Chapter 363: I'm Crazy 3
Yuan Changwen removed external things, removed the so-called objective facts, removed various definitions of the self, removed his own body, removed his own feelings.
Engage in final thinking in the face of the thinking that is being thought.
What a nervous disorder!
Obviously thinking about it, but you have to consider whether the "thinking" you are thinking about is real?
Am I crazy?
Yuan Changwen had to ask himself, he had never heard of that person asking himself like this.
How do I define, is it that I am really thinking, or is it the devil who is putting thinking in my head?
Click.
The door was opened, and it was the wife who had returned.
Yuan Changwen didn't have much emotional ups and downs, and only smiled at his wife's return.
"Hey, I'm back! I've forgiven you! What is your attitude?"
Yuan Changwen was stunned for a moment and said, "Do you want to say that I should come over and hug you, even kiss you, and then thank you for coming back and praise your magnanimity?"
Wife: "Shouldn't you?"
Yuan Changwen: "I thought about it for a long time, and I found that there was a problem with the way we got along before. You're always expecting me to do something, and if I can't, you'll get angry and lose your temper. But how can a person ask someone to do something?"
Wife: "Don't tell me this! Don't you think about me? Don't you think about how your behavior will hurt me?"
Yuan Changwen: "How can I think about you? Let's not talk about your authenticity, even if you are true, then you must have your own thoughts." No, strictly speaking, you have your own 'self'.
How do I know what your 'self' is? How do I know how you weave your 'self'? My language is just my language, and how you accept it is your own business.
As I did just now, I smile at you, but you think it's sarcasm and contempt for you. So, 'At this time, when I came back after the quarrel, Yuan Changwen didn't hug and get excited, he just didn't care about me', this definition is woven by yourself. How do I know?
Is it true that we are constantly guessing each other's definitions, and then desperate to cater to each other's definitions? As for how you look at it, that's your business. ”
The wife cried and said, "You are so selfish!"
Yuan Changwen: "Well, it's really selfish. But in fact, there is no way not to be selfish. As I just said, I only know my own situation, but I can't know your situation, so how can I be 'not selfish'?
In this world, there are few contradictions caused by the pretext of 'I am good for you'? From the contradictions between parents and children to the wars between religions and countries. How do I know what's good for you?
Since I don't know, then I can never think of you. The only thing I can do is to think about myself and be honest with my emotions. It's what you call selfishness. ”
Wife: "Marry you, I'm blind! I knew that it was better to choose Lao Zhang, who is now the commander of the army battalion, how can I look like you! I have to take a loan to buy a house!"
Yuan Changwen was instantly angry, no man heard his wife say that other men were good, and he could still be nothing.
"Putting ......"
Before the word "fart" came out, Yuan Changwen felt that it was wrong.
Why are you so angry?
Just because of a few words from my wife, I am angry, what is the reason?
Yuan Changwen took a step back in his heart, did not restrain this anger, nor did he vent this anger, just watched the anger swirl in his mind.
It's still "self", the definition I weave, "I'm better than other men." ”
So, as soon as someone touches or breaks that definition, then I'm angry.
As I thought, these definitions are all false and are attached to the background. And just now, I accidentally fell into this false self.
It's that demon again!
Mislead me, deceive me, you TM good!
However, if my wife is so abusive and doesn't fight back, is she still a man?
Yuan Changwen frowned, thought about it carefully, and found that no matter how he reacted, it was the definition of "self", and he couldn't escape it at all.
He can be Yuan Changwen who "hits women angrily when he encounters this situation".
It can also be Yuan Changwen who "even so, I don't swear myself".
At the end of the day, it's all woven selves, not the real me, and not the deepest background.
The only difference is that I now know that this is the woven self, aware of the falsity of these definitions.
So, how do I respond?
Since it's all false, isn't it okay to do anything?
Yuan Changwen found that he was like watching a play, watching a person named "Yuan Changwen" react under this kind of bridge.
However, it seems that he is not only watching the play, but also deciding the direction of the character.
Can you really decide for yourself?
Isn't this decision just thinking?
The wife said provocatively: "What, do you want to swear? I have anger in my heart but I don't dare to express it, what kind of man are you! Tell you Yuan Changwen, if you beat me, maybe the old lady will think highly of you." Now...... Phew!"
Anger?
Yuan Chang was civilized, and he did feel a wave of anger just now, but now it is gone.
The existence of anger is only because of the occurrence of events, which collides with the content of self-weaving.
Not only that, but in fact the generation of any emotion is an interaction between the self-woven definition and the reality of the situation.
When the two are consistent, it is natural to be happy and complacent.
When the two conflict, they are depressed and angry.
If there is no ego existing, then nothing in this world will affect you.
But in this case, we will not be able to experience joy, because there is no discomfort as a trough, so how can joy be a crest?
Moreover, "without any self" is itself a definition of self-weaving!
Like, "I don't believe in anything", that in itself is a belief.
Holy!
Yuan Changwen suddenly found that he couldn't confirm the authenticity of any thing at all.
Objective things, emotions, feelings, etc., I can't confirm the truth of them.
As for thinking, Yuan Changwen was a little hesitant, not knowing whether it should be classified as "real" or "uncertain and real".
In the evolution of human beings for millions of years, thinking is the most fundamental weapon, and it is the weapon that human beings have used to get rid of other mammals and go to the top of the continent. All kinds of greed and all kinds of dissatisfaction make human society continue to progress.
If thinking is not real, then these millions of years of evolution have become a complete joke.
Yuan Changwen was suddenly stunned, is there really a history of evolution of millions of years?
I'm not sure, not sure about its authenticity.
Putting all this aside, human pride is actually built on thinking, on the ability to think on its own.
Once someone tells you that your mind is not your own, it is nothing more than a demon putting the mind into your head.
In this case, it is easy to collapse the whole person.
Your efforts, your struggles, your brain-racking thinking, your painstaking schemes, everything, makes thinking a joke.
Yuan Changwen didn't want to believe this from the bottom of his heart, he still had thinking and independent will.
On the other hand, if thinking is false, then it should be in vain that you are using the tool of thinking to decipher the falsehood and truth of the world.
But now, Yuan Changwen obviously feels that many of the shackles he was carrying have been broken due to thinking, and the whole person is in a relatively relaxed state.
Although there are still doubts, although there are still problems, those things that think about the results by themselves, such as self-weaving, such as emotional feelings, such as objective things, are no longer bothering themselves.
Alas......
Thinking, is it real?