Today is the last day of May 2019, what are your thoughts?

The words "last day" feel like an end.

Some are painful ends, such as being discharged from the hospital or vacation, some are happy endings, such as being about to part, being confined to others, and some are mundane endings, such as just a month has passed, and there will still be such a day next month.

How it ends depends on how much each person values it.

How would you feel if you excluded the year and month and just the "last day"?

How much will this last day weigh in your heart?

Perhaps, it is true that the rarer it is, the more precious it is.

If you feel that you have more, it will be difficult to cherish it. It's not that you don't understand, and even if you do, it's hard for you to control yourself and cherish it. Because, this is also one of the weaknesses of human nature.

Imagining that it was the "last day" is just an imagination, and there is not much threat at all, and human nature naturally does not take it to heart.

It is always on the real "last day" that I will sigh and regret it, and I will know how important it is to cherish it. In fact, everyone knows that "cherishing" is very important, but it is meaningless if you don't feel it in your heart.

Like, everyone knows the meaning of "pain", but the feeling of being in "pain" may not be felt by everyone. After all, there is not that much real "empathy" in the world, and if you feel that other people are very similar to the pain you have experienced, you will feel that the pain of others is the same as the pain you have felt, but that is just your own feeling. Everyone's inner world is different, their own pain is only known to themselves, and the "feeling" of others is just a comfort.

Well, this example seems a bit off......

However, it doesn't matter, this example is a little off, but it has its own meaning. So, I don't change it.

Well, it's one thing to know, it's another to feel.

What about myself, what do I think of this "last day"?

Well, from the point of view of the passage of time, this "last day" is a little sad, after all, it means the end, but if this end is biased towards beauty, then, the heart will feel very gratified, and there will even be a kind of "I gently, taste a bite, you say love me" sweetness.

From a growth point of view, this "last day" is like announcing your exam results, and you will feel a little nervous and looking forward to it. If the results are great, that is, I have grown to the expectations in my heart, then my heart will be very happy! But if the results are not ideal, that is, there is no growth or even regression, then my heart will be very melancholy.

The last day of my life, I don't know what day it was, after all, I am not God. However, I can see so much of the "last day" that I can feel now, and I can decide how I spend it.

Whew, on the last day of May 2019, I would like to give the next month a good start.

I want to write, write songs, draw, dance, study, and exercise, and although I am a little greedy, as long as I am willing to do it, it is meaningful.

No amount of beautiful vision can compare to every step taken. Imagination is valuable when you take action.

Looking back on this May, I already have a framework pattern for my transformation, in other words, I already have a beginning and a direction.

But there is still a very serious drawback, my self-discipline is very poor! Sagittarius is at heart to like the sky and the boundless universe and resist constraints, and if you are not careful, you will embark on the road of "forgive me for being uninhibited and indulgent in this life, and love freedom".

Well, that's what I really need to revamp.

In the freest state, we must improve our self-discipline in order to make a qualitative change in ourselves. Only the change that you are willing to change is the real change. Those changes that are forced to change by external factors, even if they change for a while, are not really changed, because when the external factors disappear, they may rebound back to their original shape.

Every day this May, I had a three-meal diet, and at most I only tried to skip breakfast one morning at most. Compared to me, who used to skip breakfast, this is a good change.

Then, I now drink more than six glasses of water a day. It's also a big change from when I didn't drink enough water for a few days.

Then, since I decided to work on my abs, pecs and biceps, every night before going to bed, I would do a dozen push-ups and lie down, lift my combined feet, and make about 10 rounds in each direction and counterclockwise without touching the mat to train my abs. Compared to me, who used to be a pig as soon as I got out of bed, I was already a fake pig.

Moving on, I go to the market every morning to buy lean meat and vegetables, except on rainy days. When I come back, I cut the meat, wash the vegetables, and wash the rice. After everything is done, study when it is time to study, exercise when it is time to exercise, and when it is close to noon, go to the kitchen to stir-fry. Now, it's a habit. Compared to me, who always waited until I could eat before going downstairs, it was the difference between a pig and a cow. How can you always have the illusion of describing yourself as a brute?

Then, during the TCM visit, I was able to communicate well with the doctor, analyze my physical condition, and listen to the doctor's advice. When I got home, I cooked my own medicine, and I was familiar with the water and heat. Compared to me, who used to act like a piece of wood when I went to the doctor, and me who waited for my aunt to help me make the medicine and asked me to drink it, it was already the difference between a child and an adult.

All of the above are changes related to my body, and they are also very necessary changes. I'm glad I can do it.

However, regarding the change in learning, I don't think it's enough and it doesn't meet my expectations at all.

Studying is incidental, while I am in my hometown to recuperate, I have so much free time, it should not be wasted, it can be used to study well and improve my ability.

Physical health is the most important thing, and then studying.

It's just that when I got the changes in conditioning my body, I couldn't take into account the changes in learning.

It's not that I don't want to change, it's that I haven't found a breakthrough point that can reconcile my technique and art well.

Technology will be an important skill for me to earn money in the future, and art is the pillar that underpins my entire spiritual world. The two may seem unrelated, but they are inseparable. Without art-assisted technology, there is no innovative soul to speak of. In the same way, art without technical support is like an ethereal existence.

If I can reconcile technology and art, then for me, it means a phoenix nirvana.

Actually, I don't have to spend more time on art every day, just an hour or two. It doesn't matter if you spend all your free time on technology.

It's just that there is still a lack of patience.

If you can't keep yourself in a relatively high state of enthusiasm, it is easy to get bored, evasive, and disgusted. So, I may need to use the forty-minute pattern per lesson to limit my time schedule on technology and art, as I did in the previous books.

Three-minute heat, is a special existence.

When the heat comes, it is invincible. When the heat drops, it collapses.

Therefore, if you can make proper use of your "three-minute heat", you may have a different effect.

For example, when I have a feeling for drawing, that is, when the heat rises, then I paint. When you finish painting a picture, the heat dissipates and you have a feeling for learning again, that is, the three-minute heat for painting has ended, and learning has generated a new three-minute heat, then go to study.

Well, that's just for me personally.

Everyone has their own personality, and my "uninhibited indulgence, love freedom" personality is like these three minutes of heat, freely changing the direction and goal that I can't guess.

It is actually difficult to change yourself, but you can't give up changing because it is difficult, because once the change is successful, it is the difference between the bronze and the king.

I originally wanted to write about some movie impressions, but I didn't expect that the sentence "the last day" I wrote casually at the beginning would pull me so far.

Well, sometimes, the future is the same.

You thought it would be like that, but you didn't expect it to be like this.

But no matter what, in the trajectory of your life, all those things are small.

Because, you are the protagonist of your own life, and your whole life has your own appearance.

Whew, enough chicken blood, it's time to end.

Oh oh.

yes, I've got my young!