Chapter 33: Metamorphosis XXXIII
I said that I am a semi-superstitious person, and for some "prophecies" I "believe seven points and keep three points sober". Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 info
At the beginning of 2015, I took a look at the horoscope. Perhaps in the eyes of many people, horoscopes are just some topics of laughter. Indeed, there are indeed some ingredients that can be funny. However, it cannot be completely said that it is useless.
In fact, sometimes believing in these things is also believing in yourself, but you are not firm enough. As for me, I generally believe what is good, try not to believe what is bad, or keep a precaution. In short, keep it to a degree. That degree is still relatively comfortable.
The magic of life also lies in what you believe, that is. It has some connection with the human subconscious, and there is a hidden scientific factor.
Well, I'll say what I saw at the time.
I'm a Sagittarius, and I looked at the Sagittarius horoscope for that year. It said that in the middle of that year, there would be a great opportunity! Seize it, and you will have the opportunity to turn over and make a big counterattack! If you miss this opportunity, it will be difficult to encounter it again in the future.
When I first saw that, I wondered what kind of opportunity it would be, and could I see what it would be? I didn't know what it would be, but I was looking forward to the middle of the year.
After that, my aunt took my birth date to a master who helped me calculate my fortune when I was a child and was more accurate, and then helped me calculate my fortune in the future. He said that I would have a happy year in 2015. Then I fantasized again, is it that I am going to get married on a blind date in 2015? In short, it is still the same sentence, although I don't know what it will be, but I am looking forward to it......
Some time after that, I accidentally saw a master on the Internet who said that a person's name, the number of strokes, would affect a person's fortune. I've seen a lot of it before, but I don't feel like it's much. But that master seems to be quite powerful, because he is on TV. I looked curiously, and the number of strokes for my name was nineteen, well, look at nineteen.
Seeing such a saying: 19 names and strokes of the number of people, in 2015 there will be a lot of opportunities for development can show their skills or can be promoted, especially in July, the opportunity to seize can go to the next level, if you encounter the problem of leaving or staying, do not entangle.
When I first read it, I thought, well, it seems boring too. It's been more than half of July, but I still don't see any opportunities!
It wasn't until a few days before July drew to a close that an opportunity came to me on the other side of the phone that I had never imagined......
Then, I was on the verge of a tangle.
Then, it is still unknown whether I will be able to seize that opportunity......
Every time I go to a fork in the road in life, my brain has to go through a "storm" baptism.
Which path is the most correct choice for now? Is the future visible?
Faced with these life choices, it is easy to get entangled and hesitant in your heart......
It may be an opportunity or a challenge, and it comes too suddenly. I was a little caught off guard......
There are only two problems that bother me. One is the fear of the future, and the other is the reluctance to give up the present.
At that time, I went home for lunch at noon, and my family was very supportive of me trying to catch it, after all, it was so rare.
I said I'm afraid! It's a combination of what I've always feared the most. I'm afraid I can't control it......
My aunt told me something that shocked me. She said that there would definitely be fears and fears, but there would also be faces. Like, in the past, she was always worried about whether my growth was good, whether there would be safety problems when traveling alone, etc. She has always been worried and scared, but watching me grow up and go home safe and sound every time I go on a trip alone, I am less and less afraid. Because she thinks that I have really grown up, I can take care of myself, I can rest assured, and I believe that I can grow up well. So, after my little trip alone, she stopped calling and asking, just because I didn't need to worry about her anymore. There will always be fear, but after adapting to it step by step, you will find that fear is not so fearful.
It was the first time for me, and the first time I felt that my aunt really believed in me. In the past, although she always said things like believing me, her actions made me feel that she still didn't believe me. But that time, I really felt that she really believed in me and recognized that I had grown up. This has given me a lot of motivation and my fear of the future has been halved......
Then the other, reluctance to the present......
On the way to the night shift that night, most of the big brothers and aunts said to me, "Little pretty boy, are you here now? Hurry up, it's late! Hahaha......
It was so warm, and the thought of me leaving them made me feel a little sour......
Go into the workshop and start my work. I also want to see where the Beast squad leader is, and I'm going to talk to him about his resignation.
But when I saw the Beast squad leader coming over with a smile and joking with me, I really couldn't have asked to resign at such a moment......
