the windows are leaky, and even rats don't like to come. So on the first day of staying, everyone was "proud and upright" to be lost, only lost, frustrated and dazed.

Secondly, let's talk about work.

The mountainous areas of the "Pimple Ridge" rely on manual labor, no livestock, and no machinery, and these "Beijing babies" with fine skin and tender meat have to work from morning until dawn.

He still remembers that when he first came, he hadn't washed his feet for almost half a month, and he didn't wash his feet because he was tired, as long as he climbed on the kang, he couldn't fall asleep in a minute. And every night my feet are numb and painful. Back pain and leg cramps are a common condition all year round.

What people didn't expect was that there were also fierce dogs.

The dog in the countryside is powerful, with a thin waist and a long mouth, not good at publicity, and coldly jumps out from behind the wall, according to your calf is the mouth, people say "the thief bites the mouth, into the bone for three points", let the dog in Yanbei bite a bite, not "three points", is "sparse".

The dogs here don't recognize the foreign educated youth, so they all seem to be enemies, and these dogs have fought with wolves, and most of them have the genetics of Hun hunting dogs.

So on the third day of coming here, when Liu Yangping in "Sixty-Three" was bitten and sent to the county hospital, all the educated youths would run away from afar as they saw the dogs in the village.

Saying a thousand things and ten thousand, the most distressing thing is the problem of eating and drinking.

It is difficult to draft water in the "Pimple Ridge", and you have to go to the bottom of the ditch to pick it. Carrying water uphill, it is too difficult and test, and whoever carries the water in their turn will be worried.

Carrying two buckets of water and climbing up with all his might, there was no place to rest in the middle, the buckets were high in front and low in the back, making it difficult for people to step up, only to move up step by step by side. People who are not used to it either knock their legs on the bucket or spill water. If you are not careful, you will completely overturn, you will sit in the middle of the slope and cry, crying until it is dark, and you will have to go down and pick again.

In addition to this, the quality of the water is not good.

The water in the ditch was very alkaline, bitter and astringent, and had a disgusting turbid smell. If you are not in good health, you will have diarrhea after drinking it. These educated youths couldn't get used to drinking for a long time, and thanks to someone who brought a lot of berberine, everyone finally passed this hurdle.

As for eating, that's not to mention. The biggest problem is hunger, not that you don't have enough to eat, it's that you don't have enough to eat, you never have enough to eat.

This is a mountainous area, the crops are terraced, and there is no water source and depends entirely on the sky for food. The life of the local farmers is very hard, and almost all the year round is small rice and potatoes.

At the beginning, because of the state's ration, they were able to eat enough. But from the second year, they become a pack of wolves with blue eyes and no matter what they see, the first thought is always "can they eat it".

In order to make their stomachs more comfortable, they often have to rely on "self-reliance". This usually means three ways.

The first is to visit the door during dinner, run to the villagers' houses, have a ride or not a pair to stay first, and when it comes to eating, you have to have a bowl with me, no matter how bad it is, I don't dislike it. In fact, it is rubbing other people's food, and it is called "fighting the autumn wind" in civilized words.

The second is the team, there are educated youth points in the nearby villages, relying on the ravine, Mojiahe, Tianguyu, all friends within a radius of 100 miles, the team is a common thing, and the same is the end of the world.

There is also an unwritten rule among the educated youth, no matter where you come from, as long as the educated youth are in charge of food and housing, it is okay to live for three or five days, and it is okay to live for ten days and a half months, and it is a complete ** supply system.

This kind of string team has come and gone, as the so-called "vote for me with a peach, repay it with a li", as long as there is something at home, absolutely pour out of each other, without hesitation. But if not, then you can only stare at it with a big eye, and a pile of dead trouser belts.

Third, it belongs to the "income generation" of crooked and evil ways. The so-called "income generation" is actually a pretext for the sake of face. To put it simply, it is "piggybacking", and to put it bluntly, it is "stealing".

During this period, there are many kinds of things such as stealing chickens and dogs and pulling garlic seedlings, and there are also some behaviors that they hated in the past, but in the face of hunger, people's face and dignity have become useless things, and their moral bottom line has been lowered again and again unconsciously.

Slowly, due to their appearance, the chickens in the village continued to disappear, and the hares in the fields were rarely found. The villagers all have a feeling that since the "Beijing Baby" came, there is a feeling that the devil has entered the village in the past.

And helplessness, patience, and hardship have also become the only choice for these educated youths. (To be continued.) )