Crying, shouting, tired.

Yuan Changwen sobbed slowly in the cell, and his mood seemed to be much calmer.

Calm?

No, I'll finish this road.

No matter how difficult you have, let you devil try his best to deceive.

Further!

Yuan Changwen thought of this word again, that's right, I haven't arrived now, everything else is nonsense.

Further!

As long as I have this word, it is impossible to be deceived and misled by you.

I've seen through your tricks, demon.

All your moves must be based on "self", and without "self" you are not bullshit!

Carefully woven lies, flawless means, are all aimed at strengthening the "self" and highlighting the difference between oneself and others.

I'm going to kill you!

The motivation of this killing is not to pursue, not to show off, and not to look forward to the day when you can be respected.

It's that I'm fed up with the pull of emotions, and I take all the falsehoods as real.

It's obviously an addition to the background, but I hold it tightly as if it were myself.

Those are not me, Lao Tzu is just that stupid background!

Since it's not me, what qualifications do you have to let me die and come back to life?

Even if this path eventually leads to death, so what?

It's as if my current situation is easier than death!

Yuan Changwen raised his arm and wiped his snot and tears on his sleeve.

"Loser, you're just doing it to escape. If you have such momentum, you will definitely succeed in society!"

"Don't think about it, come back quickly, and think about what the road ahead will be. ”

"Don't you want to be admired by everyone, your mother will be proud of you, and everyone will worship you!"

"Come back soon!"

Can't come back......

That's right, I'm a loser, and there's no need to deny that.

All "buts" are means of survival for the "self". It is not allowed to be denied, it must exist, so an infinite number of "buts" appear.

I don't need to, I'm a loser!

By the definition of this society, I am a loser through and through.

Without a job, he went to a prison cell, and from then on he was branded as a bad person, and he could no longer make a lot of money in this life, let alone be respected.

Once someone knows about my case record and my history of mental illness, it will be absolutely ridiculed and disdainful in exchange.

Maybe my wife will leave with the children, maybe I will live alone for the rest of my life.

Even, I may not be able to kill all the self-woven definitions in my life, I can only live a crazy life like this.

Scared?

Of course I was afraid, I just wanted to arouse my fear, and then see this emotion.

Slash!

Yuan Changwen did not give any explanation for this fear, forcibly controlled himself not to get rid of this emotion, and let himself float in the wave of fear.

In the desert, this blue-black light and shadow overflowed everywhere, trying to find a building to reinforce. But it was found that all the buildings did not respond to it, and after a long time, this rich light and shadow had to dissipate.

And those buildings that have not been nourished by light and shadow have become much dilapidated in an instant, as if thousands of years have passed in the blink of an eye.

"Humph!"

Yuan Changwen looked at the dissipated blue-black light and shadow, not a little happy, just angry.

The previous self was dragged forward like this, and he was at the mercy of this way.

The more I think about it, the angrier I get!

"Only a loser will make excuses, complain, and waste time. ”

"Take action, not just sit and think. ”

"Don't read too much teaching, it's useless, action is the key to success. ”

“loser！Loser！Loser！”

Is there an end?

Yuan Changwen found that in his mind, uncontrollable thoughts once again emerged.

That's right, I'm just complaining. Oh no, I don't complain about the sky, only the people.

I hated myself for not seeing these self-woven definitions sooner and starting to get rid of them sooner.

As for wasting time?

Whether there is time or not is a question.

No matter how many reasons are listed, yesterday I was in the Swift Mansion, and today I am in the cell.

What yesterday's clothes, today's clothes.

These things always happen in my head regardless of yesterday.

I now imagine that yesterday I was in Kuaifu.

I think back to the casual clothes I wore yesterday.

These things are all in my mind at the moment, what evidence can prove the existence of yesterday?

It seems that I have a series of memories of more than 20 years, but it is only my memory at this moment, does it have anything to do with yesterday?

Even some things, such as childhood clothes, photos, home videos, etc., seem to be true with memory.

But by adding these two points, I can be pretty sure that the past existed?

Aren't those clothes, pictures, and so on that I'm seeing right now?

Time, like objective things, falls within the realm of "unascertained truth".

We assume that time exists, that time passes, and that it does explain all this very succinctly.

But is there no other hypothesis that can explain all this?

For example, aliens are controlling us, and now we are just in some virtual world.

I know that scientists hate talking about aliens for everything, not because they're ridiculous, but because they can't disprove that assumption.

Abandoning the extraterrestrial hypothesis and acknowledging the existence of time can also explain all this phenomenon very well.

However, the hypothesis of having aliens and abandoning the existence of time can also explain all this!

I know, some people think I'm crazy. But can you find the right evidence other than calling me crazy and calling me stupid?

Even if I sat on this side of the cell for a second, I stood up now.

I also can't prove if the last second really existed.

It's just that in my eyes, all this is continuous, but in fact it is not continuous, how do I know?

I am forever in the moment, the imagination where the past and the future exist in my head.

Yuan Changwen looked at his hands and couldn't help laughing suddenly.

Well, everything is illusory, and even time falls within the realm of "uncertain reality".

Except for "I exist", everything else is fantasy, all belief, all belief, all belief.

It's just that we never doubted these "beliefs".

That's right, how can you have time to doubt, everyone is busy with work, success, and mortgages, how can you have the time to think about this!

It's only people like themselves, who have weak ability to bear and are not strong enough in their hearts, that they will come up with these things.

Those strong people are running hard to lead the whole flock towards a bright future.

Okay, just let yourself slash slowly, those damn self-definitions.

I had broken away from the flock, walking alone on this muddy path, surrounded by darkness and emotional monsters.

However, these monsters are none other than themselves.

Those who were proud of their "self", tenacity, mathematical talent, academic mastery, high execution, strong sense of responsibility, excellent overall planning ability......

These are all self-definitions that others or oneself recognize and can bring good emotions to oneself.

Of course, you can also allow yourself to feel negative emotions. Once reality does not match the self-definition, those self-definitions that can be turned into good emotions will produce strong negative emotions.

I have never tasted it, and I have dug out the taste of my pride.

It's not someone else's blow, it's not a mockery of reality, it's digging it up with your own hands.

The former is already very uncomfortable, and many times, people are reluctant to get along with people who pour cold water, which is the reason.

The latter, hands-on, that feels like whoever tries who knows.

Maybe some people don't feel so painful when they dig a little bit every day and dig a little bit every day, and when they dig up the whole piece of pride.

But Yuan Changwen dug down a whole piece, and it hurt his heart and lungs!

"Huh. ”

Yuan Changwen laughed at himself, and found that he was not so painful, as if after the emotions were gone, he would not come back.

I don't know what this situation is, maybe I was wandering in fear just now, but now it's much easier.

Looking at the cell opposite him who provoked him just now, he didn't have the same emotion as he did just now, and he didn't know why he was crying like that.

Those ruffians and hooligans are not born to be bad boys.

Without bad guys, wouldn't it be collective unemployment?

Will it be that in order to ensure the existence of this system, the bad guys will be deliberately not arrested?

Yuan Changwen was amused by his own thoughts, in fact, the work of catching fast is very tiring, and they want this world to be stable more than anyone else.

Hey?!

It's the opposite!

Ha!

I see!

Yuan Changwen suddenly shouted at the opposite cell:

"Thanks, buddy!"