Chapter 172: Loneliness is an independent personality

Life in high school is always different from junior high school, and this difference lies in the interpersonal relationships, friends, higher horizons and experiences, and more things that have not happened.

2011, a long and hot summer.

Fang Ning is still living his happy little life in this small inland city.

The time is neither early nor late, it is the youth and the prime.

In addition to studying every day, I just chatted with my friends, or went for a walk on the playground with Cheng Xi after dinner, just like the students of thousands of ordinary families in China, there is no life full of dog blood, and there is no sweet and hearty revenge of the Count of Monte Cristo, but it is precisely this kind of small day that is appropriate to reality that makes Fang Ning feel very satisfied from head to toe.

"Bell Bell"

The school bell rang in a hurry, in the corridor, in the classroom, in the commissary students quickly entered the classroom, followed by the sound of turning books, and then "students stood up...... Hello teacher", started a day of learning life.

Huang Ying is a new political teacher, Fang Ning heard that she had just graduated from college, and she didn't have much experience as a teacher, and after getting her teacher certificate, she was waiting for the education division, and when she chose the two county-level towns of Pinghai County and Tear Luo, she didn't know if it was a twitch in her head, and she thought that the city with a sea in the name might be much better, but she was assigned to Pinghai County by mistake, and she was dumbfounded after coming here, because you can see how remote and backward this city is when you get off the highway and from Pingru Highway。

Just when she was disheartened, fate opened a lucky door with Huang Ying, and instead of being assigned to a more remote village, she was assigned to the second middle school to teach.

"Hello everyone, I am Teacher Huang Ying who took over from Teacher Yu, you can call me Teacher Ying, of course, if there is anyone who is willing to make friends with me outside of class, you can also call me Huang Ying. Huang Yingwei held the political textbook and copywriting, said cautiously, turned around and wrote her name on the blackboard.

Everyone who was doing it didn't say anything, or Fang Ning took the lead in applauding, the whole class was applauding, Huang Ying opened her mouth to continue to say something, but her voice was already drowned out in the warm applause.

Next, after Huang Ying introduced herself, there was not much nonsense, and she asked about the progress of Teacher Yu's class before, and continued the class from him.

A class is decent, neither the old teacher's old seriousness, nor the passion of other young teachers, the only highlight should be considered cautious, there is no mistake.

Mao Zhenxing and Xie Yang, who were sitting in front of Fang Ning, exchanged heads and ears, chatting with each other.

"Are you going to watch a game tonight?"

"No, I'm going to accompany my girlfriend home, I'm going to go to you. Mao Zhenxing said.

"You're okay kid, which girl did you get in?"

"Wang Wei. ”

"Oh, it's the white girl in our class, I see that she usually lies on the table like she hasn't woken up, how did you catch it? ”

"Secret!"

"Cut, boring. ”

Huang Ying wrote "The Dialectical Relationship between Production and Consumption" on the blackboard, turned around and saw the two of them chatting, and her voice overshadowed herself.

As a result, it happened that the head teacher, Lao Zhang, came out of the next class after teaching mathematics, and inspected the situation of his class by the way......

And then there was no more.

Fang Ning mourned in silence for the two unlucky children, and it was estimated that he would not come back without two classes.

After a political class, Huang Ying packed up the courseware and walked out of the classroom, wondering if she had made any mistakes, feeling that she had made no mistakes, and her heart was much more stable.

In the office, several male and female teachers held tea and drank tea.

"Old boy, what do you think of this new teacher Huang Ying?" Wang Quanfeng said with a smile.

Tong Liancheng held a large steel porcelain bowl, clasped the tea leaves with his fingers, and chewed until he chewed for a while before he said: "Little young, who didn't come over like that back then?" The heat is still a little lacking, but these are not much of a problem, now they are not as big as before, they are all heavy diplomas and light skills, and teachers like this are not bad." ”

Wang Quanfeng, known as a half-immortal, knocked on the table and shook his head, "I don't think this teacher will be long in coming......"

Tong Liancheng raised his eyebrows, put down the steel porcelain bowl, and looked left and right, "Why do you say that?"

