I heard that I wanted to see Zhang Zongliang, Gao Lei seemed to be lacking in interest, but we all knew in our hearts that between us and Zhang Zongliang, there would always be a break, and this side must be seen, even if Gao Lei had a million reluctances in her heart, we had no way back.

"Husband, when I see Brother Liang, if he lets you stay, what will you do?" Gao Lei looked at me without powder, and looked at me with a plain face: "At the beginning, I chose to be with you, not for anything else, just to want a stability, because you are different from other men I know, you are down-to-earth, kind, and have no bad intentions...... But Brother Liang is different, he is very good at pondering the psychology of others, you are so soft-hearted, if he plays the emotional card with you, I will shoot you and you will not be able to resist!"

"Don't worry, I won't agree!" I reached out and touched Gao Lei's head: "Don't be cranky, when I first met Brother Liang, when I just entered the society, I always felt that as a younger brother, I should obey my eldest brother's words, so whether what he said was right or wrong, I would wholeheartedly implement it, even if he said... He said......!"

"What did he say?" Gao Lei looked at me with a smile.

"Even if he says, let my favorite girl sell it. My voice gradually lowered, and I reached out to wrap my hand around Gao Lei's shoulder: "Although I am young, I am also a man, when I was in Beijing, you didn't go home at night, I always didn't sleep well all night long, I always smoked one after another, I didn't dare to imagine, what you encountered outside, and I didn't dare to imagine, I didn't dare to think about the way you were entangled with other strange men, I didn't dare to think about it, and I was afraid to think about it......"

'Brush!'

Gao Lei stretched out her hand and pressed my mouth: "Husband, when we met, you knew what my identity was, but you didn't dislike me, that's why I decided to entrust you for life, you are a simple person, but I am a dusty woman, I know that being with me is very unfair to you, but I can't suppress it, I love you, I really love you!"

"I know!" I nodded, I wanted to smile at Gao Lei, but I couldn't squeeze out a smile, my mood was also very messy, but I must not show it to Gao Lei, I was tired of the days by Brother Liang's side, because what he took us to do was not a bastard, just a chicken head.

"Don't talk about these things at home, it's not good to be heard by grandma!" Gao Lei stretched out her finger and scratched my nose: "Before looking for Brother Liang, let's go out for a walk first, okay? I haven't drunk for a long time, so accompany me to drink?"

"Okay, drink!" I was also feeling depressed at the moment, so I readily agreed.

Fifteen minutes later, on the embankment by the moat of the ring road.

Gao Lei and I snuggled up to each other, there were a lot of empty cans around us, and the appetizers were simple and pitiful, only a few bags of mustard, the thousand yuan given by Brother Liang, in addition to buying some gifts for my grandmother, and Gao Lei used some for a trip home, there was not much left, so the two of us lived a very poor life, and it was already a luxury for us to be able to drink this meal.

"Husband, I respect you!" Gao Lei held a bag of mustard in her left hand and knocked her cup with a can with her right hand.

"I wish us a long and unswerving life!" I said, I raised my head and drank the remaining half of the beer.

At that time, the sun was setting, and the afterglow of the setting sun sprinkled on Gao Lei's side face, watching her throat squirm, I felt happy at that moment.

In the next few years, I have soaked in many girls, often restaurants, song halls, barbecues, and nightclubs, often with thousands of consumption, but there has never been a girl who is willing to sit quietly on the side of the road with me, holding two pieces of snow beer in one hand and a pack of mustard for five cents in the other.

What is youth?

I think that youth is ridiculous, youth is constantly doing things that others seem to be stupid, and even after many years, you feel stupid, youth is many years later, even if you can't sleep alone at midnight, you can laugh out loud in embarrassment, and secretly scold yourself for being a fool.

The preciousness of youth is also that you scold yourself for being a fool, and you suddenly have a clear mind about what you were desperate for, and suddenly you have a hundred ways to solve it, and you still want to go back to be a fool, but you can't go back.

I'm glad I had a girl named Gao Lei in my youth, and she came.

'Gollum!'

Gao Lei drank a can of beer in one gulp, then burped and looked at me with a smile: "Husband, you said that Brother Liang was looking for you today, what did you want to say?"

'Chang Dang!'

I stretched out my hand, rolled the empty can in my hand down the slope of the dam, and then said nonchalantly: "What else can I say, it's nothing more than how he looked away before, and he will definitely cultivate me well in the future...... But now what he said, I don't believe a word, when he left Arayang, Brother Liang swore that as long as he made money, he would take us back to Ayang to fight the world, but in the past six months, he has earned hundreds of thousands, and this money is something he can't earn from playing a small gambling game for many years, he already has money, but he still insists on going back to Beijing, what does this mean?

