Mr. Huang committed suicide by jumping off the building, jumping from the top floor of a hotel in City A, headfirst down, and smashed into a car when he fell, and the scene was miserable. --

We rushed to the scene as soon as we received the news, and we will never forget that kind of brain-filled scene. Yan Bin cried bitterly, guarding Mr. Huang's incomplete body and crying, and asked him why he chose to leave like this...... At that moment, any word pales.

The four of us cried, our hands clenched tightly, and we couldn't believe or want to believe that Mr. Huang would do this. Fate, suddenly, like a huge black hand controlling us, people are panicking, stumbling, and everyone's psychological tolerance has been extremely reduced. Disaster after calamity struck suddenly, and the dead were already dead, but the living were forced to endure the pain and move on.

And among our group of people, the most painful, the most uneasy, the most helpless, the most powerless, the most depressed and the most sad is Yan Bin. The end of that year was the blackest end ever. In that month, I watched two men being crushed by fate in front of me, I watched countless people turn against me and show their most insidious and cunning faces, I saw countless blood and desires hidden in the dark night one after another, I saw the cruelty of fate and the relentless pursuit of those so-called messengers of justice, I saw the despair after tasting the consequences, I saw the pain and uneasiness of walking on the edge of the law as if walking on the edge of a knife, and I also saw the beauty and kindness of many human beings......

Fate finally pronounced a judgment on us, the company was directly banned, and Mr. Ma's company also went bankrupt, but it pointed the finger sharply at us, Mr. Huang died, his wife and children have fled abroad, and the huge debt dispute has been unclaimed, Yan Bin, as a shareholder of the company, although he has a very small share, he also has to bear the responsibility of compensation. In an instant, he was destitute and in debt.

We are all unemployed, and suddenly there is nowhere to go, and the huge blow makes each of us extremely depressed. Zhang Hui and Chen You started a life of getting drunk every night again, Wang Ling and I got together all day but rarely spoke, and everyone pretended to have their own thoughts.

We pooled money to hold a funeral for Mr. Huang, at the funeral, there were very few people who came, only a few loyal subordinates in the past, Mr. Huang's death was too miserable, most people were unwilling to be contaminated with such bad luck, the former relatives and friends were able to hide, Mr. Huang's parents are no longer alive, Mr. Huang's wife and children fled abroad I don't know if he arranged it in advance, and the funeral can not be contacted, let alone return to China at this time.

The funeral was extremely bleak, and the atmosphere was so depressing that the whole atmosphere was unbearable. Yan Bin is like Mr. Huang's only family member and brother, and he calmly handles everything from beginning to end, I strongly feel his sadness and heartache, but even his comfort pales.

A series of tragic changes also diluted the little affection between us, and many times I watched him so sad that I wanted to go over and stand beside him and hold his hand desperately. But he pretended to be so strong and calm, like an invulnerable copper wall, that I couldn't do anything about it.

In turn, he comforted us and urged us to find a new job and start a new life. I didn't know what I could do to get him to tell me about his deepest vulnerability.

We spent the heaviest Chinese New Year's Eve in a thick fog, and no one had the heart to celebrate the so-called New Year, only hoping that one thing after another would pass quickly. This series of sudden blows is too weird and too sudden, everyone is at a loss, and the death of Mr. Huang makes each of us particularly afraid of sleeping alone, Chen You and Zhang Hui slept together, and I have been accompanying Wang Ling, we have spent this long New Year in fear and anxiety.

After Mr. Huang's funeral was completed, everything came to an end. I didn't have to go to work anymore, I couldn't even see Yan Bin, he told us to let him stay alone for a few days, and then he disappeared and his phone was turned off.

Because I was worried about him, I had insomnia all night long, I didn't think about tea and food all day long, and the whole person became very restless. On the night of Chinese New Year's Eve, I couldn't take it anymore and I decided to go to him.

I found Yan Bin in that small noodle shop, his hair and beard were very long, his clothes had not been changed for many days, and he was sitting alone at a table and drinking one sip after another, and his whole person was decadent.

When my uncle saw me coming, he pulled me to his side and whispered, "He has been drinking for the past few days, and when he gets drunk, he falls to the ground and sleeps directly, regardless of whether it is dirty or not." I really want to pull him up and go upstairs to sleep but I can't pull him, so angry that it's useless to kick him and hit him, no matter how much I persuade him. I fell asleep and started drinking again. No matter how much I tried to persuade me, it was useless. Persuade him, girl, for I cannot bear to see him like this. Ay. ”

After speaking, the uncle touched a handful of tears and shook his head very heavily, which seemed to make me feel even more sad. I looked towards Yan Bin, and his lonely back made me feel distressed. I walked over and grabbed him from behind, leaned my head gently on his back, he grabbed my hand wordlessly, and his voice was hoarse, and he said, "I'm dirty, let go." ”

I gently pouted my chin over his shoulder, and I said, "I don't dislike it." If you want to drink, I'll drink with you. ”

After saying that, I let go of his waist, went to the cupboard and got a cup, poured myself a glass, touched his cup, and then threw myself up.

