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After returning from the outside world, I spent almost five and a half months unemployed. What the hell is it for, the first month after I came back, I had no idea what my future holds.

How should I pursue my dreams? If the process of realizing my dreams is likened to building a building, then how should I build it? At that time, I only knew the plan to build the building of my dreams, but I only had imaginary results, but I did not have practical actions. Because, I don't know how to put it into practice......

As time went by, I had to look for a job in the second month I came back. In addition to the confusion of my own fantasies, the invisible pressure from my family is also affecting me, I need to work and earn money. Although, at that time, the desire to make money in my heart was not strong......

So I got my first job when I came back, and it was my fifth job in life.

However, there is no clear dream in my heart to support it, and the intensity of the work is very high. Physically and mentally exhausted, I only lasted three days and then gave up that job, and I couldn't hold on for even seven days.

It stands to reason that I wouldn't give up so easily, unless there's something I want to guide me through.

Perhaps, this is how God secretly guides me, always making me feel as if when there is no road, quietly arranging another road for me that I have never thought of but that I look forward to.

Just like after I left my second job, I learned to rent a house to live in, so I had a "small world" at that time. Although I was unemployed for three months at the time, I unexpectedly entered the Xidesheng job.

During the more than half a year I worked at Xidesheng, I felt that it was God's reward for me, because it felt like the most down-to-earth work experience I had since I came out of social work, even though my position was only a small general worker.

Therefore, when I worked in my fifth job until the early morning of the third day, I felt that my body was really unable to hold on, and the uncomfortable rhythm had to be matched with the unbearable work intensity.

When I was about to give up, my heart was in a state of constant struggle, but suddenly my mind knew what I wanted to do. It was at that moment that I suddenly had a direction that I decisively gave up my fifth job.

Maybe it's not that I don't know what I have to do, it's just that I've never been afraid to do it. The physical and mental devastation of the fifth job has stimulated me. I continued to sink into the time of unemployment and began to do things that I had never dared to do.

If the realization of my dream continues to be compared to building a building, then I found the location to build the building, that is, the site selection was completed.

I have sorted out all the things I have written since 2014, revised them, and generated a summary version of "The Girls I Like", which contains the mental journey of each stage of my life, from the youth era dominated by elementary school, junior high school, high school, and college years to the post-youth era supplemented by the internship era and work era. In other words, I sorted out my growth history.

And this growth history, starting from the starting point, how far it can go, I don't know, and I can't foresee. Because, for me in the past, this is simply a revolutionary breakthrough. So, seeing it running makes me happy!

The time of unemployment continued to pass like this, and when this history of growth had caught up with the pace of my life, it felt like I had to start running. Otherwise, it will run away without "nutrition......

However, it was at this critical time that a new idea suddenly popped into my mind - laying the foundation.

"The Girls I Like" can only play a role in determining the scope of the site for the establishment of the Dream Building. If you want to lay the foundation, then you need new forces as materials. And that new idea in my head at that time could be used as the material for this foundation. However, the quality is not guaranteed.

So, I was stuck in a time frame of flux again.

As the time of unemployment kept going by, and my personal funds were almost exhausted, I kept asking myself: "Is this really worthy of my past efforts to earn money, and is it worthy of my family who is worried about me?"

During my wanderings, I bought a lot of books to read, trying to find a strength that could give me the courage to continue to break through.

However, the biggest breakthrough was only a small beginning, but there was no more.

The pressure of unemployment is gradually overwhelming me, how can I have the motivation to complete it in order to actually look for a job?

So, it was with a nervous heart that I started looking for a sixth job. Well, because of this, there is the first two female clerks who made me fill out my resume, asked me a lot of questions, and finally felt that I was not admitted. Because of this, I felt very useless, so I felt stimulated again, so I had the rhythm of a small broken boat.

Turn yourself off for a few days and disconnect from the internet for a few days to complete that new inspiration. Maybe sometimes, if people don't push themselves, they don't know that they are really a rookie. Well, a rookie who doesn't believe in himself.

