Chapter Fifty-Eight: The Past
In the days of following 'Mr.', I have walked through many famous mountains and rivers, and visited many Taoist temples and ancient temples.
What he saw and heard along the way brought great changes and growth to Yuchen's heart, his horizons became broader, people became more peaceful, and the psychological haze left in the orphanage for a long time was also swept away.
He learned a lot along the way.
'Sir' is a knowledgeable person, who knows astronomy, geography, yin and yang gossip, and is a strange person in the world.
It's a pity that he didn't realize it until many years later that he realized how powerful 'Mister' really was.
Three years have passed unconsciously, Yuchen is already fifteen years old, tall and handsome, with extraordinary instruments, much more stable than his peers, and his speech and demeanor are calm and calm.
Although 'sir' has never explained the relationship between the two, in his heart, the other party is already a master and a father, which also greatly fills the psychological, personality and character shortcomings caused by the lack of parents when he was young.
'Sir' doesn't talk much, but unlike him, he is very approachable, always to the point, and he does things vigorously and resolutely, without delay.
If you encounter someone in difficulty on the road, you will definitely help, and when the matter is over, you will leave with your clothes, and your gestures are full of light and light temperament, which makes him admire.
It is a great opportunity to be a disciple of 'sir', although 'sir' did not admit it, but he has always been a disciple.
He thinks that he can always accompany 'Mr.' to travel, shuttle through the jungle of Xianshan, and sit and discuss with capable hermits and Taoist monks.
However, there is no banquet in the world, and the origin and fate will eventually disperse.
"You have a pure heart, a firm will, and acceptable qualifications, I originally wanted to accept you as a closed disciple, but God does not obey people's wishes, you and I have no master-apprentice fate after all. ”
"My parents don't want me anymore, and you don't want me anymore, what is not the fate of master and apprentice, you are all liars!" Yuchen roared hysterically, tears blurring his eyes, like a wounded beast.
Deep down, he longs to be loved, but at the same time he is afraid to accept love, because acceptance is easy and difficult to give up. He doesn't want to be hurt again and again, and the best way is to close his heart, not to accept other people, not to let himself fall into it, so that at least it won't get hurt.
But the world is impermanent, people's hearts are unpredictable, and the feelings between people also make people involuntarily.
"Hey, it's not that I don't want to, but I can't, I can't be your master without virtue or ability. The earth star will suffer drastic changes in the future, and there will be a creation after surviving the catastrophe, otherwise everything will be over. "In the past three years, I have been looking for Taoist friends, trying to calculate your life together, but in the end, I can't even calculate your specific birthday. It's as if you appeared out of thin air, and your past and present lives are full of fog! There are only two possibilities, you come from the upper realm to the earthly world. Or there is a great supernatural person who has blinded the heavens and covered up your fate, and it is definitely the power that can do it to such an extent. ”
At this time, Yuchen was immersed in great sadness and couldn't extricate himself, he didn't listen to the words of 'sir' at all, he felt that he was abandoned by this world again, a huge sense of loneliness hit like a huge wave, and the feeling of heartache almost suffocated him.
"Taoism and mental methods are all secrets of the sect, and they can only be passed on to disciples, these are the ancestral teachings of the master, and I can't disobey them. "That's it, although you and I don't have the name of master and apprentice, we have the righteousness of master and apprentice. You are born with a close path, and your soul is different from ordinary people, so I will help you!"
As the words fell, a crystal clear finger pointed at the center of Yuchen's eyebrows, and after the intense white light, he lost his mind for a short time.
"Although I can't calculate your fate, I can vaguely see that your road ahead is bloody and murderous, and the road you are going to take is destined to be full of ups and downs, I only hope that you will stick to your heart and not go astray. Humanity is slim, fairy is reckless, you are so self-conscious!"
The grand voice echoed directly in his mind, and when he came back to his senses, there was no 'sir' around.
He was paralyzed to the ground, his eyes staring blankly at the sky, as if something had been completely removed from his life.
The day after Mister's departure, he awakened the ability to anticipate danger, and this ability grew stronger as time went on.
It took him two full years to gradually come out of the shadows, but his heart, which had been slowly open, was closed tightly.
Over the course of a few years, he used his special ability to earn some money, most of which was donated to the orphanage where he used to stay, to improve the lives of other children, leaving some money for himself and the fat man to go to school and live.
Because most of the modern people are atheists, some of his well-intentioned advice was initially dismissed as superstition, anti-science, or pranks, and even saddled with the infamy of being a "little god".
At the age of twenty-two, he had his first love affair. At that time, I had just entered college, and because I was in an orphanage, I enrolled late, so I was much older than my classmates in the same grade.
But he and the fat man are good, at least they can go to college, although it is only a junior college, but it is not easy.
The girl is lively and generous, a little willful and even domineering, and the reason why the two can walk together is also the reason why she took the initiative. As the so-called woman chasing the male compartment yarn, Yuchen has lived alone for a long time, after all, he is young, his blood is strong, he is very curious about girls, and he also has a longing for love.
When they are together, girls often dislike Yu dust, are old-fashioned, dull, don't know how to be funny, and are stingy.
Whenever this time, Yuchen just smiled and didn't speak, he was not stingy, but he had a hard life since he was a child, and he knew that life was not easy, he could save it, and the rest could be left to the orphanage.
