Chapter Eighty-Four: Lost
"Su Wen. Ji Xingchen didn't move his chopsticks, his hands crossed, his elbows on the table, his chin on his hands, he had been looking at An Suwen in this posture for a long time.
"Hmm, what's wrong? are you eating?" said An Suwen unceremoniously as she ate. An Suwen will not be polite to Ji Xingchen at all now, after all, the two of them have been together for so long, and they get along like a family.
"I like you. Ji Xingchen spit out four words lightly, so that An Suwen never thought that she really didn't want to hear this news like five thunderbolts.
Why tell her at this time, why can't you confess to her a little earlier, when nothing is happening?
An Suwen's mouth that was eating had opened wide for a while, and the things in her mouth were also there, her brain was blank, she couldn't believe what Ji Xingchen had just said, there were many meanings of liking, maybe she had misunderstood herself.
"What do you mean?" An Suwen wanted to confirm Ji Xingchen's true thoughts. She didn't want these to be all of her imagination out of thin air, she didn't know what Ji Xingchen was thinking, at least she hoped it wasn't what she imagined now.
"Literally, it's the kind that likes you, between men and women. Ji Xingchen's explanation was very simple, but An Suwen's brain seemed to explode.
The impact of this news on her was no less than the news that Xiao Yuwei was released on bail, and what An Suwen was looking forward to the most happened, but she had no way to be with him. An Suwen didn't know if what Ji Xingchen said was true or not, but she still remembered the recording she heard that day, and they were just a cooperative relationship.
An Suwen didn't want them to be together in the future It would be an unhappy marriage, not to mention, An Suwen knew her situation very well, what was in her stomach was still not Ji Xingchen's, now that the two of them were together, Ji Xingchen took care of her so much, she already felt very guilty, what if the two of them were together?
An Suwen couldn't let herself go, she was afraid that she would live in her own guilt for the rest of the day. She is already living a very depressed life now, Ji Xingchen is her only happiness, but she doesn't want to break the status quo of the two people, what if the two of them have been together for a long time and are separated because of some things, then the two of them may not even be friends.
"Xingchen, I'm ......" An Suwen swallowed what was in her mouth and looked at Ji Xingchen seriously, she didn't dare to look at Ji Xingchen, maybe she had a weak heart or something else. An Suwen didn't know what she said that day after drinking too much, she didn't know what Ji Xingchen was thinking at the moment, in short, she was a little unbearable.
For him, it is guilt, and for himself, it is helpless.
"I can't be with you. "It's hard to say no, and I don't know how not to hurt him, but that's the way it is.
Although Ji Xingchen's expression couldn't see much change, from the aura, An Suwen could feel Ji Xingchen's helplessness, and he shouldn't have expected this kind of result.
Ji Xingchen didn't like that kind of unrealistic romance, and felt a little fake, so he didn't prepare anything, so he expressed his thoughts so realistically. He thought that his judgment was correct and that he would be foolproof, but the result surprised him a little.
This was his first confession, the first time he was rejected, and he felt what the so-called loss was like. An Suwen sat in front of him, and the unattainable and sudden sense of distance made him feel very uncomfortable.
An Suwen was silent, she knew that she didn't speak tactfully enough and hurt Ji Xingchen, but she didn't want to affect the relationship between the two because of this incident. An Suwen clearly knew that Ji Xingchen would not say the three words "I am waiting for you" like Zhao Zihao, after all, Ji Xingchen is the kind of mature man.
Ji Xingchen would never say that kind of unrealistic words, she knew her situation very well.
"It's okay, it's good if I didn't say it. Ji Xingchen's eyes no longer looked at An Suwen, and he picked up the chopsticks in his hand to prepare to eat, and he always felt very depressed when he ate this meal.
An Suwen didn't know why this meal, she was a little out of appetite, probably because of Ji Xingchen's words. An Suwen didn't know what she should do, how to ease the relationship with Ji Xingchen, and this meal was extremely embarrassing.
Ji Xingchen's thoughts about An Suwen have not changed, but he feels that An Suwen doesn't like him enough now, and he may still have Zhao Zihao's status in his heart. Ji Xingchen wants a complete An Suwen, if this is the case, An Suwen has no objection to refusing him.
An Suwen is a different existence for him, for her, he broke a lot of rules, but he never regretted it. He was not afraid of An Suwen's refusal, but afraid of leaving him. Ji Xingchen has been lonely for so many years, it's time to find a hostess for the family, but this hostess is unwilling, but Ji Xingchen is not in a hurry, many things need to develop slowly, and the most important thing is to take revenge first.
In the face of Xiao Yuwei's everything, An Suwen didn't want to continue pretending, in the blink of an eye, she had been working in Haowei's company for a few months, and she was fed up with her face. As soon as An Suwen sees her, she will think of her parents who were forced to death by her, and Xiao Yuwei is her biggest hatred.
Xiao Yuwei was rarely in the company when she was not in the company, and today Zhao Zihao took Xiao Yuwei to meet a customer, who happened to be Xiao Yuwei's classmate, so Zhao Zihao did not bring An Suwen.
An Suwen had already investigated that Xiao Yuwei had a problem, and she would keep a lot of evidence in her favor in the office. An Suwen has never had a chance to enter Xiao Yuwei's office, and today happens to be a good opportunity, neither of them are there.
The most dangerous place is the safest place. Xiao Yuwei skillfully used this feature, although An Suwen knew that the place where Xiao Yuwei hid things was in the office, but An Suwen didn't know where it would be placed.
An Suwen really wanted to cut through the mess quickly, after all, she didn't want to fight with Xiao Yuwei with a big belly at that time. An Suwen entered Xiao Yuwei's office, Xiao Yuwei's office was cleaned up very well, similar to the furnishings in Zhao Zihao's office, but it was not as big as Zhao Zihao's office.
After An Suwen entered, the first thing she thought of was only the desk, but there were a bunch of documents piled up there, and she couldn't tell which ones were and which were not. An Suwen clearly understood that she would not put this kind of thing in a place where she could see it at a glance, so her attention was not on the table at all.
Some of the desks were locked, and An Suwen didn't have a key, so she was a little worried.