"It's not that a certain friend who has a leader wants to go to us and stuff it here, at present, our teacher establishment is full, one radish and one pit, there is no vacancy, and Huang Ying's position is still unstable, I see it hanging. ”

"What about the ability of the stakeholder?"

"I don't know, but if you want to take the relationship, I guess that's it. ”

"Isn't this nonsense!"

"As I said, times have changed, and we are all mud bodhisattvas crossing the river, and it is difficult to protect ourselves. ”

"Do you want to tell Huang Ying? I think this matter is very important. Tong Liancheng thought for a while, then shook his head, "This matter has to be kept secret for the time being, don't be full of news at that time." ”

"Hmm. ”

……

Everything in school is based on learning, but at home it is a different atmosphere, warm and happy.

The second grandfather came out of the hospital, and his recovery was not bad, but he had some sequelae of concussion, and sometimes his brain was not clear, and he seemed to be easily distracted.

Because of the inconvenience of moving, Fang Ning's grandfather took the second grandfather to the house, his son returned to Yunzhezhuang, and his daughter and son-in-law returned to other places.

Fang's father and Fang's mother only stayed at home for a week before returning to Shenzhen, and he still has to do things there, so it is impossible not to work at home all the time.

Fang Ning's family has one more second grandfather, and it is much more lively than before, especially after the car accident, he seems to be much older, he doesn't have the same energy as before, and when he is alone, he loves to miss the past, and when his grandfather is okay at home, he chats with him and chats about the past.

Summer is always prone to heavy rain, and after a while, it will not rain for more than ten days, the weather will be hot and humid, and then it will be a sudden rainstorm.

On Saturday morning, the weather was hot, Fang Ning suddenly remembered that since he was in high school, he hadn't gone to the library to read books for a long time, he was full of interest, and made a phone call to Yu Xiaole.

I finally waited until the rain stopped and the sun came out.

The air was fresh after the rain, and even the dusty leaves on the streets were washed clean.

Fang Ning looked at the time, there were still two hours until noon, thought about it, called Yu Xiaole again, and agreed to go to the nearest Longmen bookstore to read books again, and by the way, to see if there were any best-selling books.

Yu Xiaole hadn't seen him for a while, so he happily agreed.

Longmen Bookstore is still the same, even the female clerks have not changed, the oldest female clerk is still the menopausal appearance, everyone looks like they owe her 100,000 yuan, as for the other two clerks, they still secretly put on makeup when they go to work, sometimes Fang Ning secretly thinks, every day in the bookstore, and does not go to other places, why do they always like makeup, and finally it is estimated that it is a girl's nature to love beauty.

Yu Xiaole and Fang Ning hadn't seen each other for a while, so they chatted at the door, entered the bookstore together, and asked if there were any good-looking bestsellers recently.

The female clerk recommended a few bestsellers, one of which was the Silkworm Potato's Dou Breaking the Sky, Yu Xiaole was unheard of, took it in his hand and looked at the cover a few times, and wondered, "Haven't I paid attention to the Internet world for a long time, and there are a few new gods?"

Fang Ning glanced at it, and immediately understood, "This is the best-seller, Tian Silkworm Potato, with Dou Po, created a waste material retirement marriage flow, opened the era of fast food on the Internet, can be regarded as an unbelievable ghost, oh, he has now become a god and has become the Central Plains Wubai." ”

Yu Xiaole sighed that time flies, "It's really the back waves of the Yangtze River pushing the front waves!"

"Is the fast food article good?" he grabbed a copy and flipped through it.

"It's okay, in today's fast-paced era, watching this kind of fast food is just for after-dinner pastime, but most of them forget it. Fang Ning nodded.

"Then I'll buy a few copies and go back and have a look. Yu Xiaole said, speaking of which, after he went to middle school, he rarely watched the Internet, after all, this thing is very addictive, high school homework is heavy, basically it is half past ten after finishing homework, and there is not much time left to rest, if you stay up late, you will definitely be in bad spirits on another day, and if you are not in good spirits, it will easily affect your studies, so after controlling your heart, he rarely comes into contact with this kind of thing.

