Uncomfortable, low, and without fighting spirit.

There seems to be a lead ball in the position of the heart, and the outline of the mountain in the distance is clear, filling the entire field of vision.

Yuan Changwen sat on the grass, staring blankly at the street lamps and sparse figures walking.

The whole world seems to be disconnected, does it have anything to do with me? Why am I still alive? What should I do next?

it!

Uncomfortable, this emotion began to deform, and it turned from the lead ball in the heart to mist, from the position of the heart to the whole body. The hands, chest, abdomen, and legs all began to numb, and the body reacted to being wrapped in discomfort.

If in the past, then enthusiasm and inspiration could awaken one's fighting spirit, and then the goal of success could allow oneself not to think about what authenticity. And now, the role has been seen through by me, although the character is still in control, but it is useless.

I involuntarily began to kill, and I could no longer identify with the attributes of the character.

Why do I want to know where this discomfort is coming from? Why do I need to analyze this discomfort?

The character is a piece of!

Do I have to analyze what hardness, shape, color, smell, dry or thin, more or less, whether there are insects?

There's something wrong with your brain!

It doesn't matter what it is, just throw it away. I don't know where this discomfort comes from, and I don't know what causes the discomfort, anyway, the discomfort belongs to the character's emotions and to the character.

Throw them all away!

The character is uncomfortable, it's my business!

That's right, while the role is uncomfortable, I am also very uncomfortable. But what about being uncomfortable? If it has to be uncomfortable to kill falsehood, then I'm very happy.

It's just, how do I know if this discomfort is from a killing, and not something inexplicable? Or rather, or the question, how do I know I'm killing?

Isn't it invisible? The characters are still there, the characters are still there, can't they be seen?

Why be arrogant there?

As long as there is a character, it will be pulled by various emotions, because the character itself is the sum of fear. Why don't you leave here?!

I beg you, will you leave?

I used to think that there was no problem with the existence of the character, but the problem was the problem when encountering the reality of the problem. But it is clear that if there are no characters, then the so-called disobedience will also disappear. Without a role, who will define the unsatisfactory?

It is the existence of the character that allows him to have a goal, and once the goal is not achieved, once there is something that hinders the goal, he will be uneasy, panicked and anxious.

It's because of the existence of the characters that all kinds of garbage self-definitions will be formed, and once there are things that contradict the self-definition in reality, they will be irritated and angry.

It is the existence of the character that makes him constantly think, using that poor knowledge and information to analyze everything in the universe. Trying to control your life, trying to control your future.

It is the existence of the character that distinguishes all kinds of right and wrong, emphasizing that I am right and you are wrong, which makes me constantly strengthen the existence of the character and form a large-scale cycle.

I don't know what else to kill, what else to kill for self-definition. I don't know anything, I'm so tired, it's better to be dead.

Why aren't you dead? Why are you still in your body?

What else is there out there that appeals to me?

"What kind of person am I" and "What kind of goal am I", these are the identity attributes of the character. I have been strengthening these character attributes, which is why once there is a big change, once the character's attributes are suddenly deprived of reality, I will be miserable and embarrassed.

Ha!

How important can a self-definition that can be deprived by reality, a character attribute that can be destroyed by reality?!

And he is still clinging to the role, still holding on to his self-definition and not letting go.

Go to hell!

Everything happened in my head, not on the outside but on the inside. All cognition can only exist in my mind, and all the people and things that affect me also exist only in my mind.

In fact, it's I who give importance to people and things and then make them feel like they can affect me in my mind. It's all a projection that I create in my mind, that they are not real in themselves, but that I project and think they are real.

It doesn't matter who I see or who I think, it's all happening in my mind. In other words, if I can still see others, then it means that my killing is not over.

There is no one else, it's all yourself!

And the character of Yuan Changwen is not more real than other characters, they are all the same fake.

What else is there to say? The role is false, then everything that belongs to the character is also false, emotions, thoughts, self-definition, etc., are false.

For the time being, I don't get rid of this falsehood, but I always do, and the worst case is when I die. So, will you worry about wasting your life by killing like this in this life?

Hee-hee, this panic comes from the character, and only the character will weigh the question of whether it is worth it or not.

A false is a falsehood, and I don't see anything more important than getting rid of this falsehood.

Strictly speaking, this reflection also belongs to the role. At this stage, the role is divided into two parts, one of the previous hard-working roles and the thinking they bring. There is also a character who denies the authenticity of the character and the thinking it brings.

These two parts are killing each other, and "I Exist" is the background, and the performance of the character's suicide is being staged.

All the propaganda of the empire is to enrich the characters, in order to let the characters go to a higher peak.

Damn it!

I'm still thinking about what the hell the empire!

Isn't the empire just in my mind?! The whole empire, the whole universe, is only in my mind.

So, let it go.

Haha, how many times has this been the first time I've said let go? Every time I feel like I'm really letting go, and every time I let go, it brings a perfect sense of ease.

Will there be a next time? Maybe there is, maybe not, I don't know and I don't pretend to know.

Why do you want to do it once and for all? It's really strange that the characters want to be on top of the world at the age of twenty, and then what?

Then when you are bored, you will look forward to the appearance of your opponent. When the opponent really appears, he will dislike the opponent too weak. When aliens appear and directly destroy or enslave the planet, they will feel that the opponent is too strong, and pray to return to the boring days of the past.

All that is needed is the most fundamental explanation, which is that the role needs to be noticed and recognized. Of course, most of the characters just want the attention of positive vanity and ostentation.

When this positive attention is not available, the character looks for negative attention. For example, the character suffers himself, and the character starts complaining about everything. In short, it is to be recognized, and the character wants to realize that he is not fake.

Tsk, that's!

Is there anything wrong with a fake character who has made so many tricks? Moreover, I have admitted that I have followed the character unconsciously for so many years.

I'm the one with the most faults!