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Those ten minutes on the train were my happiest ten minutes, waiting and looking forward to it with infinite sweetness.

And in the end, it became the most ironic ten minutes of my life.

I didn't deliberately pay attention to the time, I only looked out the window when no one was in or out of the car, and Chen Shi was still standing outside, and he was also watching me.

I took my phone and walked to the nearest car door, just after passing the door was closed, Chen Shi had not yet gotten into the car.

He was standing outside the car, too far away for me to make out his expression.

The car drove forward, and I walked backwards, looking at Chen Shi through the window all the way, and then dialed his phone.

Chen Shi took it and didn't say anything.

I was in a hurry, I asked, "Why didn't you get on the bus, the car is leaving, what should I do, I'll go to the flight attendant now, do you want to ask the people outside too." Chen Shi: You speak, why don't you speak?"

It was only then that a terrible thought crossed my mind, he didn't want to go.

Chen Shi didn't want to go to Beijing, he regretted it and didn't want to go back with me.

It's not that I haven't thought about it, it's not that I haven't worried about it, but later, all of them were covered up by my trust in Chen Shi. I believed him, but I didn't expect it to end up like this.

Unwillingly, the car drove faster and faster, and I continued to run backwards, while Chen Shi still stood in place and did not move.

He said on the phone, "I'm sorry to go west, I can't go back with you." ”

Sorry does it work?

At his feet, I saw the ticket that had been torn in half.

However, I still wanted to say a word to him, just a sentence, I held the phone, resisted the urge to cry, sniffed hard, I wanted to say......

Before I could say anything, Chen Shi had already hung up the phone, and there was only a busy sound left in my ears.

He turned away.

I didn't think that Chen Shi would leave in such a way, maybe he didn't even think about it.

I slammed the door hard, my palms were red, but unfortunately I couldn't hear anything outside, the car drove faster and faster, and finally a conductor came, but it only brought me back to my original position, they said that they couldn't open the door, and if I wanted to get off the train at the earliest, I would have to be at the next station at the earliest.

Later, I didn't get out of the car.

From Guangzhou to Beijing, more than 20 hours away, almost a day and a night, I sat in my place, never slept, did not speak, did not make a single sound.

But the tears never stopped.

Chen Shi threw his ticket and got off the bus, while I, crying alone from Guangzhou to Beijing.

Two years ago, I traveled from Tianjin to Beijing to meet him, and I ended up going home alone at the train station. 、

Half a year ago, I chased him from Tianjin to Beijing, but he told me that he was coming to Guangzhou.

A month ago, I chased him from Beijing to Guangzhou, and I heard him say to me in person, shaken it.

Three days ago, he finally agreed to go back with me.

In the end, I was the only one.

(When reading this chapter, you must listen to Qin Hao's version of "Parting Station"~ Just take it as Chen Shi's mood at that time.) ）

When I arrived in Beijing, it was already noon the next day, and the people on the bus left one after another, until the flight attendant came to ask me why I didn't get off the car, I raised my swollen eyelids and agreed.

When I got off the bus, I didn't take anything but the ticket I had been holding in my hand.

Walking around the train station alone, I don't know how long it took for Rarity to find me, he tugged at my arm, "What are you thinking?

"Chen Zhi?"

When I heard these two words, I just felt very unfamiliar.

Rarity became nervous when she saw that my face was wrong, and draped the coat she brought over me, "You're all right, why did you come out wearing like this, where did Chen Zhi go?"

"Chen Zhi. ”

I repeated his name again, and then I couldn't help but cry again, hugging Rarity, and I said, "Chen Shi didn't come back, he left." ”

"What?"

"He said he couldn't come back with me, and he wanted to stay in Guangzhou. ”

I thought that after crying for so long, my tears could be exhausted, but the result was no, I still cried, and I couldn't even control myself.

I hugged Rarity and he patted me on the shoulder as a reassuring gesture that the train station was full of people and we couldn't stand there all the time, and after I cried for a while, Rarity cautiously asked, "Are you better?

January is the coldest in Beijing, and a gust of wind can chill to people's bones, but I don't feel it, and the whole person is numb and follows Rarity step by step.

Rarity came to pick me up on an ad hoc basis, and in the morning he went to the studio to pick up Xu Yi, and he simply came to the train station with Xu Yi in the traffic jam on the road.

When I got in the car, I realized that there was still a person sitting next to me.

In broad daylight, Xu Yi was still wearing a pair of sunglasses, and when he saw me, he took them off, frowned slightly, and asked Rarity, "What's going on?"

Rarity coughs twice, but doesn't say anything.

I didn't speak, I tried to move to the side, and I was very far away from Xu Yi.

