I decisively changed my plan, I didn't allow myself to avoid raising my head, and replied softly: "Hello, I am in the financial department, my work is fine, the leaders and colleagues are very kind, I am a new junior clerk, and I am still in the learning stage......" The expression is modest, the speech is clear, and the demeanor is calm.

Isn't it good that I watch xiàn?

I don't know where I got the courage to talk to him so without blushing and panting, and he avoided my embarrassment in the most tolerant way of confessing ten years ago, but since then, I have not heard from him, not even to meet.

Whenever I dream that I muster up the courage to say "I like you" to him with a red face and a very shy face, the dream will always fall apart.

Because even in his sleep, he didn't dare to recall the next fragment and relive the scene of being rejected by him.

I am such a proud and inferior person.

"Hmm...... Well...... Hmmm......" He tilted his ears slightly, as if he were listening intently to what others were saying, just as I had been ten years ago, when I was chattering on the side, while he listened attentively but smiled lightly.

Fifteen-year-old me was ignorant, thinking how attentive he was to my words.

After ten years of precipitation, I realized how restrained he was back then, so that he could maintain a proper smile and ...... without moving in my boring questions Taciturn?

However, at that time, I naively thought that he was such a taciturn person.

"My cousin is the president of the school debate club, and this time I want to represent the whole city to participate in the provincial college debate competition...... Lin Dandan said.

"My cousin is a footballer and likes Manchester United the most, every time Manchester United has a game, even if it is the middle of the night, he will get up to watch the game...... Lin Dandan added.

"My cousin is very popular, on his birthday, a bunch of classmates rushed over to celebrate his birthday, some of them cost thousands of plane tickets alone! In order to express his gratitude, he played and sang to himself with a guitar, and those female classmates all looked straight at ...... eyes," Lin Dandan also said.

……

Then I heard the sound of the walls collapsing in my heart.

It turns out that the real man is a sunny, lively, alert, and well-spoken person.

Not the one who only smiles at me faintly.

"In the future, we may have contact at work. "His voice was like the first tremor of a guitar that drilled into my periosteum and into my heart.

"Well, maybe. I smiled slightly, and my eyes became more and more barren.

You are the deputy mayor in charge of finance, and you have contact with the director, deputy director, and at most the director, not to the level of a small section member like me.

"Okay, please advise me in the future. Unexpectedly, he held out his hand.

But I was caught off guard, and my eyes lingered on the hand, which was less than twenty centimeters from my chest.

A white shirt peeked out from under the black suit, and the gaze shifted downwards to the slender jade-like fingers with even knuckles, tilted slightly, in a gesture of humble invitation.

The devil sent God, and I stretched out my hand and shook hands with him.

As soon as I touched it, the warmth of my skin swept through all my senses at the speed of a spark.

My heart trembled.

Ten years later, it turns out that I am still uncontrollably attracted to him.

How shameless am I, so I fall for his charm?

The unexpected smile, mixed with sarcasm, snaked from the bottom of his eyes all the way to the corners of his mouth, and then coldened inch by inch in his looking, inquiring eyes.

"I have a relative over there who wants to go say hello. Good bye. Feeling that reason could no longer suppress the damp heat in my eyes, I restrained myself with the greatest willpower of my life and said goodbye to him with a smile on my face.

"Good. His gaze circled my face meaningfully, and after a few seconds he spat out a word, "Later...... Goodbye......" smiled implicitly, and the last words dissipated between his lips and teeth, never falling into the air.

And I, with my jaw bowed, turned, straightened my back, and took a stride to drift away from him.

But I felt that faint gaze had been chasing for a long time.

It wasn't until the wine cabinet partition was cut that I could gasp for breath with my back against the solid wood door, a tear welling up in the corner of my eye.

The noisy and lively banquet, the people coming and going, the warm and celebratory conversations, the staggered entertainment, he who was star-studded, and I who was lost in the many guests, how much more than ten years of time?

Pastoral heart, Zizhi Tongjian said that "the shepherd of the heart of the world".

In my opinion, Shen Muxin, it is my heart that has been pastored.

A girl's heart that sank ten years ago.

Ten years later, as in the past.