139 Uncertain mind

Several people on the side nodded and looked at Xu Shu uneasily. Ma Liang even echoed it: "What Lord Taishou said is very true, there must be a conspiracy." Ma Jing bowed his head and was silent, his brother's words fell into his ears, and his heart was stunned, his younger brothers were in Changsha, and it seemed that they were out of feelings.

has been in Xiangyang for so long, although the Ma brothers are quite famous in the township, they are bitter that Xiangyang is the world of Cai Kuai's two families, and the Ma family is too weak compared to their two families. Therefore, Ma Jing and Ma Tong, although they are outstanding, they are both small officials, and their futures are bleak, so they naturally have no sense of belonging.

Seeing his younger brother Ma Liang so nervously following this military incident today, Ma Jing's heart swelled with new emotions. It seems that his two little brothers are about to take root here, and they have to change their thinking.

Because Kou Yan's nerves were always hanging on Zhou Yu, who had no news, he always felt that this was a trap deliberately designed by Sun Quan. In order to calm her heart, Xu Shu stayed up all night for the first time to change the battle plan that had already been set. Two days later, the plan was placed on Kou Yan's desk.

Kou Yan looked at it from beginning to end, and said to Xu Shu uncertainly: "Teacher, wouldn't it be too risky to do this?" If there is a war, Jianchang and Haiduan will be surrounded on three sides, and the city is full of old people of Eastern Wu, I am worried that Wei Yan and Ma Tong will not be able to cope with it. ”

"If we don't do this, we won't be able to force out Zhou Yu in the first place, and you won't be at ease. Xu Shu said lightly. "But, but in this case, the risk is too great......" Kou Yan hesitated, "Teacher." That's not what you thought before. ”

"Regardless of what I thought before, I felt that the solution in front of me was the most suitable. Xu Shu said. Then he sighed lightly: "Yan'er, your mind is too heavy." You have to remember that the more you are in a critical situation, the more you have to convince yourself and take it lightly. ”

"Wait for it?" Kou Yan replied. "Yes, only if you have the right mentality, can you make the most correct judgment. Before you repeatedly mentioned that Zhou Yu was a threat, I thought that you valued Zhou Yu more than Jianchang. You're actually right in this way. ”

"I ...... I just, I just think ......" Kou Yan opened his mouth to explain, and the teacher's praise always made her heart beat unbalanced. Xu Shu interrupted her first, and said with a smile: "You just think that what you want can be thought of by Sun Quan and Zhou Yu, so you keep overturning your own ideas, so you don't have much confidence, don't you?"

"Yes. In the past, she could be confident in the face of Kou Feng and her sister, and even in the face of people like Sima Hui and Huang Chengyan, because they did not have the most direct conflict of interest with him.

But this time it was different, she was going to be the enemy of the whole of Jiangdong. On the other side, although Sun Quan's side is not as good as Cao Cao, he is also a famous man, and his strategists are like rain. plus a Zhou Yu who was completely annoyed by himself and his teacher last time. Kou Yan really didn't have much confidence. She was afraid that the teacher would make a wrong decision because of her misjudgment, and the war would collapse.

This worry has always been buried in her heart, after all, in essence, all she has is the experience of being a slave, and the enemy on the other side is too strong, and she has no confidence.

"Yan'er, why do you think the teacher would agree to accept you as an apprentice?" Xu Shu poured himself a cup of tea and brought up the old story again. "Because...... Because Mr. Shui Jing ...... on the side, "Hehe, Decao is indeed quite knowledgeable, but this is not the reason. Xu Shu seemed to have expected the disciple to say this, so he immediately denied it.

"Is it because of Senior Brother?" Kou Yan hesitated as he recalled the scene that day. "Not really. Xu Shu shook his head, suddenly got up and walked behind Kou Yan, raised his hand to stroke her hair: "It's because, you ask me, if your parents abandon you in the chaos, who will save you?" Speaking of this, Xu Shu's voice paused, and his hand moved away from Kou Yan's head: "Yan'er, what you say is not forced, not sad, not wanted, it is not true." ”

Kou Yan couldn't hold back any longer, covering his face with his hands, tears snaking down his fingers. Xu Shu's words continued: "You once passed the mouth of Guò Feng'er and wanted to sue me, things are not as bad as I thought, if I choose another path, there will be a different result." And I saw the result. Therefore, I took you as an apprentice and followed you to Changsha, but I also wanted to help you see the different results that belong to you. ”

"Teacher......" Kou Yan whimpered: "Thank you, thank you, teacher......" Except for thanks, she couldn't think of any words to express her current mood. What the teacher gave her was not only recognition, but also many other things that she couldn't speak.

She cried uncontrollably, but Xu Shu was in a hurry, for so long, he was used to being with his mother, and the great changes in his family when he was a teenager made him subconsciously avoid women other than his mother's intentions. With no wife and no daughters, he suddenly had an extra female disciple, and he didn't know how to deal with it.

When Kou Yan was calm and calm, he completely treated her as a boy, and Kou Yan was always a man, so he was a lot less awkward. However, since that time in the Jianchang Governor's Mansion, Kou Yan cried in front of him, digging out his heart and lungs, he began to be at a loss, and he began to realize that no matter how different his disciple was, he was always a girl.

"Only women and villains are difficult to raise. Old Master Kong's words reminded him over and over again that the girl in front of him would be very troublesome. Where does the boy have so much affection, crying and laughing, willful, not listening to persuasion, saying the right thing and saying the opposite, beating around the bush.

Hey, I really don't have much experience! Xu Shu sighed and began to slowly change his views and some attitudes. After all, this girl is different from other girls, and other girls know about trouble, so it's good to take a detour. But this girl is his disciple.

Teacher and student are the second closest relationship in this era in addition to blood. He can't avoid it, let alone avoid it, he must teach her well, this is the responsibility of being a teacher, no matter how troublesome it is, he can't be annoyed or disgusted.

What's more, the more I get along with her, the more I am affected by the gloomy and sad temperament that she does not often exude. He didn't understand her past, why a ten-year-old girl was always pessimistic. Kou Yan's most words to others are: "How you are, it has nothing to do with me, I don't care." ”

But in reality, she cared, she cared that there was no one around her, including her enemies. But he only puts this kind of care at the bottom and doesn't let people see it. On the surface, she never pushes it. No matter what other people's decisions are, she seems to be okay with them.