After having a girlfriend, his expenses are invisibly much larger, so he will keep some more living expenses, and the money for the orphanage is relatively less. On one side is his girlfriend, and on the other side is the orphanage where he has lived since he was a child, both sides are very important to him, but there is so much money in total, no matter which side he leans, he will feel guilty in his heart.
This went on for a year, and only for a year.
Her parents didn't know about the relationship between the two, and if they knew, they probably wouldn't agree.
This year, the girl graduated, and her family gave her a blind date, it is said that the person is a returnee, with assets of tens of millions, and has two suites in Beijing, the only drawback is that she is older, with more than 30.
It was a rainy night, it was pouring rain outside, and the two of them were drinking coffee together, and the girl sat across from him instead of sitting next to him as usual.
"I sometimes think that if I marry you, you must be a good husband. "I'm at ease with you, and I'll probably never have a man in my life ever felt like this again." The girl said to herself, "I'm getting engaged, will you bless me?"
"Bless you!"
"Why do you always say so little, why do you always feel so indifferent, why do I always feel like I can't get into your heart. The girl looked a little excited, and it took a long time to calm down, "You can't marry love in this life, and it's not bad to marry money." Take care and hope that one day you can meet a girl who will make your heart pound and don't miss it again. ”
After the girl finished speaking, she got up and left, without looking back, leaving only Yuchen with a beautiful back.
He wanted to say something, but found that he didn't know how to speak, and watched the girl disappear in front of him.
Through the glass, he vaguely saw a man holding an umbrella and welcoming the girl into the car, the door closed, and the white car slowly drove into the distance in the night.
The rain was still dripping, and Yuchen sat blankly with his eyes blank, until the waiter at the coffee shop closed came to remind him, and he found that his face was wet.
wiped the tears on his face, his heart was empty, he thought he had forgotten how to cry, the word love was really the most hurtful.
This year, Yuchen went through the withdrawal procedures, left this sad place, and lived a life of wandering. He has no home, only the four seas as his home, and there are fat people on the road with him.
A month later, while passing through Fengdu in Chongqing, he picked up a hungry kitten. The kitten is dirty, hungry and staggering, and if no one cares, it is estimated that it will not live long.
After feeding the kitten a ham sausage, the little one followed him all the time.
The kitten is very spiritual, with black hair, and Yuchen likes it very much, so he named it Xiao Hei, and then continued to embark on a wandering journey.
In the past three months, two people and a cat were attracted by bursts of Sanskrit sound when they passed through Jizu Mountain in Dali, Yunnan, and entered an ancient temple.
Unlike other temples with crowds and incense, this ancient temple looks quaint and vicissitudes, even a little dilapidated, with no Buddha statues, no pilgrims, and no merit boxes, only two monks, one old and one young, sitting on a futon and reciting scriptures.
"The poor monk waited for a long time, and finally waited for the little friend. ”
"Master, are you waiting for us?" Yu Chen was puzzled, he had never seen this old monk.
"Yes, master, you wouldn't have known that we were coming, I didn't think that the fat man was also the number one person!" The fat man didn't know where he got his confidence, which made Yuchen sweat profusely, this guy is also a strange guy, and his thick skin can be called invincible.
The old monk smiled and said nothing, not minding the fat man's words.
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Half a day later, when they left, the little monk also left with the two of them.
The little monk has clear eyebrows and beautiful eyes, and he is very likable, and several people get along quite well.
The fat man was even more like a treasure, and finally there was a second person who was willing to listen to him, and he kept shouting that he had met a confidant.
Yuchen breathed a sigh of relief, finally someone could help him share the burden. The fat guy was verbose like a 'Tang Seng', and he kept 'buzzing' in his ear, and it was estimated that few people could stand it except him.
The little monk is very intelligent, but very innocent, like a blank piece of paper, full of curiosity about everything in the outside world. Even if I have no boundary words about fat people, I am very interested in listening to them with relish and am very fascinated.
There is such a loyal listener, the fat man is like a chicken blood, and he talks endlessly, let alone out of tune.
Yuchen was speechless in his heart, but the two of them were Zhou Yu beating Huang Gai, one was willing to fight and the other was willing to suffer. Naturally, he didn't say anything, and he was happy to be idle.
Along the way, Xiao Hei and Xiao Kong joined, and there was more laughter and laughter on the slightly dull journey, which made him feel a trace of warmth that he had not seen for a long time.
In the blink of an eye, Xiao Kong has been with them for more than two months, and Xiao Hei has grown up a lot.
This is one day in September 2011, Yuchen met the second noble person in his life - Uncle Lei. At that time, several people were in the Potala Palace in the Tibet Autonomous Region, and he had accompanied 'Mr.) here before, and even saw the living Buddha inside.
Revisiting the old place, I have a lot of emotion in my heart. Walking up the road, there was a trance in front of him, and at that moment, he seemed to return to the time when he traveled with 'Mister'.
Looking back suddenly, the road is still the same, and things are not people.
In the end, time has passed, and the past is like the past. Revisiting the old scene, looking back at the past years, everything seems familiar, and everything is like watching flowers from the other side! A little melancholy, a little sentimental.