I want to ask him if he has more tasks on the night shift now, and then ask him to change to someone else to work the night shift or something. But as soon as I said a few words, my voice choked up and my eyes got wet......
Luckily, he thought I was joking with him, so he laughed and patted me on the shoulder and walked away, not hearing anything at all......
As soon as he walked away, I couldn't control my emotions and was full of reluctance! Although the work here is manual work, at least I am happy to work! I feel so sadistic to give up these beautiful things! It is like falling out of love again......
Then the boss came over and talked to me with a smile and pinched my little muscles, just like he did to me in January 2015 when everyone was so busy and fulfilling...... It's like it was yesterday......
The more this happened, the more I couldn't stop my tears. Why is it that all the good things are coming over me at once? Is this an invisible force trying to keep me?
I can't help it, until the beast squad leader gets off work, and I still can't say anything about resigning.
After that, I rested and went to eat pork knuckle rice......
I sent a message to the beast squad leader: Brother Zhiming, if I suddenly resign one day, will you miss me?
He said he would. I believe.
Because of the entire workshop, I am the only one who calls him "Brother Zhiming". Yes, his name is "Chi Ming". When I first knew his name, the first thing that came to my mind was "Chunjiao and Zhiming". He was like a lion at the time, and now he has finally evolved into Snoopy...... Haha~haha~haha~haha......
After that, I told him that I was going to resign, I don't know how he felt, he didn't reply to me......
I said I would wait for him to come over the next morning and then write my resignation.
And then, just like that......
After crying all night, I thought, I shouldn't lose my temper when the morning breaks. I'm tired......
That night was really a long century.
If the wind blows, the clouds can't stay. If the leaves fall, the tree will not be able to keep them. If I want to go, I really have to go, don't leave me......
The next morning, I waited for more than two hours, and finally waited until dawn for them to come to work...... I finally saw the beast squad leader......
However, something is wrong. His eyes were so red and swollen that he didn't seem to have slept well, and it was as if he had cried......
I've been here for the first time I've seen him with red and swollen eyes. No matter how complicated the problems he encountered before, how stressful he was, and at most he had dark circles under his eyes, he had never seen any redness and swelling......
When he saw me, he smiled and asked me, "Why are you still here?
You know, I only sent him a message the night before that I would wait for him to come in the morning to write his resignation. What did he mean by asking me? Didn't he get the message? Probably not......
I don't want anyone else to know that I'm quitting, so as not to cause some unnecessary questioning. I whispered to him, "Didn't I tell you last night? I'm going to write about that......"
Then, he pretended to be confused and walked away, while perfunctory to me: "What are you?"
I still caught up and whispered, "Resign." ”
He still pretended to be confused and asked me, "Why did you resign?!"
I had already made this clear to him in the message the night before, but he seemed to avoid talking about it......
I've been chasing him, and I've been turning his pretending to be confused into being confused.
In the end, he still said something without replying: "Let's go to work tonight, go to work tomorrow, and talk about it tomorrow." ”
I was about to say something, but then his phone rang, and he answered it immediately. Well, I know that if I continue to ask, it won't work, so I'd better wait until the day shift......
I don't know if he really doesn't want me to go, and because I cry until my eyes are red and swollen. If it did, I would be miserable. Maybe it's just that I'm thinking too much, though......
When I went to work, I thought about it a lot.
At that time, everything was not easy to come by, and it took me so long to get the beast squad leader and the other big brothers and aunts to recognize me, and my little world, it was rare to have the free space and enough spiritual food at that time. But I'm going to get rid of everything that was hard-won and start over......
That feeling is really not ordinary heartache......
However, I remember that there is a saying that it is rare for people to have the courage to start again.
So, I have to endure the pain of parting love. It's a loss, but I'll gain some other experiences and experiences. In order to always let yourself break through.
Everything was so beautiful at that time that I had no desire to make progress. Therefore, if I want to continue to transform, I have to take on new challenges! Maybe it's a stumble, don't do it, and pick out the bad ones to suffer. However, it is always more meaningful to take risks than to pretend to be comfortable!
In short, my dreams have always been right! No matter what I do, I am feeding my dreams...... That way, it's fine.
Work is just a formality, and dreams are not extinguished.
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