It was dark in the room.

The whole world is desolate.

He was the only one left in heaven and earth.

Raising his hand, the hazy light penetrated through his fingers, but could not reach the bottom of his eyes.

Su Shi lay quietly on the bed, looking up at the ceiling in the darkness. The curtains were drawn tightly, and it was clearly a sunny day, but it was like a gloomy cemetery.

He could only look up, at the glimmer of light that crept in through the cracks in the curtains, the light he tried so hard to touch, but couldn't hold onto.

He had been lying like this for many days since he left the trial space.

This "pop fever" that swept the world brought a carnival of a group of people, but for him, it was just a person's loneliness.

Every day is a muddy nightmare, sleeping and waking up, not touching anyone, and refusing to approach anyone.

Decadent as a dead man.

No, or more than a decade ago, he was dead, from the day his father was exposed to prison.

The jade slip at the head of the bed lit up again.

After he openly provoked the audience and announced his account, the comment area and private mailbox were indeed stuffed.

These people vent their unhappiness in real life through pervasive abuse, just as they did back then.

However, among the messages he briefly swept, there was not only scolding.

There are also people who express their affection to him in private messages. persuaded him to cheer up and go on with life, in fact, he was still very handsome.

Perhaps because they were worried that they would be besieged by angry netizens if they spoke for him publicly in the comment area, these girls with different views all chose to send private messages. This also leads to the fact that the comment area and the private mailbox are almost two completely different painting styles.

He will also read these "send warmth" messages, but in his heart, he is not moved.

Some people say they like him, some people say they want to be his girlfriend, so what do you like about yourself?

They can't like his miserable experience, they can't like his extreme personality, and the only thing they can say is their face.

This liking is too superficial. If they are short, fat and pockmarked with their faces, can they still say what they like?

Among them, there is a girl who insists on sending warm words to herself every day and saying good morning and good night to herself. Even if she never replied, she was still gentle and considerate, and she was meticulous. If she was a fool like Guan Linden, she might really think of her as an angel.

It's a pity that over the years, he has investigated Guan Lin too clearly.

So, when he saw that name, he also knew that she was the ex-girlfriend that Guan Lin had been obsessed with.

Liu Mo...... Very beautiful name, very beautiful face. If you only look at her appearance, how can you know that she has such an ugly heart.

Compared with those abusive rabble, girls like her who deliberately approach hot spots, just to show their personal charm and satisfy their own pleasures, are even more despised by him.

Because of this, every time he watched her performance, he felt like he was watching a lame joke. I've seen it, I've laughed at it, it's just not to debunk it.

After sweeping through the latest news at a glance, Su Shi'an threw the jade slip aside again.

Since he dared to announce the account, he expected that there would be such a day. Those malicious comments didn't affect him at all, and even if the whole world came to fight against him, he wouldn't care.

Now, what really defeated him was the emptiness that suddenly surrounded him.

He has worked hard for so many years and hated for so many years, and finally has a chance for him to face Guan Lin in front of the whole world, so that he can claim back that old debt.

But his revenge failed.

If it's just like that, then it's nothing, it's a big deal that he will continue to cultivate until the day when he really tramples the enemy on the soles of his feet.

However, Guan Lin actually said that he forgave himself......

"Today, I'll kill you here once, and after you get out, we won't owe each other again!"

Two Qing ...... How can you just clear the two of them......

He hasn't promised yet, how can he unilaterally declare hatred and hatred!

Guan Linden...... Looking up at the ceiling, there was a kind of hatred in Su Shi'an's gaze.

Why don't you hate me...... Why don't you say that you will avenge our father and son on your father's behalf until you kill me......

If that's the case, then I can treat you as my mortal enemy and destroy you more calmly......

But now...... All of a sudden, his life was aimless.

All the hatred, like a punch into the air, except for emptiness and emptiness.

It's also very lonely to get revenge without a response......

For so many years, he lived wholeheartedly only for hatred. If there is no hatred left, then what is left of his life?

