Nie Yun's eyes were full of uneven complexity, and I could only reply 'It's okay' and swallow all the emotions into my stomach.

On the way back, at first I could endure it, but later, driven by curiosity, I couldn't help but turn my head sideways, support my jaw with one hand, and spit out a few words: "Jidu, what did you tell the second uncle?"

"Pregnant women must not be stimulated. ”

Huo Jidu's voice was as serious and orderly as the calculus teacher's lecture in high school.

At that moment, I didn't even react, my eyes widened, staring straight at him, without blinking.

Huo Jidu's face was quite unnatural, his slender fingers clenched to his lips, and after half a night, he seemed to be careless, and hooked my slightly spacious collar with one hand, which was particularly frivolous.

The wind that jumped in from my neckline made me realize Huo Jidu's movements, and I hurriedly brushed his hand away: "...... What did you just say?"

Huo Jidu's dark eyes contained some deep meaning, slowly, and said particularly provocatively: "Say that you are pregnant, you can't stimulate ......"

I paused for a moment, then fell silent.

For me, the idea of not wanting children will not change for a while.

I am very lonely and hesitant, even if Huo Ji warms me, I can't completely get rid of the negative emotions hidden in my heart like an active volcano.

Besides, Huo Ji and I are both very young, and now we are in full swing, who can be sure of what will happen later? The woman who will be with him in the future will not necessarily be me, and when the time comes, I will completely become a woman that no one wants.

You say that I am cranky, whether I am suffering from gains and losses, this is the idea that grows like a vine in my heart.

However, there is one thing that I know very well, I don't want to lose Huo Jidu if I die, Huo Jidu doesn't want me, I will fend for myself.

Thinking of this, he trembled suddenly, and his hand rushed over with Li Xuan's arrow to lock Huo Jidu's wrist, restless and frightened.

Huo Jidu quickly sensed that something was wrong with me, and without hesitation, he scooped my whole person over and put it into the gap in front of him.

His hands were on my waist and my nose was hovering around my neck.

Between breaths, his hot breath sprayed into the veins in my neck, making my heart beat faster.

"Baby, we do it too often, and we don't do any insurance measures, in case you get pregnant?"

He threw me a very serious problem.

Indeed, at this frequency, sooner or later I will conceive his child, and at that time, what should I do?

Raising a child requires patience and love, and I don't know how to take responsibility for it to the end, and I'm sure to mess everything up, like me and my mother, lukewarm, and there is always an insurmountable wall.

Drooping my thick eyelashes, I rubbed Huo Jidu's chin with my backhand: "I don't have the confidence to raise children, I can't ......" But I'm really afraid of losing him, I'm afraid that even he will think that I have a strange temperament, and I was afraid for a long time, and I couldn't help but dig out the secret in my heart: "Jidu, my past has always been in the shadows, and sunshine is a luxury for me...... I don't want you to see that, you won't love me......"

Huo Jidu gently turned my face around, and kissed my cold lips all the way down the eyelids to the bridge of my nose, and then on the lip flap: "I'm by your side for you to rely on, you can spoil me as much as you want, Lily, I'm right behind you, lying down for you." ”

I replied with a particularly delicate smile, almost fascinating Huo Jidu's eyes.

Actually, I can't wait to entangle every vein of Huo Jidu and rely on him to survive, but he is so beautiful, so beautiful that I feel that this love is not real, and I don't have the courage to tell it.

"Jidu, I love you. ”

Huo Jidu suddenly made a move and circled me: "I'll wait for you, I'm willing to wait for you for as long as I want." ”

The heart was inexplicably moved.

How much virtue did I have to accumulate in my previous life to meet him?

If only I could be with him for the rest of my life and never be separated for a moment, how nice!

However, the world is unpredictable.

In the dead of night, I went to the balcony and called my mother, but I didn't know that she was the first to speak.

"Lily, Mom will take a leave of absence to see you after a while, okay?"

hesitated for a moment, and didn't know how to reply.

She estimated my silence, and replied with some embarrassment: "Last time, you said that you were studying at the National Defense University, and if you were very busy, my mother wouldn't go to ......."

I quickly cut off her blurted out refusal: "As long as you're not busy, come here." Suddenly, his nose was faintly sour, and he took a heavy breath.

An anxious question immediately came from the other end of the phone: "What's wrong? Is someone bullying you?"

Tears were so fast that they didn't even have time to breathe, and instantly slid from the corners of their eyes to the corners of their mouths: "Why didn't you ask this sentence earlier?"

The cry was full of sadness, and after a while, my teeth trembled, and my lips couldn't close together, and I said: "I met a man named 'Nie Yun' here, in his forties, an army general, and he said that I looked like the woman he loved, and he was very obsessed with doing a paternity test with me. ”

"Don't- don't do—"

A roar that almost pierced the sky reached the deepest part of my heart.

I've never seen my mother so heartbroken.

Her voice instantly faded into a trembling choked voice: "Don't trust him, don't do a paternity test with him, I hate him, Lily......"

