There was another brief moment of clarity, as if I had figured it out, as if I was very relaxed, but then there was a new wave of obstacles.

Seeing that you are under the influence of others after all, it will be easy to start killing. Those people and things, let yourself define your own content, and you will be disgusted when you see it.

Oops, it's starting to be chaotic again, and the preface doesn't match the afterword.

Yuan Changwen frowned, wanting to give up thinking for a while and concentrate on making coffee for guests.

And the senior barista thought that Yuan Changwen's frown was due to panic caused by unskill.

"Don't panic, take your time. Don't memorize those processes, just be casual, and the coffee will be much better. Don't take it too seriously and trust yourself. ”

Yuan Changwen nodded, didn't speak, just agreed.

Looking too hard?

No, it's not just that "you take something too seriously", so it leads to a lack of letting go and suffering from gains and losses.

So, if you're a human being, is that too much of a human being?

Of course, these are self-definitions, how do I know I'm human?

What the eyes see, it must be false.

But I don't have the slightest doubt that I'm human. Even if I doubt it theoretically now, deep down I still don't believe it at all.

These self-definitions are firmly grasped, and it can be seen that there are many more self-definitions that are firmly grasped. Even, I don't know what self-definition I have grasped.

It's really funny, I don't know what I caught, and then I went through life in a trance.

Death, come quickly, come to me quickly. I'm not pushing you away, I'm going to hug you, I'm calling you, come here.

Yuan Changwen was like crazy, and kept repeating his shouts for death.

In the process of shouting, he was one step closer to death.

I never know what will happen in the future, even if it's science, it's just speculation. Why, then, do I feel so sure that what will happen in the future and then feel bad if it doesn't?

It's funny, it's so uncontrollable, who made me feel like I could control it? And it made me feel terrified when I faced the future?

On the one hand, I think I have control over the future. As you have always done, weigh up, think, and then use your actions to control future events.

On the other hand, he thinks that he has no control over the future, and is always in a state of hostility, always fearful of the future, and always trying to control the future.

Aren't the two contradictory?

If you can control the future, then why be scared and anxious?

If you can't control the future, then why bother to control it, why not just let it go?

Also, how did the idea of "why will I still be so cruel in the future after I have done so much"?

Is there something wrong with my brain? How does this brain-dead mind come in, and how does it control my emotions and keep pulling me?

Oh, my God!

Plant melons and get melons, plant beans and get beans?

No pain, no gain?

Hard work will lead to success?

Heaven will not disappoint those who work hard?

Shit!

I used to believe in these things?!

Why do the sheep run in the darkness and say something to ignore the darkness? Why do you pretend to be an unfounded affirmation and then pretend to be inspirational?

Isn't admitting that you are uncertain about the future a sign of honesty?

Won't you get tired with such a heavy faith?

Anyway, that's it, I'll hand myself over, whatever you want, I'll accept it.

Whatever your name is, God, Buddha, Allah, Dao, Brahma, Shiva, etc., Lao Tzu doesn't care what your name is, even if you are a stone, I will give myself to you.

Everything is left to you, troubles, happiness, ideals, and morals are all handed over to you. Whatever you want, I'll take it.

I don't work hard for this character anymore, I don't worry about anything anymore, and of course I can't get the happiness unique to the character.

Ouch, how many chapters have you said about letting go? Every time I think I can let go, every time I feel a sense of relief. Excuse me, when did you really let go?

No!

If you really let go, you won't have this feeling again.

Therefore, I still haven't let go, and I still haven't handed myself over. So, is this the last time I feel relaxed, and is there anything that will make me want to let go?

It's all the characters that are caught.

Ideals are nothing more than a slogan that is spoken to distinguish others.

"My dream is to set up a company that does personalized services with artificial intelligence. ”

"I want to open a café and spend my days lazy and grow flowers and plants with my loved ones. ”

"My dream is that one day, I will be able to leave the city and the hustle and bustle. Between the mountains and rivers, spend the rest of your life in peace. ”

It's just talk, isn't it?

Everyone knows very well how small the probability of these ideals will be realized. But no one wants to admit that people who give up their dreams are cowards, not worth befriending, and people who don't have emotions and only think about money.

Is it wrong to talk about money? That's right.

Is it wrong to talk about ideals? That's right.

That's right, in a dream, in a falsehood, distinguishing between right and wrong is a joke in itself.

Who knows what's going to happen in the future? If you don't know, don't pretend to know.

Yuan Changwen suddenly laughed, and he killed a certain self-definition again, and his whole body was slightly relaxed. I just don't know, how long can this ease last?

After all, I am still on the mountainside, and I don't know how far away I am from the top of the mountain. The only good thing is that I am now much lighter, as if some of the weight has been abandoned by me.

After those self-definitions are killed, the whole amount is easily diverged from the inside out, and others can easily feel it. Of course, these things change all the time. If you can get to the mountainside, you can walk back to the bottom of the mountain.

Who knows what the future holds?

I used to be myself, but I also had a relaxing moment. At that time, I had just become a disciple of the teacher, and I had a bright future and I didn't have a lot of burdens.

Think about that time, the sense of ease was around me all day long. However, the ease at that time was the ease of confidence. And now, I have lost my confidence, and the ease at this time is the real ease.

Yuan Changwen didn't think too much about the future, since he didn't know what the future would be, so don't pretend to know or pretend to think about it. Everything is in vain, why not hand yourself over and let whatever you want.

Self-esteem doesn't seem to allow it, haha, whose self-esteem is not the character's attribute, it's not me at all, it's still the character who wants to live.

It's hard to imagine that the former self was so content with the character, so emotionally pulled by the character's fear, and so immobile to stay in the shackles of fear.

Whatever you want, I accept it anyway, there is no longer this role. Now, it's all a new beginning, a life without the brain's thinking participation, a life without the brain's trade-offs.

Let's go.