Still stuck in traffic, at a red light, Rarity turned to look at me, probably to ask to take me there, to see what I looked like, but finally didn't ask, and went to look at Xu Yi again, saying, "I have to go back to the office in the afternoon." ”

Xu Yi glanced at me, "Then I'll be there." ”

Rarity doesn't worry about me alone, but he can't take me with him to work, so he asks Xu Yi for help, and Xu Yi agrees to take me in.

Of course, I was still in a state of empty energy, and I could hear every word they said, but my mind was struck and refused to understand the meaning of every sentence.

Rarity sends me and Xu Yi back to the apartment and leaves.

Getting out of the car, I still stood up straight, like a frustrated statue, and even forgot how to walk.

Xu Yi sighed, walked over and tugged at my sleeve, I was distracted, scared like something, and cried again, but louder than the previous cry.

That look, if you change it, you should feel a little distressed.

Xu Yi dragged me over, put the hat of his coat on my face and pulled me onto the elevator.

The place where he lives may even have paparazzi in ambush in the underground garage, Xu Yi is not happy to cause these troubles, and simply transports me home as an object.

After crying for a while, I stopped.

It's time to get off the elevator, Xu Yi glared at me, "Do you want me to carry you back?"

Back?

I remembered that a few days ago, Chen Shi said that I was not allowed to walk by myself if my feet were not good, and he also said that he would carry me.

I grinned, and before I could cry, Xu Yi covered my mouth.

Xu Yi ran into a big trouble when he ran into me this time, and he probably didn't expect me to be like this when he promised Rarity.

Barely into the room, I was thrown on the bed by him, and then he went to get water, and threw me a bottle by the way. I didn't know how to hide, and the water bottle just hit me.

It didn't hurt either.

Xu Yi is about to get angry, but what's the use of getting angry, I can't listen to what he says when I look like I'm lost and depressed.

He also thought about making a call to Chen Shi, after all, the relationship between me and Chen Shi is obvious to everyone, but he hesitated again, it is not appropriate for him to make this call.

In case there is a new misunderstanding, Xu Yi tells Rarity to make the call.

I jump out of bed and grab my phone, and I say no to Rarity.

It may also be that I feel cowardly, I am so unlucky, and the last thing I want is to be known by Chen Zhi. Rarity understands and promises not to interfere.

After hanging up the phone, Xu Yi was going to take me to wash my face. I didn't listen, I kept avoiding him, I just wanted to find a place to nest quietly, and I didn't want to do anything. I felt like a wounded little animal.

I don't need anyone to comfort me, but it's best that no one bothers me.

This time Xu Yi didn't get used to me anymore, he gave a reason, it was dirty.

For such a reasonable reason, I know that I can't refuse, maybe I've cried enough, and my mind is a little clearer than before. I went to wash my face and simply took a shower. When he came out, he was wrapped in Xu Yi's bath towel, and he didn't even think about whether this cloth was wrapped every day.

I also forgot that Xu Yi is a very dangerous person, but at the moment, I guess Xu Yi is not interested.

Xu Yi watched me go out and pointed to the sofa, meaning that I could sleep if I wanted, so don't worry about his bed.

This night, I slept for another day and a night. It just so happened that Xu Yi was also on vacation, and he was still there when I woke up, listening to songs with a big pair of headphones, and his fingers were tapping on the table.

I wrapped myself in the quilt and moved to the bathroom to change my clothes.

Xu Yi said that the clothes I wore back were too dirty, smelly, not to mention that there were so many people on the train, and there were a lot of tears on them, so he washed my clothes easily.

It's just thrown directly into the washing machine, and the colors are dyed together, which is ugly, but it's clean and comfortable to wear.

Then I found that my stuff was gone, my suitcase, my phone, my wallet.

It was I who threw myself on the train.

Xu Yi told Rarity to find something, since the thing was lost in Beijing, I should wait here first, anyway, there is nowhere to go home now.

Go to my mom, I don't want to go.

Chen Zhi's house, I don't want to go even more.

I looked for things for two days and still didn't find them, and the people at the train station said that most of them were taken away, and Xu Yi asked me if there were any valuables in them.

I thought for a moment and shook my head. Then he pulled out the crumpled train ticket from the pocket of his jeans, which had been stirred up once by the washing machine.

Staring, I feel very uncomfortable.

This train ticket reminds me how I was thrown on the train by Chen Shi.

However, Rarity had already thought about it and didn't want to hit me, because he didn't think Chen would really do it.

Here's the thing, after Chen Shi had decided to go back to Beijing with me, I got a new job in Guangzhou, there was a Hong Kong female singer, who was a diva-level figure a few years ago, and there was a chorus song in the new album. The demo was recorded by Chen Shi, and after listening to Chen Shi's voice, the queen asked him to sing a duet, and decided to use it as the title song, and when he filmed the MV in the future, he would also let Chen Shi leave the country, and the list was in the name of two people.

