Chapter 16: Reincarnation (Part I)
It's a familiar scene, just like when I first came in.
Looking at "him" cold eyes that seemed to be numb, Ahn Junhyuk suddenly understood that there was no point in spending time for him.
The dark tunnel and the passing train roared back quickly, and the sun shone again, as before, the diffuse orange and red crawled all over the field of vision, and outside the window belonged to the blank world of dusk, vast and immense.
It's a reincarnation!
Come out of the dark end, drive in the light, and then enter the darkness again.
This world is running in this monotony, and "he" is also in such monotony, sitting in one place every day, following the trajectory of reincarnation along the rocking train over and over again, with no beginning and no end.
Such a strange phenomenon aroused his interest, and with his back to the light radiating from the sky, he lowered his head and pondered for a moment, and he asked, "What is this place?"
"He" glanced at him, "I thought you were going to ask what I was." ”
"I asked, will you answer?"
"No...... You know the truth. ”
"Yes, so I don't ask, since it is too difficult to get the answer, it is more in line with our values to reduce the difficulty and look for clues from other directions. ”
"Heh......"
There was no doubt about it," he laughed, thought for a moment, and then said, "This place must be a cage if you describe it! Empty, lonely, and indifferent, the train follows a trajectory over and over again, never deviating from any other direction, never stopping. ”
Since it is described as a cage, then there are prisoners.
Look at "him". An Junhe paused for a moment and pointed at himself: "Did I do it?"
"He" shrugged, did not admit it, did not deny it.
The two fell silent again, Ahn Jun-hyuk needed time to digest the information he had gotten, and "he" may have simply gotten used to no one communicating. It was quiet for a long time, and when the light shining through the car window, like the afterglow of the sunset, became a little softer, "he" sighed: "Ah." Here it is again. ”
And then. "He" opened the window.
The warm light diffused unhindered, followed by a fierce wind, which smelled a little salty. Vaguely. There was the sound of the tide ringing in my ears.
"Does it feel familiar?"
"It's like ...... by the sea," Ahn Joon-hyuk distinguished. And a little unsure, "Smell like this." ”
"Yes, by the sea...... This taste is unforgettable. A taste of memories. He turned his head and looked over, "Do you remember your hometown?"
“…… I thought you had forgotten!"
Ahn Jun-hyuk looked at "him", a little uncertain about his previous conclusion, and would ask this kind of thing in a nostalgic tone, not quite like the Ahn Jun-hyuk in the dream, that Ahn Jun-hyuk has always thought that this kind of emotion is meaningless, he sold his hometown at the most difficult time, and cut off all ties with the past, as his throne gets bigger and more luxurious, his spiritual world is getting stronger and stronger, and all weakness is abandoned, leaving behind the strongest and coldest, indestructible and unmeltable rock.
He smiled self-deprecatingly, it was finally a ridiculous dream.
However, "he" then replied a little beyond his expectations, "he" shook his head, "I'm talking about the home when I was very young, the one that was sold by my mother." ”
Ahn Jun Hyuk nodded, "Of course I do." ”
"I remember going back one year, did you see it from memory?"
He shook his head, although he accepted all the memories of Ahn Junhyuk in the dream, many of them were deliberately forgotten, that was to avoid being influenced by "him", and then go down the old path of "him" and become a robot who uses data to analyze everything.
"It's a pity not to see it, the home is still there, but the factory not far from the house has been bulldozed, the village has reopened the fields, the day I went, the surrounding rice fields are blooming, the mountains are all pale yellow-green, when the mountain wind blows, they sway like waves, the old house is in the middle of the rice field. ”
Probably beautiful.
Ahn Joon-hyuk, who was listening quietly, thought.
"The house is very well kept, after we left, there were people who repaired it, but no one lived in it anymore, looking in from the window, it was empty. However, I found that when Jisoo was very young, her mother used scrap steel frames from the factory to make her a small trailer, which was rusty and only the handlebars were buried in the mud. "He" suddenly asked with great interest, "Does Jisoo remember that little car?"
Ahn Jun-hyuk carefully dug into the memory, thinking about it for a long time, and only in the depths of the memory that it was so long that it was almost forgotten, he remembered that there was indeed such a car, and he couldn't remember the specific appearance, but he remembered that it was ugly, but Jisoo liked it very much, but unfortunately he didn't know what he lost for Lu Dao later.
Recalling, he shook his head: "I forgot about it a long time ago, after all, it's been more than ten years." ”
"So......" "He" seemed a little disappointed, the wind poured in from the open window, the smell of the tide faded, and the condensed sunset light became bright and brilliant again, "he" closed the window, the howling of the wind disappeared, and only the noisy operation of the iron wheel remained.
Bang, bang
Tireless.
"When did you go?"
"The day before death. He replied, and immediately stopped talking, looking intently out the window.
He didn't know what "he" was, there was nothing outside the window, and this dream was getting more and more ridiculous, about why he came here, Ahn Jun-hyuk thought about it, "he" might be a personality hidden in his heart - although "he" denied it - his thoughts have been more confused recently, and his defense has been greatly weakened, so he gave "him" a chance to take advantage of it and pulled him here.
