On the way back to the meditation room, I had a lot of thoughts. Thinking back to Yinyu's words, maybe I was too obsessed and made the original simple things too complicated, if I were to be the original "her" at this time, would it be simpler and happier than me.

People are like this, the more they know, the more they can't really let go. I live in the known history, but I need to face my own unknown future, and wandering in such sobriety and confusion will only make people feel more frightened and heavy.

Yin Yu said "believe me", these three words touch the softest place hidden in my heart, maybe he is really someone I can trust, and I do hope and need to have such a person. But think about it calmly, what do you believe in him? I believe that he can let me let go of my burdens, and I believe that he can help me integrate into this era, but the end result is that he is also a person who cannot protect himself, even if I believe in him, what is the use. Thinking of this, I can only smile bitterly and laugh at myself, my heart is difficult to solve, I can't do the trust he wants, I can only take it as a casual comfort.

Back in the meditation room, I remembered the table that cater to my tastes. Although I know that Yun Hui was originally the person Yin Yu gave me, and it is expected that I will always have contact with him, but if I let it go on like this, sooner or later it will become the most dangerous and uncontrollable variable.

But by my side, there is no doubt that Mama Pang is Yinzhen's person, whether she will talk to Yinzhen about anything, I don't know, but her loyalty to Yinzhen is definitely greater than that of me. There must be someone behind Xiao Shunzi, but it's not clear who it is, and it's not worrying. Therefore, Yun Hui is the only person I can trust around me now, if even she has to be the object of vigilance, I am afraid that in the days to come, it will be difficult to move an inch.

When I was holding the lamp, taking advantage of the opportunity to enjoy the cool outside the meditation room, I asked her casually, "Have you talked to the Ninth Master about my preferences?"

Yun Hui was slightly stunned, thought for a moment, and shook his head: "The Ninth Master didn't ask in particular, but when the Ninth Master and Gege were talking in the forest yesterday, Chang Sui next to the Ninth Master suddenly chatted with the slave for a few words, and asked about Gege's preferences and habits, and the slave felt that it didn't matter if these trivial things were said, so he answered casually." ”

Chang Sui next to Yinyu is the guard who has had a few faces, in my opinion, he is a cold and capable person, not a person who talks a lot, and he will suddenly ask about these things like Yun Hui, it must not be his unintentional move, it must have been instructed by Yinyu, but Yun Hui, this girl, was unsuspecting and told him. Fortunately, it's just some of my preferences and habits, and if I change it in the future, I'm afraid I'll get into big trouble.

I didn't talk to her about the morning, and when she asked about it, she only said that she was bored and wanted to go out for a walk alone, so I didn't take her with me. So seeing that what she said didn't look like a lie, she nodded and said: "Don't talk about things in the house to outsiders in the future, you should be the one who knows that I hate broken mouths the most, after all, we are already people in the fourth master's mansion, some things are unintentional to speak, and the listener is intentional, so you have to avoid them, you know?"

Yun Hui handed over the teacup and nodded in response: "Don't worry, Gege, the slave has been following Gege for some time, and he knows what to say and what not to say." ”

Hearing her answer like this, I don't know if she really knows what she means, so she took the teacup and held it in her hand, and continued thoughtfully: "Don't blame me for being suspicious, the Ninth Master is kind to you, I'm just worried that if he asks you to do something, you will be unable to disobey this kindness." ”

"Gege is too worried, although the ninth master is the old master, but he has never let the slave do anything, the anti-teaching slave must be loyal to Gege, and must not say too much and make Gege embarrassed. Yun Hui stood beside him and fanned me, his hand froze slightly when he said this, and he hesitated and said: "Rong Slave is presumptuous, and the slave also feels that Gege's mind is too heavy, the Ninth Master is so good to Gege, but Gege is so suspicious of him." The slave really felt a little aggrieved for the ninth master in his heart. ”

Not annoyed by her presumptuous words, he stood up and took the fan from her hand, and walked a few steps to the open space of the garden. The moonlight sprinkled softly on the clearing, I looked up at the moon and sighed: "How I don't want to live a simple life, just since I entered the mansion, I haven't lived a day of peace, and it is difficult for anyone to deal with it calmly." Maybe you're right, but I'm not at will. In short, you must listen to me in this matter, just be blind and deaf in the house, you can't see or hear, just ask for a stable life. ”

"Sending people under the fence is naturally no better than being in your own home. Yun Hui followed behind me, following my gaze at the waning moon. "The slave used to envy the children of big families for having brocade clothes and jade food, food and clothing, but now they know that no matter how good other people's brocade clothes and jade food are, they can't compare to their own coarse tea and light rice. ”

"Yes, for us, home is already a place that can only exist in memory. I sighed deeply. Her words struck a chord in my mind.

I saw that Yun Hui's face was also lonely, and asked lightly: "But do you miss your mother and brother?"

When I asked her like this, she nodded, and her face suddenly appeared with the shyness of her little daughter's family.

When I saw her like this, my heart moved, and I asked with a smile: "It seems that I don't just miss my mother and younger brother, but which other teenager has made our Yunhui fall in love?"

"Why, Gege is used to making fun of minions. Yun Hui said coquettishly.

The women of this era are early in the cultivation of these things, and I naturally do not shy away from talking about these, smiled and gently tapped her forehead with a fan, and teased: "Tell me which family, when you reach the age, I will ask the fourth master for permission, as you wish." ”

Yun Hui raised her blushing little face and glanced at me happily, her eyes looked very bright in the moonlight, and then she lowered her head embarrassedly, rubbed the corners of her clothes, and said softly: "It's not that I am concerned, it's just a brother next door." His name is Linghu Shiyi, and he is also a person who has received the favor of the Ninth Master. Now the people who follow the ninth master are doing some small business outside, and they can't take care of their homes all year round. Seeing that his sister was young, the ninth master was afraid that no one would take care of him, so he settled my mother and brother to live with her. Brother Linghu returns to Beijing several times a month, and often comes to visit, so he is familiar with it after coming and going. ”

Hearing Yun Hui mention the name Linghu Shiyi, he felt very familiar, and after thinking for a while, he suddenly remembered that the little boy he had rescued when he first met Yinyu was called this name.

It turned out to be him, and the world is really small. I'll smile. Knowing that the people you have helped are doing well is now very happy.

I looked at her very cutely, and asked with a deliberate smile, "Then do you 'like' him as an older brother, and he also has this mind?"

"Gege......" Yun Hui heard the meaning of my words, and was so shy that she had to find a hole to hide in, and her daughter's thoughts in her demeanor were self-evident.

Seeing that Yunhui was really moved, I stopped teasing her, but smiled and promised: "That's it, fate is a very wonderful thing, you can't run away, and you can't ask for it if it's not yours." There's no urgency in this matter, you're still young, and we'll talk about it later. ”

Yancui nodded with a shy face and said: "The slave has nothing else to ask for, he just wants to serve Gege for a lifetime, and Gegemo just dislikes the slave for being stupid." ”

"A lifetime ......" I repeated these three words, the smile on my face faded, my eyes were lonely, and I muttered self-deprecatingly, "How long?"