At this point, there is nothing to say, for all other words are pale and weak. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

On the first day that Su Rong's mother and daughter returned to Sujia Village, they experienced a lot of things.

That night, everyone dispersed after dinner, Su Rong was talking to her parents in the room about some family matters, while Bai Xiaosheng and Su Susu were sitting outside counting the stars and watching the moon.

"I don't have a dad anymore. ”

Su Susu leaned on Bai Xiaosheng's arms and whispered these slightly cruel words.

The death of a father is a pain that is difficult to hide for every child. But when she said this at this time, her expression was not full of sadness, but a strange serenity.

"I was so sad before I came that I didn't even know how to do it, and I wanted to escape from it, but after I actually saw his urn with my own eyes, I became extremely calm. The little girl continued, with a faint inexplicable emotion in her tone, "I used to hate him, why he abandoned my mother and me, and threw a bunch of bad gambling debts to the family. In order to avoid debt, I didn't live in a fixed place at the time, and I had to change places every once in a while. If my mother hadn't gritted her teeth and persevered, I might have dropped out of school a long time ago. ”

When she said this, Su Susu paused for a few seconds and looked at the other party's eyes with sparkles: "If I hadn't met your family's sponsorship at that time, maybe I would have changed schools in elementary school, and my uncle and aunt were my most important benefactors at that time." ”

She is talking about a past incident four or five years ago, when it was only the fifth grade of primary school, Bai Xiaosheng's parents were still alive at that time, because of Bai Xiaosheng's begging at that time, Su Susu was supported by the Bai family's parents.

"Are you embarrassed to say..."Because the memory of this body was completely fused, Bai Xiaosheng quickly remembered the past at that time, and she poked her lover's forehead angrily: "In the first semester of the sixth grade of primary school, why did you suddenly break up with me?"

The memory of this body is like watching a movie, although the memory is very clear, but there is always a sense of unreality.

When this body graduated from elementary school, the other party was standing in that rainy night, inexplicably quarreling with himself, and then the two became strangers for a semester, and when they entered junior high school, they began to tear each other for three years.

It wasn't until she was reborn again in the third year of junior high that this changed.

"Because of jealousy. ”

Thinking of what happened a few years ago, Su Susu's cute little face wrinkled slightly, and she said such a sentence.

"Jealousy?"

Bai Xiaosheng glanced at the other party with some confusion.

"Because at that time, seeing you and Lin Youluo so close, I once thought that I would not be able to step into it in this life. ”

Su Susu said lightly, mentioning Lin Youluo's name, her eyes still showed some complexity.

Even if she reluctantly stepped in now, it was because Lin Youluo's girl didn't like Bai Xiaosheng that she took advantage of it.

But if Lin Youluo has this meaning, she may not be able to keep Bai Xiaosheng.

Although Su Susu is ignorant and naïve, she still sees these things about lovers very thoroughly.

It's also a woman's intuition.

"How old were you at the time?" When Bai Xiaosheng heard this, he couldn't help laughing: "You know this at a young age?"

At that time, the other party was only about eleven years old, so he knew all these twists and turns?

"Maybe I'm more precocious in love..."Su Susu's eyes also had a bit of a long-term taste, and he just said quietly: "I saw the intimacy between you and Lin Youluo, the kind of relationship without any gaps, which made me hide in the bed and cry more than once." It wasn't until that time that I suddenly realized that my feelings for you were not as simple as friendship. It was then that I realized that I had no feelings for any boy, and was even full of indescribable disgust. I know... I probably like girls. ”

"This..."

was mentioned by her lover in front of her about her relationship with Lin Youluo, Bai Xiaosheng also felt a little embarrassed about this topic, and did not give any direct answer, but just subconsciously touched her nose.

"But the last semester I was a stranger with you, I was still scared every day, and I couldn't sleep even late, just like my father did when he abandoned me and my mother in the dark days. Su Susu sighed, and for the first time, her cute little face showed a sense of maturity, "I know that if I continue to contact you no more, then I will probably have nothing to do with it again in this life." So you will know what happened after that, and I approached you in another way, that is, to deliberately find fault and make people hate me, which is at least better than making you forget about me. ”

“...”

Bai Xiaosheng was silent, just gently touched Su Susu's soft shoulder.

After all, many things in this life are completely different, according to the development in the original time and space, Su Susu in junior high school should have been a lively and pure girl, and she would definitely not do such a thing.

Love is a terrible thing, it can even turn a timid little rabbit into an aggressive snake.

This doesn't need logic.

Su Susu looked at Bai Xiaosheng's side face, the charming and enchanting melon seed face was like a coveted flower bud, when she said this, two lines of tears couldn't help but flow: "It's like a father who left, I thought... He may come back one day, if nothing else, at least the family can have a peaceful meal. But alas..."

"Rest in peace, don't be too sad, in fact, your father never thought that there would be such a day. ”

Bai Xiaosheng comforted the other party in a low voice, and it was not easy to say too much at this time.

"Bai Xiaosheng, do you say that we human beings will perish one day in the future?"

Su Susu nodded, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, and leaned on Bai Xiaosheng's arms, but suddenly asked in a whisper.

Bai Xiaosheng looked at the sky very high and far away, and there was nothing in the black expanse except for a few stars that were not bright, which made people feel an indescribable sense of insignificance in their hearts.

She sighed: "This topic space. ”

Su Susu didn't raise her head and asked, "Then what's not empty?"

Bai Xiaosheng shook his head: "I don't know." ”

When the Buddha said that everything is empty, he probably means that things have no eternity and no normality, and will eventually slowly return to their original place and turn into nothingness. The girl doesn't believe in any gods and ghosts, but she also has a sense of confusion about the impermanence of the future.

Just like human nature is to be afraid of the dark, not simply afraid of the dark, but afraid of the unknown that the darkness brings.

Everything that comes in the future is unknown.

"Can you stay with me forever?"

Su Susu was silent for a long time, and asked the question she wanted to know the most in a low voice.

Although the other party confirmed the relationship with her, she always felt that the other party was a breeze wrapped around her fingertips, and she could turn away at any time.

The night was quiet, the winter village did not even hear the slightest sound of insects, the lights at the entrance of the village in the distance flickered, and the dim light dotted the quiet night, at this time the two could only hear each other's heartbeats.

Although the night breeze in Shonan is a little chilly to the bones, the two hearts that are close together emit a blazing temperature.

Bai Xiaosheng suddenly laughed, gently stroked Su Luoli's little head, and whispered softly in the other party's ear: "What do you think?"

The girl's murmur was like the gentle sound of the night wind, blowing in Su Susu's ears, making her itch slightly.

"10,000 years is too long. Like you said, the future is full of mysterious unknowns, but as long as you live in the present, cherish the present. At least for now, in this moment, you belong to me. ”

Su Susu turned her head and stared at the other party's charming eyes carefully for a long time, but she burst out laughing for a long time, and in an instant, she was like a hundred flowers blooming, purple and red.

Her innocent and pure smile is like a flawless flower blooming in Bai Xiaosheng's heart. (To be continued.) )