I don't know how long it was, maybe a second, maybe a day, maybe a year.

Chen Xiaojian's consciousness has always been muddy, as if he is conscious, but he doesn't know anything.

Chen Xiaojian tried to recall something, but his mind was blank.

Chen Xiaojian wanted to open his eyes, but the two thin eyelids were as heavy as mountains. I want to lick my lips, but I can't control my tongue.

Can't think, can't move, can't do anything.

Chen Xiaojian didn't know at all, was this a situation like his own death?

But if you say you're dead, how can you still be conscious? Could it be that you've become a vegetative state? But why can't you even think about it?

Chen Xiaojian's consciousness became blurry again, and he couldn't think about anything. I don't know how long it took, Chen Xiaojian's consciousness became a little clear again, but as soon as he started thinking about things, he became blurry again.

In this way, Chen Xiaojian's consciousness will be blurred for a while, and clear for a while. Chen Xiaojian only felt that if he hadn't died, he wouldn't be happy.

This kind of mental torture is far more brutal than physical torture.

If he can move, if he is not dead, then Chen Xiaojian really wants to die like this, this feeling is too uncomfortable and too depressing.

Just when Chen Xiaojian was about to collapse, Chen Xiaojian's ears seemed to have the voice of Huang Zhong Da Lu.

The sound of "bells and bells ......" is endless, and I don't know if it has sounded thousands or tens of thousands. It rang tirelessly, and so on, was it the call of the death knell, or the ringing of the morning bell?

When the first bell rang, Chen Xiaojian's divine consciousness that was about to collapse immediately condensed. But just as it was about to condense, another bell rang, and it immediately collapsed again. As the bell sounded, Chen Xiaojian's divine consciousness condensed for a while, and collapsed for a while.

As if ten thousand years had passed, Chen Xiaojian felt that the bell was getting softer and smaller, and his divine consciousness and will were not suddenly condensing and collapsing, but slowly began to condense continuously.

The bells are getting smaller, lighter, and farther away. It's as small as a woman's muttering, light as a spring breeze supporting willows, and far away as clouds rolling up in the sky.

Slowly, the bell disappeared completely. Chen Xiaojian also slowly began to regain consciousness, but he still couldn't control his body, as if he was just a floating soul, he could feel himself, but he couldn't control himself.

After waking up, this feeling made Chen Xiaojian feel that he might really be dead, isn't this the feeling of death?

Suddenly, Chen Xiaojian felt as if his consciousness had been grabbed by something and torn constantly, such pain made Chen Xiaojian unbearable, but Chen Xiaojian's consciousness and consciousness became extremely firm because of the previous condensation, and it was not broken no matter how it was torn, but the painful feeling was really felt.

Chen Xiaojian felt that his consciousness was being torn harder and harder, as if someone was tearing a complete piece of denim. Desperately pulling hard, but doing nothing about it.

Slowly, the tearing force began to get smaller, smaller and smaller, until it disappeared. Chen Xiaojian's consciousness fell into a deep sleep after the tearing feeling dissipated. It's like nothing.

I don't know how long it has been, Chen Xiaojian's consciousness has awakened, maybe he has experienced too much torture and pain, Chen Xiaojian just wants to roar loudly after waking up in his consciousness.

The depression that had been suppressed suddenly broke out at this moment, and after Chen Xiaojian finished roaring, he didn't hear any sound.

Chen Xiaojian was roaring, but his vocal cords did not make a sound.

Chen Xiaojian realized that it might be that he was too tired, or that he had been in a coma for too long, which caused something wrong with his vocal cords.

Chen Xiaojian felt that there was light shining on his body, and his whole body was warm, and this feeling was particularly beautiful.

Chen Xiaojian enjoyed such a warm feeling like this, he had never found out that basking in the sun was such a happy thing, and then he opened his eyes suddenly, and the strong light seemed to be able to penetrate Chen Xiaojian's eyes.

Chen Xiaojian subconsciously closed his eyes, and left two lines of tears with a "swish".

It's not that Chen Xiaojian shed tears of joy because he was excited to finally be able to control his body again, but because of the conditioned reflex of his eyes suddenly seeing sunlight after not seeing sunlight for a long time.

Chen Xiaojian didn't open his eyes immediately after closing them, but let his eyes get used to it. The brilliance of the sun shining through the thin eyelids is like the most beautiful rainbow in the sky.

Chen Xiaojian closed his eyes slightly and moved his fingers, probably because he was in a coma for a long time, so that Chen Xiaojian had little strength. But feeling the slight tremor of my fingers, everything felt so incredible.

Chen Xiaojian exhaled in his heart, it turned out that he was not dead, it turned out that he was still alive. Chen Xiaojian has never felt that being alive is such a happy thing.

Breathing freely, it is as if you can feel the beating of every cell in your body, and every pore is breathing, as if you have been injected with stimulants.

The sun shines on his body, as if a girl is caressing her skin inch by inch, and the feeling on the skin tells Chen Xiaojian how warm the sun is now, how long has this feeling not passed?