The phone call that Chen Shi received on the train was the last chance given to him by the company, and when he went back, he would be able to brush up on the diva's album, and if he was lucky, maybe the company would really reconsider his arrangement.

If you don't go back, you'll never want to mix in this business.

Before that, he knew about it, but he hesitated and didn't make a final decision, and at the last moment, he chose to stay.

Xu Yi asked me what I thought, and I said that this is very good, if I knew, even if Chen Shi didn't want to, I would find a way to let him go.

However, supporting him does not mean agreeing with his final approach. I still can't believe that the old man who accommodates me and loves me in everything will choose to say goodbye.

As I thought about it, I cried again, my shoulders twitching, and Rarity came over and hugged me, "Poor little boy, I said, really don't look for him?"

I nodded, "I'll find it myself." ”

I have been back to Beijing for four days, the first three days were used to grieve the spring and autumn, and the last day I went to the school to open a certificate and took the household registration page to reapply for various documents.

Homeless and without any money, I felt the key that Xu Yi put in my pocket, and I still went back to his apartment.

Xu Yi said that I have not achieved nothing over the years, and I have a Beijing hukou.

I said forget it, brother, the hukou is the collective hukou of the school, and once you graduate, you have to leave.

"Then don't go?"

"Huh. ”

I laughed dryly, Xu Yi was still the same as before, making fun of me from time to time, although I was not in the mood to joke now.

I told him that I was the one who had a boyfriend.

I got a temporary ID card, I made up the mobile phone card by the way, Xu Yi threw me a mobile phone, which was similar to the one I used before, and the model was a little older, let me use it first, and I didn't be polite to him.

I put the card on, in fact, to wait for Chen Zhi's call, but five days later, he didn't even send a message.

It's not a way to spend it like this, the school has already been closed, and it doesn't make sense for me to stay in Beijing, so I went back to Tianjin by myself.

My mom didn't know that I was going to come back with Chen, so it wasn't surprising that I was the only one, I told her that I lost the key, took a spare one from her and went home with Dong.

The house has long been renovated, and the furniture and electrical appliances are complete, but it is empty inside, and there is a little less human smell.

I moved back little by little what I had left in my house during the previous renovation.

There are mine, and there are those who are old. One by one, I hung my clothes in the closet and thought that this was our future home, about the train incident.

I'm angry, very angry, very angry.

Even so, I didn't think about breaking up, so I had to continue to wait.

The photo studio called me again, and I went out to get the photos. I remember when I first saw the dailies, I liked each one, and I said that this should be enlarged and that should be enlarged.

At that time, he said, "Do you have so many open huts?"

I said I would.

Chen Shi also let me argue with Xu Nia with me, and the photos were enlarged many times at the end.

In the window of the photo studio, there were really photos of us, Chen Shi and I stood in the middle, Si Chen stood on one side with Chen Xiang's shoulder, and Xu Nia on the other side.

The five people in the photo are all smiling happily. Now I can't squeeze out a smile anyway, once a little thing and a small memory can turn over the river and bully me, I think, think very sad.

The frames were more in a cardboard box with foam, and I took a taxi back and made two trips to get the pictures upstairs.

Then unpack the cardboard box and step on the stool to hang the photo.

I cried again, when I fell off the stool, and the person and the photo fell down together, and in front of me was the enlarged face of Chen Zhi.

I couldn't help myself in front of that face.

Tears were falling down my own face in the photo.

Both of me, both in tears.

A Chen Zhi was looking at me with a smile.

What about the other person? At this time, he is either fighting for his dreams, or he is rejoicing in the opportunity he is getting.

He wouldn't want to be left on the train at all.

I thought Chen Shi loved me enough, but after he tore up the ticket and got off the bus, he became more and more unconfident, but he was unwilling to give up. Wiping away my tears, I looked at my knee that was cut by the photo frame, and finally called Chen Shi.

It rang for a long time before he answered, but like last time, he was silent on the other side of the phone.

I don't speak either.

After a long time, he whispered my name.

I wanted to say yes, I wanted to say a few casual greetings, I wanted to tell him, but I wasn't really angry.

But he said, "I'm busy, I'll talk about it later." ”

There was a snap, as if something was shattered in my heart.

I said, "I only have one thing to say, and it won't take you a long time." ”

"I'll talk about it later. Chen Shi repeated it again.

"No, I just want to tell you, let's break up. ”

After saying that, I hung up the phone and removed the phone card by the way.

When I was about to smash my phone, I thought that this was Xu Yi's phone, so I threw it on the mattress. After these actions, I continued to cry, and I cried completely unbridledly.

Embracing this room, belonging to me and Chen Zhi, a whole three years of memories.

On the train that day, what I wanted to say to him was, if you really don't want to go, then let me stay with you.

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