"He brought a vintage picture frame with a pocket watch on the back and a picture of you on the front, wearing your favorite dress. You smile brightly, you haven't laughed much since you were a child. ”

I'm jealous, with Nie Yun, my mother has been splendid, and with me—

Probably people think a lot when they are sad, and my mother becomes more and more emotional: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... It's my mother's fault, my mother is sorry for you, my mother knows that she cares too little for you, but I really don't know how to raise you, I'm sorry, Lily......" For the first time, she cried so much that I felt distressed: "Nie Yun is indeed your father, I don't know how you two met, but I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore, and I don't want to pay attention to the past." ”

I couldn't help but laugh out loud, and laughter mixed with tears made me feel like a madman.

Children in the world want to have fatherly love and maternal love, I know who my biological father is, but my biological mother doesn't want him.

The silence that followed made my lips tremble into a curve, and slowly, I put all the pain back into my heart.

"As long as you don't want it, I'll disguise everything. I won't let Nie Yun know that I'm his daughter, let alone let him know about your existence...... If it's okay, I'll hang up first, you take care of yourself. ”

The moment I was about to withdraw the phone from my ear, my mother suddenly raised her voice, embedded with unease and fear: "Wait, Lily...... What's wrong with you? baby. ”

What's wrong?

She always thought that I was a shy and introverted little girl, a good angel who was taken care of by Shen Nao.

As everyone knows, I have already fallen into hell, and my pure appearance, bewitching appearance, and calculations everywhere can climb to this day.

If it weren't for Huo Jidu, I might have become a fan of hell.

"It's okay, I love you, you work hard, call me when you come......"

After all, I didn't tell her that I saw a suicide scar on Nie Yun's hand, she was in so much pain, so painful that she lost control at the mention of Nie Yun, how could I let her open it again?

The cold of winter covered the outside with a strange white fog, Huo Jidu went to the military headquarters, and I stood outside, motionless.

After a long time, I suddenly missed Huo Jidu very much, and dialed his number: "When will you come back?"

"I'm studying the layout tonight, if you miss me, I'll ask Tang Qi to pick you up. ”

I smiled silently: "I miss you, I miss you, I miss you, I miss ......"

"Crying?"

I really wondered in my heart, I thought that my voice had returned to stability now, how could Huo Ji still hear that something was wrong.

I couldn't help but hide it: "No, it's too cold outside, I'm on the balcony." ”

Huo Jidu didn't believe my words at all and didn't reply.

There was the sound of footsteps on the phone, and I heard Huo Jidu holding a pen and brushing something on the paper, and then said in a commanding tone: Call Tang Qi and ask him to pick up people at this place.

I couldn't help but be curious: "Huo Jidu, you were writing just now?"

"Otherwise, your melancholy eyes are so bad, Lily, you've got a demon ......"

His voice was very intoxicating and heavy, which immediately made my heart a lot easier, down-to-earth and warm.

"Huo Jidu, do you think I'm a fish crawling on the shore from dehydration, you pick me up and take it home......"

"You're not a fish, you're an evil spirit, when I meet you, I'm not normal, my mind is full of your shadow, Gai Ming'er sent you away, the province suffered, and I was worried everywhere. ”

Huo Jidu is very horizontal every time he says love words, as if he dislikes something else, but it makes people want to move, and he is particularly convinced of his fierceness.

Like, like what?

Like a dreamy girl said to the person she liked: Pick the stars for me, the person she likes doesn't know how much effort she wasted to meet her requirements, and pretended to be okay and teased her hard work.

My heart was as sweet as honey, and I couldn't help but tease him: "Yan Jiaye said that you used to have a rotten private life, did you learn it at that time? Why are you so sweet?"

The more you get along with Huo Jidu, the more you can explore his many benefits, he can be sweet and you can also dominate you, and you will be subjugated everywhere, to put it bluntly, women have nothing to do with him, and they can't quit him.

Huo Jidu listened to my words, and was not angry: "What nonsense, the army discipline is clear......" Later, he was very honestly embarrassed: "It's really a bit that I didn't join the army, but now it's all planted on you." ”

I was about to reply, when the balcony door suddenly opened, and I saw the servant leading a straight figure standing on the edge of the hallway.

hurriedly said a few words to hang up Huo Jidu's phone.

He roared: It's really yours, I'm afraid that you'll miss me, I didn't dare to hang up the phone, I hurriedly wrote an address, you're good, hang up if you want, hurry up, hang up.

I almost lost my laughter.

After receiving the mobile phone, the maid left automatically.

"Aren't you afraid that Huo Ji will know that I am coming to you?"

I glanced at Shen Nao who stepped onto the balcony, if he didn't come to me, I would go to him, after all, I had to find out what Nie Zhuoge said about the video.

"There's no camera in this house, otherwise you wouldn't be unscrupulous. ”

It's updated at nine o'clock, it's under review, I have to go, see you tomorrow.