The three years of youth are like a line on the coordinates, twisting and turning.

But when looking back, I brushed it off and understated it.

Fang Ning felt that if his life was a film, then he must be the worst loser, not showing his edge at the age of youth and frivolity, but taking it step by step and being cautious.

In his, there is no magnificent and passionate life, there are also ups and downs of the plot, and there are not so many side details, some are just the morning sun when the fog has not yet dissipated, some are just the embarrassment of grabbing fritters on the street to catch the bus, and some are only looking forward to seeing the girl who quietly disappears.

He felt that the world was like an Ouroboros that cycled over and over again, and that history was always strikingly similar.

So time returned to the beginning in a trance, throwing paper all the way, or watching the flowers, as if preparing for the parting that would come immediately.

Fang Ning and Cheng Xi gradually faded out of everyone's sight and hibernated.

Strive to form a cocoon for the transformation of a butterfly before dawn.

Many people are silently saying goodbye, on a sunless afternoon, silently, waving their hands, never to be seen again.

The first to say goodbye to Fang Ning and them were Cheng Ying and Liu Meiting's students, after this long-awaited college entrance examination, they are no longer the senior party, there are no more piles of homework and teachers' nagging, classmates complaining to each other, no more sweating and raining training afternoons, what awaits them will be a beautiful and longed-for university.

The night before Liu Meiting's college entrance examination, Yu Xiaole sneaked out of her home and called her name downstairs in her community.

She went downstairs, wearing a cotton skirt that Yu Xiaole had never seen before, standing in front of him prettyly, with her hands behind her back, not the fierce appearance of the past, but only very quiet, quiet enough to make people fall into a state of silence.

Yu Xiaole scratched his head, at a loss, he had never seen Liu Meiting like this, what was she like in his memory? For physical exercise, he cut his soft long hair short, like a tomboy to cope with the physical training that was enough to make the boy tired and lie down every day, and he usually had time to go out to play together, and he was just a clean shirt, jeans, and sneakers, and he showed a fierce appearance when he was slightly unsatisfactory, or pinched his ears and grinned and shouted for mercy, but now this quiet Liu Meiting has really never seen it.

Liu Meiting laughed out loud and waved her hand, "What's wrong?

"No, it's just a little uncomfortable. Yu Xiaole couldn't figure out what to do.

"Oh. She coughed twice, blushing a little, but fortunately, the shoulder-length short hair could already cover her face, otherwise she could really see her shyness under the illumination of this bright corner street lamp, with her hands behind her back, and said a little shyly, "Isn't it good-looking?"

In the previous time together, when this sentence came out of her mouth, Yu Xiaole would definitely be surprised to say that you would not be crossed by others, and then she rewarded you with a big slap, but now, Yu Xiaole has probably learned to face everything with an attitude of not being surprised, nodded and said, "Good-looking!"

Liu Meiting smiled very good-looking, took a step closer to him, although she was very tall compared to other girls, but standing in front of Yu Xiaole was still a little not enough to see, he was too tall, tall to meet all girls' dreams of tall boys, under the uncertain light, Yu Xiaole turned against the light, and the expression on his face was a little unkind, but he could obviously feel his inner unpeace.

The sound of the heart beating in the silent neighborhood came and went.

The lights on the second and third floors of the small building were lit up one after another, and the sound of footsteps sounded, Liu Meiting looked back and looked, feeling that although there were not many people here at night, it was not a safe place, so she took the initiative to take Yu Xiaole's hand and turned his body backwards, the girl's sleeves fluttered, and he also followed, taking away a body of moonlight.

At this time, Yu Xiaole had another thought in his heart, but there were some things that he couldn't say.

Liu Meiting's home is in the alley opposite No. 1 Middle School, with a bubble tea shop on the left, a sports equipment store on the right, and a community in the middle alley.

At night, the prosperity is naturally needless to say, and the lights are brilliant.

Yu Xiaole and Liu Meiting walked hand in hand, crossed the zebra crossing, and arrived at the No. 1 Middle School Square, where the gray and white wall on the side was repaired and repaired, but it would be frozen and rotten every winter, and then it would be repaired again and again.

The colorful lights of the square shone on their feet, stretching their shadows long.

