Chapter 37: The Responsibility of a Leader
The first is a matter of luck, as no one knows whether the rat's men will be able to bring the ship back in time, and the other is based on strength, but the question is, does the rebel army really have room to face another fierce battle?
For Charlotte, who had to make a decision as soon as possible, it was a real problem.
Charlotte's personality has an indecisive side (more of an emotional side), but he has no shortage of experience when it comes to making decisions in times of crisis.
But to tell the truth, in his nearly twenty-five years of life, he has never made a decision about the survival of an army.
This is different from taking risks, where if you make the wrong choice, you can sacrifice not only your own life, but also the lives of your trusted companions. What's more, at that time, he also had the power of death reset, which gave him the confidence to try different options.
The mouse and his companions were still waiting for their decision, and even Vivien and Lolita were waiting for the decision of their teacher, who seemed to be omnipotent and always optimistic and confident. The former recognized Charlotte's abilities and fame, while the latter was confident in the countless miracles he had performed.
Charlotte felt his palms soaked with slimy hot sweat, and he realized the weakness of his heart while everyone was waiting for him to make a decision.
Kathleen had said what he was, 'You're an arrogant mage!'
As she says, arrogance does not mean transcendence. Arrogance is the pretense of transmitting faith to others even if you are too scared to do so, and arrogance is the excessive conceit that is beyond one's own ability.
Originally, Charlotte thought that he was the first type of arrogance, but now that he may have lost the power of death reset, he realized that he also had the second trait of arrogance.
- I'm afraid to make decisions! I'm afraid to take responsibility! But even so, I'm trying to be like a performer in a drama, trying to think calmly!
- "I'm so arrogant!" Charlotte said to herself, closing her eyes.
At this moment, he couldn't help but recall the memories of the past twenty-five years.
When he was very young, although the memory of his previous life was blurred, he could still occupy the transcendence of two lives, the pampering of his parents, and the big tree of Clayderman, and he could always act arrogantly and wantonly;
Then, when the memory of the previous life gradually faded, he got another sharp weapon! Death reset gave him the confidence to challenge the impossible, so in the eyes of others, he was an excellent young man who seemed arrogant, but in fact he was confident;
And now, despite his obstinate desire to keep himself alive and cut his soul. However, it is impossible to tell whether the death reset is caused by Lus's soul, or by future determinism, or both. He found that he was afraid to make a choice at a critical moment, and the reason was simply that he was afraid that he would not have a chance to start over after making the wrong decision.
But if you think about it carefully, who else in this world can really have the opportunity to start over again besides Evan and himself?
From princes to commoners, everyone must be held accountable for the decisions they make. Maybe that decision will bring success, or maybe that decision will be sad and regretful, but either one is the most correct decision that the person concerned thinks is right at the time.
Having lost the ability to cheat, he, Charlotte Clayderman, would not dare to make any decisions for the rest of his life?
- Maybe Helrington is right, I'm just a greenhouse flower born with a golden key. But—
“…… Something has to change!" Charlotte muttered to herself as she opened her eyes.
Although the rat and the disciples were surprised, they did not say much. However, Elle, who had a heart-to-heart with the mage, seemed to sense his mood swing just now, and silently stretched out her fleshy little hand to hold Charlotte.
When Charlotte looked at Elle, this young girl, who was usually like a little devil, actually smiled sweetly at him like an angel.
"I've decided, let's take the first plan!" Charlotte's voice was sonorous, and she couldn't see how confused and panicked he had been before that.
Whether he is arrogant or posturing, he understands that he must show absolute confidence in order to give confidence to those who trust him.
And the most amazing thing is that at the moment of making the decision, he suddenly felt that the worries and worries that had plagued him a second ago were so ridiculous. At this moment, his mood was unexpectedly calm, and he thought that no matter whether the final result was good or bad, he would not hesitate to bear it.
Therefore, he did not explain why he chose the first option, which would not only be meaningless, but would only show his weakness and insecurity.
Now he is the leader, at least in this particular moment, as the temporary leader of this small group. In this case, whether it is glory or resentment, he must bear it all with one effort.
If you want to wear a crown, you must bear its weight!
In the nameless valley of County Gburn, Charlotte grew up once again.
There is no protection from the elders, there is no cheating plan, there is only the hesitation and anxiety of the outsiders before making a decision, and the courage to bear all the responsibilities and consequences independently after making a decision.
"I ask you, Charlotte. Is the king lonely?"
That night, on the edge of the deep pool under the dark underground, Zoe's lonely back appeared in front of him. At that time, Charlotte's answer was, "The king should not be alone." ”
"Do you think so? We're the same kind of people, Charlotte......"
At this time, Charlotte couldn't help but recall the scene of that night, remembering Zoe chuckling at herself in the seemingly eternal darkness, and then waved her hand and disappeared into the eternal darkness.
At that time, the sound of footsteps sounding in my ears as if it was gradually swallowed up by the darkness made Zoe who was hidden in the darkness look free and lonely.
- I don't know if the king must be lonely...... But I think you must be very lonely.
Charlotte recalled the back of Zoe's departure that night, and thought to herself.
- But I can't figure it out, even if you don't agree with my answer, why do you still say to me, 'We are really the same kind of people'?
"How long will it take for them to be there?" Vivien's question interrupted Charlotte's thoughts.
"About three to four hours later. The rat eased Vivien's anxiety once more, and he looked at Charlotte again, "Lord Count, is there anything else we need to do next?"
This reminded Charlotte of something, and instead of answering the mouse's question directly, he asked Vivien and Lolita, "Have you all set up all the magic stones I gave you?"
Vivien, who used to always show herself as a good girl, was in a trance, but she still made trouble and Lolita replied with her hand raised, "Report to the teacher, it's all arranged!"
Charlotte nodded.
Vivien, who was a little distracted, asked uneasily, "Teacher...... Do you really want to get to that point?"
"It depends, I hope it doesn't get that bad. Charlotte said vaguely, and immediately issued an order to the rat, "Next, once the breakout force arrives here, I need you to cooperate with me to lead the breakout force towards the crossing of the river." I will negotiate with Hoyle and ask him to send some of the dead men to assist me in defending my position, while you, together with Vivien and Lolita, will immediately lead the troops across the river!"
"Yes, Lord Earl!" said the mouse, who immediately answered, and hesitated, "you mean...... It's Lord Hoyle who is commanding the troops now?"
Charlotte nodded regretfully, his expression saying it all.
Viscount Austin, the former leader of the Resistance, is likely dead.
The mouse silently stepped back to arrange various matters, and although Vivien and Lolita wanted to ask for orders to snipe the Templar warriors with their teacher, they also stopped thinking after seeing Charlotte sitting in the center of the spell camp meditating.
- In the end, I am still too weak......
Vivien and Lolita thought as they looked into the distance.
Everyone was silently doing their own thing, thinking about the secret things in their hearts, holding back the complex emotions, and silently waiting for that moment to come.