"2012, Are You Happy?" -

2012, do you feel happy?

2012 is the most unfeeling, but the most real year I have ever lived. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 infoAlthough a lot of unhappiness has happened in this year, happiness still exists in my heart. Why? I don't know......

The first love at the beginning of the year was gone so easily. At that time, it was very depraved.

After the start of school, I met the brother of "failing the course", and he was even more depraved.

In my freshman year, I was immersed in depraved self-absorption. I couldn't help myself, and I forgot to laugh.

encountered all kinds of unhappiness of the family again, and that state of mind was really the bottom. It's like I've never tried it so bad!

Perhaps, God loves me!

At the beginning of the second half of the year, I slowly stood up. Because of love, you can't help but love.

If you love your family, you will be motivated!

I learned to cook for my aunts and uncles, and the joy they showed when they ate the food I cooked was the source of my happiness.

After returning to school, although I met the brother of "failing the course" again, I reviewed it very seriously. As a result, the make-up exam was passed.

In the rest of the day, although there are many tasks, I feel that I am constantly improving. Every time I overcome a difficulty, I am very happy! It seems that I have regained the mood of winning awards in my childhood. In terms of mentality, it has gradually become indifferent. It's a bit sentimental by chance, but after writing the journal, the mood is not the same.

In short, this year is still happy.

And the continuation of happiness is because of the expectation of going home.

2012, what is happiness in your eyes?

The happiness in my eyes is hard to describe. Perhaps, a feeling.

When I was a child, I was loved by my family, and that warm feeling was happiness;

In elementary school, playing with friends, playing naturally and innocently, is happiness;

In junior high school, sharing the joy in my heart with my friends and being cared for by my friends is a feeling of warmth, which is happiness;

In high school, I was treated as a child by everyone and protected me, and that feeling of being touched was happiness;

In college, chatting with my buddies about life, shopping for groceries and cooking in the dormitory together, that feeling of home is happiness......

Time has changed, and happiness may be a mood.

While being loved by my family, I also love the joy of my family, which is happiness:

While being spoiled by friends, I also spoil the happiness of friends, which is happiness;

While being touched by my lover's heart, the sweetness that I also touched my lover's heart is happiness.

Happiness does not only arise through the participation of others.

Even if I travel alone, the rare sense of freedom is also happiness in my eyes.

Now, what do you want most?

I can't figure out what I want most right now. Maybe that's why I lack a sense of direction and no passion every day.

I can't know for sure, but my body gives me the feeling that I want to regain the happiness of love. Although a person can be happy, for a person who has felt the beauty of love but wants to return to its original place, he can no longer return to the happiness that he can be happy with before falling in love.

Simple, not innocent anymore. However, love is a treasure, and you can't move it casually.

Therefore, although you want to, you must calmly wait for the one that is destined.

Because I don't know which one, I can only leave this wish in my heart to time.

Now, let's focus on studying.

In the future, I will reply.

I'm not in a hurry, as long as she's approaching me. I will not have commitments, only a heart that cherishes her and works hard, loves her and forgiveness.

So, God, don't look for the wrong person. Thank you so much!

"Sunny and Cloudy" -

The weather outside was pretty good. It stands to reason that the weather in my heart should be so good. Why is it sunny and cloudy?

Yesterday morning, I was so happy about the freedom of a person. The weather is as sunny as the mood!

By noon, it was starting to get colder and the clouds were slowly darkening. Yes, it's going to rain.

The wind blew unsatisfyingly low temperatures. However, I was writing a report in bed and it didn't feel obvious.

The wind is getting stronger......

At this time, I noticed that on the road below the balcony of the dormitory, there was a cleaning aunt who looked to be about forty or fifty years old sweeping the floor. The cleaning aunt walked with a limp, as if one leg could not walk normally.

The rain is slowly getting heavier......

I thought she would be gone soon. But, no.

She struggled to sweep the wind-blown leaves into a pile. However, as soon as she swept into a heap, the wind blew the leaves away again. She didn't seem to think about giving up, and continued to sweep the leaves into a pile again. At the same time, I feel so ashamed!

She is an eco-friendly cleaner, and I also study eco-friendly. However, I have not really paid for the environment. As the cold front crossed, my mood began to cloudy......

In the evening, my roommate who had been in Guangzhou for a day came back. What does that mean? It means that I don't have a holiday......

When he returned, he had a straight face. I guess he must have something on his mind.

However, judging by my personality, I would not ask him what happened. I just kept trying to make the atmosphere less stiff, but it didn't work.

Perhaps, when the hair grows, there will be a lot of things that don't go well. So, I took scissors and looked in the mirror and trimmed my hair and feet. In the end, after the cut, nothing has necessarily changed.

Bad moods are contagious. His bad mood made my already a bit bad mood even worse. Forget it, go take a shower, it might be better to take a shower.