Yu Xiaole and Liu Meiting sat on the edge of the wall, looking at the plane parked in the square, although some of the wings were rusty and the steel shells had been removed, they could still vaguely see the heroic appearance at that time.

Yu Xiaole thought for a while and hesitated, "How are you preparing for the exam?"

"It's time to prepare, and the rest depends on destiny. ”

At this time, Liu Meiting has obviously calmed down, and she has something to say to him.

Or she is carrying out the experience of the whole high school, she wants to say it, maybe it can help him, "I used to be afraid of the college entrance examination, both looking forward to and afraid of the day coming, in the expectation and fear of the contradiction repeated, thinking about this matter all the time. ”

"The reason for the fear lies in the high expectations for oneself, everyone is thinking about counterattacking the college entrance examination at this moment, however, the loser and the winner in the college entrance examination have always been tied, and your success indicates the failure of others. This is the cruel nature of the college entrance examination, there is no way, you can only step on the corpse of your companion and move forward, like a lone soldier who can only fight with his back to the water, without the word "retreat". Therefore, just after tomorrow, the appearance of losers is inevitable, and when I think of this, I feel inexplicably sad. ”

"It's not just me, it's the other people who are fighting together. ”

Perhaps thinking about a lot of things, her voice was a little magnetic maturity, and she paused, her tone low and powerful, and her eyes were raised to the ground, as sharp as a falcon.

"For me, neither victory nor defeat is something to boast about or grieve, just a new beginning in life. I'm not weak enough to let my emotions be at the mercy of the college entrance examination. I'm going to finish this exam in the most rational way possible, I can't decide the outcome of this game, but I also don't want to be labeled a loser. ”

The helplessness of her unheated speech touched his heart slightly.

On this night, from Liu Meiting's mouth, Yu Xiaole understood that the essence of the college entrance examination is cruel, and this is originally a war without gunpowder.

On the battlefield, no one is the winner.

The two talked a lot that night, talked openly, and Yu Xiaole also said a lot of things, about him when he was a child, and about the friends around him, everyone was very good.

It's about you, it's about him, and it's about them around you.

In the end, their topic talked about it again at the beginning, vaguely remembering the Tuolong Gorge rafting organized by Fang Ning, the two sat together, complained to each other, chatted and chatted, Liu Meiting suddenly laughed, laughing a little heartlessly, Yu Xiaole also laughed, seemed to be very happy, but very uncomfortable, he understood that no matter how the college entrance examination was, after a few days, she would always fly out of this backward small county, and from then on, the world and the north and the south, maybe never again.

They're graduating, they're saying goodbye.

And he is still standing still, waiting for the modification of time.

"There is a saying in the Peony Pavilion, I like it very much: I don't know what to do, go deep. Liu Meiting jumped off the edge of the wall and turned back to face him, "I think... That's probably it for you. ”

Many times, it takes a lot of courage to say this.

Where the love goes, it goes deep.

……

At the same time, other things happened in this small town that night.

Cheng Yingren Cheng Xi called Fang Ning out.

Fang Ning rode a bicycle to Cheng Xi's house, it was the first time he entered their house, the room was not very big, but it felt very homely, Cheng's father and mother were watching TV in the living room, Fang Ning said hello, and was called in by Cheng Xi's sisters.

This is undoubtedly the girl's boudoir, as can be seen from the furnishings in the room, the warm lighting, pink sheets, white wall paint, there are several posters of popular male stars hanging on the wall, there is a pale yellow lamp on the table, the desktop is reflected, and piles of notes are placed on it, some are black thick leather as covers, some are thin notebooks, because of improper storage, the paper pages are slightly yellowed, and they are full of notes on various subjects, the font is very atmospheric, it is hard to believe that this is a girl wrote.

Cheng Ying didn't speak, Fang Ning probably understood a little, looked at Cheng Xi slightly, and she nodded.

"Anyway, I'm going to take the college entrance examination tomorrow, and this pile of notes is about to become waste paper, and if you take it out, you can only sell it as waste paper, and you will also go to high school in the future, I estimate that I will use it for study, so I will leave it to you." Cheng Ying smiled and continued, "I know you are all smart and have your own learning methods, but most of this is my experience, and after reading it, it is good to be able to touch the bypass." ”

Cheng Xi flipped through the basic notes and showed them to Fang Ning, which recorded geographical knowledge, wrote it in great detail, and systematically divided it, which was indeed a priceless treasure for Fang Ning and them.

