In the end, Huzi still wanted to talk to me, saying that he would bring a group of brothers from the team to come and see me, look at Mao, how are you going to greet me when you meet me, do you call uncle or uncle?

After hanging up the phone, I was in a very good mood, Xiaoting was able to live on crutches and be discharged from the hospital by herself, what does this mean, what does this mean!hahahahaha......

I knew that everything I did was worth it. I decided to have a drink to celebrate, but I couldn't find any wine at home for a long time, but I was half tired and out of breath, it seems that my body is really bad now, but my mood is surprisingly good, I decided to go downstairs and buy a bottle.

When I went out, I happened to meet the landlord, he thought I was my grandfather, came to see me, I wiped, and it was not easy to deny, otherwise he chirped crookedly and was not finished, and he hurried downstairs after fooling the past.

It's easy to go to the supermarket in the community, ask for a bottle of two pots, buy some noodles and ham sausages or something to go back, I'm really not suitable to go out now, but I also know that I can't hide like this, what to do in the future, I don't know.

When I went out to settle the payment, my hands were shaking, how old am I for your sister, how can I have this kind of Parkinson's disease, and I am not the boxing champion Ali...... I almost dropped the wine I had just bought, and finally the waitress girl in the store came over and insisted on letting my old man out...... I'm so depressed!

Back to the rented apartment, the fourth floor is like a difficult task for me now, my old man climbed all the way up to the panting, and the landlord came to help me again, your sister, why did you go earlier!

I finally got home, and not long after I sat down, a group of people knocked on the door, and it turned out that Huzi and these guys really came to see me......

At that time, my brain was messed up with sauce, this door is not open, it is not open, I really don't want these brothers who play together all day long to know that the peerless handsome guy in the past has become an old man with walnut lines on his face today.

But how long can I hide it from them, I can't hide it at home for a lifetime, and according to my current development trend, if I don't know how to do it in a few days, I'll hang up, and while I still have a breath, it's not bad to say goodbye.

When I thought about it like this, I didn't have any worries, I opened the door and let them in, but when these guys saw me, they thought they had gone to the wrong door, said sorry uncle, and turned around and left!

I'll you, these fools, don't you see that I'm still wearing the clothes I used to wear, and although my voice has changed, the tone and vocabulary habits are still the same as they are familiar with, so they don't dare to enter the door, do these guys have brains!

I stood behind the door, looking outside through the cat's eye, these guys did have enough two, ran upstairs and knocked on the door, and found that they were still looking for the wrong door, and then came down to this floor of my house, this time they didn't knock directly, but took out their mobile phone to dial my number, the phone in my pocket just rang, I reacted, and deducted the battery.

Because they didn't recognize me just now, just as they turned to leave, the courage I just mustered up has completely disappeared, and I no longer have the courage to face these friends and tell them that I am the Cheng Xiaonan they are familiar with.

I know that my time is short, and instead of letting them remember that there was a dead friend, a monster with a seventy-year-old face and a twenty-two-year-old mind, and it has since become the talk of everyone's after-dinner conversation, it is better for everyone to never see each other, so that their impression of me is all stuck in the good old days when we used to play motorcycles together.

These guys' ears are really pointy, my phone rang, and they even heard it, and the tiger called my name and slammed the door panel, and I leaned my back against the other side of the door panel, and a door panel seemed to separate our close friends in the past into two distant time and space.

These guys tossed for a long time and saw that I still didn't open the door, and finally shook their heads and went downstairs. Through the cat's eye, I saw their backs as they went downstairs, your sister, I actually shed tears......

After they left, I took out the wine and drank it alone, maybe it was difficult for people to control their emotions when they drank too much, I cried while drinking, and finally the bottle fell asleep on the sofa.

When I opened my eyes again, it was already eleven o'clock in the evening, I drank a little too much, I felt a headache, and my body was hot, I always felt very itchy and couldn't help but want to scratch, this scratch didn't matter, the skin where I scratched began to rot, I didn't feel pain, I didn't bleed much, but my whole body was full of cracks, and the whole person was like a broken sack full of cracks.

I think maybe my life is coming to an end. Hey, it's a shame, after all, I've just turned twenty-two, and my life has just begun, and it's coming to an end so soon.

At this time, I thought of my parents in my hometown, Xiaoting is fine, the only thing I still worry about now is them, if I die like this, I really don't know how they will face it. I feel guilty when I think about it, but now it's too late.

Thursday, October 14, 201X, cloudy to overcast

I didn't expect to sleep for three days and two nights, which is something I have never had since I was a child. I had nightmares while I was asleep and woke up with nothing to remember.