Fang Ning raised his hand to stop him, and shook his head, "You are pursuing too much more than us, you can't make any mistakes in your studies, you can keep these and watch them later." ”

Yu Xiaole hesitated for a moment, and finally put it down.

Fang Ning was right, these things were indeed not suitable for him to see now.

"Let's go, I'll take you to find other books, we're not here to read the online article today. Fang Ning smiled mysteriously, and took the lead in walking into the sorted bookshelves and began to look for what he wanted.

""Thick Black Studies" and "Caigen Tan"?" Yu Xiaole saw Fang Ning turn out these two thick books from the unpopular category, and he was a little strange.

"Look at thick black learning, is to understand the dark, but to know the world but not the world, and Caigen Tan is mainly to read the truth of the world, in today's words is the three views, outlook on life, values, world view, if you encounter any difficulties and troubles in learning, it is beneficial to read more of these. Fang Ning handed him these two books.

"Okay, I'll take a closer look when I get back. ”

"The rest of the books are dispensable. ”

Fang Ning and the others found a corner and quietly read the book, fortunately, during this time period, there were not many people in the bookstore, until they saw that it was almost time to eat at noon, they left the bookstore and bought a few books at the same time.

A middle street, a fork in the road.

"I don't know when we will meet again next time, we are still relatively busy here, the first three classes of No. 1 Middle School are mobile, and if the grades are not good, I can't get in, so I have to work harder, for the future, for the family, for her, and myself, I have to work hard!"

Fang Ning stopped and said solemnly, "As your best friend, I'm glad you can be so self-motivated, I believe your efforts will not be in vain!"

"Bye-bye then. ”

"For tomorrow!" Fang Ning waved his hand.

The two parted ways, Fang Ning walked towards the sun, the leaves fell, the sunlight fell all over his eyes, Yu Xiaole walked towards him with his back, and walked into the dark alley, the falling leaves blew up, looking a little unexpectedly lonely.

But Fang Ning understood that it wasn't just him, everyone was lonely.

It's like two dots on a blank piece of paper, one is the end and the other is the starting point, there are countless blue lines and a red line, you are the red line, the blue line is the other person, this is the trajectory of life, or the process of mental change, and the change of concept.

Many people have had a common route with you, and you feel that you are the same as them, confidants of each other.

However, as time passes, your changes will be different......

Everyone is going their own way, even if it's family members, lovers, you all think differently, this is personality independence.

The essence of human beings is loneliness, not that you live in isolation, seclusion in the mountains, isolated from the world, and do not interact with others, but that your heart has changed a lot.

……

At night, the stars are washing, and the summer cicadas are calling season after season.

Fang Ning was lying on the bed boredly scrolling through Weibo and Renren, and suddenly the classic dingdong sound sounded on the mobile phone.

"Friend application, nickname: guess what. ”

He was a little surprised, how could a person like him, who was only isolated in a circle and unwilling to go out, have new friends to add him? It couldn't be some boring person who teased him with a trumpet......

Fang Ning has always speculated on others with the greatest malice, after all, this thing has happened to Lao Tan.

Lao Guang's little slut once added him with a female name, and his screen name is Qingqing Zijin, the kind of special literary style, and the avatar is still a forest healing system, which makes Lao Tan think that the person who added him is Wei Qing, after all, her name has a green character in it, and Wei Qing is occasionally quite literary, girls, they all have a literary and hypocritical time.

Then Qingqing Zijin also deliberately hinted at Lao Tan a few times, said a few familiar details, and finally asked him to go to Xinhua Bookstore to buy books, Lao Tan was happy all night, and dressed up, he went to Xinhua Bookstore a long time ago, and waited from morning to evening, but Wei Qingmao did not appear.

Another day at school, Lao Tan Te asked Wei Qing aggrievedly why did you miss the appointment to release his pigeon, Wei Qing looked dazed and didn't know what was going on, and finally asked and smiled, saying that you were tricked by others.

Don't ask why Fang Ning knows about this matter, because this bad idea was Fang Ning's idea, it's not that Lao Tan doesn't leave Wei Qing in front of them every day, what if Wei Qing is there, it makes them upset, and they think of tricking Lao Tan like this.