In any case, there are characters, and even "no role" itself can be considered a character attribute. I'm not trying to get rid of the character, I'm trying to get rid of the character's manipulation.

There are so many people and things that are arguing in my head, and it seems that I have to come up with a solution. But what is the problem? There is no question, what answer has I been thinking about?

Those people and things pretend to be very important, pretend to have many problems that I need to solve, and I recognize this pretense, so I start to interact sincerely to solve the problems caused by these people and things. Even if it is solved, the next wave of problems awaits me in these people and things.

Shit!

I'm worried, uncounted. There is also disgust, I feel that this is not right, and that is not right. If I didn't have a false self-definition, then these things would cease to exist.

Emotions are a key, and many times it's because of the surging emotional waves that I can't carefully analyze the behavior patterns of the characters and the self-definition of touching emotions.

There are no real people and real things outside to influence me, all the influence comes from my brain. Any self-definition is an influence, think about how much self-definition I have, and I haven't gone crazy yet, and I don't know if I'm strong inside, or cowardly enough to go crazy.

In a psychiatric hospital, the doctor tortures the patient unscrupulously because he is mentally ill, but the mentally ill do not dare to resist because of his cowardice and humility. I'm the mentally ill person, being played with by the characters and not daring to ruin it all in anger.

Because all this is all I have, everything I know. Even if there are all kinds of badness, even if I hate certain events, it is not enough for me to leave it all behind and stand up and declare war on the character.

Even if the doctors abused me, at least I had a place to sleep, a steady amount of food, and the occasional time in a while when I wasn't being abused, it all seemed wonderful. Even though the abuse was most of the time, I couldn't always look at the darkness and see the sunshine.

Disgusting!

I've been so humble and cowardly for so many years, don't look at how powerful the title of the first person in the empire is, I'm just a rude little kid. only dare to be wild in the group of children, only dare to show off and compare in a limited circle, sad.

Those dreams, those "what if I had something" thoughts, are all deception. All aspirations are based on a false self-definition, then, such a choice, such a future, is nothing more than envy of others for so many years.

As long as you use your little brain to weigh the dream, it is to envy others and try to gain the envy of others after success. Those ridiculous dreams, those dreams that seem to make it impossible to afford to eat if they come true, are often what they do after letting go.

There are often such dreams that do not go through the brain, when others ask, "What about your income", "What about your social security", "Don't buy a house?"

Because they haven't been weighed up by the brain, these questions simply can't be answered. Others, even myself, will dismiss this inability to answer as an incomplete plan, or an "impulse."

Behind these questions, of course, are all fears, self-definitions created by the characters blindly in search of recognition. That's how I was bound in fear, unable to move at all.

The character will try to convince me to follow my fears, to make me give up the struggle to preserve the character's vast mess of self-definition.

Yuan Changwen looked at the buildings outside the window, and the green color that was still obvious in the dark night, and couldn't help but ask himself again, what am I doing?

Isn't it uncomfortable? With so many people and things arguing in my head, I can bear it, what is the problem with this Nima? Is this how I was designed?

There is no such thing as big or small, it is all my own distinction. And when the character can't grasp the big things, they will use the small things as a source of their own sense of control. That's why losers are always loud and loud at home.

It's just a shift in attention, and what provides a sense of control will make the character tend to that thing. Dividing things into big and small things is just for the sake of showing off to a different person. But sometimes, even the control of trivial things at home can make people show off.

It seems that career, income, dreams, etc. should be big things, and washing dishes and walking the dog at home is a small thing. Who's defining this? Who is judging? Is everyone agreeing? Do those who are at the peak of their career income still think that their career is the top priority?

Damn it!

Even if I knew, I still couldn't let go, and I still let those false self-definitions run wild in my head. Dissatisfied, dissatisfied with that, wanting to control this, wanting to control that, is there an end?!

All thinking comes from the memory and information reserves in the brain, and the source of information is what has been learned over the years. It was so noisy that I didn't have any autonomy at all, and everything seemed to happen spontaneously. The voice in my head was so loud that I couldn't even find the location of the switch.

It seems that if I don't let these things happen, or just leave, I can solve all kinds of worries. For example, if I love cleanliness and my pet always dirties my room, then I can just throw the pet away.

But in fact, it didn't work out at all, because the influence came from the self-definition in my head. If these self-definitions are not eradicated, once they encounter the same and similar reality again, they will also cause trouble, anger, complaining, and so on.

But how can a person not have a self-definition? As long as the role exists, then there must be a self-definition.

Yuan Changwen frowned, realizing that he was completely confused. On this path with no reference at all, it is so difficult to walk. I always think I'm about to finish, and then I realize again that I didn't start at all.

So, it's such a simple example, "I love to be clean and my pet gets dirty in the room", what should I do?

If it is a request of "I don't love cleanliness", or "I shouldn't love cleanliness so much", this is just another self-definition, and there is no solution at all.

There are no rules, or rather, "wait for things to unfold on their own" is the only rule. There is no need to book the rules in advance, and I don't know what I will do when my pet soils my room.

Maybe just throw away the pet, or kill the pet for food, maybe just tolerate it and keep cleaning, or never let the pet into the room, just stay on the windowsill or cage or something.

There are no rules, and there is no need to refer to any social morality. That's right, "if you have a pet, you should be responsible for it", sorry, I don't follow this rule.

The reason for the contradiction seems to be the conflict between "pets soiling the room" and "I love to be clean", but in fact it is a conflict between "being responsible for my pet" / "I love being clean", one of which is a conflict with "I feel like something should be done".