He closed his eyes tiredly, but the next moment, he raised his head again and stared straight at the ceiling.

These days, he always avoids sleep. Because as long as he closes his eyes, the scene of the confrontation with Guan Lin during the trial, and the words about Linden, will be replayed in his mind over and over again, making him upset.

Since when did the man he had been talking about to go to hell become his nightmare......

What has become of the outside world now?

It was the first time in days that he had stepped out of bed. Because he had not been active for a long time, just walking a few steps made his legs and feet sore.

In front of the table by the windowsill, there was still the newspaper he never left with him.

Looking at the photo of his father in the newspaper, Su Shi'an suddenly felt a sense of sadness pour into him. In the past few days, there was nothing but emptiness in his heart, and it was not until he looked at this photo that he regained a bit of human feelings.

is like a child who is used to being strong outside, only in the face of his family can he be willing to take off his armor and throw himself into the arms of his relatives to find support.

"What the hell am I going to do......" Su Shian muttered helplessly as he propped up the corners of the table with his hands.

"Father, if you can see today's news, what do you want me to do?"

Once, his father once told him not to go to trouble Guan Lin's mother and son.

He agreed, but he broke his promise.

Will his father blame him, or will he be glad that the enemy child who worries him has finally walked out of his own way......?

So in these days, he didn't even dare to read the newspaper again. Because he didn't dare to face his father.

No matter whether his father's eyes were disappointed, blamed, or sad, he didn't want to face it.

At this time, the jade slip sounded again.

Liu Mo: Brother An, the sun is very good today, let's go out for a walk and bask in the sun! Breathe a little more fresh air, and even your mood will improve~

Here it is again, her "daily care", as a matter of course, as if she is already her own girlfriend.

put down the jade slip with a mocking attitude, but when his eyes fell on the newspaper again, Su Shi'an was suddenly stunned.

Is it my own delusion? The father in the photo seems to have the same smile in his eyes...... It was a smile that I had never paid attention to after so many years of blindly looking for hatred in the newspaper......

Was he encouraging himself, too? Did he wish he could get out of the room and take a look outside?

The ghost sent the gods, and Su Shi'an easily opened the two heavy curtains.

The sunlight poured in in an instant was as dazzling as if a field of gold had been sprinkled. This also made Su Shi'an, who had not seen the sun for a long time, subconsciously raise his hand to block it.

How to say, this feeling of bathing in warmth is surprisingly good.

This room, and the wall of his vengeful heart, had always been like a shackle that had imprisoned him. Only by truly taking this step can he usher in the sky and the sea that belongs to him.

"It seems that you really should go out for a walk?" Standing in this warm sunlight that almost melted him, a faint smile unconsciously rose on Su Shi'an's face.

***

At the same time, Jin Siqi was holding a large cardboard box and hurriedly walking through the corridor.

The box contained all the gifts that Meng Zhao had given her before. It also took her half an hour to sort it out.

At that time, Meng Zhao really couldn't say that he didn't care...... Even now, the nostalgia of the past has faded into hatred and resentment, but the beauty that has existed will still exist in the memory, remembering that she once loved and had.

The process of sorting out these gifts has indeed brought back a lot of good memories for her, and it has also made her mind a lot calmer.

The person who has loved each other, even if she can't be friends, she doesn't want to become a complete enemy with him. So, let them be a pair of strangers who pass by. No longer interfere with each other's lives, and get out of each other's world. Maybe that's the best way to end.

In the chat the other day -

Meng Chan vivi: You always have to live in the future, have you thought about your future development direction?

Jin Siqi: This ...... Not really

Jin Siqi: Because Meng Zhao doesn't like me being too good, I have always planned to concentrate on being a full-time wife after I am with him

Meng Chan vivi: Now you see that this doesn't work?