"Sometimes I suddenly find that you are like having a split personality!" Gao Lei looked at me carefully: "Sometimes I think you are stupid and pitiful, but sometimes, I think you are surprisingly smart." ”

"I'm not very smart, but I'm not as stupid as you think!" I reached out and opened another can of beer: "In fact, many times, whether it is Brother Liang or Lei Lei, I know that what they do is wrong, and I also know what to do and what not to do, but I just know in my heart that when they decide to do it, I will still accompany them to do it without hesitation, because they are my eldest brother!

"It's because I understand your character that I'm afraid that you will relent for a while and follow Brother Liang back to Beijing!" Gao Lei slowly fell silent: " I'm already like this, I don't care about anything, as long as I can be with you, I can give anything, and it doesn't matter anything, I don't want to go back to Beijing, just because I'm afraid that one day, Brother Liang will not only use us, but he will also use you, when we are in Beijing, I will always have nightmares, I dreamed that you and Brother Liang got into trouble together, but in the end, Brother Liang was fine, but pushed you to a situation where you can't recover!"

"Don't worry, I definitely won't agree to Brother Liang!" I raised my head and took a sip of beer: "Even if I don't understand this society anymore, but it's not with a good big brother, I still know in my heart, if Brother Liang thinks I'm not good, then he can push me away like Hu Wei and let me fend for myself, instead of lying to me with rhetoric every day, but I don't honor anything, I was with Brother Liang at the beginning, even if he took me to Beijing to steal, If you go to rob it, then he will tell me to go back with him now, and I will leave without hesitation, but this line of work with girls is different, I can't watch him use my woman to make money! I can't stand this kind of life of being coaxed as a three-year-old child, and I have had enough!"

"Husband, thank you!" Gao Lei leaned over and kissed me on the lips, and then happily snuggled her head on my shoulder.

I stretched out my hand to put my arm around Gao Lei's shoulder, and sat quietly in place, in fact, at this moment, my mood is infinitely bad, as early as when we left Beijing, I thought about it, as long as I arrived in Anyang, I would definitely not choose to go back to Beijing, but leaving Zhang Zongliang, the most realistic problem for me is how I should get along with Gao Lei, and how to survive, when I was in Beijing, Gao Lei and I often had conflicts for some trivial matters, but after all, it was in Beijing, we were all unrelated, and we could only rely on each other, so many small contradictions were subconsciously ignored by both sides, but after returning to AryangAlthough the two of us have not been angry, I know in my heart that these are temporarily suppressed by the happiness of returning home, and once we break out in the future, it will easily become uncontrollable.

When I returned to Ayang, I was a little scared, I was afraid that I would lose Gao Lei.

"Husband, since we have decided not to go back to Beijing, why don't we both go and find a job tomorrow, how good it is!" Gao Lei didn't notice the change in me at all, and looked at me happily.

"I don't want to look for a job!" I pouted, shaking my head slightly.

"If you don't look for a job, then what are we going to do, just stay at home every day, pointing to grandma to feed?

"I still want to break into the society! After all, I was with Brother Liang at the beginning, and this was the original intention, although I didn't make any reputation, but I didn't want to give up!" I was silent for a moment and continued to speak: "When I chose to mix in society, it was because of a girl I couldn't protect, although I'm still nothing, but I believe that I will get ahead one day!" I hugged Gao Lei's arm and tightened it a little: "I still have to protect you!"

"I'm very touched that you can choose to continue to be a gangster for me, but there are many ways to protect a person, you don't have to choose the most dangerous one! If you continue like this, you will be tantamount to pressing your youth and future on it!"

"This is the most dangerous and the most effective!" I patted Gao Lei on the head: "Don't worry! I know in my heart, since I have chosen this path, then no matter how much grievance or tribulation, I can accept it! Lei Lei and I originally walked with Brother Liang together, since I have decided to break away from Brother Liang now, it's a big deal to go to Lei Lei, and the two of us will start all over again!"

"Well, I believe my husband is the best!" Gao Lei couldn't persuade me, so she could only follow my wishes and say, "It's just, if we all leave Brother Liang, what will Zhang Lin do?"

“……”

When I mentioned Zhang Lin, the expression on my face instantly froze, I grew up to 20 years old, I didn't contact many girls, and I boasted that I had never hurt any girls, the only exception was Zhang Lin, this simple girl, who was almost hurt by me.

"I believe that as long as I don't leave, Zhang Lin won't go back, but I don't know how I should face her when we meet again in the future!" I picked up the last half can of beer and slowly poured it down my throat.

"Ugh..."

Youth is a little melancholy,

A glass of sake, half a sigh.

'Dang Chang!'

The last beer can was thrown far away by me, and I also stood up and sorted out my mood, ready to have a showdown with Brother Liang, because the Beijing that I was looking forward to at the beginning has long since lost what I had in mind.