Chapter 142: The First Step 442
I don't know what's going to happen, but I know it's inevitable and it can only happen that way.
Those so-called possibilities are just toys that are used to enrich the moment. Let me imagine at this moment, but as an omniscient being, there is no possibility at all about these things.
For one, it is an assumption that causality and time flow linearly, so that for omniscient beings, all this is a certainty. Because we are omniscient, we must know the state of the next moment and the next moment, and even the so-called future at all. Everything is known, and there will be no other possibilities.
Second, the pictorial elements that are perceived at this moment are merely pictorial elements, and they are thus perceived. I don't know if it ever happened, if there was a causal relationship, if it was really A that drove B. I know everything, it's just these pictorial elements that I perceive at the moment.
That's all.
So, where are the other possibilities? It's just an imagination in the mind, and it's still just a visual element that I perceive at the moment. When I couldn't determine cause and effect, the imagination of possibilities became a joke, and the "how it was, how it was now" pattern no longer existed.
Because there is no causal relationship, the idea that the change in the first place leads to the change now is.
I'm just aware of it, it's just that the elements of the picture are presented as they are, and the other possibilities are just an illusion of freedom. I'm free because I don't know what I'm going to think next, and that's the illusion of freedom.
Where is what's next?
Only this moment, I will always be out of this moment. I can't stand here and point to something and say that's next. It's just the presentation of the elements of the picture, and as for the ones that are not presented, what reason do I have to prove that they will be presented?
Time is not real, but it still hinders me. Worries about the future, plans for the future, and even the very existence of the future are an obstacle.
Yuan Changwen was very uncomfortable, as if something was about to come out of his throat, nausea and vomiting? The distortion in his mind is disgusting, those fears are disgusting, and those things that are obviously unreal but want to pretend to be real are also disgusting.
Even my own existence is also false and disgusting.
I can't control the presentation of the elements of the picture, it's all unreal, and maybe I can't analyze it intellectually. It would be more appropriate to burn it directly with the flames of hell, and the rational analysis seems to be unwilling to do any harm, and wants to complete the killing while remaining intact.
Is this possible? I don't know, maybe yes or maybe not. But my self-definition is that everything in the character is protected by strong emotions, and even reason must destroy emotions. Fear resists, all the settings are to put me to sleep, they are all obstacles.
Die, the character explodes, blasts to ashes and vanishes. I grasp all this with emotion, and then my reason has seen that all this does not exist at all, so what are I still doing?
Madness is not a bad thing, anger is not a bad thing, madness is not a bad thing, and anything that is presented by the elements of the picture is not a bad thing. It's just that it conforms to the recognition of the role, whether it conforms to the recognition of society or not, and whether it contributes to the construction of the imperial dream or not, ridiculous!
When will these approvals sway me? When will they become the truth?
Don't hold on to it, throw away the twists in your head, and don't let reason get in the way. The so-called politeness, the so-called rational thinking, the so-called maturity, and the so-called not being swayed by emotions, all get out.
I'm going crazy, I'm going crazy, I'm going to destroy it all. There is nothing left behind, including myself. Burn, I know it's already burning, and the only thing I need to do is not to stop it.
To hell with any friendship, love and affection. Life deserves respect, it's my business. Don't control me with your personal preferences, no one or anything has that qualification.
Maintaining interpersonal relationships and maintaining family harmony are things that I am not interested in playing. Now, the only thing I'm interested in is destroying my character.
That's right, it's still just a stage drama for the characters, and it's still just a cost-effective thinking of words and deeds. But when can I be swayed by whether it's cost-effective or not, why should I care if it's cost-effective or not?
What if you ruin it all? There will be no damage at all, the loss of the character is nothing, even if the character has nothing, the awareness is still there. The presentation of the picture elements is just a presentation, and the characters have nothing to do with me.
It's not that I'm hiding behind the character of Yuan Changwen, walking and experiencing everything in this world. It's that the elements of the picture only present these things, and that awareness is still that awareness, without the slightest change.
The elements of the picture present "the relevant memories of the character of Yuan Changwen", "I can only perceive this character", "the fixed body imaging of the character's vision", "the character feels his own emotional knowledge", and so on.
I can only perceive the character of Yuan Changwen, which is already the presentation of the elements of the picture. Suppose that awareness is infinite and distorted into multiple limitations, and suppose that each limitation takes on a different role. Then, the character can still only perceive itself, or rather, each limitation only presents "the character is aware of itself".
If the picture elements show that "the character of Yuan Changwen can perceive the hearts of others", this is okay and reasonable. Right, what can't you want to present in the picture elements? There is no need to conform to any laws and regulations, just direct presentation.
The so-called telepathy, the so-called mind control, the so-called prediction of the future, these are all the presentation of picture elements. There is no contradiction or incomprehension, it is just a presentation.
There is no truth in this world anymore, and there is no truth in myself. It's all the presentation of picture elements, and those so-called obstacles are not obstacles.
I'm going to push the whole world away, there's no need to look at it all up close. What drags the characters is only related to the characters, and it has nothing to do with me.
It doesn't make sense, there is no obstacle at all, and I am turned away. It's not the character who wants to go through, and it's not the character who wants to go through.
I grabbed these things, and I pretended to be real when they weren't real, so why didn't I die?
Yuan Changwen felt the feeling of devouring in his body, like a stormy sea trying to overturn the boat. I can't resist and I don't need to resist, maybe destroying the ship of life is the way forward.
Is suicide the way forward?
Then come on, destroy the characters and destroy the world, and the things in my head must be slashed and emptied. You can still faithfully carry out your mission, which is to try to put me to sleep. However, I don't know if your master can still have this ability, and if your methods are still effective.
Turn on the explosion destruction mode.