I was rotting, and this feeling was very palpable, as if I had gone back to the beginning, wondering if I was on the wrong path, if I shouldn't have left the empire at all.

The first person in the dignified empire, but now he is waiting for death.

Yuan Changwen felt that he was about to crack, like the pain before a seed was ready to germinate, and like the darkness before the birth of a chick. My whole heart seemed to stench, and the soft pain wrapped around me.

Destroy all this, let me see what's behind it? the one that scares me, the one that keeps me from moving, what's left after destroying all this?

I'm still afraid, afraid that there is no end to all this, and that what the future holds.

Well, I'm not going to reject fear, what is there to reject? I should be afraid, because I can't be sure of anything, fear is commonplace.

When I want a certain goal, when I think that there is a means to achieve it, I plant fear in itself. Right, how do I know that there is a certain means to achieve this goal? I can never know, and if I want a definite goal, I naturally have fear.

How do I know that slashing can touch the truth? How do I know that slashing will end one day? How do I know that the future will be beautiful? How do I know that this rotten stench will grow a lotus?

So, when I set a goal, I naturally set fear. It's like how normal a character thinks they will do what will lead to what happens, but it doesn't happen that way.

Does the plot have to unfold in accordance with the thinking of all the characters?

Thinking is only one type of picture element, and plot is also just one type of picture element, maybe these two picture elements will fit each other, maybe not. How normal is this, and what is there to feel uncomfortable about?

Even, the picture element that I perceive at this moment is the mismatch between thinking and reality, that is, the picture element that presents "what I want but don't have". I wasn't manipulating all of this at all, I was just aware, just silently watching it happen.

I am afraid because I can only fear, I must fear. There is no reason, there is no connection, it has to happen this way, and it can only happen this way.

That's all.

Those that seem to be the cause of fear, those that seem to be the cause and effect of the development of things, are just picture elements. The reality of the rich dreams made me think that all of this was an illusion with a causal relationship.

Toric elements explain picture elements and are not worth believing at all.

Indeed, it is impossible to kill it in this life, and it is a terrifying thing to think about. But the reason for its horror is because I don't think life should be like this, I think life can be better, I think life should be full of pursuit and struggle.

Without the distortion in the mind, even if it is in a state of decay for the rest of its life, it will not be a terrible thing.

I always think that I am separated from the outside world, and there is a real Yuan Changwen walking in this real world. But in fact, the character of Yuan Changwen, like anything else, is just a picture element that is perceived at the moment, and there is nothing special about it.

If there's anything special, it's just in the middle of the picture. Strictly speaking, I don't know if the body is always in the middle of the frame. It's all an illusion, and I just remember that in those memories, there was a body in the middle of the frame.

But in fact, I can only confirm that the body is in the middle of the picture at the moment, and the rest is just a memory. These memories are only visual elements that are perceived at the moment, so they can't explain anything at all.

Even, when I realized it, it wasn't the moment anymore. It's all just the visual elements that I perceive at the moment, and I'll never be able to be in the moment. Or rather, that mind can never be in the moment.

I should be afraid, I should panic, because the twist in my mind is not over yet, and of course there will be fear. My opponents are only false, and the rest, just the means of the characters. Or rather, the rest is a false use of that inexplicable force, trying to make me think that the false is true.

All this is pointless, including slashing. I don't know how I started to kill, but the weird thing is that at this moment I know that killing is meaningless, and it is clear that continuing will only ruin the character of Yuan Changwen. Still, I wouldn't stop.

I couldn't be sure of anything, from how many chapters ago I thought I was almost done. But now, I feel like my judgment is. Maybe that feeling means you're improving, but it doesn't mean you're near. Even, how do I know that feeling represents progress?

It's a great feeling to be part of the world. Heaven and man are one, as if the world is playing notes for me. It's not a magical state, it's a state that I already have. It's just that a distortion in the brain ruined it all.

There were so many noises in my head, each one so plausible, that I knew it was just prejudice, but I couldn't kill the noise in my head.

This world is not scientific at all, it is all magic. I don't know the reason, I don't know the principle, it's just like that. In order to make me feel connected, there is cause and effect, and even the relevant cause and effect, time and space and other picture elements are revealed.

So, when I think that a certain action can achieve a certain goal, that is absurd in itself. For example, I can get from point A to point B in the square by walking. However, I can't confirm this at all, I just remember doing it myself.

That memory is only a visual element that I perceive at this moment, and there is no way to prove that "I can really get from point A to point B by walking". Even when I actually went from point A to point B, I couldn't be sure that "I really came here".

"I walked from point A to point B" has become a visual element that I perceive at this moment, and it has become a memory. I can't be sure of its authenticity, and I can't be sure that the causal relationship of "going from point A to point B" can be achieved by walking.

I remember that there was such a causal relationship, but it does not mean that there is such a causal relationship.

However, I never doubted that I had the ability to move in space. Because it can be done every time, or in other words, the visual elements that are perceived at the moment show that all kinds of spatial movements have been very smooth before. Moreover, at this moment, you can also see that other people's spatial movement is very smooth.

It was this success that made me very confident in my ability to move in space, and I never doubted it. However, this is not true.

Perhaps, I will never be able to move in space in my life, so I don't care if this thing is real or fake. It's like I can only perceive this body in my life, so even if the role of Yuan Changwen is fake, it is something that cannot be changed in this life.

However, falsehood is falsehood, and meaninglessness does not make falsehood true.