If there is really a soul that leaves the body after death, and for some reason, this soul does not go to heaven or hell or is scattered, but continues to linger in the world, looking at his relatives, friends, colleagues, acquaintances...... The soul has no way to communicate with them, but to watch them sad, painful, joyful, angry...... But he can't do anything for them, can't let them know their feelings, and can't let the other party perceive his existence, so for this soul, this feeling of yin and yang separation may be more worthy of his fear than the soul is scattered......

Now, sitting silently in the corner of the private room of the karaoke workshop, looking at Xiao Nan, who was once a good brother and old classmates greeting and laughing at each other, I feel like a ghost that everyone can't see or touch, and these joys and sorrows of the "world" seem to her to be another time and space, she can only watch, but she can't participate in it.

When they first met, the former good brothers Gao Dasil and Jin Sanpang, who were very enthusiastic about Xiao Nan, let her into the private room to find a seat for her to sit down, and handed fruits and drinks very courteously, they were immediately attracted by several other old classmates who had just arrived, and they warmly hugged and shook hands, and even burst into tears with excitement, willful and unabashedly expressed their thoughts- Although the relationship between them was not very close in high school, and there were even some contradictions and frictions, but at this moment, they look more like old friends and good brothers who have not seen each other for many years, and Xiao Nan has completely become a transparent bystander, sitting in the corner with a drink bottle like a ghost, and the sadness in his heart is indescribable.

In fact, Xiao Nan himself knows very well that on the occasion of class reunions, the people who participate may not be completely here to meet old classmates, many people participate in class reunions just to miss their doomed youth, and every old classmate who appears on the scene is an important clue that can help them recall the past.

A girl's round baby face has now become a pretty melon seed face, and the original ear-length student's head is now waist-length, when I see her again after many years, will I recall my unrequited love that is both sweet and bitter, only flowering and not bearing fruit?

A certain boy is still as tall and strong as in the past, and the tempering of his professional career has brought him more confidence and chic, and when he reunites with him after a long absence at the party, will he remember that he got the most handsome and cool moment on the school basketball court, which was obtained from this devilish and difficult genius opponent?

In fact, the class reunion is essentially a group of people whose life trajectories have intersected, gathering together to collectively remember their youth, just like the men and women in the private room of the karaoke workshop now, are trying to find the unlock code for their youth memories from every former classmate around them who can evoke memories.

And Xiao Nan, who was sitting in the corner drinking drinks silently, no matter how cute her face was, how youthful she was, and even her slender and graceful legs elegantly gathered together in black leggings could not attract the attention of others for a long time - even if there were, it was not because she was Cheng Xiaonan.

Because of the transformation, Cheng Xiaonan, who is now a girl, can no longer provide these classmates with any ideas and clues to evoke memories, and no one knows that she is the tall, thin, and taciturn Cheng Xiaonan from the original, unless she can change back to the original boy's appearance - Cheng Xiaonan's personality and memories hidden in the body of the over-aged Lori can only be a ghostly perspective, shrinking in the corner as a helpless bystander......

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As the main initiator of this party, Jin Sanpang originally planned to go to a nearby restaurant for dinner after the classmates met, chatted, took photos, and karaoke, but Xiao Nan did not wait for them to complete all the planning links, so he silently put away the camera that took a lot of photos, and quietly left the private room of the karaoke workshop, and deliberately kept a low profile when he went out, without attracting anyone's attention.

When she came, she was still worried about whether her old classmates would find out her true identity, so she also asked her sister-in-law to help her dress up, and now it seems that she is completely doing this trick, except for Gao Dasil and Jin Sanpang, who see that she is "Cheng Xiaonan's sister" For her sake, she took good care of her and arranged her seats, and brought her drinks and fruits from time to time, and in the eyes of others, she was completely like a transparent person without a sense of existence, with the only exception of a few times, it was just a few boys secretly staring at her thighs exposed outside her skirt......

What they saw in their eyes was a cute little girl who had nothing to do with their past, and Cheng Xiaonan, who was lurking in the little girl's body and staring at them, was an existence that they couldn't perceive......

Her emotions began to get out of control, and her tears completely ignored Xiao Nan's orders, her vision gradually became clouded with a layer of mist, and the corridor in front of her instantly became blurred......

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When Xiao Nan walked out of the gate on the first floor of the karaoke shop, the huge temperature difference between indoor and outdoor made her shiver involuntarily, wiped the cold tears in the corners of her eyes with long sleeves that only exposed four fingertips, and wrapped the thin coat on her body.

