Chapter 47: Matters of the Heart
"Dad, the medicine is boiled, do you want to drink it now, or do you want to dry it?"
A question alarmed Hong Lucheng, and it was Hong Yanru, the daughter of the medicine, who poked her head into the outhouse and asked with concern. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. biquge。 info
Hong Lucheng wanted to drink the medicine quickly so that his daughter could rest assured. But the pain in his leg hadn't passed, and he only moved for a moment before he grinned in pain.
"Let's hang it out. I'll call you later when I drink the medicine. ”
Hong Yanru answered, and Hong Lucheng sighed softly.
He knew in his heart that drinking medicine could only relieve pain and delay the disease. His leg would hurt more and more, until it rotted to the bone. He didn't have long to live, but he was waiting for the day when he would die. He still insists on taking the medicine now, just because he is worried that his relatives will be too sad and reassures their hearts.
But in his heart, he is not afraid of death. He has experienced too much in this life, and after decades of turmoil, people are still alive, which is pure luck. Besides, it is past the sixtieth birthday, and it is not a short life. And once people get older, they naturally understand many complexes of life. Now there are only two things he really can't let go, one is his wife, and the other is his children.
Hong Lucheng is glad that he has married the best wife in this life. For his wife Wang Yunlin, he couldn't find anything wrong, and all he remembered was about her beauty.
Yun Lin was very beautiful when she was young, with a fair, pretty face, two big eyes, and two very long and straight eyebrows. Just looking at her, you can feel that the air has become comfortable.
Yes, sometimes others will find fault with her for being too quiet and not talking, but what's wrong with that?
When Yun Lin didn't speak, it didn't make people feel cold at all. Because she laughs, and when appropriate, she bows her head to show that she is listening very seriously. It seems to be quiet and generous, and does not offend people. This is a kind of temperament that can only be learned from everyone's beautiful girls, and it can't be learned by small households. Every move is permeated with etiquette and calmness.
Besides, Yun Lin is only so kind to young or strangers, such as seeing elders and relatives and friends, but she is so affectionate and considerate, and she has completely become a cheerful, affectionate, intelligent and decent little daughter-in-law. Therefore, it is a matter of course that this is his favorite place.
I still remember that when I was in the Huhai Concession, Yun Lin became pregnant and gave birth to their first child.
If you want him to talk about it, giving birth to children and raising children, husbands all over the world have no credit. Catching up with the joy, the man picked up the child and played it again, and the rest of the suffering was all the woman's. Really, don't say that he is all about the mall, even if he occasionally wants to help, it is useless, he must be in a hurry, and he is not as good as a girl or an old mother.
He is not confused, so he is very willing to make his tired wife happy and free. So he often persuaded her to buy more clothes and jewelry, or go to play cards with other wives, eat, and go to the park theater to relax. But Yunlin just smiled when she heard it, and still stayed at home as she was, focusing on her children and family affairs.
Yun Lin is very ingenious, her son's clothes are all made by her, which is very suitable and good-looking, and the scene of her measuring is also the most interesting.
The son is always like a big rag doll, fiddling with Yun Lin turning over and turning over. Often when her big eyes blink at her son's body, his son's eyes also blink at her mutton fat jade face. As soon as he saw their mother and son like this, he felt like his heart was stained with honey. Is there anything more lovely in the world than a young mother?
And in those difficult years, Yun Lin made him even more impressed.
Since his family moved from the old house to a poor place, how to get along with some neighbors from the bottom of the society once gave him a headache. His family in the east courtyard of Guanyin Temple can be said to be different, and if other residents reject them, life will be even more difficult. He didn't expect that this matter would be easily resolved by his wife's kindness and easy-goingness, and Yun Lin quickly gained the favor of her new neighbors with her kindness and understanding.
In addition, what surprised him was that Yun Lin was so calm about the transition from "exquisite" to "willing". Not only did she accept the days of eating bran vegetables without complaint, but she also took the initiative to ask those neighbors for tips on the life of the poor family, and even often persuaded him not to be obsessed with external things, so as to relieve him of the knot of losing his ancestral inheritance. Especially when the "Ten Year Movement" came and his salary and dividends were suspended, Yun Lin took the initiative to find a job on the street, and used her slender shoulders to provoke the whole family's livelihood. These are extremely rare things in the mansion gate.