This cognition made his feelings a little weird.
If you explain it this way, you have a split personality?
If you think about it, it doesn't seem to be an unacceptable thing, the human brain is not a machine after all. Memory reception is not like data transmission, which requires only a corresponding interface and sufficient storage space. At the turning point of fate in 04, he accepted such a huge dream memory, and many of the things that appeared in his memory even conflicted with his outlook on the world and life at that time.
That's the most basic conflict of ideas, and the most basic thing is precisely the most important, just like two human beings from different worlds meet together, they don't understand the language, culture, and even the most basic mathematical principles, such as 1+1=2, what will be the result?
Inability to communicate. Logic crashes. And then the Great War, Perdition!
There is no second possibility.
In the early days, affected by his memories, many times he would doubt the authenticity of the world. Wonder if your existence is completely meaningless. Until you slowly learn to hypnotize yourself. Treat it as an absurd fantasy to avoid the possibility of personality breakdown turning into psychosis in the first place.
This is also because he did not see the future foreshadowed by the dream as reality at that time, and then his mother and sister are still the same as in the dream. There was a root cause of the car accident.
The train was still roaring forward, its body swaying slightly with its rhythm, and in the distance, the whistle of the train appeared again, and the darkness and passing by, and the lightning-like lights followed.
The air is shaking, everything is shaking.
Another reincarnation.
Ahn Jun-hyuk is a little strange, he doesn't know if this cage is done for "him" by himself, he is not a psychologist, such a difficult thing cannot be done by himself, he didn't know that Lu Dao has another personality before, and he has never had a similar concept.
But if it wasn't him, then how did it come to be?
What is the purpose of this reincarnation?
Just over and over again, going around in circles in a void and empty light?
That's just too boring.
As I thought about it, the train had already passed through the tunnel, and the brief darkness and the loud sound of high-speed friction quickly faded, and the sunset splashed again, and the reincarnation passed again, and a new reincarnation began.
On the other side, "he", who seemed to stop talking in the face of darkness, also had a conversation again: "I saw in my memory that you have been very confused recently because of emotional matters, it's really strange, the choice of path is obviously different, but there are some things, you don't seem to have changed." ”
"Huh?" he frowned, "what do you mean?"
After saying that, "he" began to ponder with one hand on his jaw, and when he asked this, "he" looked up and smiled, and instead of answering, he asked rhetorically, "Do you love her?"
"Who?"
"Lin Xiujing. ”
"Of course I love. This is something that doesn't need to be considered, Ahn Jun-hyuk didn't believe that "he" would not understand, and sure enough, the "he" on the other side nodded unexpectedly, but a new question popped up again: "Do you love Yuna?"
"Why do you ask this?" he frowned again.
"He" was laughing: "You're hesitating. ”
"Hesitant because the question you asked is wrong, for me, she is about the same status as Jisoo, she is my sister, but she is not related by blood......"
"Then you can say love, family love, we are all one, you can't say 'love her' in front of me, which shows that you subconsciously have scruples. "He" began to show an interested look in his eyes, "Ahn Junhyuk, Ahn Junhyuk, I really want to know Lu Dao, what are you afraid of?"
Ahn Jun-hyuk was dumbfounded, and after a moment, he smiled to himself.
I have been confused in the chaos for too long recently, and I was actually ridiculed by a "person" or "personality" in a dream.
"I'm not in the mood to say this, tell me, how do I go back?"
"You're running away from ......"
"Don't pull me in next time, besides, I'll go to a psychiatrist in the near future, you shouldn't exist ......"
“…… Flee like a coward, like the so-called hero of the Aeneid, who is cheered and praised for his immortal exploits in establishing Rome in Italy, but who knows that this great hero, whose great deeds are trampled on the broken heart of a poor woman? Well, the great Aeneas, the great Trojans, the great Anjun......"
"Enough!!"
Ahn Junhyuk shouted angrily, his eyes were red, and in his constricted pupils was the reflection of "him" sitting calmly.
"That's enough!" clenched his fists tightly, trying to control himself: "Tell me, how do I go back!"
"He" fell silent, looked at him lightly, and after a moment, turned his head to look out the window:
"If you want to leave, just open the door...... Coward!" (to be continued......)
PS: The plot of "reincarnation" hesitated for a long time to write it, and I wrote a similar paragraph before, but I finally eliminated it in that part of the plot, and I felt that the time was not yet, and now I hesitate, because I think it will be a little confusing if I write it like this.
But in my original conception, this should be the catalyst for some change in the protagonist's concept, so I thought about it, or wrote it before I went out the day before yesterday, and now it seems that my worries are not without reason, and the two-day interval, the collection has dropped a little, probably because of this plot......
It's a little helpless, but what should be written is to continue, and you can't give it up because you can't reach the ideal situation, it's just exercise!
I went out two days ago, and I'm going to be busy for a few days, so the update time will be very chaotic, but it won't be interrupted, and I will also find time to continue to resume the update of 2 more every day.
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