After I left my aunt's house, Yang Tao and they called me several times, I used the excuse that I was attending Jufeng's wedding, and then I don't know how, I slipped to the small hotel where Xiaoyu and we had just gotten off the school gate, and stood at the door for a while, hesitated for a while, and then went in and opened a room.

Pushing open the door, the furnishings inside are still the same, only a bed and a small sofa, unchanged, still the smell of decay and mold in the room, but the bed and sofa have become more and more old.

After entering the room, I sat on the sofa in the corner, looking at this dim and dirty room a little distracted, the first time I stepped into this room, I also stepped into the society, at that time, for the society in front of me, I was full of apprehension and longing, in fear and strangeness at the same time, but also hoped that I could get ahead, become a big bastard that I envied myself.

Nowadays, when outsiders mention the name Han Fei, they will say that he is the chief disciple, the celebrity around Gan Chudong, and the mainstay of the next generation of Shengdong Company.

Although I never felt that I had changed anything, it was undeniable that I had a lot of titles, and the price I paid was even more unbearable.

When I lived here, I accompanied Wan Peng's men out all night at night, they played, I watched, my hungry stomach gurgled in the middle of the night, and I wanted to spend a dollar to buy a ham sausage to eat, but my pocket was empty, and I felt that it was a luxury when I saw others eating instant noodles.

Now, in order to let my aunt help take care of my grandmother, I can take out 600,000 yuan with my hand, and I also have tens of thousands of yuan in cash on my body.

Wan Peng, who was beautiful in my eyes at the beginning, has now been sentenced to life imprisonment, I don't know how many years I have been squatting, once the gang lived in this small room, and I couldn't even eat enough every day, but I still showed my teeth and claws, and I thought I was a very good little gangster, but now I don't know where I am.

And I, the waste boy who was once not favored by anyone, has now reached a height that none of them have reached.

But at this moment, I was confused, I didn't know if my current life was what the innocent boy longed for at the beginning.

Perhaps, I just thought about the result, but never thought about the road.

Ah Zhen told me that if there was a choice, he would rather not quit that society, but continue to break with us, fight together, and mix together.

Suo Qiang also told me that although he lost his healthy legs, he did not regret coming out to mix it up.

……

But what about me?

I don't know if I regret it, and I don't know if I should regret it, but I know very well that I don't have a chance to regret it.

In my life, from the moment I first stepped into this room, there was no turning back!

Should I regret it?

If I don't choose society, then what can I do with my ability?

Is it to go to a restaurant to help serve food and watch others feast?

Also went to Beiyang to bathe and handed slippers to people, just for a tip of five yuan?

Or go to KTV to serve wine to others and watch them spend all day drinking?

……

It is said that there is no distinction between high and low careers, and I may not step into society, and I can make many choices, but the kind of life that can see through the rest of my life at a glance is really not what I want.

Because of my background, I have always been afraid of society, and at the same time sensitive and inferior, but I really don't know why I don't have parents and can be a reason for being ridiculed by others, why I have done nothing, but I will become the laughing stock of others.

Some people say that lucky people have been healed by childhood all their lives, but unfortunate people like me have been healing their childhood.

I long to be recognized, I want to be looked upon, I want to be respected, and now, no one around me will laugh at me because of my background, and for those who used to laugh at me, I am strong enough that they can't climb high.

It only took me a few years to get all this, and for a little bastard, the speed of this growth is staggering enough, but on the way I grew up, it seemed that every step of the way was stepping on friends, Brother's blood forward, in order to get these, whether active or passive, I have lost too much, especially after the death of Brother Hulu, I really can't bear it, until I learned the news of Leng Lei, I rekindled my fighting spirit, when I was in Inner Mongolia before, because of Leng Lei, the second brother is still missing, Ah Hu in order to protect me under Leng Lei's gun, lost a life, Brother Hulu also in order to protect me, also filled in a life, in the end, even Zhao Huaiyang was sentenced to two years in prison.

I'm scared, I'm really scared, I'm afraid that when I face Leng Lei, a mourning star, the people around me will be hurt, so this time, I decided not to drag anyone around me, and went to Leng Lei alone to seek revenge.

In the face of Leng Lei, I can go out of everything now, even if I lose my life, I must make this beast pay the price of blood, and only blood can extinguish my incomparably boiling heart tormented by hatred.

……

Eleven p.m.

'Ring, ring, ring!'

Just when I was alone in the hotel in a daze, the mobile phone next to me rang rapidly, I looked at the unfamiliar number on the screen, connected the phone, and without waiting for the other party to speak, I took the lead in speaking: "I'm Han Fei." ”

"Hmm. Zhang Zongliang, who was on the other side of the phone, answered softly: "Is there something?"