Maybe after forcing yourself to break through, the result is not very ideal, but at least I know that I can go that way. It's hard to get started, and that's true. But with the beginning, the road will no longer be invisible, and at most there will be forks in the future.

I originally thought that the female clerk was my nobleman and allowed me to successfully find my sixth job, but I didn't expect to be educated. However, after completing that new inspiration, I still felt that I was right at the time, and that she was really my precious person. It's just that instead of giving me the direction of my sixth job, she indirectly gave me the strength to break through the barriers of my dreams. If I had made it to that company, maybe I would have let go of that new idea and let it go to sleep. So, if I am lucky enough to meet her on the road in the future, I will definitely say "thank you" to her!"

Now the deadline for myself to break the kettle has arrived, and I have completed the realization of that new inspiration.

Looking at it, I can't help but sigh that I feel that I have been unemployed for more than five months because of it. There is such a feeling of being pregnant for several months, and finally "giving birth" to it!

It's relatively small, and the number of words is only tens of thousands of words, so it may not bring me any benefit. However, I wanted it to come into this world, not because of profit, but because it was one of the products of my dream, so there was love.

I'm not asking for anything it can do for me, as someone said, you can't ask a newborn baby what it can do for you. So, I am very happy that it can come into this world! For example, if my child comes into this world in good health, I will feel very happy!

It's called "Night, Can't Sleep".

After more than five months of unemployment, I lost a lot of money that I could earn. According to the salary of a simple ordinary worker, excluding food expenses and rent, it is about more than 3,000 yuan a month. Then in five months, the money earned is more than 15,000. And I, not only did I not earn any money, but even the money I earned outside before flowed away with the passage of unemployment and became negative equity. Looking at my family in this state has caused me a lot of uneasy worries. That's the price I had to pay when I was unemployed.

However, there is a loss and there is a gain.

In the past five months, I have sorted out my spiritual world, sorted it out well, and my mind is not so messy.

I read more books than before, and the types of books I read were different from those I had read in the past, so I saw a different world and felt new literary nutrition. Because of the subtlety, some of the worldview, outlook on life, and values that I feel good have undergone innovative changes.

I don't go home very often, but I go home a lot if I go to work early. When I go home, there are happy and bleak. But if you talk to your family at home, you will still feel that it is worth it to be unemployed for a while. Because, I feel like I've been overlooking some details of love for a long time. If I had gone to work early, maybe I would have continued to ignore it. But in the charade of that unemployed time, I rediscovered the picture of me laughing with my uncle when I was a child, and I was asking my uncle who knew everything. Also, my aunt has come to understand the importance of heart-to-heart communication between me and her. Also, I feel that my sisters are extremely caring, accommodating, and tolerant......

If fate really came in a miracle, then in the more than five months of unemployment, the fate between me and Shisi was even a little closer in the wonder, and the time of meeting was extended little by little. To be honest, if I had gone to work early, I wasn't really sure if I would have ridden to Guanlan to see her first. If it weren't for that first look, I wonder if she would have thought about getting close to me. A lot of ifs, but none of them make ifs. Because, this is the wonder of fate.

Dreams have a direction, even if the road is not easy. But, already on the way.

I'm betting with myself that it's a small win so far. But who knows what the future holds? I'd better quit gambling quietly.

God deliberately asked me to face the various feelings brought about by family, love, work and dreams in my heart during the five months of unemployment, and how to integrate the existential relationship between them has become my biggest problem.

Now, a new situation is about to be created, and naturally there will be new changes. Well, be improvised.

It's money that loses more, but even if money goes into my pocket, it's not entirely mine, and it will go away sooner or later. But the wealth in the spiritual world, if you get it, you get it, and it is mine.

Money is lost, and it can be earned back. But there are some things that you don't start with, and you probably won't start them for the rest of your life.

Losing and gaining go hand in hand, and if you focus too much on losing, your inner world will only be incomplete. Look at those who get more, even if it is raining in the inner world, then you can see a rare rainbow.

I remembered the "Step by Step" sung by Mayday, and there is a lyric that I particularly like: Complete my wish at that time step by step......

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