He pinched my face as usual, and he said, "What are you doing here, stupid woman, live your life well......"

I took his hand, looked at him and said, "I'm not going anywhere, I want to guard you, I'm worried about you." ”

He also held my hand, squeezed it very hard, and then released it again, and said, "I've lost so much weight, uncle, hurry up and burn a bowl of noodles for Shu Hua." ”

The uncle replied in the kitchen: "It's already burning, it'll be fine soon." ”

He also noticed that I had lost weight when he was in the most pain, and my heart warmed up, and my nose was sore, and I said, "Today's New Year, I'll spend it with you, okay?"

He didn't refuse, so he said very simply: "Okay." ”

I smiled reluctantly, and I said, "Then you promise me not to drink again." After eating noodles, I'll help you cut your hair, shave off your beard, and change your clothes, okay?"

He said again, childishly, "Okay." ”

The uncle brought two bowls of noodles, and then said, "Girl, you eat quickly, coax him to eat some too, I haven't eaten much in the past few days, so I just know how to drink, hey." ”

I nodded, I went and got the spoon, rolled up the noodles and put them in the spoon, then blew them and handed them to his mouth. He gave me a deep look, then opened his mouth, and I smiled, and he smiled.

I fed him the noodles one bite at a time like feeding a child, and he didn't refuse, shirk, or feel awkward, just ate one bite at a time. Uncle looked at us from afar for a while, and then returned to the back kitchen with a sense of relief.

He took a few bites, and then said, "I'll come by myself, and you can eat too." Look at you, you're getting thinner. ”

I said, "Well, let's be together, then." ”

He nodded, picked up his chopsticks, and began to gulp down the noodles. I was indeed hungry, and I felt at ease when I sat next to him, and I ate all the bowls of noodles.

When the uncle came to collect the dishes, his face was full of relief, and he gave me a thumbs up, and I smiled at the uncle. I stood up and pulled him up, and he staggered a little unsteadily, and I held him up, and I said, "Let's go, let's go get our hair cut, shave our beard, and change our clothes." ”

He nodded and said "yes", I smiled at him, said hello to my uncle, and got into the rental with him. Then I remembered that his property had been sold, and he seemed to have said that he lived with his parents, but I didn't know where his house was.

The driver asked me where I was going, I hesitated, and he gave me the name of the place, which sounded very strange to me. I said, "Where are you talking about?"

He said, "I just rented the house. ”

Thinking of his unbeatable appearance in the past, and then looking at him now, I feel very sad in my heart. I tried my best not to show this emotion in front of him, but he said sensitively: "I have nothing now, and I am in debt." Shu Hua, don't worry about me, don't be delayed by me. ”

I shook my head, and I said, "When disaster comes, I fly separately, so how can I deserve you to love me." ”

He shook my hand again and said, "Stupid woman, you are stupid indeed. ”

I smiled and snuggled up in his arms, and I said, "Promise me one thing, don't drink anymore, okay?"

He looked at me, then nodded, and he said, "Well, okay." ”

We stopped talking, and I leaned into his arms, he hadn't bathed for many days and was dirty, and he was no longer the same man he used to be. The man who used to be well-dressed and very charming in his gestures was gone, and he fell into despair, from heaven to hell, and the whole person drooped his head because of decadence, and became very ordinary and ordinary. But I think this kind of him is more real.

He rented a very small house with only a bed and a wardrobe, and a separate bathroom. It can be seen that he has never lived at all, the house is scattered with luggage and belongings, and the bed sheets are not made, and it looks like no one has cleaned up.

Without saying a word, I started to arrange my things and help him lay the sheets, and he grabbed me and said, "You don't need to do it, I'll do it myself." Sit down and don't get tired. ”

I shook my head, and I said, "I'm willing to do this for you, or, let's do it together, okay?"

He looked at me deeply, then sighed slightly, and said, "Shu Hua, you really don't need to ......"

I didn't want to hear him say something like that, so I stood on tiptoe slightly, gagged his mouth, and didn't care if he had a bad mouth, I wanted to kiss him hard and give him strength.

He hugged me tightly, kissed me for a while, and then pushed me directly down on the bed, and the whole person pressed me over. I was mentally prepared, but as a result, he suddenly stopped and said dejectedly: "Forget it, there is no hot water for the shower later." ”