Chapter 44: Who Fails Whom
"Nothing, I'll just say it casually. Zijun lowered his head, not wanting to continue the topic. Something was surging in her heart, and it didn't seem to be the same as she knew. But so what? After all, there is no going back. "Where are the classmates, do we walk there or take a taxi?"
During the conversation just now, the two of them have come to the market, there are not many pedestrians on the road, but it is still quite lively, if you are nearby, you can walk directly to it. After the expansion of the county seat, they were also divided into urban areas, but there was still some distance from the original city center, and the prosperity still could not keep up. Therefore, generally everyone still prefers to go to the county to play, in which case you have to take a taxi.
Zhou Can felt her escape, but since seeing her again, he had been suppressing his emotions and was a little out of his control. "Zijun, you make it clear, why do you think so? Who is in my heart, don't you know?"
His eyes were blazing, and he desperately needed an answer, pressing forward step by step. She couldn't retreat, she didn't notice behind her, her foot slumped, a sharp pain spread outward from her ankle, and her unsteady back rested against the camphor tree on the boulevard.
A sense of depression rose in Zijun's heart, raised his head, his eyes were a little evil, and he said the words in his heart, "Zhou Can, what are your nerves, why do you need to ask me? She told me in person that you are together, and I saw a group photo of you on the Great Wall, isn't this enough? I have to say it, will everyone's faces look good?" Now it seems that he was too naΓ―ve.
"Zijun, I don't. Zhou Can was anxious, propped his hands on the trunk of the tree, and simply encircled her in his arms with a mean point, so that she could not escape. Zijun's words contained too much information, and it exploded in his mind, and he didn't even say a few words. But there is a consciousness that is very clear, that is, she can't be allowed to run, and she must make her clear today.
"Zijun, I knew it was my mistake, I said that I applied to the university in Guangdong, and went to Beijing again. But that's not what I want, in the past few years, I have been studying hard and trying to make money, just so that one day we can be together without hindrance. Zijun, I don't like her, I've never liked her, she's just the daughter of my mom's friend. β¦β¦β
Is it wrong, is it all her mistake? However, she saw them together again and again, and she had no courage to pursue the truth. He said he went to find himself, and he said that he had always loved himself. When he started to speak, Zijun was already unable to move, and so many things she didn't know made her mind a little unable to turn. Finally, she heard him say, Zijun, let's be together, I will go to Guangzhou early next year, and you will wait for me in Guangzhou. This time, I'm talking!
"Zijun, wait for me for another half a year, okay?" Zhou Can saw that she didn't react, and leaned his head forward a little further.
Zijun panicked in her heart, and hurriedly pushed him away, his words finally aroused all her previous unwillingness, "It's not good! Zhou Can, why? Why do you say that because you love me, I should accept it." I'm a woman, I'm not as rational as you, I only talk about feelings. Yes, you said that you have been working hard with faith, shouldn't the future of the two of you work together together? I am just a working girl who graduated from junior high school, the better you are, the more inferior I am, and the more I dare not hope for extravagance. The belief that I want to be with you fades day by day until I despair. β
"Zijun, I really love you-" Every time Zijun said one more word, the pain in Zhou Can's eyes became more, it was because he was too conceited, because he was not mature enough to consider things, thinking that he could do it alone.
"You say you love me, if you really love someone, don't you want to be with her all the time? When you go to Beijing, you only have one word of sorry, I can't afford to love her like this. There was a fire hidden in his heart, and he couldn't find an outlet, and he became the object of her anger. As he said, he will only pay more than himself, and it is she who has changed her mind, what right does she have to blame him. His conceit, her inferiority, and their self-righteousness were all the culprits that caused this relationship to end without a problem.
"Zijun, right-"
"Zhou Can, listen, I already have a boyfriend. So, it's me who should say I'm sorry. I'm sorry I failed you, I'm sorry, I don't think I attended today's class reunion. "So what right does she have to blame him, and the most important thing to do now is to let him die and completely cut off the last possibility between each other. Since then, the heavens have been separated, and they have forgotten each other in the rivers and lakes - this can be regarded as her explanation of her true love for him in the past few years.
And after Zhou Can heard her say that she had a boyfriend, his whole body was almost out of strength, if he didn't hold on to the trunk of the tree, he was worried that he would not be able to stand. Is it still too late for him after all? It's not that he didn't think about the consequences, but the moment he heard it, his heartache and regret came flooding over him. He thought he had imagined the consequences, but when he really faced the pain of that moment, he did not expect.
After Zijun finished speaking, he pushed his hand away and walked away without looking back, and the muffled sound of the boy's fist hitting the trunk of the tree came from behind him. Zijun thought that he would not be heartbroken, why did his eyes blur so that he couldn't see the road clearly. If I had heard his confession a year ago, I would have been so happy that I couldn't find the north. And now, I don't know what it feels like in my heart, sour, swollen, for myself, but also for him. But no matter how much the mood fluctuates, one thing Zijun is very sure of, after all, there is no going back between them.
Zijun didn't go far, and his ankle began to hurt. Wearing high heels today, just now, I just retreated to a low-lying place, and my foot should have been sprained. When leaving, in order not to let Zhou Can notice her abnormality, she also pretended to take a few so-called cat steps to show that she walked without nostalgia. It really hurt at this time, thinking that Zhou Can should not be able to see it anymore, she squatted down to take a look at the trunk, and sure enough, her ankle was already swollen.
Zijun wanted to make a call home and didn't have a mobile phone, and for the first time, he deeply felt that it was so inconvenient to not bring a mobile phone. I don't know if it's because it hurts, or if the mood is too agitated, Zijun squatted on the ground and cried.
When she stood up, her back bumped into a person, Zijun was startled, and was about to call, when the person behind her shouted, "You have a broken foot, I'll take you to the doctor." β