What made him feel most guilty was that after he fell ill, he was taken care of by someone to eat, drink, and Lazar. It is hard for him to imagine how his wife, who still has to go to work every day, supports everything in the family in difficulty. But Yunlin not only kept the house in order, but also took care of him meticulously. Yun Lin was boiling medicine when he slept, and when he woke up, Yun Lin wiped his face. The hot bath water, the warm bed, the dry and loose clothes, and the millet porridge that can be boiled can be boiled, have never been short.
As Yun Lin's face became haggard, the quiet and noble young grandmother in the past disappeared completely, and was replaced by a diligent housewife who took care of the trivial things of life. And in his heart, there is only infinite emotion and sadness.
I have a wife like this, and I am even lucky.
It's a pity that their days together are numbered. Now whether it is Bazhen duck tongue or bean milk porridge, it has no meaning for him, and his life is like a flickering oil lamp, gradually exhausted in "going with the flow". For this reason, he not only imagined for his wife's old age more than once, but every time he thought of the words "alone" and "no one as a companion", he was so worried that he couldn't sleep.
Husbands and wives are trees, children are flowers, and a tree with flowers can show its deep roots. In addition to his beloved wife, the other things that Hong Lucheng cares about are his children.
He had both children on his knees, which was a blessing. But being born in this family is a great misfortune for these children. His children never enjoyed any rich life with him, but because his capitalist father ate all the melons (local language, referring to implication, involvement). Burdened with a high level of importance, his children not only have no hope of a bright future, but also have no guarantee of a basic livelihood and human dignity.
Fortunately, the air is much more relaxed and the pressure is much less stressful. He only hoped that one day his sons and daughters would be able to completely get out of the shadow of the sun, and that they would always be able to enjoy the same national treatment as workers, peasants, soldiers, and cadres on an equal footing......
"Dad, drink it quickly, I fanned it with a fan for a while, and the medicine is not hot. Hong Yanru's voice sounded again.
Hong Lucheng opened his eyes, and his daughter had approached the bedside with the medicine, and the fine beads of sweat on his forehead made him feel distressed. He didn't say anything more, endured the pain and tried to stand up, took the medicine bowl, and poured it down in one go.
Hong Yanru smiled lightly. When my father had finished drinking, he poured him water and cleared his mouth, and then took the empty bowl.
This kind of thoughtfulness is really ironing.
In fact, no matter where you play, Hong Lucheng also likes this old girl the most ("old" in Beijing dialect means the smallest).
First of all, Hong Lucheng had three sons. But the three sons and three tigers inevitably made him feel that there was something less delicate and soft around him. And Hong Yanru is the only girl in the family, inheriting both her mother's exquisite appearance and gentle character. It just makes up for this regret.
Second, since she is a daughter, she will always get married, and she will inevitably be angry with her mother-in-law when she arrives at her husband's house in the future. So in the days at home, Hong Lucheng felt that his daughter should be more favored by her parents.
Third, Hong Lucheng, a fourteen-year-old daughter, is also very well-behaved and sensible, and she is the most worry-free child in the family. Not only is his academic performance among the best in school, but he has already consciously helped his family with housework when he was a child, which is not easy.
It's a pity that the care that Hong Lucheng can give his daughter is really limited. Because of the decline of the Hong family, Hong Yanru not only lacked food and clothing since she was a child, but also grew up in fright and panic during the ten years of "sports". Even now, she has to rush home every day after school, not only to help the family buy vegetables and cook, but also to serve her sick father instead of her mother, who has not left work.
Therefore, Hong Lucheng always felt that among all the children, what he owed the most was this daughter, which made her suffer at a young age. He is a father who really deserves it.
In addition to his daughter, Hong Lucheng's sons did not let him rest assured.
The boss, Hong Yanzheng, is a high school graduate of the class of 60.
To say that this eldest son is really a piece of reading material. From the beginning of his enrollment, he was not only rated as a top student and a member of the study committee every year, but also almost always had full marks on his report from childhood to adulthood. Even after being admitted to the city's key No. 4 middle school, the evaluation written by the teacher every semester is "good grades, and then seek improvement, excellent character and learning, and can be created". But because he was born at the wrong time, no matter how good his academic performance is, it is useless, and he is still rejected by institutions of higher learning.
