Chapter 37: I don't want to let go

Sister, why did you snatch my dad?

He doesn't even want his own son for you. Do you dare to ask for such a man?

Ah Yu, when are you going to bring our eldest grandson back?

……

Zijun's expression was indifferent and she let Huang Yu pull her all the way forward, her heart was in a mess, and all kinds of voices were raging in her head.

"Zijun, let's talk. Finding a quiet place, Huang Yu stood still, he held her shoulders with both hands, looked at the girl in front of him with a serious expression, and felt her mind wandering.

"Talk?" Zijun raised his eyes, his heart did not belong. Gradually, she came to her senses and began to struggle, "No, I don't want to hear anything, I don't want to know anything." Huang Yu, I just want to be alone now. You tell me to be quiet, count me as begging you. ”

"Well, it's up to you, but let me take you home," he said, staring into the girl's eyes and seeing the disgruntled accusation in her eyes, "you're like thisβ€”I'm not at ease outside." ”

Seeing the insistence in the man's eyes, Zijun had no choice but to compromise. Her mind was so confused that she didn't know how to deal with it all, and running away might not solve the problem, but she just wanted to shrink into her shell now. The two didn't say anything along the way, Huang Yu kept sending Zijun to the door, and he pushed her against the door, "Zijun, I'm sorry for making you have a bad birthday." Sorry for this terrible thing. I'm sorry, I love you, I don't want to let go, so - leave everything to me, okay?"

Zijun raised his hazy teary eyes, looked at the man's pious look, and wanted to say yes, but when he thought of all this complicated thing, he finally became ruthless and entered the house without saying a word. Closing the door, she shoved her hand into her mouth and held back her uncontrollable cry.

Huang Yu stood outside the door for a long time, listening to the girl's suppressed sobbing, and her heart ached even more. He would rather she scold him hysterically, or cry bitterly, than suffer herself.

"Lao Liu, come out and have a few drinks. ”

Lao Liu looked at the man in front of him who said how many glasses he had drunk, and he didn't know how many cups he had drunk. He has always been self-controlled, even as a friend for many years, it is rare to see such a gaffe, but recently it has become the norm. Isn't it just a relationship that has just begun, it's so painful, and she makes you like it like this? Lao Liu thought so in his heart, so he naturally couldn't help but ask. As a mature man, which is more important, in fact, there is no need to think too much, not to mention that Zeng Xiaoling has a son, even from the perspective of career, he should make a decision immediately.

"Maybe, or maybe - I just can't live like that. Lao Liu didn't expect him to answer, but Huang Yu said, maybe he was drunk, maybe he was in a hurry to talk. From the moment he knew that he had a child, he thought about it a lot, from the initial hesitation and helplessness to the final firmness.

When he was young, he thought that with love, everything would be fine, so Zeng Xiaoling's wholehearted love gave him a sense of pride in being a man. When I was in school, I didn't worry about anything, I naturally didn't feel anything wrong, and I didn't know until I got married. That kind of spiritual reciprocity, that kind of recognition of the world, and that kind of consistency in attitude towards life really determines whether the marriage is happy or not.

It took him ten years of youth to get this kind of cognition, and he also deeply understood that he and Zeng Xiaoling had never been from the same world. This difference between them cannot be filled with love, not to mention, now, even the original relationship no longer exists.

Chen Zijun is young, but he has never taken a fancy to her young and delicate face, although that is the truth. What he values is her innocence, kindness and hard work in the face of adversity, and what he values is the feeling of ease and ease when he is with her. Her youth did not make her ignorant and unreasonable, on the contrary, whenever he was physically and mentally exhausted, her gentleness and thoughtfulness always made him feel extremely relaxed.

Do you really love that girl so much? Naturally, he is in his thirties, and it seems too pretentious to say this word, but he knows that he wants this kind of life. It's that he's selfish, but he just wants to be so selfish, he wants to be so comfortable in the future, that's why he wants to desperately seize this happiness.

"Lao Liu, do you know? Zeng Xiaoling, who is in her thirties, is not as mature mentally as Chen Zijun, who is in her early twenties. Have you ever seen a couple who quarrel and don't hear from each other for a few years?"

"This time, Zeng Xiaoling is back, Zijun encounters such a thing, even if she is angry, disappointed, sad, and lost, she has never been hysterical. I knew I wasn't worthy, divorced, and had a baby, but I didn't want to let go. ”

"Can I be happy if I continue to be happy in a failed relationship that I have proven for ten years?"

"Lao Liu, you and Mei Ying, although they are noisy, aren't they more and more affectionate, the two of them discuss and live a good life, and everything can be solved, that is husband and wife. ”

"I'm just an ordinary man, I just want a home. It's okay for her to get angry with me, to quarrel with me, but not ......"

"Zeng Xiaoling is using the child as a bargaining chip, the more I can't compromise, and when she knows that it's useless, maybe she will let me get close to the child......"

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Huang Yu was intermittent, he was a little drunk, and he spoke from his heart. Men bleed without tears, and some words would rather be stuffy in their hearts, and may not be said when they are sober. Saying it now, my heart is also happy, Lao Liu is a brother, and he also wants the support of his brother.

In fact, Lao Liu understands. If you haven't gotten it, you naturally don't care if you lose it, once you get it, losing it again is tantamount to picking out your heart and tearing out your heart, and it will be even more painful. Lao Liu sighed deeply, I hope Zeng Xiaoling can be merciful.

Not to mention how sad Huang Yu was this night, Zijun was not happy alone, but fortunately, when she went home, Zi'an and Tao Zhi went out. Otherwise, she cried so fiercely, and she didn't know how to face her brother and Tao Zhi. It doesn't matter if they're not at home, you can make her cry and think about what to do. Shedding tears is not weakness, wiping away tears and starting again is strength.

Today's events caught her off guard, but Huang Yu's firmness still made her see the future, she may be weak and not emotionally active enough, but she has never given up halfway, treating work and love. With a temperament like hers, it is not easy to find a suitable love. Because it's too serious, it's not easy to like someone, and it's even harder to forget someone. It took her a few years to get out of a budding first love, and if she failed again this time, she didn't know how long it would take her to get out again. So, if he was willing to persevere, she didn't think about giving up.