But I was still in a bad mood for an hour! I didn't like it! That's why sometimes I'm happier alone than two, and I don't have to worry about other people's emotions at all, as long as I'm willing to laugh.

After showering for a long time, looking at the water droplets flowing through my skin, it is really like tears in my body. After taking a shower, go to bed and play with the computer.

At this point, he finally spoke.

However, it was to ask me if I had anything to eat.

It just so happened that I had one loaf of bread left, so I gave it to him. I didn't tell him, I didn't have dinner, it was my dinner.

At least, he was willing to speak, and the atmosphere was not so stiff. After that, I began to write the journal "2012, Are You Happy". In the end, yesterday passed like that. In the early hours of the morning, in exchange for today's ......

This morning, he got up earlier than me.

I asked him if he was going to Guangzhou.

He simply said in a tone like cold air: "Get out of here." ”

After that, I was left with the sound of the door closing.

The mood is also speechless, look at the sky outside, it is cloudy, the same.

When I slept until almost eleven o'clock, I woke up slightly. Look at the sky outside, the sun is out! What a warm feeling! Unfortunately, my mood is still cloudy......

When I got up, I uncharacteristically cleaned the dorm room and fixed the faucet.

He's back, along with his girlfriend. After that, the two of them worked hard for their lunch. Since I don't eat fish, I made an appointment with the canteen. The weather is so good, but the mood is not cooperative......

At noon and in the afternoon, I was playing the game unconsciously. Originally, I wanted to learn. However, there is no sense of freedom that comes with it. So, with the sound of laughter between the two of them, I forced myself to sleep.

He slept until the evening, and he slept. I've slept enough, but I'm still forcing myself to sleep.

Before you know it, a kind of hatred comes out. Inexplicable fire always hurts. When I received a call from my aunt, I almost spewed out the fire. Luckily, no.

Now, when I look back, I wonder how my mood suddenly turned cloudy.

Perhaps, it's an escape. Also, the fear of losing.

In other words, I'm perverted......

"In a Dream, Dead"-

I slept in the early hours of this morning, but I dreamed that I was dead!

In the wee hours of the morning, my roommates and I were watching Happy Camp. While laughing, he ate well-cooked noodles. In the end, the stomach was satisfied.

Sleepy, roommates slept.

As for me, I'm too full, continue to play with the computer to digest.

After digestion, it's time to sleep. But my feet were numb from the cold, and I couldn't sleep.

I continued to play on the computer until almost five o'clock in the morning, and then fell asleep......

I'm the only one in the dormitory, okay! Cook noodles and eat them!

I took the induction cooker and other equipment and started fighting for my stomach!

Naturally, add oil, heat the pan, and then underneath it, okay! Stir-fry! How perfect! haha!

But when it was stir-fried, the noodles were gone, and it all melted into a pot of purple water. I thought it was so strange, but I couldn't help but taste it curiously, and it was delicious!

After a while, I felt dizzy!

Then, looking at the big mirror in the dormitory, my eyes, ears, and mouth were bleeding a lot of purple goo, and my nose was spurting red blood!

My first instinct was, I'm poisoned!

So, with a little sense, I opened the dormitory door and stumbled out.

When I saw that my roommate had come back from the corridor, he immediately rushed to me when he saw that something was wrong.

He picked me up and I was even more dizzy!

I thought, are you going to die?

My eyes are slowly closing, and I can't hold them open no matter how hard I try. Yes, it's going to die......

The rest of my consciousness only said in my heart: "Ah uncle, auntie, goodbye......"

And then, I woke up.

At that time, I was still wondering if I was alive because it was too real!

The scene of cooking noodles in a dream is similar to the scene of cooking noodles in the early morning! Well, this dream is really interesting! It made me see the answer in my heart.

It is at the moment of death that what is most important in my heart!

Obviously, the last sentence has already reflected the importance of parents in my heart. But it's also very strange, they are all going to die, and they don't say goodbye, but they say goodbye. Perhaps, my fate with my parents will not be broken.

Look at the sky outside, it's a rare blue sky and warm sunshine! Isn't it, it means that I have been reborn? haha!

Because I was curious about this dream, I went online to look up the interpretation of the dream. It's not superstition, it's just for fun.

Dream interpretation says that (whether it's dreaming of your own death or the lives of those around you are in danger, it simply means that you have to make a decision that you have not made for a long time, and that decision will take you out of the situation.) In terms of love, the love troubles that have been bothering you for a long time are finally over, but this does not mean that loneliness and loneliness are coming, but that there is a new love that will intoxicate you. It was so interpreted, and my dream was so worthwhile!

2013, soon came. Hopefully, I will be reborn as a hopeful me in my dreams!

In the dream, dead.

But real, still alive!