Meng Chan vivi: When men say that they don't like you to be excellent, they actually don't love you enough

Meng Chan vivi: He didn't treat you as an independent person, he just wanted you to be his appendage all the time

Meng Chan vivi: Because you are not good enough, it is impossible for you to be snatched away by others, and he does not have to compete with others. But if one day he meets someone better, he'll kick you off

Meng Chan vivi: At that time, you will have no youth, and you will not have the ability to survive independently, what are you going to do?

Jin Siqi: ...... Meng Zhao did say before that if I was too good, he would feel far away from me

Meng Chan vivi: Look

Meng Chan vivi: Because he doesn't want to work hard, he locks you by his side, and he doesn't allow you to work hard, which is selfish

Meng Chan vivi: Women must have their own careers, and you must remember this in the future

Jin Siqi: Hmm......

Jin Siqi: Actually......

Jin Siqi: I like acting a lot, and I want to develop into acting

After saying this, she regretted it.

Jin Siqi: Will you laugh at me? People like me, who can't speak clearly, still want to be an idol

If you want to say it, in Jin Siqi's heart, he has indeed always had a dream of acting.

Maybe it's because her world is too lonely, and there are too many things she can only say to herself, so gradually, she can freely show all kinds of emotions. Happy, angry, sad, happy, she thinks that her acting skills will never be bad.

Especially in the crying scene, as long as she thinks of her own misery, she can easily shed tears. This is also one of her few "strengths".

It's just that compared to others, I'm too ordinary. Whether it is her appearance or comprehensive conditions, she is much inferior to those idols. Even in the Internet era, there are many more opportunities to become famous than in the past, but she still doesn't dare to open even a live broadcast room. She is afraid of being questioned by the audience about her ordinariness and insignificance.

So...... That's who you are...... Who would want to look at her photos every day, and who would be willing to spend a lot of money for her?

Meng Chan vivi: No!

Meng Chan vivi: As long as you have a dream, it is better than if you just want to be a full-time wife with peace of mind and rely on men to support you

Meng Chan vivi: It is recommended that you first find a part-time job, and slowly learn to get in touch with others and broaden your horizons, which will be more helpful for you to shape your role in the future

Meng Chan vivi: There is a convenience store near Tiangongmen that is open all day, I have worked there for a few days before, and the environment is not bad

Meng Chan vivi: Recently, they are still recruiting, you can try it and exercise yourself

Meng Chan vivi: I will also help you pay attention to the opportunities in film and television, and I will send you the news if there is a message

Jin Siqi:

Jin Siqi: I don't even know what to say, thank you really Sister Meng Chan! Thank you for helping me so much!!

Meng Chan vivi: You don't need to thank me, even if I apologize to you on behalf of my junior brother

Meng Chan, she was the first person to encourage herself.

She didn't laugh at her own small dreams, she even said...... Will help yourself to find opportunities......

The life that was once thought to be out of reach now seems to have really opened the door in front of Jin Siqi.

And at this time, the first person she wanted to contact was Ye Shuo. She couldn't wait to share this new self with him.

Jin Siqi: Ye Shuo, I chatted with a friend just now, and I feel much better, if I want to find a job and live my life seriously, what do you think?

Ye Shuo: That's good

Ye Shuo: That's how it should be!

Ye Shuo: Come on!

Holding the jade slip in both hands, Jin Siqi once again felt that his heart was full of emotion.

Meng Zhao wanted to stay where she was, but Ye Shuo encouraged herself to move forward bravely, who was the one who really cared about herself, she could see it more clearly.

A good love should be able to make people grow. Even if it's just a one-way relationship, you can make yourself a better person.

Meng Chan likes Gu Mingxu, she likes his maturity and stability, and now she herself has become more and more gentle and kind from a fiery girl.

This is the change that Gu Mingxu brought her. And Meng Zhao, he himself is still a child who has not grown up, so he is willful and ignores the feelings of others, so that this budding relationship ends without a problem.

However, he has decided to get back on his feet. I hope that Meng Zhao can also learn some lessons from this relationship and stop hurting the next girl.