And the saddest thing is that the assignment work after the college entrance examination failed, and for the same reason, the boss could only be assigned to the remaining large collective units selected by others, and finally became a carpenter in the southern suburbs of the Red Star Furniture Factory.
After the eldest worked, it was not until the 70s that he became a family. The girl she married was named Xu Manli, who graduated from junior high school in 1964 and worked in the Beijing Hongqi Factory.
Of course, it was originally difficult for a family like the Hong family to find a marriage partner. But after all, the high-component family is not the only one of the Hong family, so it is good to find stinky fish and rotten shrimp, or it is good to make up two good things, anyway, it is a good family, right? The Hong family and their business partners, the Xu family, a wine merchant in Shanxi, got married, and the children of the two families also solved their marriage problems with each other.
Under the same life circumstances, the eldest and his son were also harmonious after marriage, and Hong Lucheng hugged his grandson in less than two years. It's just that the eldest son is even more disheartened after he gets married, he is completely unmotivated, and he doesn't care about anything else except going to work, eating and sleeping every day, and he doesn't touch books at all.
Whose son knows, Hong Lucheng naturally understands that the eldest son has held back the resentment of not having a chance with the university in his heart, and no one can explain it. If you continue to be depressed like this, I am afraid that this life will be wasted.
The second child, Hong Yanwen, is actually not as good as the boss.
Just because he went to school a year early, the second child became a junior high school student in the 69th class, not only missed the opportunity to stay in the city as a whole in the 70th class, but was also sent to the most difficult Yanbei area to cut the queue to the countryside.
The second child asked for progress, and when he changed his household registration, he changed his revolutionary name to Hong Xiangyang, and then went on the road alone. I didn't even ask my family for the travel expenses, but only took away an old sheepskin coat from my family.
A few years have passed, and the second child has been in the countryside for many years, preparing for hardships. It wasn't until this year's Spring Festival that the second son went home to visit relatives for the first time. When they met again, "Hong Xiangyang" in an old sheepskin coat had become dark and thin, and he didn't mean to be sunny at all, so that Hong Lucheng and Wang Yunlin, the parents, were almost unrecognizable. They also heard from their second son that they couldn't even eat enough to eat at the educated youth, and their work was even more continuous, and it was really sad to think about it.
In addition, Hong Lucheng also knew that in the past few years, his second son only wrote letters and did not go home, all in order to save money for tickets. He had long heard from others that a young educated man could earn the salary of an adult, and his family also relied on his parents to tighten his belts to supplement the children who went to the countryside to cut in line. Thinking about it carefully, the second child has never opened his mouth with his family in terms of money, and it is really embarrassing to survive so many days by relying on hard work. So when the second child went on the road after the holiday, he and his wife did everything possible to scrape together 30 yuan and 20 catties of national food stamps. In addition, what can be brought to the second child is a can of Liubiju's small sauce radish.
For this second son, Hong Lucheng only had helplessness and sourness in his heart. No way, that's what you can do at home. Who made him, a father, the biggest burden to the family, and he could only wronged this second son who suffered and sinned outside.
The third Hong Yanwu, the third, alas!
Among Hong Lucheng's children, he was the only one who thought of Hong Yanwu, and it hurt as if a knife was cutting his heart, and he couldn't help but lament for it.
This son has another name for him, called "heart disease".
This "heart disease" has been from childhood to adulthood, and it is impossible to calculate how many troubles and troubles it has caused to the family. For the sake of this son, his apologies and accusations to every neighbor around him have almost become a norm. And in the end, after fully understanding the stubborn nature of this bastard's son, he could only admit that he was powerless to discipline, so he had to hand it over to the people's police.
In fact, for the third child in the family, he has never had the luxury of how much this kid can be. His greatest hope is only that Hong Yanwu can be a peaceful son who "doesn't cause trouble at home". Don't look at this wish so simple, but it has always been difficult to achieve.
He knew that Hong Yanwu would definitely hate his father. He hated that he personally sent his son to a labor camp. But as a father, could he have any other choice at the beginning?
He did this not only to protect other family members from being implicated, but also to enable Hong Yanwu to get back on the right path. But when will his son understand his hard work?