Fang Ning was very moved and wanted to speak, but was interrupted by Cheng Ying, "Don't be a mother-in-law, if you really thank me, then wait until I finish the college entrance examination, invite me to dinner, and wish me an ideal university!"

"Yes, it would. ”

Cheng Ying said suddenly: "Fang Ning, let me tell you, if I go to study outside in the future, my sister will be left to you to take care of, don't bully her, oh, you can't bully her." ”

"Hmm!" Fang Ning's ears were a little red, and he pecked rice like a chicken this big night.

"Okay, these notes will be placed in my sister's place first, if you want to read it, go to her, nothing else, you can go back, I will also prepare to sleep and prepare for tomorrow's college entrance examination." Cheng Ying took a deep breath and directly expressed the meaning of sending off the guest.

Fang Ning rolled his eyes slightly, it was only at what time he was ready to go to bed, although he thought so, he also knew that the college entrance examination was important to them, which was no less than a turning point on the road of life.

Cheng Xi sent Fang Ning out, downstairs in the community, Cheng Xi spoke up, "My sister has something to say, don't take it to heart." ”

Fang Ning thought of something, and was slightly tentative, "She said she wanted me to take care of your affairs?"

Cheng Xi laughed loudly: "It's almost as good as I take care of you!"

"Oh, I don't care!" Fang Ning sighed softly, looking like he had succeeded in his treacherous plan.

"Go back quickly, stay safe on the way. ”

"Hmm. Fang Ning waved goodbye and disappeared into the darkness on his bicycle.

Cheng Ying walked out of the downstairs and saw that she was still watching, so she said, "He has already gone away, and he is still reluctant?"

"Nope. ”

"Duplicity. ”

"You'd better worry about which one you want to apply for......"

"I haven't thought about it yet. ”

"Oh. ”

……

In the days of Cheng Ying's college entrance examination, it was raining rain, lightning and thunder, and heavy rain was falling loudly, which undoubtedly touched the hearts of many people.

How did they do in the exam, whether it was difficult or not, and who was the first person to come out of the examination room?

Fang Ning and the others waited for Cheng Ying and others to come out in the examination room of No. 1 Middle School, holding umbrellas and standing with groups of parents, who were either wearing raincoats or umbrellas, blocking the school gate and refusing to disperse.

"How long is it until the exam is finished?"

"I see that the time is almost fast, but I don't know what's going on inside. ”

"I came out, and a student came down the aisle of No. 1 Middle School, do you want to go over and ask about the situation?"

A group of parents were in a commotion in an instant, like a black torrent rushing up, surrounding the candidate, gossiping, the candidate wore eyes, just came out of the examination room, the face was not very good, was twittered by a group of people, almost fainted, fortunately, some parents were more rational, let everyone make a passage for him to go.

As the bell rang for No. 1 Middle School, slowly, the students came out of the various test centers, gathered together, and were picked up by their parents.

When Fang Ning and the others waited for Cheng Ying and Liu Meiting, there were not many people at the gate of No. 1 Middle School, so they could easily recognize Fang Ning and the others from the crowd.

"It's raining a little, come and drink some ginger soup!" Yu Xiaole held a thermos cup in his hand, and inside was steaming ginger soup.

Cheng Ying drank a little, a little tired.

"I don't want to. ”

"Who if you don't drink!"

Liu Meiting didn't want to drink it, but she was forced by Yu Xiaole to drink a big bowl, her mouth was curled, and in the end, only the soup residue was left at the bottom of the bowl.

"Look how much your family cares about you. Several people laughed teasingly.

But Yu Xiaole was still stupid and happy, so he didn't think so.

Liu Meiting has a headache, mother, why did you find such a stupid child!

When the rain was much lighter, there was no need to use an umbrella, they walked all the way back, chatting about the whole process of the college entrance examination, what precautions, Fang Ning and the others listened attentively, because in the near future, it will be their turn to take the college entrance examination, and it is always good to be prepared.