"Are you in Ark?"

Zhang Zongliang thought for a while and didn't answer my question: "You can just say something." ”

"I want to see you. ”

"See me?" Zhang Zongliang was a little surprised: "At this time, what are you doing when you see me?"

"Don't talk nonsense, just say if you can see it. ”

"You've got to let me know what you're seeing me for, right?"

"About Leng Lei. I didn't go around the bush with Zhang Zongliang: "Now the only person I can ask for is you, if you can see me, give me an address, if not, hang up." ”

"Whew!" On the other end of the phone, there was a sound of deep breathing, Zhang Zongliang hesitated for a while, and then said softly: "There is a fork in the road at the foot of Beishan Cemetery, do you know?"

"Yes. ”

"Follow the fork in the road on the right, and there is a pine forest with a burial ground in it, go there and wait for me. ”

"Good!"

After hanging up Zhang Zongliang's phone, I got up and left the hotel and got into the back seat of a taxi on the side of the road.

When the driver saw me getting into the car, he turned down the volume on the radio: "Where are you going, young man?"

"North Hill Cemetery. ”

"Where are you going?!" When the driver heard this, he sat up straight and turned his head to look at me: "Big night, how much fake wine have you drunk, take me to sober up?"

"I'm not kidding you, I'm really going to Beishan Cemetery. I took out two hundred yuan and threw it on the front passenger seat: "Drive!"

"Little brother, it's not about money. The driver looked at the money I threw on the seat, and was not moved at all: "I run a long-term night shift, and I am more superstitious, so I never go to this evil place, you better go down and change the car!"

After listening to the driver's words, I took out three hundred yuan from my pocket again and threw it again: "I don't need you to take me into the mountain, you just stop at the fork in the national highway, and then I walk in by myself, okay?"

The driver looked at the co-pilot's five hundred yuan, and was a little entangled: "There is no one at Beishan Cemetery, why do you want to go to that kind of place at this big night." ”

I didn't answer the driver's question: "500 yuan, send me to the edge of the national highway, you can drive if you can, and if you can't do it, I'll leave." ”

"Okay, for the sake of money, I'll take this job. The driver looked at the red banknotes, gritted his teeth and nodded: "I can pull this job, but can you sit in the co-pilot, you sit in the back, I always feel uncomfortable." ”

"That's a lot. After listening to the driver's words, I pushed the door open and changed to the co-pilot, and then he also pulled me towards the cemetery.

……

'Squeak!'

About half an hour later, the driver parked the car at the entrance of the national highway leading to the cemetery, and I pushed the door and got out of the car.

"Hey, young man!" The driver saw me get out of the car, lowered the window, and looked at me with some curiosity: "I still don't understand, why did you come to this place in the middle of the night?"

I glanced at the driver: "Today I was the first seven, just now I went back to see the family, when I went out, the little man who carried the sedan chair for me was captured by the wild ghosts passing by, before dawn, if I can't come back to the house, I can't be reincarnated." ”

"I'm going to fuck you, in the middle of the night, you can't fucking say anything, big fool!" the driver slammed into my words, then stepped on the accelerator, and the engine roared out.

After the taxi left, I also called up the flashlight of my mobile phone, and walked along the mountain road, the cemetery on this side of Anyang is on the mountain, there are no people on this mountain, the address given by Zhang Zongliang must be at least three kilometers away from me, if it is changed in normal times, it is almost twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, I definitely dare not come to this place by myself, but this day I did not feel scared because I had something in my heart, and strode towards the mountain.

After wandering for almost thirty minutes, I rushed to the pine forest that Zhang Zongliang said, the surrounding area was pitch black, a gust of wind blew, the canopy on both sides of the tree swayed, the paper money in the air floated from time to time, and the surrounding dead grass occasionally pheasants and hares suddenly burst out, finally made me feel a trace of discomfort, in the reflection of the moonlight, I saw the tomb that Zhang Zongliang said from a distance, looking from afar, among the woods where the black pine stands, there are nearly 100 graves large and small, scattered on this gentle hillside, looking at this place, I also secretly cursed in my heart Zhang Zongliang really knows how to pick a place, but still gritted his teeth and moved forwardWhen he reached the edge of the cemetery, he lit a cigarette to give himself courage.

'Whoa!'

When the cigarette in my hand was almost finished, I looked forward to the mountain road in front of me, and just as I was waiting for Zhang Zongliang, between the graves behind me, in the barren grass more than one person high, there was a sudden sound.