The first thing I did when I woke up was to run into the bathroom and look in the mirror, saying I was running, but I was so weak that I could hardly walk.

A few days ago, I looked in the mirror, and every time I had a "surprise", I should have had enough psychological expectations today, but when I saw myself in the mirror, I was still scared stupid by my own appearance, and I couldn't control my punch and smashed the mirror.

His body was covered with cracked and rotting skin, and flesh that had been turned out of the cracks in the skin, and his face was so rotten that large chunks of flesh and flesh were half hanging on his face. What's the difference between my current appearance and the zombies in Resident Evil? If I walk down the street like this, I'm going to be shot like a monster.

Now I finally understand that my time on earth is running out, and there are some things I have to do as soon as possible.

The first thing I did was to write a suicide note to my parents in my hometown, and now that I am about to come to the end of my life, I realize that my parents are the closest people I can't give up and are closest to. I didn't know how to tell them what had happened to me, and I had to lie to them one last time that I was terminally ill and there was no cure.

In the accident half a year ago, I spent almost all my savings to repair my car, but fortunately, my evil boss just gave me this month's salary, plus the savings some time ago, a total of less than 6,000 yuan, I left myself 800, and the rest was left at home.

The second thing is that I want to confirm with my own eyes whether Xiaoting has really recovered, this matter is a bit difficult, because my current dignity will become the focus of attention wherever I go, and I am now so weak that I have to take a few steps to rest and take a breath, I am afraid that if I can't walk to Xiaoting's house, I will hang up halfway.

Fortunately, I still have a small pedal motorcycle hidden in my house, which is no different from garbage, which I have been using for transportation before I bought GSX1300R, and I have never touched it since I bought the Suzuki Hayabusa, because it is too broken to sell, and it can still be used after trying it.

I tore the sheets at home one by one, wrapped myself tightly from head to chest, only exposed my eyes and mouth, put on my clothes and put up my collar, put on a helmet and sunglasses, theoretically it was impossible for others to see my monster-level face, so I drove the broken pedal to find Xiaoting.

When I arrived at Xiaoting's community, I didn't dare to really go to her house to look for her, even if I didn't become what I am now, her parents would not allow me to approach her again. I had to park the car downstairs at Xiaoting's house and wait, hoping that God would send a miracle and let Xiaoting pass me.

Maybe it was my bad luck, I couldn't figure it out after I waited for hours, and my weird dress attracted some people's attention, and even the dogs in the neighborhood were very fond of barking at me. It's a tough thing for my body right now, sitting on a broken pedal for hours on end, and I know I won't be able to hold on for long.

At this moment, a miracle happened, I actually heard someone call my name, and when I turned around, it was Xiaoting. I didn't think she would recognize me even if I were like this.

I turned to look at her, and I was sure she was absolutely frightened when she saw my face, and her face suddenly became bloodless, and she took several steps back, and then said sorry to me, she recognized the wrong person.

At such a close distance, I can be completely sure that Xiaoting's body has completely recovered, she is still as beautiful as before, her face is ruddy, and her voice is crisp and sweet, which is enough. Seeing her like this, I think everything I put in was worth it.

Just when I was still struggling in my heart, whether to tell her whether to tell her that I was Xiao Nan, her parents came up from behind and took her home, it turned out that Xiao Ting had been strictly guarded by her parents. She looked back at me several times when she was taken away, and I kept looking at her, and I knew that this was the time for the two of us to say goodbye.

After doing these two things, I bought some convenient food and drink on the way back, and prepared to do the third and last thing I planned to do, which was to find a beautiful and inaccessible place deep in the mountains, waiting for the last moment of my life.

Thinking that I might not be able to come back, I put away the things at home, packed them in a few large boxes, and put my house key, the suicide note to my parents, bank cards and passwords, messages to Huzi and other small bits and pieces, as well as the GPS coordinates I chose as the place of destination on a note, sealed in a large envelope, called the city courier, and specifically instructed him to postpone for 3 days, and then send the envelope out, the recipient is Huzi, my best brother.

Then I packed up my tent, sleeping bag, and other camping equipment and strapped it to the broken pedal motorcycle. After doing all this, I felt like my body was being emptied, tired like a dead dog.

Holding back the irresistible tiredness, I finished writing this journal with a dizziness that almost hallucinated, I felt like I had switched from the main perspective to the third-person mode, I had to go and take a good rest, and for me now, it is expected that the final journey tomorrow with this fragile body that is about to die will be full of difficulties.

The final place I chose was the place I stumbled upon when I used to hike the mountain, because it was inaccessible and peaceful, surrounded by the majestic Grand Canyon, the green pines and cypresses, and the gorgeous wildflowers, and I would be there, quietly waiting, the end of my all......