"I have asked Chu Anran to do so many things, which one do you refer to?"

An inexplicable smile flashed in Ji Rujing's eyes, as if mocking and sneering, and his tone was extremely contemptuous, "It took so long to settle accounts with me, are you too slow to react? Or are your feelings for your wife not as affectionate and meaningful?"

When he said this, only Ji Rujing himself knew how jealous he was in his heart.

Some feelings are very strange and arise before you know it.

However, before he could realize it, it came to an abrupt end, and when he wanted to do something, he found that no matter what he did, it was in vain.

If he hadn't......

Ji Rujing sneered, there has never been a regret medicine in the world, and there are not so many ifs.

Just thinking of her, his heart stagnated, and some of it was empty, as if his heart was missing a hole.

"Ji Rujing, you shut up for me, if you hadn't let Chu Anran get involved in my life, it would be impossible for Ming Yan to lose two children, and I haven't settled this account with you yet. Mu Zeyu's face was gloomy, if he hadn't saved Gu Mingyan, if he hadn't just finished the operation, he would never have been so cheap.

Ji Rujing's warm eyes flashed with a touch of gloom, and there was a provocation in his words, "Aren't you curious why I did that back then?

"The mouth grows on your face, and no one sews it up. Mu Zeyu said indifferently.

Ji Rujing didn't care about his attitude, and said slowly in a clear voice: "If I don't say some things, you probably guessed some of them, but you will never know what I have experienced." ”

Eight years ago, he and Mu Zeyu were both in the special forces, and they were the elite of the elite, it can be said that as long as they join forces, no one in the entire special forces will be their opponents.

The two of them are rivals and friends, competing with each other, improving each other, and going on countless missions together, and because of this, they will have an extraordinary tacit understanding, just like being familiar with each other.

The military medals won by the two were all made by them through their hard work.

That time, although it was full of hardships and dangers, it was the most comfortable time he lived.

knew that every day, he was suddenly summoned by the supreme leader at that time, arranged for him to carry out a secret mission, and told him that this mission would not give him any merit, nor any glory, and would even be labeled a traitor.

After a strong ideological struggle, he resolutely decided to complete this task, although the original task was assigned to two people, he and Mu Zeyu were the most perfect partners, and the chances of them carrying out this task together would be much greater.

But he inadvertently discovered Mu Zeyu's true identity, because of her mother's selfishness, he was almost drowned, and the pool of blood that flowed from Mrs. Mu's body. He never likes to owe others, this time he should pay it back, and he will never owe it again.

Everyone will have some secrets hidden in their hearts, and they will have an embarrassing past that they don't want to mention.

The time when he was an undercover agent was the most embarrassing and difficult time for him, many times he thought that he would not be able to hold on, but for the firm faith and belief in his heart, he brushed shoulders with death countless times.

There are also drugs that were forced to be injected, in order to complete the task, he was pierced with countless needle holes, and later in order to detoxify, he was roasted in handcuffs for more than half a year, and endured the struggle between life and death countless times, and those who have not experienced that feeling of dire pain can never feel it.

After so many years, even though that time has long passed, he still feels tormented.

Even if he slept soundly, he would suddenly wake up from a nightmare, and the state of entering the battle at any time seemed to be integrated into his bones and blood, and walking on the brink of death every day had become a lingering nightmare for him.

The feeling of surviving in the cracks of death, he no longer wants to think about it, let alone experience it.

"I'm still a selfish person after all, and I have to pull you along after going through those painful pasts alone. These experiences and the past were explained to the above as early as when Ji Rujing completed the task, but he never mentioned some details.

I thought it would rot in my stomach, but I didn't expect it to be said to Mu Zeyu lightly under such circumstances.

If he could, he didn't want to say this to anyone, after all, those who had experienced it were so painful that he felt that his body couldn't resist the temptation of drugs when he thought about it.

How cruel and vicious those drug dealers are, and how they transport and sell drugs, you will never know if you don't go deep into them.

They are so cunning, and they are even more defensive against anyone, and on the surface, people who call brothers and sisters can ask for each other's lives for a few hundred * not to mention, but also let the other party's family accompany the funeral.

After staying in such a bloody environment for a long time, he sometimes wondered his identity, whether he was sent undercover or was originally a drug dealer.

For three years, he was addicted to drugs, and if it weren't for his strong self-control, he might not have survived.

"I'm sorry, I'm ...... Never knew that. Mu Zeyu suddenly couldn't face Ji Rujing, when he didn't know, when he doubted Ji Rujing, he was experiencing the most cruel thing in the world.

His voice trembled, and there was a deep guilt in his tone.

Even if there have been doubts for a long time, when the truth is in front of us, it is still unbearable.

He couldn't imagine how Ji Rujing, who had been injected with so many drugs, survived repeated drug addiction attacks, and there was no way to imagine how he attacked his former comrades-in-arms in order to hide his true identity.

But just imagining that kind of picture, if it were him, it would be painful.

As the saying goes, the truth is often more cruel than imagination, and everything Ji Rujing has experienced is more than cruel and can be described, it is simply a torment that is not so painful, and the most painful pride in the world is that if you are not careful, you will fall into the abyss of no return.

"You have nothing to be sorry for, I was the one who decided to complete the mission alone, and I was the one who fired a shot that almost killed you. Ji Rujing smiled slightly, quite lightly, "Although I still think of those past sometimes, although I can't let those traumas disappear, as long as people live, they have to look forward, and it is better to die than to stop at the front, and death is the most despicable thing." ”

Why did you persevere?

In addition to the fact that he still has a mother to take care of, the more important thing is the firm belief in his heart that he doesn't want to lose to Mu Zeyu.

If he can't even complete the undercover mission, how can he defeat Mu Zeyu and crush him in all aspects, let alone say that he is not inferior to him.

How could he run in front of Mu Junlin, and said with great arrogance and disdain, is my son who is not recognized by you no worse than the pride in your heart, have you ever regretted giving up on us in the slightest?