"Please wait a minute!" Suddenly someone was shouting behind her, Xiao Nan couldn't be sure if it was calling her, she glanced back, but saw that the young officer, one of her best friends and brothers in high school, was tall and stupid and chased out of the hall on the first floor of the karaoke shop.

"Why didn't you leave without making a sound?, are you bored when no one talks to you?" asked Xiao Nan stupidly.

In fact, this guy's big name is Gao Daxia, but when he was in high school six or seven years ago, he was indeed tall and big, and his brain lacked roots and tendons, and he was stupid all day long, so he got such a nickname. It's just that now he is standing in front of Xiao Nan like a tall giant sequoia, with a sassy heroic spirit between his eyebrows, where can he still find a trace of "Dasha" breath?

"That's not the case...... Xiao Nan explained: "Anyway, I don't know any of those people, my task was completed after taking pictures, and seeing that you were chatting with others, I didn't say hello to you and left......"

Isn't that the case...... In fact, I shouldn't have come at all, anyway, no one knows who I am, and I can't tell others my secrets, my classmates and friends are in front of me but I can't recognize each other......

Damn, why are you going to shed tears again, I hate to shed tears at every turn like a resentful woman...... Xiao Nan pretended to comb the bangs in front of her forehead with her fingers, and silently wiped away the tears that had just emerged from the corners of her eyes, feeling angry that she was so sensitive and fragile.

"Well, at that time, Jin San and I only cared about ourselves, threw you aside, and kept saying that Xiao Nan's sister is our sister, I'm really embarrassed......" Gao Dasil didn't seem to notice Xiao Nan's reddened eyes, but just habitually scratched the back of his head: "Look at our two brothers...... Actually, I especially want to talk to you about your brother's situation, but there are too many old classmates who came today, and I haven't found time to talk to you, but I didn't expect you to leave in a blink ......of an eye."

"It's okay, don't worry about the details. You have taken good care of me, thank you......" In the face of Gao Dasil's apology, Xiao Nan reluctantly gave him a smile, and then waved his hand at him: "Goodbye, you can go back quickly, it's rare to have so many old classmates today, you better hurry up and accompany them......"

"We're going to have dinner after singing in a while, why don't you stay and we'll go together later, Brother Gao will pay for you, even if it's a dinner for you, okay?" Gao Dasil said to Xiao Nan hopefully.

"No, thank you. Xiao Nan shook her head and refused, do you want me to go over and watch you push the cup and change the cup to get drunk before resting?" "The family is still waiting for me to go back to eat......

"Why don't I ask Third Brother Jin to drive you home?" Gao Dasil took out his mobile phone from his pocket and asked tentatively.

"Don't bother you, look, it's not a taxi...... Xiao Nan pointed across the street with his hand: "It's an empty car! Master, stop!"

Seeing that the taxi that Xiao Nan was riding gradually disappeared from view, Gao Dasil shook his head slightly. Why does the little girl who has just left feel an inexplicable familiarity? Is it just because she is Cheng Xiaonan's cousin? However, between the lingering and gestures, there is clearly a temperament very similar to Cheng Xiaonan, is this only because of the influence of blood relationship......

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"I'm back......" Xiao Nan returned home and listlessly greeted his family members who were sitting around the hall watching the TV series. "Xiao Nan, why did you come back so early? Don't you still have dinner at night?" Xiao Nan's mother and sister-in-law asked almost in unison.

"I wasn't feeling well, so I came back early. You don't care about me, I'll just go back to my room and lie down for a while......" Ignoring the confusion of his relatives looking at each other, Xiao Nan went straight back to his room, locked the door and fell on the bed, his mind was like a mess.

I must be crazy...... Xiao Nan thought, even if these few days are special days, he should not completely lose the ability to control his emotions, and he will be sad and sad at every turn! Could it be that he has really become a complete girl psychologically? Even his original personality has been eroded beyond recognition by estrogen?

Ay...... It's really annoying, if I had known that this afternoon would be like this, I shouldn't have expected this class reunion in the first place......

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------This chapter is all about mental activities, it's so hard to write, I really don't know how I survived……

Recently, the work has been busy, and the writing progress is not very smooth, and the update is not as diligent as before, so there have been people urging to update, don't I want to write faster, but there is no time to break, I have been squeezing my rest time to the maximum, the average daily sleep time is no more than 6 hours, so that it is extremely important to sleep for more than ten minutes after lunch every day, more than a year, almost every day, very tired, especially tired...... Sometimes I wonder, is it worth it? just to leave a transformation novel that can be passed on, to make myself die or live, is it worth it?