It turns out that this feeling of being free and alive is so wonderful, and the pain that I have suffered before is now like living in a dream.

When Chen Xiaojian slowly adapted to the light, Chen Xiaojian slowly opened his eyes, the sunlight seemed to radiate a splendor that had never been seen before, everything was so dazzling, so beautiful, and exciting.

Chen Xiaojian felt the strength of his body, then clenched his fist violently, and with a force on his waist and abdomen, he straightened up and sat up.

Chen Xiaojian had been lying down before, but now he sat up all of a sudden, but everything in front of him was not what Chen Xiaojian imagined.

A small room, with only a bed and a desk, and a small window with bright green curtains, and whitewashed walls that have been somewhat gray due to time.

This room Chen Xiaojian felt extremely familiar, because Chen Xiaojian had lived in this room for more than ten years.

This is Chen Xiaojian's bedroom in his hometown, and Chen Xiaojian has been sleeping in this small room since elementary school.

Chen Xiaojian suddenly felt that his brain was not enough. I remember that it was an accident when I was driving, even if I wasn't in the car, I should be in a hospital or something, how could I be here?

Chen Xiaojian subconsciously reached out and scratched his head, but what he touched was not neat short hair, but long hair covering his eyes.

Chen Xiaojian stroked his hair and found that it had passed the tip of his nose, and he was inexplicably frightened.

It's obviously short hair, how did it become long hair? It's obviously in the car, why is it in the bedroom of my hometown now?

Could it be that after I had a car accident, I was rescued to the hospital, and then the doctor notified my parents, and I was taken back to my hometown by my parents after being discharged from the hospital?

Thinking about it, there is only one idea that makes sense. Now that he has thought of the possibility of things, Chen Xiaojian no longer thinks about anything else.

Because Chen Xiaojian feels very hungry now, perhaps because he has been in a coma for too long, Chen Xiaojian only feels that if he doesn't eat food again, he will really die, and he will starve to death.

Chen Xiaojian can't remember the last time he experienced this kind of hunger.

Why are you here, why are you with long hair? These things don't matter anymore in the face of hunger.

Chen Xiaojian didn't know how long he had fainted this time, but that strong hunger made Chen Xiaojian reluctant to think about anything else.

Chen Xiaojian got up and got out of bed and walked downstairs, now Chen Xiaojian wants to go to the kitchen to find food first, and then ask his parents what is going on when he is full.

The house in Chen Xiaojian's hometown is a more traditional two-story small building, and there will be an attic. The attic is Chen Xiaojian's room.

When Chen Xiaojian went downstairs, he happened to pass by the bathroom at the corner of the corridor, the door of the bathroom was not closed, and the mirror inside reflected Chen Xiaojian's appearance.

Chen Xiaojian just glanced at it and didn't care at all. But after taking two steps downstairs, Chen Xiaojian was suddenly stunned.

After standing there for a second, he turned and walked to the bathroom.

Walking into the bathroom and looking at himself in the mirror, Chen Xiaojian was stunned for a moment.

The self in the mirror, naked, chubby, can also see a circle on the stomach when standing, dividing the belly into two pieces, and the face is like a circle. Thick and long hair, although not like the non-mainstream, but similar to the popular old boy, under the nose is two pale black beards, and the chin is also covered with pale black beard.

Is this product yourself?

Yes, this is himself, but this should be what he looked like when he was in high school? At that time, Chen Xiaojian weighed 80 kilograms, which was also the fattest period of time.

And because of his age, Chen Xiaojian has never shaved his inherited beard.

But Chen Xiaojian clearly remembered that after graduating from high school, he had successfully lost weight.

How is it going to be like this now?

Aren't all patients supposed to be skinny, and how can they still get fat?

After thinking about it for a long time, he couldn't think of a reason, so Chen Xiaojian didn't want to, so he went downstairs to find something to eat first.

When Chen Xiaojian ran to the kitchen, he looked at the refrigerator in front of him, and was stunned again.

Didn't this broken refrigerator have been replaced long ago when I was just in college? Why is it still at home?

Two things directly made Chen Xiaojian's brain crash, and he couldn't figure it out at all.

After a while, Chen Xiaojian seemed to suddenly think of something, opened the refrigerator, took a carton of milk casually, and ran upstairs to his small room while snorting a straw.

When he ran to the small room, the milk had already been drunk, and Chen Xiaojian threw the empty milk carton on the desk. Then he opened the second drawer in the middle of the desk and pulled out a blue hard-sided notebook.

There are also several cartoon stickers on the cover, as well as stickers of Chen Xiaojian's favorite stars, Liu Dehua, Li Zongsheng, and Gao Yuanyuan.

The sticker has been slightly yellowed, but you can still get a glimpse of what it looked like.

Chen Xiaojian didn't open the notebook immediately, but took a few deep breaths, probably calming down, because what Chen Xiaojian just thought of was too unbelievable.

When his mood calmed down a little, Chen Xiaojian opened the cover.

The first page contains nothing but two words: Diary.